Psalm 139: 16

Psalm 139 :16 says "Your eyes saw me when I was formless; all my days were written in Your book and planned before a single one of them began."

Many times a day I doubted God for things that is happening around me. Not that I don't have faith, but You just can't stop wavering. 

Search For A Star 2011 :) They looked lovely and cute while dancing on stage. I want to hear them calling me "Teacher Viola" again. Missing the lovely chatters and the never-ending power of these young kids. They must have grown up now. Hopefully I still recognize them when I goes back for a visit :)

Your eyes search the World
Over Kings and Queens
Looking for a child...Just like me...

Here I am
I am Your Child
Open arms,
I will serve You..

Here I am
I am Your Child
All my days
I will love you.....

My favorite kid :) The naughtiest and yet the one I adores the most. Apart from all those big and small pieces of memories, my fondest memory of Daylan is during the time when I have to put him to bed. I can't believe he chose to hide away when it was time for him to put on his diaper :) How cute!!!

I can take forever to write about Daylan because I just have so much to write about him. Thank You God for bringing little children onto this World. Children is our joy and our pride. 

You are the light of the World

You are the light of our hearts :) 

Psalm 138:3

On the day I called,

You answered me;

You increased strength

within me.

Once I saw this person who updated his blog several times per day. His reason is because he has deactivated his Facebook account and he simply wants to find a place to vent out. For me, it is more or less the same. I admire those who dare to update everything via Facebook or Twitter. I guess I still prefer a much more private nest to vent out my thoughts. 

I find pleasures in writing. It is just myself, my thoughts, God and no one else'. Isn't it a blessing? I think I shall do that all the time. Whenever I have something to say, I shall just come running to my blog :) 

Unashamed

I realize ever since I deleted everything from my iPod, "Unashamed" is no longer my companion who stays faithfully with me throughout my long journey from JB to Singapore and vice versa. Recently, I am missing this song a lot. It brought back lots of big and small pieces of memories. This song means a lot to me. It not only marks the beginning of my "Worship" journey with God but it also touches the hearts of many during my first worship leading :) 

It is pointless pretending to be all happy when I know I am not. Can't think of a reason why I am unhappy and I can't think of a reason why I should be happy either. Perhaps I worry too much? Or maybe it is just the emo season? I don't know. I miss the Murdoch zone. I miss singing (Always worshipping God) with them and I miss all those late night hang outs (Maccas, Utopia, San Churros and etc) . I miss playing "Wolfs" with them. It is just the game that I would play with only the zone :) I miss the fact that whenever I needed someone to pour out my feelings too, and there are bound to be someone there for me. I miss the cold and chilly weather. I find myself actually missing the student village as much as I miss my almost-home-to-be opposite the university campus. I miss those times when I would crept out into the dark with a friend and sneak into the Worship Center just to jam on the small piano. I miss the Worship Center because that's where we gather most of the time. I just want to take a stroll down the city again.....

Life goes on. Things changed. People changed. But memories remain forever...

Here I am at Your feet, In my brokenness complete. One day... I'll be singing this with the zone again :)

Jump then Fall

I am just so glad that today's presentation ended with good notes. Hopefully I don't have to come back to this module again (Which literally means I got to strive hard for my final paper). That dizziness, awful nose-block and the coldness in the campus building has successfully chase me out of my afternoon class. I just couldn't stay a minute longer. Hopefully, the lecturer won't notice that I went missing because I did signed in for my attendance :( 

Huey tagged me in this picture :) Love the effect of iPhone 4s. At least it is a lot better than what my camera can do. Took a long nap in the afternoon and my head is still spinning. NO GOOD!! Spoil my schedules and plans. Ended up watching the latest series of "We Got Married" by Lee Teuk and Kang Sora. Such a cute couple and most importantly, I get to see Dong Hae in it :) Totally made my day.

Recently, I got so addicted to the song "Jump then Fall" by Taylor Swift. Thanks to Nicole who introduce this song to me. I love the tune setting, not much of the lyrics though. "Don't be afraid to jump then fall...jump then fall into me".. I still prefer the music....

Psalm 130:5

I was sharing about the long enduring and disappointment of "Waiting" earlier on in Leader's meeting. I actually wanna add the phrase "Waiting for something is like waiting for the rain in the drought. Long and yet disappointing".

It doesn't matter what and who I am waiting but it is just long process that makes me lose hope. I want signals and signs to show that there will definitely be an answer of whatever that I am waiting right now. Lord, I am a slow and dumb person. Don't give me hope for one split second and it is gone the next.

