Les Miserables

Christmas was over and I finally manage to take a break for a while before my next chapter of life starts. It has been such an awesome christmas and I will definitely post about it soon.

I am always very into musical movies like "The Phantom of the Opera", "High school musical", "Pitch Perfect" and etcetera. And "Les Miserables" has certainly caught my attention, especially when I saw Anne Hathaway appears in the trailer. I have to say, Tom Hooper directed the movie really well. It is all about christianity and salvation. It is all about how Jean Valjean has stolen a bread for his nephew and gotta be a slave for 19 years. God found him on his verge on breaking down and his life changed. There, he met Fantine who died and left her daughter Cosette behind. I saw many lives were lost in this miserable movie. Their voices touched me and I found myself in tears. God is so good.

I am gonna buy this DVD and make my group watch it with me.

I don't know if it is me but I saw many movies regarding God is being shown this year. Is it a sign? Yes, I guess so :)

Heart Broken

Weeks ago, I started to sense that something was wrong. It just doesn't seems right for both me and him. I never knew things would end faster than I thought. Yet, I know God has His own plans for both of us.

I thought I would be chill and cool over this whole thing. But it seems harder than I thought. I am heart broken. I am superb sad and needed someone to be there. Everything doesn't feel right for me. I am on the edge of breaking down. Why do I have to endure all these Lord? Despite all these, I still love You Lord. I know I'll get over this soon.

I just got to put my focus on Him now since You are the one leading me.... I pray for Your strength Lord...

A cup of Orange Tea

I was so sick for the past few days. After the movie of "Pitch Perfect" with Mommy, Daddy and Barry, I was sneezing like anything. I knew something wasn't right anymore. And I was right! I took two days off work. Yet, I didn't commit enough time to the Lord :) 

I had a long long talk with Jeremy yesterday over a cup of Orange Tea at My Liberica :) I am sure of where I am heading to and I knew this is gonna be serious. I was given a greater challenge and I really want to do it. God, you ask me to go higher and I knew I will not regret it.

Do show me the way you want me to. I am sure I don't want to wait at the border line again. I want my life to pursue you and I want to claim all these blessings from now onwards. Hallelujah!!!

When we get together..

Hello Selina...

You are back!!!

We chatted for almost everything and at long hours too. Although we haven't come up with a conclusion about my future, but I enjoyed talking to her. It is just a whole day of girls' hang out and nothing else. I wish the day would last longer but sadly I gotta go tuition which is a pain....

Have a good trip to Taiwan Selina and be safe!!! :D

Happy birthday Twinnie :)

I knew the twins back in the beginning of year 2011. And now it is almost the end of 2012. Well, consider it two years then. We been through a lot. From just their elder sister's friend, I became their friend. From just a church member, we became good friends. Sometimes we ranted about stuffs, and sometimes we just want to hang out. It is all good.

I haven't really put in a lot of effort in this whole connect group thingy. I was so busy focusing on other stuffs. But now, I think it is time for me to get back.. really.. time for me to pursue on.. 

Wait for me Lord. Help me to walk in your timing and space

30th November

Again... Today is the day... time really flies. It is almost three years and this is the 3rd time I will be writing about it.

Everything has come to an end now. Basing on the current situations, I don't think we will ever have chance to cross paths into each others life's again. I wish you the best of lucks. Stay happy and blissful with your current partner.

I definitely have my life to lead on with different callings. How I shall enjoy it :)

The end

After dragging Mommy to watch Twilight in the year 2008, we have never missed a single show since then. 

Finally, everything comes to an end. Awesome ending!! I was touched!I cried at the flash back... I can't believe I have been a fanatic of Twilight for so many years.

A thousand years - Christina Perri

Heart beats fastColors and promisesHow to be braveHow can I love when I'm afraidTo fallBut watching you stand aloneAll of my doubtSuddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everydaywaiting for youDarlin' don't be afraidI have loved you for aThousand yearsI'll love you for aThousand more

Time stands stillbeauty in all she isI will be braveI will not let anythingTake awayWhat's standing in front of meEvery breath,Every hour has come to this
One step closer....

The best church ever..

All these whiles, I know God has a plan for me. I know sometimes I haven't been obedient and lots of times, I sort of dies down and back slided. Again, He never fails to bring me back to Him.

I have a vision
I have a calling
I have dreams
I have desires
I have things I wanna do
I have needs
I have lots of impossible cravings
All these are possible if only....I have GOD!!

I am so so so alive now just because I know God is able...

Meet up :)

Meet up with See Ting, one of my favorite friend :) 

Why did God put me in all kind of situations? I won't ask Him why now because I know He has a perfect plan for me.

Hello :)

Connect Group was awesome last Friday and I know it would still be great :) 

Hi Tyng Liang :) Long time no see. We miss you and I think you grow slightly fatter. No offence but you still look good... Welcome back after one year??!!

Baby sitting

I love children!!! I don't mind taking care of them even when I am not working...but if it brings trouble to my family, I would rather not do it...

To me, I think it is absolutely alright to look after them...but on the other hand, I think I am real selfish because it is Mommy's money that I am spending so I feel it is alright. Dumb of me to not think twice before I promised others.... Sigh..

I am sorry Lord...

Little Princess Sherry

Enjoyed Public Holiday because I get to spend quality time with my family. On the note, the bad side of it is that I will spend their money every time we goes out. 

