The sour feeling of my heart...right after Graduation day...T.T!!

Hmm...how should i start??...or i should say that this piece of blog should be written long long ago.but then..i was damn lazy to do so......and so..i ended up typing it yesterday.again(BUT).....something happened to my dear computer.........and everything was deleted.and so...i have to sit still infront of my computer today and typing it out once again........................
aiks...right!!back to the main topic...."Sour feeling of my heart"....
well..it all started because of "Graduation Day" or our school called it "Sejambak Kasih" which was held on 27th October 2007.!it was a tradition of our school.SMK SETA.to have it every year as a celebration for the form 5 girls.and to take this opportunity to express our gratitude to all the teachers.!i was the school photographer last year.so i was asked to witness this event.at first i don't see advantages and meaning of having this event.all i knew is that this is a silly event.wasting money and time.creating chances for those students to dress up nicely........having make-up all over,stepping into the hall.......receiving their certificates and souveniours...eating...!!of cause we think like that.cause the lower form will have to serve those graduating seniors.what bored.....

and so........this year........i change my perspective for this meaningful event.it is true that we gotta pay for it.but...............from the bottom of my heart..it really worth it.several days before this event,each form 5 classes were asked to make a video of our own classes.and so..we were all busy shooting pictures of each other.for the first time..i finally realised that i gonna say "good-bye" to this school soon....so i treasure every moment.go window shopping with my friends....deciding what to wear for sejambak kasih.it was really so great.
finally...it was the DAY!!the moment i stepped near my school...what a sight!!!everyone looked so gorgeous..........my goodness.i really must take their picture as remembrance...
our monitor took our attendance.although our class theme is known as "BLINK"..but i don't think any of us has actually follow close to the theme.there goes the same as 5A....with the theme"Glamourous".....
we were asked to line up in 2 rows....!why should 5B line up first whilst 5A were happily standing behind?we were shocked when those prefects asked us to take the lead first.we just followed blindly.as we stepped into the hall...gracious..i nearly cried.i can see all the teachers lining up...in rows..clapping their hands vigorously....just to welcome us.gosh...............we don't deserve these...!last year was not like that..!they treat us just like....hmm..just like TREASURE.!!
we sat infront right near to teachers.....then everything is just the same.speeches...,receiving cert..having great feast.just that..this year is totally different from the previous years....!!never did i appreciate our school hall as much as that day....and never did i felt so sad about gonna leave school soon.....!!we took as mny pictures as we can.....and the day ended like this...

now.......right after graduation day...i knew my days in school...are getting lesser and lesser....
so all of us stick together as much as we can.we treasure every moment together.taking pictures.telling jokes.planning about our future.it sounds so great.we ignored the facts that we might not have the chances to meet each other again....!!2 weeks in school right after graduation day...sounded so long and boring.but the facts is that i really enjoyed every single moment of all.

it lasted until monday,5th November 2007,which was our last SCHOOL DAY in SMK SETA.the whole day sounds the same.taking pictures.talking......and etc.until we were asked to go to the hall...for our last taklimat before SPM starts next week.when i found my place in the hall...whoaa...i was surprised to see my grandma(Hebe Ting)..sitting so near to me..yeah!!at least i won't feel so tension...!she was glad too.....wualalala....
Puan yeong gave us taklimat...!!and i was beginning to felt uneasy when i saw all the teachers who had taught us for 2 years sitting nicely in a row on the stage.........
it was 12++pm...when our penolong kanan,Puan Raziah gave us a short speech..then she asked us to go up on stage to apologise and to thank the teacher.i was beginning to feel sad.........

jing shan and vonne accompany me to look for our BM teacher,Puan Chan.she was the first person whom i wanna apologise to....for we really did her wrong.for eg...not paying attention in her class....,ignoring her....,upsetting her. by not doing homework...and a lot more.eventhough we creates troubles...but she is really the teacher that we loved the most...!!we saw her at a distance......then we crowded round her...!she shaked hand with us plus the word "All the best!".
i was holding back my tears...when puan chan suddenly say "Lee hong sudah nak nangis.jangan nangis"........just as that...my tears flow out automatically.Puan chan just hugged me close to her while consoling me.i knew she was holding back her tears.i am sorry teacher...but i just can't control my tears.........