I just don't like to wait. I am confused and sort of lost directions of wherever I am heading to right now. The Lord is worth waiting. Psalm 130 :5 - I wait for the Lord, my souls wait. I find hopes in the word of the Lord.

Yes... In Him, I hope and I trust...

The Two different world girls :)

As the caption goes, "Jumping from two different World <3 I wonder how we bump into each other? :) "

I don't care who and what brought us together. I also don't care who first barge into whose World respectively. I just know that I am definitely thankful that all these took place and I manage to bump into this girl :) 

I remember how crazy we are and what kinda crazy promises we have made. One of our silliest agreement made many years back is that Machi will definitely want her daughter to marry my son :) For some reasons, I always prefer a son more than a daughter. Maybe because I don't have to fuss and worry so much over my girl. Being a girl is not easy. I'll cry when the day she gets married and when she has to leave my nest :( So I would definitely prefer a son...oh no...I wanted TWO sons because I don't like the feeling of being an only child (PS: As if we can control this kind of thing) Likewise, Machi prefers to dress up her daughter and make sure she keeps long hair. Silly, aren't we? But hey, it is good to talk about this kind of thing once in a while :) 

We made lots of silly promises like agree to go traveling together, ditch our boyfriends if we finds out either one of our boyfriends don't like each others (Machi and myself). We believe friendship is hard to find. So I would rather not date that guy if I have to choose between my friends and him. Plucking apples in Australia is our latest agreement :) I know it sounds funny but I am blessed to have this kinda friend in my life..... 

每个人的世界里都会有个特别的人，而 “妳” 就是那个人。 感谢你成为我世界里的司机（当我迷失方向），医生（当爱情和每件让我重伤的事），乌鸦（阻止我太冲动和做危险的事情），白痴（陪我难过陪我笑），先知 （我心魔被解放的时候），和我最珍贵的嫁妆 （我最宝贝的收藏）。最重要的事，妳我不点头和嫌我们两吵的男人，都不准嫁。

The precious moments :)

Good byes are always hard to say. Especially when it is someone who is dear and precious to me. I dislike saying good-bye :( 

 I forgot how I got so close to Aunty Anna and Lil Jon Boy. I only have memories of me giving Jon boy a ride home whenever we are done with lunch :) Still, I love both Aunty Anna and this boy. They are such awesome and nice people. Thanks for all the encouragements and as well as crying with me whenever I am done. Thanks for the joy Jon boy :) Promises were made. We will see you both very soon :)

PS : Don't give us false hope. We want you to come back.

Despite the fact that I am a bit gloomy when I know it is gonna be Aunty Anna's and Jon Boy's last week, yet another reality brought upon me. It is the Foong's family last week as well :( Sob sob!! I will miss Nathan a lot. I enjoyed cuddling me. So cute!! Well, since they are staying in Singapore, there will be higher chances to go and visit them :) Thanks for the sweet encouragement as well.

Good byes were said

Promises were made

No tears but mixed feelings

And I know it is not the end yet.... 

Lord, You are listening. Heal me completely. Yes.. I am praying in Your name,The Jehovah Rophera (The Lord my Healer) 

永恒的星星

朋友就像星星。你不能总是看见它，但你知道它一定会在：） 

一起做伴

一起游玩

一起分享青春的宝藏

一起前进

一起转弯

一起想下一个梦想

在我难过无助的时候，你们就是我的魔力：）我们那数不清的梦想总是能够让我会心一笑。我怀念以前那些无忧无虑的日子，同时也很期待未来。回想起我们一起开始的旅程，我才发觉原来时间过得真快！我不知道我的未来会是个怎样的未来。但是，我唯一能确定的是，“它” 绝对会是我自己亲手创造的 “新世界”。。。

我每次都说我一定要创造自己的 “新世界” ！讲了那么多年，我才恍然的发现，我其实早已建立了一个只属于我一个人的世界 ：）

Pastamania :)

Speaking about recently, i am troubled with a lot of things. Need to find out which is the best route for my life and what i should do about it. Anyway, let's not talk about that until everything is settle. 

Abercrombie & Fitch and Pastamania has became my all-time favorite. Thanks to Gracie who brought me to Pastamania when i started schooling in Singapore. And thanks to Tze Xin who brought me to A & F and I can't resist that superb strong fragrance in it. 

 This is not the nicest model that we have seen but Tze Xin refused to let me take another shot of the model and her. We are deciding. I want that perfume!!! Will there be any sales? XD

We had pasta mania for dinner again. As usual, spicy chicken sausage with cheese sticks. Awesome awesome :) How about tonight? Perhaps we are heading towards NYDC again. *Big grins*

Meeting Mel for some catch up session later... today is gonna be a good day....