Always can't help going to the toys' department. I was browsing through and I saw this little dress which I thought it would look nice on my little princess. I calls her princess because I have given seven of my princesses away and she is all that I have.

Sherry asked me not to call this doll Princess Viola so I named it after her.

Say Hello to Princess Sherry :)

Blessed

Life is getting more challenging :) I have lots of new things to challenge and each is getting tougher.

2 more weeks to go and exactly one more month to end all my exams and stuffs. Then, I AM FREE :) I can really focus on working and serving God. 

I don't like scolding my students though sometimes they can really make me goes mad.  I just cannot accept them doing something extreme like stealing, playing truants, insulting people and using vulgarities. I don't understand why is it "Overboard" to talk or chat with my students after work? To me, they are NOT only my students but friends too. I don't give a "rat" of what the boss thinks as long as I am not doing anything illegal. They are too precious and I love them all :) I want to know more about them and to give them whatever that is within my capabilities. Sometimes, things may not be as perfect as what we think. To the World, they may seem fine and good, but who knows behind the scenes, they are broken-hearted, lonely and needed someone to be there for them? That's why sometimes, please look beyond the situations first before one starts making judgement.

On the other hand, teaching life is getting more and more interesting and yet a bit annoying at the same time. All of a sudden, I have a lot of sons and daughters clinging on to me. Holiday starts, and a lot of kids are staying back for the child care service and hence, my one and only hour of free time is gone. I can never be lonely because they are always there to make me laugh, make me mad, make me goes crazy and make me goes insane. Should I call myself lucky? I used to target my students and calls them my "Precious", my "Darlings", my "Lover", my "Boyfie" and etc. Now, it seems to be the other way round. I would receive texts from students saying how much I am loved and all. Perhaps, I were never a "Teacher" to them but a friend? A sister? Somebody precious? Well, I don't know. If I really want to be somebody, I hope to be somebody inspiring just like how Christ inspires me.

Father Lord, I have my life to thank You for but if there is something that I could ask of You, I want to know what is Your calling for me? What exactly do You want me to be? I want my life to be praising You and my actions to be pleasing in Your eyes. Give me specific answers please Lord :)

In situations like this...

Hi Father Lord,

In times like this, I really wish I could jump straight into Your loving arms and hold You real tight. I love my busy schedule. I really do. Yet, I really don't understand why Mommy is always so emotional. I know she is not feeling well but what can I do? When I laze around with nothing to do, she will nag and nag and nag. Right now, I don't spend as much time with church stuffs like I normally do, and yet, she is unhappy about it. What does she want? I really don't know. 

Lord, nothing beats the fact that I could feel Your presence. Today, I just merely pray and ask that You will lengthen the time for Darryl so that Lee Cheng could spend more time with him. You just intervene in his time without even waiting for me to ask you. Aren't You awesome? Even though many problem occurs, but nothing compare to this joy when my friend told me personally that she wants to get near to JESUS. Listen here!!! An unbeliever like her who confessed to me that she will never ever accept Christ the Lord. Now, she texted me saying that she wanted to know Jesus!! How awesome can it be?? Father Lord, You let me experience a whole YOU today and now I am praying that You will intervene in my schedule and in my mom's schedule so that it won't occur to her that I am not in all the time. Father, help me to do what You want me to and let me know that it is Your plan that everything falls like this. You promised me that as long as I am saved, my whole family will be save too. I'll hang on to it no matter what happen! 

I'll do you proud Father Lord :) Here I am, at Your feet. In my brokenness complete....

Love from your daughter,

Viola

Drawing Near

Sunday is always my favorite day. I need to confess something, as much as I do enjoy serving, but getting up early in the morning is never something I could handle. Especially when I did not sleep well the previous night, so I was kinda tired and moody when I arrive church this morning. 

Still, I remembered the sermon that Jeremy preached two weeks ago and I decided to throw away whatever emotions that I have and leave it outside the door. I will enter church with a happy and joyful feeling. 

PS: The picture above shows my beloved colleagues. Three months' not exactly long and yet not too short for us to get to know each other better. Good encounters will never last forever. There will be a day when we have to say Good Bye to each others. The day is coming soon...I wonder what kinda emotions I will have.

Today, It is all about drawing near to God! I want God to do something for me and not just for the others. I want to see a great breakthrough in my life. I want to encounter Him over and over again.

Here are the list of things that I want to see God's presence over it :-

1) The salvation of my family
2) For me to have more self-control over my time management
3) Give me a specific answer if I should or should not continue working in the place I am working right now
4) Give me a specific vision on the path and route I should take
5) Blessings over my beloved ones

God, sometimes I may failed you..... I can't help it. I am born with fallen natures and I can't overcome temptation as much as I want to flee from it. You are the one who are able to hear my out.... touch me with Your hands...

Blessed 23rd Dee :)

A big shout out to Dee, my dearest friend in Perth. Happy belated 23rd :) 

Sorry for this late birthday post. Just for your information, I know your birthday is on the 25th October. I never once forget that :) I am only free now to update this post :)

Dee, you are a great friend to me. I will never forget how you appear into my life during the lowest period of time when I was just alone and finds it kinda hard to blend in to the unknown zone (which has became the sweetest thing that has ever happened to me). I just want to remind you that you are a great person. You are daring. You are bold. You are confident. You are outgoing. You are friendly. You are just wonderful. You may think that you have your flaws but all these has already cover up all your flaws. Nobody is perfect and yet I think you are great. These are the values that I envied.

