February

Sometimes, inspiration just comes and i will have lots of meaningful lyrics popping on my mind. Praise God again for such wonderful meeting. To be exact, thank God for revealing Himself to me during the worship session just now. Felt the holy spirit moving within me. I wouldn't mind worshipping Him all night. 

I was talking to someone just now and she shared a great testimony with me. PRAISE THE LORD!! If possible, i really felt like giving up on her but thank God i didn't do that. From a stubborn person, she starts doing her devotional time and God is by her side. She was moved by God's grace :)

That conversation led me to my own thoughts. Why am i so impatient with my mum at times? I am willing to spend hours listening to a friend's talking and yet i can't even spend some time talking nicely to my own mommy and daddy. When i think about it, i wasn't the only one facing this kinda problem. In fact everyone is struggling in this area too. Why? That's because they are the person whom we loved most. Just because we love them too much, that's why we don't mind showing our true self to them. Whereas while we are at outside, we can't possibly throw tantrums and speak what we like (though i often does that) because that would really spoil our reputation. Back at home, who cares? I am free to act like myself!!But will our parents forsake us just because we are rude and impatient? No they won't. In fact, they loved us even more...

There goes the same for God. Most of the time, we are disobedient....and is often rebellious towards Him. But did He care? Oh yes He does. Did He punish us? Of course He does. Did He forsake us? NOPE He doesn't. No matter how we failed Him, and no matter what i did, He still blesses me with all that i need EVERY SINGLE DAY. I know He loves me, that's why sometimes, i tend to take His grace and mercy for granted. I know He will remembers my sins no more...

Thank You Jesus
I just want to lift your name on high
I just want to lean on you this day
O' Father would you let me be the one to search your heart :)

February is here :) And i am glad i'll be meeting a few of my family members from Perth :) YAYYYY... can't wait to catch up. What a good start to February :) But wait...i gotta go through all stupid lessons first :(

Hypocrisy

Alright....this is sort of like a venting short post because it doesn't feel good to be woke up when you know you just fell asleep some time ago. I didn't had a good sleep all thanks to those firecrackers. (Not blaming anyone here but that's just the cause)

Honestly speaking, i won't be a hypocrite and tries to show that i love doing house chores because i dislike it to the core. I have no idea why my house is seemingly huge to me right now. Just when i have a tight schedule, i really don't like it when my mum keeps on pushing me to do this and that. It just gets on my nerves. I'll do it when i feel like it - That's my style!! I am not a particular cleanliness freak like her because she can do house chores everyday and still thinks it is dirty. But to me, i would do it maybe twice a week, knowing that it is NOT that dirty. Spot the difference?

This trimester seems pretty tough to me. Not only i am having a ridiculous schedule, but i seem to be having problem coping it as well. It really puts me off when i think of the long journey back to Singapore.... O Please.. i wanna get everything done.

Sweet sweet sound :)

I was searching for songs via YouTube and i realized there aren't much songs in my iPod. Humans are complicated. Sometimes it is so hard not to go according to your mood regarding what you would love to listen to that day :) There goes the same for me and hence i deleted all my previous songs (not my type of songs anyway) and sync only worship songs in it. Call me old-fashioned but i love listening to oldies and also slow songs. 

My old "Fujitsu" has died before me and i arrived at a point when i have to delete all my precious folders in it...therefore i lost all those nice songs :( Come to think of it, Singing has been one of the greatest "building relationship" hobby i ever had. All my friends love singing...therefore i don't need to go through some hard process to get closer to them :) I thought of those old songs like S.H.E, Carpenters, Backstreet boys and etc. Compared to those Kpop and Jpop that i love, those songs are more meaningful. Not to say i don't like songs of today, but songs from yesterday just carries MORE meaning. 

I was listening to庆幸有你爱我by 蔡淳佳just now. It was so good. I really love her voice. Listening to it reminds me of those nice songs (Okay, to be exact, my favorite songs) in my "sleeping hard disc". Can't wait to copy them to my iPod :) There are a lot of meanings and certain characters to certain songs that i like :) For instance, all S.H.E's songs represent my beloved Selina Bear and Hebe Ting. 