Savior

My buddy, Sufee used to tell me "Hong ar, I saw something horrible and scary in your blog. I saw lots of spiderwebs in it!And I believe there's a few spiders as well.." *Big grins* That's his way of hinting me that i haven't been updating my blog for some time. Cute right? Love him so much :P

Anyway, I don't have much encounters these few days...hence, no updates from me. SLAP!! I need to slap myself for not managing my time well. I am always submitting my weekly postings late. Thank God for Gabriel. He was my savior for today. I was troubled over how to do hyperlinks in blogs. Every methods i tried seems to be inaccurate. He was quite patient...willing to teach me steps by steps. Now i am able to link people's postings easily...phewwwwwww...

Been watching lots of dramas these few days. It was good and nice and funny. Enjoyed my drama sessions with Mommy. Can't wait for more. Gotta sleep now. Will update again when i feel like it. Good night.

PS: Please pray that i'll be able to wake up on time tomorrow. Can't afford to skip any classes again..

Surviving

Huhuhu... i am lazy to upload any pictures. And yet, i want my blog to be all alive and healthy :) So i shall update a superb random post for now. 

The girls and Jeffrey. I talked about him before in my old posts. He is our sporting and yet 38 lecturer *evil laugh*. Friends... don't betray me okay?

People, i am still surviving. I need to make a turning point for this final lap. Huge sigh... I can do it... :) Staying positive won't hurt me. I am a blessed child. I think everyday there is bound to be someone who would make my day :) And i realized i could do the same too. That's right...

No one..

I reckoned that you don't know i am thinking about you all the time.... 


Not being emo...just having mixed feelings. Reminds me of this song "I think of you" by Tata Young.

The chorus goes like this : -

I think of you
I think of you and it's gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay...
I think of you
I think of you and i am strong
And i know i can go on
Is like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you...

This is like my favorite song when I was in Perth. Something to accompany me throughout the night :) I have something to confess and that is.. i am SUPERB SLEEPY right now. I can't sleep... i have to do my stupid Marketing Plan. Hwaiting.... this trimester is ending soon!!!!!

The Unruly ride 2

Oh gosh, i can't believe i am such a procrastinator. I said i am going to update part 2 on Monday night but i  didn't do it. Don't feel like going to school today because i knew for real i'll wake up late. True enough i was right. Sad case isn't it? And also for another perfect reason, i can't stand one more day having to fight between "sleep" and "staying awake". It will naturally lea to a very very BAD HEADACHE. No kidding guys. I didn't have my so-called "Medical oil" with me so better not take the risk :) 

 Continuation for my Unruly ride :) After we were announced the winner for Starbucks, all the girls went mad. We were jumping up and down. Having to drag them all back to the van is a superb hard task. Even for myself, i think it is hard to drag myself in. First stop, we decided to have lunch at El-Migos. The pastas' there isn't that nice but still it has more choices.

 Next, it is time to claim our prize - blessing from God. The bill did not exceed RM100. And we love it. What comes next is full of laughters, fun, jokes, being crazy and cool fellowship with JUST GIRLS (excluding Barry).

Took a lot of unglam pictures. I was tired out but i truly enjoyed the day. KUDOS to all girls in the van. You guys did an awesome job.

Sigh.. i am still lazy after so many hours of sleep. Sometimes i don't know what's wrong with my eyes. It hurts for days and now i just felt like keeping it shut for hours. Alrighty.. no more procrastinating. I am so gonna get my stupid PESTEL done by today.

The Unruly ride 1

I have to say i am so glad that "Pack the Van" is over. We spend so much time working on it and guess one.. ONE salvation and a few rededication :) God is good.

 The van with ONLY girls :) Good job girls for being so cooperative... I love hanging out with you girls. Together we achieve more..

 Colorful Nathan and I. He is as cute as ever and he is so good. Just stay nicely on your arms and without turning around or frowning. Such a cute baby <3

The JJ PEOPLE!! You guys totally rock the day. Kudos to the only guys for the day, Alvin and Barry. The "Zai-est" team ever...

My brain just won't work now. Submitted my essay late this morning :( Hopefully things went well. I guess i need some sleep. Will update part 2 later on. Ciaozz..

NYDC

Herrowzz...i was saying that i had a nice dinner with both Gracie and Nicole last Thursday after that. We actually wanted to go back to the west but poor Nicole has tuition lesson. So we ended up roaming around Bugis junction. 