I miss the times that we spent together. It is always an encouragement to me when I am down. I'll never get bored of scrolling pictures of our past. I know that we are graduating soon. So I wish you all the best in your final semester and I know God will be there to make thing perfect. I miss you Dee and I hope that in every situations, you will always be the Dee that we loved so much. You'll never know that all these values of yours could be a life savior to millions of people out there. I was lost but God sent you to find me. Therefore, I thanked you dearly......

A promise is still a promise. I'll visit you all during graduation. And it is all set!!!! Greater plans from God will come in the way :)

Happy 23rd birthday..... God bless you :)

From Disable to Able

I always wonder what I can do for God since He has blessed me with more than I ever deserves. For a long time, I have been wondering what talents I have and what did God sees in me that He choose me to be the incredible. 

Life is always like this. Humans are always focusing on something which they cannot do and neglect the things which they could do. Just like one of the literature component for all secondary schools, I read this short story called "Flipping Fantastic" by Jane Langford.

It is a story about a pair of twins who will be leaving their primary school and going up to secondary school. All their life, this pair of twins always stuck around together. Of course, one of them was disabled and has to sit on a wheel chair. Both of them have their strengths and weaknesses. Their Mom, being very sensible told Tristan, the kid who is disabled, that she is not interested in what he cannot do but instead, she wanted to rejoice in everything that he could do.

I bet God has the same thought and expectation for all of us. Without Him, we literally are nothing. We cannot even do the simplest task without God's strength. What now? Focus on what we can do and be "able". God sees a lot in You if you are wondering why you are always being place in a difficult situation!! Fight your way out...

My life..

我又回来了

本想用英语来表达

但，有些事情还是用华语来形容会更好

 这群中学生的活力足够于令我抓狂
想到以前的我们那么的不懂事，我还廷同情我的老师
他们虽然调皮
虽然很叛逆
但他们还不算坏
他们只会来一点小小的反抗来证明自己已经长大了
他们有很多我不知道的一面
有时很难理解
真的。。。很难

关于感情
我虽然爱和他们开玩笑，
但我并没有认真思考过
万一有一天我真的动了情
那该怎么办呢？？
感情虽然好
但总是要有个距离会比较安全

我和丽倩很爱开玩笑
她总是说老麦是她的型
我也跟着闹说Desmond是我的型
因为他很酷

但我万万没想到
丽倩真的对老麦动了真情
只因为老麦的小小改变就可以让她失眠好几天
虽然很荒唐
但是我还是很支持这段感情
因为现在我觉得 "Nothing Is Impossible"
如果会觉得后悔的话
那我宁愿你去尝试一下
再决定要不要放弃
你们也许认为我不该赞成这样的一段感情
但是我尝试站在她的角度想想
如果今天对小八岁的男孩动情的是我
我也希望可以得到别人的理解
也希望在这世上会有那么一个人能够站出来支持我吧？？
我不知道
因为我没经历过这样的事
也许 “败犬女王”  的定义就是这样？？

某天
张老师问我
“我在想，你和老麦走的那么近，他会不会对的动情呢？”
我直接就否认
因为这是不可能的事
不过这只是我自己 的想法
我并不知道未来会怎样
坦白说
我也没有认真的想过。。。。。。
也许这就是女孩子丰富的想象力吧。。。。

Video taking part 1

For the sake of MCC315, our group came up with this idea of making a video. Hopefully it will be great!!!

I knew it earlier that one day is definitely not enough to take this video. It is super tiring but I hope all is well!! Mid term is coming soon and I am definitely not ready for it!

Wish me lucks :)

English it shall be...

Well, it has been too long since I last written my posts in English. For some reasons, ever since I became a teacher, I just feel like mastering my Chinese so that I won't be the odd one out. I guess I do need to improve on my conversations in Chinese and as well as to read more chinese books. 

I love musics! I love writing! I love talking! I love being joyful! I love and I love.....!!
I have my dreams!

No I am not merely dreaming but I am trying to achieve my goals in life. I WON'T GIVE UP!
Talking about "Trials bring joys", I do agree with it now since I experienced it in real life situations.
Nobody loves to be in a difficult and hurtful situation, but when it does happen, I would like to urge all of you to be optimistic about it. I was talking to a good friend earlier on, and we realized we have grown up along the way. I would like to apologize to him because a lot of times, I don't even have time to even to stop for a chat with him. I know I am a bad friend and I felt bad about it. Yet, he is ever so nice to me. I am sorry friend and I promised to be a better friend from now onwards.

This is actually a confession from the bottom of my heart. I've seen too much and doing my own self-alteration. I realized that most of the time, I am not being a good friend or even a good person despite the fact that I claim myself to be a disciple of Christ. I am trying hard to be.... until I realized I am worn out. I shouldn't be using my own strength when I know my flesh is weaker than God's strength. Come on, my God has unlimited sources. Am I not being a fool when God is there for me and I am not relying on Him? I guess I am really a fool.