“我一直都在” 让我想起了他。中学时期苦苦单恋着“他”的我 ：）读女中的我是通过社团才认识他的。若要把我们的故事写成小说，我会把它取名为 －那些年，我单恋的男孩之被封锁的爱。每当我沉迷在一首歌时，我的好姐妹都会问我，“喂，我很想知道这首歌背后的主角是谁？” 我都会傻傻的看着她们说 “什么主角？想太多！！本公主我只是纯粹觉得这首歌很好听吧了。” “你少来了！别以为我们不知道你肯定是在想着哪位王子了！！” 她们总是这样回答我 ：）想回头，其实还挺怀念那些日子。或许现在的我没什么机会再次体会到那些年的心情了，但，我永远都不会忘记当是那段单纯又珍贵－“单恋着他的心情”。 这是每个女孩都会体会的心情吧。。。。

从纯纯的欣赏转变成喜欢，更喜欢，疯狂的喜欢，慢慢造成了无谓的难过以及心痛。即使再怎么喜欢，我就是不敢说出口。虽然说，告白后不一定会成功，但至少我得把握机会吧！我没做到！！我选者了逃避。。。错过可以表达的机会，选者继续单恋着他的同时，我也选者了放弃。我太单纯。。。放弃并没有很简单。我还是得花上很多年的时间来测底放下有关他的回忆。很难，也很痛苦！！即使几年后的我第一次接受一个人的追求，我还是摆脱不了他的影子。我忘不了，也不想忘记。也许，我还在寻找那一丝丝的希望吧。。。。

我选者放弃一位真心为我付出的男孩。原因有很多－比方说，性格合不来等等。但最重要的是，他并不是我在寻找的那一位。有时后，人就是这样。宁愿去守护一段不可能会发生的奇迹。原以为我永远都会活在痛苦里。但，我还是走出来了！！我真正能放下的原因？？是因为我爱上了耶稣 ：）没人比他更爱我了。所以我才能微笑着说 “我一定能做到！” 

即使放下了，我偶尔还会想起他。原来就算你走出了过去，在你心里最深处还是有着他的回忆。因为我是真心喜欢过他。。。。

我一直都在 
你身後等待 
等你有一天 回過頭看我 
我的笑送給你希望你快樂 
妳的難過都給我 
關於你的一切我都好好收藏著 
我一直都在 
你身後等待 
等你有一天 能感覺到我 
就算我再你世界渺小像一顆塵埃 
我也會給你我所有的光和熱 

我很怀念当年的那份心情，有苦有甜，有酸又有咸。坠入单恋爱河的开时 － 我才16岁。。。。。

Dream

Praise God for a great meeting last night :) I enjoyed the time with the boys and Hui Xian. Thank God for the Holy Spirit who led me throughout the whole lesson. It was indeed a great night. 

Alvin and i were planning to play use two instruments for worship - Violin and Guitar :) We are still trying. No doubt it is a cool thing :) Perhaps someday we can include piano in as well. That would be perfect :)

Now, why did i ever thought of giving up music? It is not that i am dreaming to become one of the greatest performers nor play like Nodame Cantabille. But in the least, at least i hang on to that passion. Playing because God wants me to and not the least for myself. I am not an excellent Violinist, nor a great Pianist...and not even a standard Guitarist. Attending cell group makes me feel that learning music is a way to serve God too ..especially through worship.

And i say, i am not gonna give up... even though sometimes i get frustrated, especially learning new pieces and especially during times when i can't get the tune right. Oh well, all these are part of the learning process. No one say learning something is easy...

頑張ってください！！私はあきらめるつもりはありません

Waiting

Sometimes, waiting for you is like waiting for the rain in a drought. Long and yet disappointing. Still..i am not gonna give up searching for you. It may be long and it may be really suffering but on the other hand, it gets to master my patience and tolerance.

I'll wait for you.. whatsoever or whosoever it is to come...

Sitting and reminiscing

Hi World :) It is New Year Day 3. So far, everything has been pretty exciting. You just had to wait patiently for me to upload those pictures and i am not going to do it until i goes back to JB. Or to be exact, until i collect them all. I am someone who loves to record every single details of my life. Sort of like a "Memory Keeper". I met a pair of couple during my Korea trip in year 2009, and they just wouldn't stop taking pictures of Kelnice and myself even though we just met each other. Out of curiosity, i asked them why. And he spoke to me gently "You know, when you are in old age, there is nothing but photos to help you to recall everything. People might not believe what you say or you don't even remember anything. But at the end of the day, the photos which you have taken is your one and only evidence". And they urged me to take as many pictures as i can :) How i misses them....

