My "Last" blogpost for the year 2010 =DD

Hi World....before year 2010 ends officially, i think i better type out my last blogpost for the year. Year 2010 has been a great year for me. Despite all difficulties and all the tears that i have shed, i thanked God for the homeworks and lessons that He wants me to learn throughout all the circumstances. It was a tear-shedding year for me for i never knew i was such a cry-baby (or maybe i am). And then, i wanna thank that mystery person who told me that "It is not wrong to cry for TEARS MAKES YOU STRONGER!" Year 2010 will forever be a historical year for me for it is also the year when i manage to find my way back to God. There are so much to write and yet i know, i can't list down every single person here. So sorry guys, if i couldn't thank you in this blogpost. There might be a part 2 for it =DD


                                             
 Ms Chong Ms Chong. How did i meet you? I talked to your Dad in the bus-stop? Or i met you when you were crying infront of Hill Lecture Theatre? When i walked towards you??That is not important. The most important part is, thanks for being part of my life throughout Year 2010. The memories that we shared when it lefts the four of us. The food that we cooked. The endless topics that we shared..........making fun of one another. I have seen the wearker side of you. Though i did not help you much but your family members are very good to me. Our characters and living styles are totally the opposite of one another, but surprisingly, we are quite clicked. I wanna thank you for all the sound scoldings and your support towards what i want to pursue. Without your help, i know i will definitely regret for the rest of my life. Thanks for being so supportive in the WC's case. Without you scolding me, i will never be able to pluck up my courage. And thus it let me witnessed the brave side of yours. Thanks for everything ok? I pray that things will go smoothly for you. You are sincere in the way you treat your friend and i am sure people will want to be friend with you sincerely. Forget about all the betraying thingy. Your life won't be like this forever =))) I just wanna say, thanks for being my friend. And i am glad i met you at the bus-stop or even see you crying infront of Hill Lecture Theatre..

 IN THE HOOD. I don't know why? I simply loved this name - IN THE HOOD. I met this bunch of people when i studied in Taylors during year 2008. I met each and every single one of them in different situations. I have to admit, i don't have the confident that our friendship will maintain for our personalities varies tremendously from one another. I am the crazy type whilst Chloe and Xuan were both the study type. There are also a few who joined us and left us in the end. I don't know when Kon decided to came in.....but yea, we hitted off really well and thank God, we managed to maintain a strong friendship till today even though we only get to meet each other like once a year??I missed chatting with you girls. I missed those days when we always have to argue over assignments. I missed those lunching sessions where we always have to trouble over where to go for lunch (SS15 isn't that big). I missed rushing all over the places with you girls.Talk about the sense of fashions...you girls were great!!!Even though i seldom contact you guys, but trust me, i will stalk you from time to time (PS: Please don't run away =P) Friends Forever yea?? See you girls soon.....

 WAWA PIG!!This girl is like my biological sister. Ever since young, she has been tagging along behind me wherever i go. Plus she does looked like me in physical.We were both short and plump. She doesn't even look like her real biological sister who is tall and slender. People said we shared the same personality. To be honest, i am glad to have her as my sister. I always wanted one and hence, even though she is not my real sister, but we are like one. There is always a heart-to-heart talk session between us. But that doesn't mean we don't fight. I remembered our worst quarrel was in year 2009??We totally ignored each other for quite a long time. I don't know how we made up but yea...i am glad we are back to normal! Trust me, you'll be the next SETALEO's president for you are to follow my step *winks* I'll be watching you.......

PS:I am glad she don't have the access to my blog =P for i don't know how she will react when she read this. I love her as a sister and we'll be sisters for life.

                                      
Awwwhhh....another two little girls who are like my sisters. My Official poser and my first travelling partner. If it weren't because of the security problem, i wouldn't have known you girls. You girls are like my loyal fans. Whatever i do, you girls will follow. Whatever i said, you girls will believe and listen to it. So young and innocent. What if the things i said weren't true? It started off when you girls wanna follow to everywhere i go. Whenever i said i wanna go shopping, you girls will follow. Whenever i had leo events, you girls will take part in it. It is like you are more like my leo members as compared to the rest of my members. You girls were naughty. You girls tend NOT to listen to what your Mummy tells you. I almost laughed till death when your Mummy came to my house one night to ask me to talk to you girls. She said to me "Girl, please try to talk to the kids. Ask them not to be so naughty. For they treat you like Superstar now and they won't listen to me!" We are the same. Though i am a few years older than you, but that doesn't mean you girls have to call me "sister". I prefer to be your friend. Remember how we cried together? Remember how we used to talk and play? Now that you girls have grown up,, but i can still see the innocent side of yours. Continue to keep up that spirit for no one can be as unique as the both of you. Love you girls to the max...