                                                
 Gracie and myself. Nicole said she looks exactly like me when she made funny faces. Hahaha.. i think so too. Thank God for this girl. We always encourage one another with God's word. it is so good.

Nicole and her fish-and-chip. This crazy girl is forever daring. Saw a hot guy working there and she bombed him with lots of questions. Grace and i were laughing and making of her saying that we will cause that guy to lose his job because he got so freaked out.

Overall, it was good. Had so much laughters. A gift from God to reduce my stress and unhappiness for the day :)

Your voice..

Taking a break after all those hectic moments and i know i got to get back to those heavy workload again :(  Oh no.. i shouldn't be sad. Hectic life is good..at least i won't have chance to wander off. Been wanting to blog about this "voice" last night but i crashed. 

I always think this person is really talented in singing. Whether he is in choir or worshipping, he is just good in it. I find peace in his voice. Perhaps this is one reason why he caught my attention ;P Though people always said he has this kinda asian voice, especially when he sang english songs, but nonetheless, i still think it is good. I personally think he sounds excellent when he sings in chinese :) And i am right. That's how i know the song "小情歌". 

I heard his voice again. Trust me..i am not emo. I just don't know how to describe this feeling. Sigh. Imagine you really love that song, and so happened you hear it being sang by the boy you used to like. I have to admit, i am confused with my current feelings. Oh well, i just don't know how to react.. but it was really good :) I always appreciate and admire those who dare to sing and make their own videos. Once i know how to post videos in blog, i'll share it with you all... (PS: Oh please..i really don't know how to share videos in blog. You all can laugh) 

Had a nice dinner earlier on with Grace and Nicole. Lots of fun and laughters. Will blog about that in the next post. Till then.. i have to go back to my reality :) Good night people..

Sun stand still..

You know what? I really need a prayer like "Sun stand still" right now. Outreach is coming and i have so many things to settle. You know what.. future is coming and i need to make preparation. Look at the list of stuffs i need to do by this week :-

1) My New Media Technologies essay worth 40% - due next monday 8am
2) PESTEL for marketing plan - by this week
3) Get done with my application form for Mission Trip - hopefully done by this week
4) Hunting down and confirming the attendance of people for this coming "Pack the Van" outreach
5) Brainstorming for in-house activities
6) Preparing for finals (Goodness know why finals and mid-terms dates are so close)
7) Differentiate between personal games and society games
8) Letters to God every night (which i skip some nights when i am too tired)
9) Got to really set my hands on the instruments (My teachers has been complaining to that i need more practice)
10) Application for enrolling to Korean language classes (For the sake of my future)
11) Last but not least, MY WEEKLY READINGS which has to be done every week. If not, you might as well not attend class.

There are more of course. But these are the main ones which i have to get done by this week. Arghhh.. anyone want to exchange roles with me? Let me be "You" for this whole week please!!! I dreaded writing my essay because i haven't even kick start with it yet. Oh my goodness.

GOD, i am not calling out for you only during critical moments but i need you ALL THE TIME. Reveal yourself to me this week... i am sure time flies and soon, it will be week 9....

Exam Day

I always dislike the fact that i cannot go to the House of Lord on Sundays. It is like dilemma to me. And yet, my school is smart enough to set our exam dates on weekends which is real depressing :( 

In conclusion, i got to get up early to go in to Singapore. Luckily Tze Xin stays in JB... at least it won't be a long journey. 

 Redhill is seriously far. Those amount of walks are more than enough to kill our fats. Yet, it is beautiful :) You know this kinda feeling when you are sitting at the top floor and looking down. Exam went smoothly. Even though i did not read, but at least those questions look familiar to me. Hopefully i won't fail...

Had a nice home-cooked dinner with Mommy and Daddy. We went to Harris for some books session. And i found what i want :) THE LITTLE PRINCE in full english version. Hurray...saw some Mitch Albom's books too. And i wanna buy "The Children Book". It looks good. Awhhh..but it is Expensive :(((( Gotta save up money to buy books :)

Blessed are those who fear the Lord XD

Awesome Saturday Part 2

Wanna see what goes behind the scenes as an ending to the awesome Saturday night? We all agreed that we should be studying the minute we arrive at my place. Who knows...the minute we stepped inside the house, i saw Mommy happily watching "You are Beautiful", a very nice korean drama. Immediately, these two girls squeal and hop excitedly. 

I showed them my little rabbit pig and they were even more excited :) 

 Look at Huey :) She was extremely and absolutely excited and she purposely stand in front of the screen just to wait for Hwang Tae Kyong to appear.