 I found it to be true. Now that i am back from Perth, the only thing i can do to reminisce whatever memories i had there is to browse through all the pictures i took there. I just loved looking at those pictures my friends tagged me in. Look at the picture above, that was my first photo shoot by Raphy :) I was a really shy girl at that time and i really couldn't smile to the camera. And hence all the comments given to me is to smile more :)  He was planning to capture the loneliness and peace of a girl reading the bible. And there i am sitting on the green grass, finding my relationship with God :) A good memory for me which makes me think i need to hire a personal photographer to capture my whole life for me :) PS: Maybe i should really consider hiring one.

Sometimes, reminiscing over the past and recalling all those ups and downs, failures and obstacles doesn't mean that i can't move on. You just got to remember that those were the reasons why you are shaped into who you are today. Those were the reasons why you are able to move on to become a stronger person. Those days when i am not familiar with the beloved zone yet, i always thought how i wish i could stay back in JB with my Mommy and Daddy, and without having to overcome my shyness and the lack of confident in me.  When i have to make that dreadful decision to come back, i felt so unwilling and extraordinary pain because i know the minute i touched down JB, i have got to stand alone, leaving my comfort zone and to face the reality that i can only can viral supports from my family in Perth. That's when i realized, a person should not only hope to remain at the same stage and pace all the time. You just need to move on when your time is up :) And my God did help me to overcome that "impossible" within me...

When i think i don't have the strength to do something, God always proves me wrong. He somehow always manage to encourage me through someone. The best key to unlock all your obstacles is to "Let go".   My definition of "Let go" is not to encourage you to let go completely and not to think of it anymore. It is just that sometimes we just got to accept the fact that we can't go back to the past and things will never be the same again. Instead of dwelling in the past and being caught in the cage, why not we just set ourselves free and fly out of our comfort zone using our own wings? Jesus set me free by dying for me on the cross, and likewise, i also got to set myself free by flying out from the past. Sometimes, i could even use my own wings and to fly back to the past to see how much i've grown :)

:) I am free....

Best gathering ever....

Herrow People, once again i got to keep on updating because of my laziness :) We had our Chinese New Year connect group meeting last friday and it was splendid. It is a pity that not all members are present but it was still awesome. 

 I love these people. Why did i say this was the best gathering ever? That's because the presence of God is too strong that night. I can feel God wrapping His arms around each of us who weary and each of us who are broken-hearted.

I imagined the number of things i could do if i don't have to lead a connect group every friday. But the fact is, i WANT this connect group. It won't kill to just spend time with the Lord. After all, we belong to Him.

Thank you for the wonderful blessings. It really meant a lot to me :) You guys are really awesome to the max. I pray that you will continue to place your trust in the Lord believing Him for more.

Dearest Father, i may be confused for i don't know where You'll lead me to in future. I am all worked out and anxious because i don't have the slightest vision on what i will become in the near future. But all i can say is that i can feel Your presence so close to me. I can feel Your arms wrapping around me when i am down. I don't want to be emotional because i know how much you would love to see me smile. I thank you for all those blessings that you have blessed me with. I don't deserved it but You are just too gracious and forgiving. Now, i can say it out loud with full confident that i will be patient as i wait upon Your call and directions. Where You lead me, i'll follow....

With love,
Viola

Happy Dragon Year :)

Hi World, first of all, HAPPY DRAGON YEAR to all. Hope your new year is as great as mine. To be honest, my new year started like 2 weeks ago when i had my first "Yu sheng" with Aunty Rosalind and the boys. (PS: Long story but i am glad i made the right decision. Sometimes, your small action can mean a lot to other people ) 

 My cousin and myself. She is a mystery girl to me. Hardly get the chance to talk to her because she is too quiet. When i think to myself, how can i have the right to get to know and help people outside if i couldn't even understand my own cousin? Well, there is always a chance to improve. Let me start from now. I had a great reunion lunch with the beloved ones. Who cares about the food? It is the companion and loving spirit that i mind :)

My third "Yu sheng" for the year. It was so good. Like really really good. I just loved the year of Dragon so much. More pictures will be coming up soon. 

PS: I had a great connect group with the lovely people. Good atmosphere and great companions. Thank God for His presence and anointing. I was so empowered with His strength and the holy spirit that night. 

See ya in the next post :) Happy New Year to all :) 

One for all and all for one...