 

Since Hebe Ting is not back from Switzerland yet, so both of us recruit another 3 new members to take over Hebe's place. I am just kidding =P No one can replace you Hebe Ting. Hello, we are Selina Bear, Hebe Ting and Ella Hong. And together we make a perfect JB S.H.E!!I enjoyed my journey with you girls. With these girls around, there won't be any hidden secrets or any awkward moments. I am free to share all my things with you girls. It is like, there are ZERO secrets. Well, at least for me, i know i shared everything =))) I am just kidding. I know you girls will share everything too. That's why we are SHE. I simply loved hanging out with you girls. I always thought distance will pull us apart but it did not. I am glad we are who we are. I am glad we did not change even after so many years. Whenever anyone one of us faces difficulties, there won't be any Qs and As session, instead, just some simple words of encouragement will cheer you up. "I have you to be with.....Everything will be easy..."True enough we are far apart and we can never live in each other's World, but one thing i am certain of is, our friendship will never break. Cheers to the JB S.H.E!!

My babes and i during last year's countdown (2010)!! Once a Leo, Forever a Leo......juniors they were but they are definitely mature enough to walk on the same line as me. I know i have wrote about you girls N-less times in my blog but trust me, every year, i will rewind the same memories, the same words, the same thing again. You girls were awesome!!!You really carried our club flag high. Without you girls, Setaleo wouldn't maintain its legend. I am glad we worked together as one. Continue to strive for it.......i am sure we will always be the legend. I have so much to say about you girls but when it comes to your part, i don't know what to write. All the time i feel as if i owe you girls a lot....seeing you girls had fun makes me feel envy. I want to be part of it but that era has ended for me. I have got to move on =(( I will always treasure the "Pistachios" gang. I ve learnt a lot from you girls. Though things has change and we can never go back to the past, but i urge you girls to look forward to the future. Obstacles cannot bring you down for you are who you are. I don't know what you girls think but the memories that you girls gave me has always been an encouragement for me to move on. All the time....... So yea, year 2011 will be a great year for you all...continue to fight on....HWAITING...

My Mummy and Daddy. Though my situation isn't the least like some other people, but i am blessed to be born in this family. Though i don't have siblings like most people do, but i am blessed to have relatives and friends who surrounded my life. And hence, i don't feel lonely. My Mummy is a strong and ambitious woman. The Woman who looks hard on the surface but deep inside, she is a lonely person. Stop denying!!You think the whole World can't see through you is it? She is my superhero. If it weren't because of her, i wouldn't be who i am today. I know i can't repay her in this lifetime for i owe her too much. What i can do is, i am willing to give up my dreams just to come back home for your sake =D Future is uncertainty but i know wherever i am, there you'll be!! My Daddy is an ambitious businessman too. Sometimes i don't know whether is due to the family situation or what, i always find it hard to keep my cool. Maybe it is just the way we communicate. I know i should change myself and i must. Daddy is very patient to me for he never scold me for even once throughout my life. Though you couldn't support me with my education financial for you have too many childrens to support, but i am glad that you witness every stages of me "Growing up". I am far more luckier than many people. My parent's provide the best for me..... !I don't want to make this into a 3000 words essay, so in conclusion, i love you both very very much though i don't say it often.

Bestfriend? If you ask me, who is the bestfriend of mine? I would have answer, NO ONE. Why? Because to me, everyone is my bestfriend, and i'll share the same thing with everyone. Let's put it this way, there are many different kinds of friends in my life. Each of them knows certain parts of me. And it is rare for me to find someone who knows the whole of me. There are only a FEW in my life. Well, not ONE but a FEW. So yea, let's welcome my Machi Zhi Xian. What can i say of her? She talks a LOT!!Yes..you can always hear her voice with her never-ending topics. Yet, it is good to hear her chatterings all the way. She may be optimistic but i have seen the weaker sides of her. Thanks for bringing me to Christ though i did not practise the right way from the start. Thanks for taking the initiative to keep in touch with me even though i have graduated from high school. Thanks for teaching me all lessons. You are a mature friend and i know you will live for your dreams. So let us continue to encourage each other and to live beneath our dreams. Remember the dreams of our life =))) Jia you Machi....it has been great knowing you and you are certainly in the category of "BESTFRIENDS".

There you go, my life has been awesome because i am blessed to have all these people around me. These are not all. There are more to come. I don't want my Sweet 2010 to end this way so let me continue thanking my awesome people in my first 2011 post kay? Life goes on isn't it? I am looking forward to year 2011. I can't predict future though but i believe God will give me an awesome 2011 =DD Life is interesting and yet mystery. We can never predict what will happen in the future. I don't know what will come next. I am still praying and seeking for something.