I am overwhelmed sometimes with my current situations. Things are fine now and I know it will be even better if only I am willing to stop procrastinating and start doing my work now. Sometimes I wish I have a strong courage like Joshua who can command the Sun to stand still for him. I wish I could have such radical faith to do the same thing. Yet, I know it is not going to work out if I don't practice to have this kind of faith. I am given a lot of opportunities to practice my faith - in terms of Connect Group, LIW classes, serving in ministries and etc. There are a lot of commitments. Sometimes, my flesh  doesn't allow me to be enthusiastic about it, and yet, my spirit is always winning the battle. I am just so glad that every time when I am at the edge of giving up, God always lead me back to Him :) You are fantastic my Lord.

You will always be the same
Your love will never change
You are the everlasting..... <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
I love you Jesus for always being there for me

最近。。。

最近我很少上部落
也发生了很多事情
想要好好的感谢上帝
但来到这里又写不出来

所以只好留到下一篇才写了。。

快乐

为了提升自己，我看我这次还是要用华语来打部落 ：）

从上个礼拜开始
我的日子就很快乐
真的很快乐

虽然得面对很多事情
例如听到一些不该听的东西
撞车
粗心到忘东忘西
但日子还是要过的嘛

我的快乐来自于我这一班中学生
英文班的我不说
因为我才刚刚和他们建立起良好关系
很喜欢志彬，丽悯，Zhi Wei, Ivy, Jacksonn, Mei Yee 和 凯妏 的存在
我们是一群讨喜的人 ：）

我赞成丽倩所说的
你在每个地方肯定会有一个是你很期待很想见的人
她最想见的就是麦宇文
而我呢？ 应该就是那群宝贝中学生吧！（无论是补习或托管的）
尤其是有 Desmond ， 俊乐， 和雅琦 他们的存在
刚开始还真是尴尬
很庆幸现在的情况好多了
我也变的很期待三，四，和五的到来
因为有这么一群让我珍惜的人

跟 Desmond 那么久了但都不怎么了解他
他一向来都话不多
也不怎么爱笑
就一脸很酷很酷的表情
每次只会问他 “会做吗？”
或者是跟他解释时，他只会默默的点头
这就是我们之间的互动
完全不知道对方在想什么
而且还维持了一两个月佐佑
有时幸运时还可以看见他很勉强挤出来的一丝丝笑容
就是很乖很静成绩又好的优秀生嘛
但是近来我发他其实就像我以前所疯狂过的男孩
冷酷又安静的他其实一开金口就可以气死人的
平常跟我不多话
一开口就说我可以准备缩水了
看着他我不仅回忆起以前那快乐的时光
他的眼神勾起了我已往的趣事
我们一群女生都会有自己的择偶条件
有的喜欢可爱型
有的喜欢帅气性
而我呢，当然是看上伪装成天使的恶魔型
恶魔虽然很讨人厌
但你永远是他心中的唯一
只可惜幻想永远只停留在美好记忆中
现实可不一样咯
我会比较注意 Desmond也是因为他是我最看中的那一位
再加上他是张老师亲自转交到我手上的学生
本以为我不需要特别在意特别担心那小子的学业（因为他行的）
但现在可不行了
他的真面目就是 “我才不管那么多。及格就行了！“
我差一点昏过去
也就是这样我才惶然的发现
他根本就是个 “伪装成天使的恶魔”

俊乐呢？
本来就很安静
但观察力非常好
也很体贴
他会特别注意我的车又多了几条被刮的横线
也会注意我是怎么和学生说话
当我说 “你们最好别给我进党，小心我抓你们来打！”
他却说 “老师，你根根就不会打人。 你只会掐死人而已！”
为什么他会怎么说呢？
因为他注意每次我在唠叨Desmond时，我的手都会很自动的去掐他的颈项
这孩子很懂事
虽然生活在单亲家庭
但他还是很乐观
也很爱看书
他也会特别关心我平常在家是过着怎么样的生活
我们变得无话不谈

再来就是我那最好的朋友 “麦宇文”
刚开始跟我闹得你死我活
如今已经变成我最好的朋友了
虽然很冲动
个性倔强
脾气坏
每次破口大骂
但却很讲义气
也是让我最感动的那一位
每当我受委屈时
他是第一个替我打抱不平的人
他根本就是一个恶魔达人
天不怕地不怕
也是一位心地善良的家伙
看着他也会让我回想起以前的回忆
但只可惜故事的尾声我最终还是选者了“伪装成天使的恶魔”

每一个故事都必定有人要牺牲
而那个人往往都是那位最在乎你的人

这就是我的故事
我又有灵感了：）

我要努力掌握你！！！！

华语本来就不是我的强项

但，为了我的梦想，

我一定要努力的掌握它！！

你等着看吧！！

我每次都问自己上辈子到底做了什么好事
为什么别人可以毫不犹豫的对我好？
我明明就很凶
明明每次都骂他们
明明就受不了吵闹
原因不是因为我讨厌吵闹
而是厌倦张老师的投诉
我讨厌她可以若无其事什么都不懂而拿我们来开枪
我讨厌她一直很无奈我把学生当朋友
我讨厌听她投诉我的好伙伴以及朋友的不是
我讨厌她每次都逼得学生走头无路
讨厌的事情非常多
但，这不是我能够判断的事情