Hello people, i know i did say i would come and update but i just realized i forgot to bring my camera to Singapore. So once again, NO PICTURES for you :) Anyway, i had an awesome dinner with JUST mommy and daddy. It has been so long since we last had a nice dinner together so i really appreciate the time with them. We had dinner at Giannis :) 

I know this is not the first time i use this picture, but since the three of us aka The Three Musketeers haven't had the chance to take a decent picture, so i shall just make full use of this. And again i wanna say, serve you right Shawn for being superstitious about having three people in a picture. As i said earlier, i am not that bad, that's why i have decided to include you inside this picture too :)

Now, all of a sudden, why have i decided to use their picture for this blog post? That's because i misses them. Another reason, because i am meeting them R.E.A.L soon. Hurray.. Sufee is having his break now and Shawn is back from NewZealand. What's the sign? It is time for us to meet up. Finally the three musketeers reunite once more. Honestly speaking, it has been too long. I missed all their craps and their funny jokes. Even if i have to be the victim for them to make fun of, i am more than enough willing because life is always happier whenever i am with them :) They are the best buddies i ever had. Not to say that i can't get along with guys. But you know i am always being surrounded by girls and to open up to a guy is not an easy thing :) These are the two people whom i can share basically everything with them and at ease too :) The more they don't treat me as a proper girl, the happier i am. They won't distance themselves away from me like some guys do because to them, i am a human like them too. Just because i am a girl, it doesn't mean i am anything lesser or different from them. That's why i love hanging out with them. I won't feel left out at all.... Thanks for being part of my life.

PS: I know a lot of students hate Omega Tuition Centre. But to me, it is one of the best memory ever :) Without Omega Tuition Centre, i wouldn't even know these two boys at all. To find out more about these boys, you can read my first blogpost in 2011 :-

http://cardcaptorrawkz.blogspot.com/2011_01_01_archive.html

"One for all and all for one" - quoted from The Three Musketeers. Sometimes, i thank God for turning me into a manly girl. If it weren't because of my boyish characters, these two boys would have felt so uncomfortable hanging out with me :) Everything happens for a reason...

Too blessed

Hey World...

I had a great day today. Pictures will tell you everything but i am just too tired to upload it today :) Honestly speaking, sometimes i really don't know what i have done to deserve such great blessings. It is really too much. I felt myself being drowned in His pool of blessings. I can't take it...

Lord, you never fail me, but here i am always failing you. I really don't know what else i can say. I felt as if i have been given too much. I don't deserve it. I really don't..... ! I was so touched at the fact that You always met my need. Lord, you know what i need and what i want....

Sorry that i failed you all the time. I realized that i wasn't listening to Your voice at all until the beginning of  Year 2012. I got so much closer to You ever since i took part in Fuel 30. Your voice is sweet and Your word is strong. You blowed my mind like no others. Don't let go of me for i am still learning how to come even closer to You :) Thank you for making me a "Memory Keeper". Even though i know i have got to always stand by for the "Next Battle" and that we shouldn't be living in the past testimonies, but it is still a FACT that past memories always keep me strong and going. I don't want to forget any single moments with You.

PS: Tummy is not feeling good right now. For some reason, i feel like puking. Maybe it is the food that i ate :( Lord, heal me!!

Good night World :)

Nearly drowned in Your pool of Blessings..

Hi World, since i know i have been missing updating my posts a lot, so i think i shall be hardworking and update another one :) 

PS: I am determined to hit at least 150 posts by the end of 2012 :) Nothing is impossible if you believe...

Yesterday was a BLESSED day for me. Like really really blessed. I remembered my Law lecturer, Adrian told me that there are higher chances for him to see me in that particular law module again. Which literally means i would fail in that module. Why? Because i was diagnosed with chickenpox and i missed my mid-term test which worth 30%. I don't have good feelings about it and Melissa prayed with me :) I didn't really spend time in praying for my results even though i was scared. A thought struck me throughout this whole week. If i have written those answers by faith and truly believe in God, why should i be afraid? Even if i were to fail, i fail for a reason. And if i were to pass, i pass for a reason too. Everything i do, i am just doing what He wants me to do. I am not afraid and i am not ashamed. I made up my mind to be thankful no matter what the outcomes are like. HALLELUJAH!!! You know what i meant by this :) God is great....