 Alright, we were all excited...so we tend to take a self-shot each so that we can set it as our profile picture :) Mommy was shaking her head while looking at us.

Ko Mi Nam wanna-be :) I love my rabbit pig. I am so glad that i let you fly all the way from Perth and back to JB Land with me. I was reluctant in the first place but i am glad i did :)

It was awesome!!!!!!!!! I ended up not studying at all cause i was crashed immediately after the show...

God bless me

Awesome Saturday Part 1

I was suppose to study for my Prof Com throughout the weekend, but unfortunately i was being occupied by activities. Elvin organized a workshop for the JB Worship Team in Singapore. So, early in the morning, the 5 of us went in to Singapore. We were late of course. We are sorry but we will try to be punctual next time...

 We were so tired and excited that we can't help taking pictures. A lot of passer-bys thought we were aliens. They were staring at us non-stop.

 Everything went well. I am glad that this time round, i really did learnt something rather than wasting time going in and learning nothing. Baby Nathan is so cute. Can't help cuddling him. Though he is heavy, but he is cuddly...

 By the time we arrived JB, it is already late evening. Time for dinner. After so many harrrr and hmmmm.. we decided to go MCDONALD'S!!! Hurrayyy..my all-time favorite!!

For some reasons, Mcd never fails to cheer me up. It brought back a lot of memories. Last time when i am moody or sad, that is the only place i will go. My friends will always know where am i whenever i am not in the mood :)

The boys were competing Daytona in the Arcade. We had a good laugh ..or i should say i enjoyed laughing at them.

By the time we head back home, it was around 9.30pm. Long but fun day... will continue in part 2 :)

Connect Group...

Herrowzzz World, i was being lazy for the past few days. Nothing special aye? Anyway, we had our weekly meeting on Friday. It was a simple and yet meaningful meeting. I skipped my self-study session for the day and i went straight home.....Honestly speaking, i was so sleepy and so happened, the rain makes me sleepier. 

But i was so touched when i open the fridge and realized Mommy has already prepared everything to cook a feast for me T.T!! I have the best Mom in the World XD

 Be jealous :) This is the best Macaroni i ever had. Mom has never cook this before and it was her first time. Yet, it is way better than my skill..

 This is her first attempt too. Now, Alvin was the one who first cooked it for us. She only tasted it once and she remembers the taste. I was touched when i see that she printed out the recipe i emailed to her and she actually took the trouble to do research about it.

 Garlic bread made by Mommy too :) It goes well with the baked bean stew she made. She is making everyone very happy for we all loved pasta...

 I set a rule for our connect group. Those who did not bring their bibles will have to contribute to our "The First Fund". Luckily i have more than enough bibles at home. There you go. Have a look at my collection of pink bibles.

 Pink bible no 2. Machi was holding my very very first bible. It carries my best memories ever :)

Pink bible no 3 :) This is the current bible i am using right now. I bought it thinking it is small and compact enough. But i was wrong. I finds it a little too big and i am thinking of getting another small one. Complicated me!!!!

Connect Group rawkz!! I always love Fridays because i get to be with the loveliest people XD God bless us all..

The greatness of Our God

There is nothing that could ever separate us
There is nothing that could ever separate us from your love
No Life, No death of this i am convinced
To you my God are greater still

No Sky contains, no doubt restrains
All you are, the greatness of our God
I spend my life to know, and i am far from close
To all you are, the greatness of our God

Yes God... in my life, there is NO ONE greater than you. I spend my life to know and i am far from close. I am weak but you are strong. Lead me steadfastly and never let me go...

Motivation

Herrowz World :)

Meeting up with Christa on the first day of March brought back lots and lots of sweet memories from Perth. It was great knowing that every single beloved ones from the zone is leading their own life and most of them have chosen the right path. Hang in there people.. God is definitely with you XD

I love the fact that i am a memory keeper and i love nothing better than to sit, stare and reminisce over stories that has been told to me, special encounters with different people, past memories despite it being sweet or bitter, and a lot more. Even better, Praise the Lord that all these stories can act as an encouragement and motivation to people out there.

A friend of mine is troubled over something and i know it is not going to be easy to comfort him. I ended up telling him stories and sermons from Pastor Patrick. I was praying to God for wisdom and right words to speak. Everything went well.....and i am glad that those stories which i remembered so vividly can be a motivation to someone today :) I like this feeling....

When i speak of the word "Excited"... do i really mean it? Well i don't know but i guess i do. Just that i can't seem to hype up when i know i have a paper coming up this Sunday. Dang... again i can't be in the House of Lord. Why are you doing this to me? Sigh...