我的感动来自于我的学生
我喜欢听他们谈天
我喜欢把他们当朋友
虽然有些年级真的很小
不过这不会成为我把他们当朋友的阻碍
我不明白为什么张老师不能够对他们使用爱的教义
我不明白为什么她一定要使用打骂来解决问题
我不明白为什么她明明疼她的女儿疼得要死，但却对于别人的孩子能够毫不犹豫的动粗
难道别人的孩子就不疼吗？
难道别人的孩子就不会觉得痛吗？
我很心疼
真的很心疼

看到他们送我的画
让我非常感动
我想帮助他们
可是我现在真的没能力。。。。

最近。。。

回想起自己的梦想

我才发现我并“没有” 错过它们

 最近的我很爱看一些能够让自己“振作”起来的书和小说
读了很多篇感人的文章让我毫不自由的爱上这残酷的世界
我很爱对人说教 （虽然不见得很好）
也很感激上帝的恩赐
很庆幸我的“罗嗦”每次都得到学生们的认同
“爱的教义”没有错
错的是在于你怀着怎样的心态和信仰来使用它

从来都不擅长在别人面前教课
但如今，这对我来说是个很棒的回忆
我一向来都很爱孩子
从前从前，我认为自己只偏爱较小的孩子
我不认为自己能够和中学生合得来
当张老师第一次要我带 “中学班” 时，我是多么的百般不愿意
第一天就得罪了一位男同学，只因为他说我不了解他
多少次我得面对他那冷漠的脸蛋
多少次我得控制自己的情绪
背负着压力的我是多么的想拒绝张老师的请求
每个学生都有他们自己的个性
有的很安静 （问一句答一句）
有的就吵得我受不了
有的也很古怪
我到底要怎样去面对他们呢？
我甚至问自己是否学历不足够

感谢上帝让这位男同学被停学三个礼拜
他母亲拜托老师收留他三个礼拜
而张老师却把这个任务交给我
起初我是多么的不愿意
但我现在非常感激上帝
就因为有这次的遭遇让我体会到这孩子并不坏
他只是需要有人陪他谈天
当然，我也学会了怎样去对待那些各种个样的性格的学生
他们都很好
我和中学生的感情就因为 “麦雨文这小子的遭遇” 而变得更好
我变得更爱教学
也很喜爱这些孩子 （无论大或小）
当然，工作方面也难免会产生一些些的不愉快
比方说和老板之间的关系和种种事情
但，我领悟到的就是和上帝保持良好的关系
这就对了

学生们对我的肯定和家长对我的信任让我很感动
一句 “黄老师，你还会继续教我吗？” 就足够于激发我继续努力了
教导孩子不需要很高的学历
也不需要特别训练
我的秘诀很简单
那就是用心去做个快了的自己
若真的要秘诀，那就是 “用心” 和 “做自己” 了 ：）

JB S.H.E

“想念” 是难免的事情

因为一路有“妳们” 真好

她们是我的好朋友，好姐妹，好情人和我的好伙伴。虽然距离让我们不得不分离， 但可恶的距离不会使我们的感情变淡。起初，我真的真的很讨厌距离。在我最需要朋友的时候，她们不在我身边。在我度过21岁生日时，我最大的心愿就是她们能够陪伴着我。可是，她们还是不在。原因是什么？还不是因为有距离这两个字。

不知何时，我和距离成为好朋友。我开始喜欢距离了。我很庆幸也很感激有距离的存在。就是因为有了距离，我们彼此拥有很多属于自己的回忆。也可以和对方分享很多。 当然，最重要的是，我知道她们会一直在我身旁。 就算距离让我们不能天天相见，但，我们还是无话不谈。这样就已经够了。。。。 真的， 已经够了 ：）

有妳们真好。只要知道彼此的心理还是有对方就已经很好了。。。

那个女生

有这么一个女生
她很爱钱但又不怎么爱惜钱
她明知道赚钱很辛苦但却很爱把钱花得一干二净
她的钱主要消费在吃和她想要的东西
非常爱吃零食和甜点
想要的东西都是人们所谓的［没有用的物品］
［没有用的物品］ 包含了娃娃，音乐物品，书，和衣服等等
热爱书但又不舍得买

以其把钱花在贵重的书本
她宁愿买些小物品
反正书只能看一遍
但物品可以拿来收藏
她很爱逛街也很会享受
她是个很容易适应环境的人
她可以待在一个宁静的地方看一整天的书
同时也可以疯狂逛街
她热爱音乐
喜欢听慢性的歌曲
所以只要哪个地方时常播放慢性歌曲，那就是她的第一场所
她是个很矛盾的女生
她可以很挑剔
有时候也可以很不挑剔
她没有特别喜欢某个品牌
但只要是合身或看上的，就算是 pasar malam 买的她都会很喜欢

那个女生有好多伟大的梦想
她想要一个一个去实现她的梦想
她永远都不会忘记实现第一个梦想的感动
她还想尝试多一次

那个女生很不喜欢被打扰
尤其是她正在认真的看书时
或者是专心的听人家说话

你们有你们的世界
她也有她的世界
虽然很讨厌寂寞
虽然很享受和朋友们嘻嘻哈哈
但，有时候她也喜欢独自一个人享受世界

我，就是那个女生

我就是这样， 注定和你们不一样。。。

I love my Selina :)

On the same day itself, after lunch with Aunty Rosalind, I received a text from Selina Bear saying that JB S.H.E should have a reunion. I was overjoyed because it has been a while since I last saw her. And it is almost 2 years since I last met up with Hebe Ting. 