then we went up the stage and saw Puan Lee(bio),Puan Tan(add maths) and Puan Yeong(physics).again..we shaked hands...the teachers were telling us all those words again "All the best.....i will miss you all".and just as i was calming down..when Puan Lee pat me and say "Lee hong...don't worry la...you can do it...study hard ya"....!again i felt near to tears again.
then i saw our club advisor..Puan Thamil Selvi....!she exclaimed loudly " Lee hong...i really will miss you la..the best president...!oh no...and our leo club will really miss you too....all the best!!".
i don't know if i felt touched or what.....but this is the first time i ever heard such words from her...
finally i found my form teacher,Puan Siti Mahani.she hugged me close and whispered "Lee hong..Lee Hong...don't repeat the same mistakes again.good luck and all the best.."i really couldn't stop crying now.they were all good teachers actually.just that we didn't know how to appreciate them.
i can see most students crying now..!!we hugged each other while apologising........!i really hate all these kind of farewell scene.we cried while hugging each other......really can't bear to leave them.............................
our eyes were swollen by the time the bell rings for dismissed......!!i was like pretending not to answer kelly and vonny when they called after me.sorry.........i just hate this kind of scene.....
but they manage to catch after my bus.and i gave them each a HIGH 5.then i can't stop crying again..throughout the whole journey home...!!it was really a crying day for all of us.

there is one thing i never say..not because i don't care.although i might hurt anyone of you unexpectedly..but i really appreciate the times when we had been together...sharing all our joys and happiness as well as all our ups and downs....!we are friends forever...i really love you guys.....thanks for being my friends........

to my S.H.E(selina bear,hebe ting and ella hong)members....we are sisters forever...!sorry if i ever hurt anyone of you...!!you guys know me.....!!we will always be S.H.E forever.eventhough gonna leave this freaking school soon.but still...we are the best.....!too many thing to say...but don't know how to put it in words...i only can say..........All the best...and may our friendship last forever...

to my P.L.K.N(pan,loh,kwan and ng)members....we will always be the fantastic four that sticks together.without you guys...my time at 5B will never be as fun as this...!!never forget all our happy moments in class and as well as all our jokes....!!may our friendship last forever too.

to all my buddies and friends...fang,yng,soo hui,sultan,cousin brota,jasmine,all 5B girls and as well as all my friends/tuiton friends or anyone...............you know who you are...(unless you don't treat me as your friend).
thanks for being my friends.and thanks for being a friend too.some has become my advisor.some has become my listener.some has seen the weakest side of me.some has been standing up for me.i really appreciate all these.thanks for spilling all beautiful colours of rainbow into my life....!!without you guys...my life would never be as colourful as this...

to my dearest dearest LEO's....vonny,kelly(baobei) ,fishy and as well as all my members....!thanks so much for being a leo.you guys has really earned my respect and my urgeness for pinning high hopes towards you.eventhough i never praise you guys openly and never seem to care much for you guys,but all i wanna say is that "I REALLY,TRULY DO FEEL PROUD OF YOU ALL"..................you guys did marvellous jobs.EXCELLENT!!thanks for being so patient and tolerating during my undertaking for year 06/07.i can't thank you guys enough.without you guys....Leo will never be the same.carry our leo flag high and do it proud.serve the community with true and sincere heart.gaining award is an honour for our club.but that should come in second.eventhough it is important...but we must at least serve with sincere heart before we think about awards stuff...!!this is the only advise that i can give you all.shine out your eyes and be alert towards the surrounding.what other says is none of our concern.the matter is..we knew who we are....and we knew our strength and capability.nevermind about how others look upon us.the facts is that...we must all bond together and trusted in ourselve.you know why i chose you..that is because i knew you guys can do it a million times better than i do.the conclusion is...you guys are the best and you did better than i do.so keep it up....ROAR!ROAR!ROAR!

to all my primary school mates./sisters./buddies........shi hui,sophia,kai lyn,irene,christine,siew wen,soobrinah,raechel,swee yee,paul,jiken,yue jing,bernard,victor,andrew,jaya,asrul and..................!!you guys are my best best tomodachi ever.......the best gang....the best class(6 ORKID),.greatest memories...!i really love you guys....remember how we once stick together when troubles occurs??......we never leave anyone of us...!i can never forget all our jokes and sweetest memories that we all created and shared.all this will goes on forever.i misses you guys lots....!we can never predict what will happen in the near future,but what i can predict is that our miraculously friendship will last forever and ever......................love you guys..muack... LONG LIVE SSU....and LONG LIVE 6 ORKID....

lastly...to my dearest dearest gua gua club.....i really love you guys....!!every single one of you..
you guys are the best.....ah shuan,ah wa,ah mei,tee hong,tee hui,tee en&....!thanks for creating happiness in my life.life has never been dull without you guys.i believe we will stick together for life...............!!jia you...you are all my dearest brothers and sisters.......!!i will miss you guys lots...!!

to all my tomodachi....all the best in the near future...may god bless you guys with joys and happiness as well as leading you to his path of glory....!!take care everyone...!!to all the SPM candidates...best of lucks...gambateh...we strive till the end.........................