 I saw this pack of statues the minute i stepped into my house :) To be honest, my mum really understands me. She knew i loved "One piece" and she will buy it for me but not forgetting to add a sentence or two like "Oh.. i bought it because it is cheap!" or "I bought it because i think it is nice!" Sigh.. this is what i called "Asian". Why can't you just admit that you bought it because you know i love it? Asian always finds it hard to express his or her feelings. Overall, what i want to say is, my mum is a great person even though the way we communicate sometimes sounded like we are fighting. You know how mums are like... *winks*

Blessed birthday Mel :) I love her because she is always there for me whenever i needed someone physical to talk to. Who say a leader is always strong and courageous and problem-free? Sometimes i would break down too. This is why my previous zone supervisor, Alph and Jovan always encouraged me to have a good bonding with the other leaders. A leader also need some advices and supports at times. Thank God for not leaving me alone at times when i needed someone :)

I am really excited for what God is planning to do to me in the coming days. Sigh, a lot of people around me has been telling me that 2012 is the end of the year and we would be in situations like those hollywood films :- Armageddon, 2012, The day after tomorrow and etc. To be honest, i have GOOD FEELINGS toward year 2012 and i think something great is going to happen :) Strive on with me people.. and i am really thankful for everything. Matthew 6:33 - "Seek first His kingdom and all things will be given to you"

Love and tension feeling

Hey people... i decided not to clam everything in one post. I can't believe most of my posts are so disorganized. I think i should use the power of "pictures" because a picture can speak thousand words :) Well, i am super blessed these few days. School has started and so far, i am adapting to it well. PS: Oh well, not really... i guess i am still in one of my lazy cum holiday mood  *Yawns*

 I choose to take picture of this because this is the thickest file i ever received. Come on.. at the sight of it, i know i am so dead. Lots of readings and studying. This is only ONE of them. I guess my life revolves around readings and more readings. I just can't escape.

It's okay... at least i have my daily bread to keep me going. I am taking part in Fuel 30 and it is like a love and tension race. There is one day when i almost couldn't make it. Thank God i manage to finish it before midnight struck. All in all, things are going fine. It helps me to grow stronger with the Lord. Although it is repetitive (as in, it is not the first time i read those stories and parables), but it is surprising that i always cried and marveled at the same stories and same verses :) I called this "Eternal flame" and it will never fades. My God is indeed a living God.

lazy...

Hey all, I just realized i haven't been updating for one week :( I guess i am getting lazier. Just wanna say, i am fine and having an awesome time. Praise the Lord :)

Oh well, i'll update soon. Maybe later... because i just realized i had something more important to do :)

By the way, Fuel 30 has been going on really well. At least there is something to keep me going strong and steady with the Lord. Today is the 3rd day. 27 more days to go...HWAITING. I'll be praying...

Counting down...

I am going back to school in less than a week's time. It wasn't a long holiday and yet i somehow don't think  this holiday belongs to me. It is more like taking a break and working for God. Still, every trimester means a whole new life for me. I wonder how is it like :)

This trimester, i am only taking one similar module with both Nicole and Tze Xin. There goes the same for Grace and NONE with Shannie :( Awhhh!! It occurs to me that i will have to go and meet new people out there. It is both easy and hard to me at the same time. Easy because all i have to do is just talk and more talking. Hard because i can't expect to make friends like Nicole, Tze Xin and the rest. *Wails* I can imagine how my 3rd trimester would be like. MORE travelings and busier! I have to travel in and out very often due to music lessons and connect group. And yet, if i were to accept the job offer, i don't think i'll be able to come back at all. Oh well.... God has His plans.

I am worried over the fact that will i be able to cope with my studies. Unfortunately i am not a genius. I can't afford any division of concentration and i can't multi-task. It will either result in me excelling in one thing and totally ruin the others. So my mum is always complaining about my not consistent result. It is either very good or very bad :( My dearest brain, why don't you make up your mind? In another word, why should i worry? I should have know what is important to me.... and hence, just do my best!!!

Starting of year 2012 isn't as exciting as i thought. I have no idea how to plan my coming days. Still....i know i can't live without a planner!! Go all the way.....i want to live my life to the fullest... :)

PS: With full of reluctance and mixed feelings, i have decided to remove my beloved "One Piece" wallpaper and replace it with this picture above. Why? So that i can be reminded that even though i am weak, but there is someone out there who is much much stronger than i :)

Love you all...

So close, i believe...