Unfortunately, Hebe Ting decided to go to the LegoLand with her family so we ended up "yumcha-ing" alone. We wanted to unfriend her. (PS: It was just a joke) How could we unfriend each other when we are so close?

I love my girls and I really hope JB S.H.E can reunion soon since Hebe Ting is going off to London and it would be a long time again before I could see her :(

Sweet Water

Decided to "Pang seh" the people and went out for a date with Aunty Rosalind :) 

PS: Not because I don't like you people... but I just wanted to spend time with Aunty Rosalind. 

So where did the four of us go? Aunty Rosalind is addicted to Sweet Water and she insisted that we all go there. We felt bad about her having to pay for us. But when we tell her that, she will be mad. According to her, blessing others is better that blessing yourself :)

What can I say? Thank you very much. Through you, I learnt a lot :) And I love you heaps.. Please stay healthy and happy.

Korean feast!!

Thank you Mommy for treating us to a sumptuous Korean feast!! We weren't expecting the RC gang to join us but they did. 

PS: I can take criticism but NOT when it affects the people around me. Just direct it to me and I'll be fine.

We had a fine time. We enjoyed laughing and joking around. I am secretly happy that we all can come together as one. It is not about the fun and joyful moments but it is all about GOD and His grace.

Vienna

Promised Aunt AJ that both Wilson and myself will take the kids for a day trip to Singapore. We are gonna have buffet and then a whole day of swimming and splashing. 

Buffet was worth to the maximum level!! It is around RM70 after converting but still it is worth. We had lots of Japanese tempura, lobsters, crabs, salmon and sashimi. We spent approximately 2 and a half hour there and ate to our fills.

Due to the weather, we delayed our swimming plan. The kids were impatient and disappointed. What can we do? Thank goodness, all went well. The rain stopped and we were mad!!!

I feel like going swimming again!!!

One day trip to UK FARM

During the Raya Holidays, Mommy suggested that we all go for a one day trip. When I was a teenager, I am very particular about hanging out with my friends...but now as I grew older, I realized spending time with my loved ones is the only thing I ever wanted.  I WILL NOT give up any opportunities of spending time with my family, not even if you give me the best offer ever. 

The place wasn't as nice as we think. It was expensive and I am secretly sorry that Mommy has to fork out a lum sum of money to pay for all of us. So I tried to be as good as I can be to show my gratitude. It is not about the place or the animals or even the souvenirs...but it is all about the time spent with my family.

If only time could be slower..... how nice it will be..

Ben's farewell T.T!!!

I was going to update about Kylie's birthday but I realized I forgot to take a picture of her and her Hello Kitty party. So I shall goes straight to Ben's farewell until I manage to "steal" a picture from Aunty's facebook page :) 

Ben is always a cool guy. I thought he looks fierce and he seems unfriendly during the first time I met him. So honestly, I didn't want to have anything to do with him in the first place. But after our first conversation, I realized he is an awesome guy. He is both friendly and helpful, kind and understanding! There are lots of times when I needed help and no one is there to help. No matter how busy he is, he will always leave whatever that he is doing and said "Alright, let's go!". I knew many people of his age, but no one is as mature as him. I enjoyed talking to him because he is forever figuring out on how to help others. I secretly wish I had a brother like him. I am sad that he has to leave and goes up to KL but I know he will have a better life there because the Lord himself is directing his life.

It is not the look that wins but a good heart wins the race!!!

All the best to you Ben. I know you will be fine...

ONE PIECE

I am not an otaku. I am not a superb anime maniac. I am only addicted to ONE anime. And that is ONE PIECE. 

I was overjoyed when I learnt that "One Piece Cafe" is opening soon in Taman Sutera. If I call myself an One Piece fan, I should definitely pay a visit to the cafe. I did! Honestly, I was kinda disappointed with it because it is not what I expected it would be. Still, the lady told me that everything is not done and settle yet, so we shall be expecting more surprises when we goes there the next time.

Go One Piece!!

Compass-ION

So many things happened in the month of August, and shame on me to only update it during the month of September.

One of my greatest encounter with God throughout the whole last semester was my team work with the Compass-ION. We were told that Campaign Management is a do or die module. It is either you do it or you fail it. Approximately 12 weeks before "Project Reach 2012", Miss Shalu called me. "Viola, I am sorry but I've come to bring a bad news to you. I have decided to close down your group because one student has move to the night class. And if left only the four of you. You know it is not possible to work a campaign with only 4 pairs of hands in a group. Therefore, I have decided to separate you all and move you all to the other teams in our class. " I was suppose to be allocated to "World Vision". I don't mind because at least I knew somebody whom I used to work before. But who knows, Miss Shalu decided to send me to Compass-ION who will be dealing with the "Bone Marrow Donor Programme". To be honest, I felt so helpless. I am not familiar with ANY ONE of them. They have already begun with their work and have already met up with their client. I felt like a free loader in the group.

As the week goes on, I am closer to the group and I realized, together we can all make a difference. Now, I knew more about the bone marrow and how a cheek swap can make a difference to all leukemia patients. Come on, to find a suitable donor from unrelated person is only 1 in 20000. Why not we take action about it? It is only a cheek swap and it won't even cause you your life!!!