Dearest Heavenly Father,

I shall dedicate my second post in year 2012 to you. Despite fasting food which is the hardest task for me and having a bad tummy plus falling sick at the same time, i am glad i am able to make it to the prayers' meeting tonight :) Thank you for revealing Yourself to me. Your presence was so close, like really, so close to me. I don't even know how to describe but i felt something in my heart. 

I have been neglecting you all these while even though i am a regular member in church and committing myself in serving. I realize most of the time, i am not serving you but the people out there. Sometimes i don't even think that's what you want me to do but i'll still do it because people asked me to. No matter how inconvenient it is, i'll still do it despite the fact that the holy spirit is telling me not to. Lord, i am disobeying you from times to times. I failed you from times to times by upsetting you and not listening to your voice. I always repent over some similar matters after seeking for your forgiveness. I did not trust that i have been forgiven the FIRST time i ask for it. I can't feel the pain of yours knowing that i did not give you my whole heart. I know how hurt and pain you are because you loved me for than anything and more than anyone else in this World. You are indeed my savior. 

Forgive me for having mixed feelings and lots of stuffs on mind while doing my quiet time. Forgive me for not paying enough attention while going through your Words. Forgive me for not spending a good and quality time with you as i chose to do other things rather than putting you first. Forgive me for choosing sleep over you when it is time to pray. Forgive me for putting all blames on you when things do not go my way. Forgive me for always doubting you when i was being tested by you. Forgive me for not being thankful over the things that you've blessed me with. Forgive me for being greedy because i wanted more. Forgive me for being selfish because i am afraid of getting hurt. Forgive me for not trusting that you are all that i need. Forgive me for wandering off when i should be placing my trust in you. Forgive me for always repeating the same mistake. Forgive me for being as bad as i always am...

I want to put you first and above anyone else. I want to change and i want to make a difference this year. From the inside out, Lord my soul cries out. I want more of you...more and more of you. I know you are there all the time. I am aware of the number of times i chose to ignore you. Right now, i want to come back to you. I want you to lay back and watch me coming back to you because you deserves it! I am aware of the vision you have given me. I will work towards that goal and pray that you'll grant me with your strength and guide me throughout all these. Here in your presence, i am free.....  

I love you Jesus.... 

Loves from your servant,

Viola

HELLO 2012 :)

Hello World. HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Welcome to year 2012. Unlike last year, i don't intend to write a superb long post to thank some of the most important people in my life. I do appreciate them though but i thought i would just update a short post this time :)

 I know Christmas was over but i promised i will write something about it. Picture of our "The First" Connect group. Not all people were there but i thank God for each and every single one of them. Hopefully our "The First" bookmark will carry the message of Jesus Christ to more and more people out there :) We rawkzzz... and we know we existed because of you Lord :) Thank you so much for this group and these bunch of people. Let us do greater things for you.

 She is one of the greatest blessing in my life. Love her to the max. Looking at her is like looking into the image of my late grandmother. It is a pity that i do not have the chance to treat my grandmother well now. Still, i could spread the love around to people out there :)

 I always wanted a brother or a sister (doesn't matter if they are older or younger than me) I just don't like to be alone and i dislike the feeling of loneliness. Hence, mixing around with these people makes me feel like i have dozens of younger brothers and sisters. I love to fuss around them and i love it when they are being their true-self in front of me :) They bring me joy and i appreciate it :)

I love this picture so much and hence i decided to include it in this post as well :) Though we have been Machi for 7 years but sometimes i felt as if i don't understand her well enough. Just like today, all i can do is just to cry along with her and pray for her. Other than that, i hate myself for not being able to help out at all :( Still, all i wanna say is that i really treasure this friend of mine. The only key to keep a friendship going is to "give and take" and lots of understandings :)

Alright .. i always wanted 2011 to end fast. Yet, when the time has come, i find myself having mixed feelings. 2011 has been both awful and awesome at the same time. Why? New Home (church), new friends, lots of first time, memorable moments and many more. It is awful because i have to say good bye to my family in Perth and lots of unhappy things happened throughout the year. I cried the most and shed the most tears during this year. To be honest, everything seems awful for me. But when i looked back, i realized God is always keeping me strong. I can never keep unhappy memories in my memory storage for more than 2 days. It'll just go "whoosh" and everything is gone :) Thank you Lord...

Now that 2012 has arrived, i am so looking forward to something greater from Him :) No matter what is it, i'll accept the challenge. I am challenging myself to be a better person and as well as to completely let go of all his memories. Nothing is impossible ...

Have a blessed 2012. I know mine will be great!!!