I thanked God that our campaign has successfully won the hearts of many out there. We got the third place and all glory goes to God! Why? Because we PRAYED before our presentation as a team. Hallelujah!!!

Results' OUT!!

I don't come here often because I think I already have a lot of ways to keep track of my life. I have a diary to record, a book with all letters to God, and now, my blog.

I was so worried for the past few weeks because I thought I did really badly for my exams. Come on, of all my assignments, all I got was P plus or lesser than that. There's one assignments which I handed in one hour late and I failed for that. I don't really have confidence for my coming test because I need to score at least 16 out of 20 to get a pass.

And so, my holidays seem to be moody and full of worrying. I started to doubt God. I don't know if he will teach me a valuable to remind me what will happen to a person who doesn't make full use of his or her time to study when he or she should. I also started to wonder what if I really flunk in either of those modules? Which means I won't be able to join Dee and the rest for the coming March graduation. Which means, I will have to re-module again and spend at least $2000 per module. I have been telling God, "Come on Lord, give me at least a pass!" HE said I would get whatever that I request. HE said IF ONLY I don't doubt and everything will be done for me. HE said I could even move a mountain? BUT WHY AM I STILL FEELING HELPLESS?

I knew my results would be out within these few days and hence, I was depressed! I just told God, "I don't care whatever the outcomes would be like. If I were meant to fail, then be it!" At most, I would just try to earn that RM4k to re-module again. Maybe just take up a few more tuition lessons or so. Yet, my God is able to make all things possible. I took a peep at my results and I DID BETTER THAN I EXPECTED. HURRAYYYYYYY :)

Two more modules to go. Yes..TWO MORE MODULES and I am done with all studying!! If all is well, I will be joining my beloved Murdochians for graduation in Perth!! Lord, it is done!!I know it is.... You showed me how great you are and here I am defeated at Your feet :)

lazy

Missed my blog for nearly one month. Guilty but I am still lazy........

当教员的感动。。。

无论是在UER或以爱，我的教室里都会有一两个拥有绘画天分的学生。 每当我称赞他们画画很漂亮时，他们都会很不好意思的微笑：）以其说我是一位老师，那还不如说我像一位被宠的孩子。 

当我想鼓励他们继续画画时，我都会说 “不然你画来送给老师怎么样？”。 就这样，我每次都会收到很多张学生画的画。 而我都会感到非常开心 ：）我从学生哪里得到太多了。 我都不知道该怎么奉还回去。

这一天，靖棋一放学回来就很开心的跟我说 “黄老师！黄老师！我在学校画了一幅画是要送给你的！” 当我看了那副画， 我看到的是满满的心意和心思。我太感动了！！！

Black Ball

The first night he came back :) We wanted to watch a movie initially and even bought the ticket for 11.45pm. But after a much rationale consideration, we both decided to forfeit the tickets because we reckoned my Mommy wouldn't be too happy if we go home late. 

Ended up going to Black Ball :) And I love it. TARO BALLS WERE AWESOME TO THE MAX!!! Yet, I know it is not too healthy..

I love her :)

Always wanted to work in a field that has something to do with kids. And when I say kids, it is definitely kids below 6. 

PS: I still love the current job I am doing right now even though I am not dealing with kids under 6 but above. 

 I took interest in this child when I first saw her coming up to our centre and began to shower herself while eating lunch. Things changed when I see my boss cane and scold her everyday. I want to know why? She is only 6??!

I am not trying to indicate anything but a Christian boss confessed openly and in front of this poor child that she hated her and that she no longer can love her. I know a child can be mischievous. But isn't this part of a child's growing up stage?

I love her all the same because she is such an adorable kid :)

He came back :)

Bei came back on the 14th July :) 

Lots of hang outs after that, together with my family :) 

Gender Defender - GIRLS WON!!!

A day to remember :) 

We were being tested on several questions on guys and we won!!! So, a free ice-cream treat on us!! Great stories sharing and awesome hang out!

Blessed 21st Machi :)

I thought I couldn't make it to Machi's 21st. But when I know I can, I made Tyng Wei to help me to keep her in the dark. We made it. 

 It was fun hanging up with some of my juniors whom I haven't seen for ages. It was fun and we were silly to the max. Machi don't have time for us so we pretty much hang out within the few of us.

I thought I was being left out :( My aim is to take at least one self-shot with Machi since it is her 21st :) And we did.

Sometimes I miss having her around.....but we have our own life to lead. Still, thank God for all that He has done.

Blessed 21st Machi :) I know you had a great one.

Blessed birthday Mommy (4/7/2012)

Spent my salary on Mommy's birthday present. Finally, I am able to buy her a decent present which is a handbag from Braun Buffel :) 

Had a quick dinner with the beloved ones and we sang her a birthday song. It was simple but meaningful :) I love my family )

The awesome Brownie

Don't really feel like having anything but since Pastor so enthusiastically suggest that we should be really go out for an awesome dessert, we thought it is wise to not miss it. 

It was awesome but a killer!!! Imagine the amount of sugar and fats I have consumed. I need to burnt off a lot of calories...

It was fun to have a short gathering with the church. It is only once in a while..

I am back!!!

Just wanna say..I AM STILL ALIVE!!! Will update right here right now for what I have missed :)

..........

Dearest Lord,

In times like this, I really don't know what else I can do. You know I still need You like I always do. So don't ever leave me Lord.

I am confused. I am lost!!! I don't regret for being so honest. Instead, I think it is a good thing to always make things clear and not hide anything. I do feel insecure and I don't trust people easily. Okay, maybe not everyone but I don't trust guys.

I am unhappy...because I feel it is pointless if the other party don't even know me. I know he is already trying his best but by running away from problems, it is not gonna help. The problem is still there. You and I knew it perfectly well. I am waiting for Your instructions Lord. If only You could show me signs and stop letting me to seek the answer myself..

I am lost!!!

"And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise" ---------------- Chris Tomlin 



Yes...I do believe that there will no longer be sorrow and pain the minute You call my name. Call me now Lord... and I will rise.. 




With love,
Viola

The lovely students :)

I always wanted to deal with children....even though I know it is not suitable for me. I never thought of becoming a teacher while I was serving in kids ministry in Perth. It was until the last few days before I came back officially to the land of JB, my favorite family in Perth told me "I can imagine you as an early childhood teacher. Do consider to come back and further on with a master in early childhood or whatsoever :) " That's how it became a passion and I decided to give it a go. If you never try, you'll never know... 

To be honest, it is not easy to deal with them. They might be above age 7 but they are after all still kids. Come on, I am like 15 years older than them and yet, I still behave like one kid. So how can I expect them to be mature when they should be childish and naughty at this age. It is fun dealing with them.. and I do love the fact that I am now a teacher. It feels even greater when they are my "friends" and not "students".

It is tiring but I do love my job :)

Dessert-ing

Eric, one of my best cell group member has bombed my phone by saying that I have totally forgot his presence :( Of course I did not... 

Anyway, he wanted to pass me my long belated birthday present...and so we decided to meet up after work :) Wanted to go Black Ball but Eric said I've already been there so many times and it is time for me to have a change. So we went "Sweet Hut". It was good. I still want Taro Balls..

His gifts for me :) He already told me on my birthday that he has a present all ready for me. When I asked him what is it, he refused to tell me. I secretly thought that there MUST be angry birds since he said the present resembles me. And it does. Thanks for taking the trouble to decorate the box and attempt to make a bookmark for me. I appreciate it. ... :)

Blessings

It was nothing much but I reckoned it is a day worthy to be remembered.

Being blessed with a piece of birthday cake from one of my primary 3 student whilst some Primary 2 students gave me handmade iPhones. It was a special day because I punished a student and made him cry. I was feeling guilty at first but I still think he deserves to be punish. I am not going to put up with their airs and attitudes like princes and princesses. That boy forgets everything in just a spilt second and blessed  me with a bubble gum :) 

I had a love bento from Mommy :) Awesome lunch. I love my students and I love God. 

Cute Koalas

I always love handmade stuffs doesn't matter if it is just a simple drawing or cards. I have this student who is really good in drawing quick and fast. I caught him drawing during lessons and I was captured by it.

He decided to draw me a Viola Baby Koala and Ichigo Koala. So cuteeeee :) Kids are always innocent and fun to be with.

Continuation...

A big knock on my head to remind me that I haven't been updating for so long :( 

Anyway, on one of the Saturdays, I went for a chillax session with Aunt AJ at My Liberica :) As usual, orange tea and donut ring for me :)

It was good but I dislike the fact that I am having exam the next day. It totally doesn't rhyme. "Chillax + exam = not compatible"

....

Hi Lord,

I am feeling so insure. And I think I should end all these... :(((

With Love,
Viola

Heartwarming

I always wanted to be in a place where there are lots of children. That's why I agreed to join kids ministry when Wing first invited me to the Mother's Day event back in 2010. She hugged me before I leave Perth and whispered to my ears with tears, "I can see that you have passion in kids. Promise me that you'll join kids ministry okay?" I've been striving for it but I am sorry Wing, I can't seem to fulfill that promise yet because there's no opportunity to serve in kids ministry here :( 

Nonetheless, I found something similar to replace my passion - working in a childcare centre. It is not as easy as serving kids once a week. You have got to face them everyday and it is not easy to make them focus. Yet, I am blessed to have students who will fuss me around and they gave me hope to continue. I came back because of these children :) And God did do something great in order for me to make a come back to this job.

I have a student who always bring breakfast to the centre. And everyday I will disturb about me wanting to grab his food if he never finish it on time. One day, I realized he left his food behind and I questioned him the next day. With an impatient tone, he told me "I thought you said you haven't had breakfast?? So that's for you!!" It was heartwarming :) He was sharing his food with the other kids that day and I asked him "Where's mine?" Then he looked at his hand and said "Err...no more. Can I use these donuts to replace it?" I told him I was just joking with him but he insisted that I should take those donuts with me :)

Look at that!!! A child is always sincere and he touches my heart. Thank you so much. I will be sad when you leave the centre during August but I'll still bless you and wish you all the best in future :)

JPO

I've given my first time to BB - Trip to JPO. I told her I haven't been there before she decided to drag me along with her. She's nice and so do I :P 

Had fun shopping around but too bad, you are only allow to see but you can't buy anything. It is too expensive for normal student like me :(

Miracles do happened!! And I thank God for it :) You are a blessing to me and I do love you....