PS: To the "You" who makes me pluck up my courage to tell you how i feel, i pray that you'll seek the courage to go pursue what you want. I don't know why all these are happenings but i believe God sent you in my life for a reason. Maybe it is not in the aspect of love...but for other purposes. I am sorry to say, i won't give up still until the day when i am finally able to. Or else, i'll be hanging on. Do not be afraid of me...for i won't cause you any troubles. Just let things maintain the way it is. I won't go near you or do anything which will make you feel uncomfortable for that's not my style. I will give you my blessings in every single thing. Maybe it might hurts a little, but at least i ve tried pursuing. There won't be any regrets in my life, knowing that i did try to pursue something using my own strength for ONCE =)) Thanks a lot....you've made an exciting ending to my Year 2010, leaving me a direction to walk towards to.....


For now, i wanna bid an official "GOOD BYE" to year 2010. Good bye my sweet year 2010. I am taking another step closer to the future. I know it will be an exciting one for i have lots of dreams to achieve. Another step closer to my "New World"..........Stay tuned....=)))


 WELCOME TO YEAR 2011!!!!!!!

It is yet another white Christmas XD

HOHOHOHO...............MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! So what have i been doing? Spending time with the beloved ones of course. I always missed last year's Christmas (2009) because i know i will be flying off to Perth in no time and it isn't often wheren i can spend time with my kids, and the beloved people (neighbours and friends). Distance did not pull us apart, i am still the OLD ME. The usual crazy and childish girl who will never grow up (quoted by the kids). I promised to spend Christmas with my beloved ones every year. Which means, i will come back to JB every December XD Yayy...

 The usual smell, the usual people, the usual place, the usual everything, the usual laughter, the usual food. I really loved spending time with you guys. I treasured and appreciate every moment i spend with you guys =))) My kids, i know you guys have grown up, but continue to be yourself. Don't care what people said or thnk of you, remember my usual quote "I am who i am". Nobody can be you and you can never be anybody =))

When i compared this picture to last year's christmas picture, i realized, we have all grown up. But grown or not grown doesn't cause a change to our personalities. We are still the same. Sisters Forever =)) I love you guys...
PS: Mummy dote me the most. When i say i wanna drink Vitasoy, she went and bought me a whole carton of Vitasoy. Cheers to Mummy!! She said to me "Girl you see, i dote you so much. You said you wanna drink and i bought you a whole carton of it. So you must dote me back!" Of course i will!! Errrr...except for doing house chores ya....!I am not saying i don't like to do house chores but my Mummy is a bit different. She can do house chores everyday but i can't =))

                                         
Currently mastering "River flows in me" by Yiruma using Violin and Piano. I realized my piano skills has dropped tremendously. There are melodies and songs which i used to play it everyday but now, i seem to have return everything back to my Piano teacher. There goes the same for Violin. People asked, "Why river flows in me?Why not Kiss the rain?" The answer is, i was attracted to River flows in me more than Kiss the Rain. Both are good melodies but i prefer simple melodies =)) And of course, not to be forgotten - The truth that you leave by Pianoboy. I simply loved it!!

Well, such is life isn't it?? I am so blessed to be born in this family and this place. Oh yea...i simply loved short hair rather than long hair. I know i am being random.............!Forgive me people, i am super sleepy right now. In conclusion, i wanna say, i had a great Christmas this year and i love you guys =)

PS: I will update more when i come back from KL. There are more things coming up. Stay tuned....=))

Sometimes........

Hello World, life in JB was good. I am having an awesome time here with all awesome people. I don't wanna go back to Perth. Though i loved Perth and the people there, but towards the end, JB is still where i belong. I WON'T leave my beloved ones here. Confusing huh? But is is okay....you'll gradually understand what i meant. Sometimes, i wonder, why do i grow up so fast? My heart is still young but i have already grown physically. We always got to experience different things in every stages of our life. We grumbled, complaint, sore over it, angry at it in the beginning. But as we finally get used and loved the situation we are in, that era has already come to an end, and we got to move on to experience yet another stage of our life.

I attended the meeting with SETALEOs and Lion Beryl. I felt super old as compared with the young Leos. Please guys, a message from your previous previous IPP (Immediate Past President), ALWAYS KEEP UP THE SPIRIT OF LEO. It will do you good if you are willing to take one step out of your current life and into the World of Leo. You guys are a bunch of good kids and some really potential ones. I am not saying things will go smoothly as planned. You'll definitely have to experience failure. Towards the end, it is not the awards we are aiming for, but the experiences and the process of working alongside with one another. It is all about the spirit and passion. I am sure you guys will learn the importance of team spirit one day. Trust me girls, SETALEO is the legend from now and ever. So continue to carry our flag up high and never brings it down. You guys are lucky enough to be in the best club ever....!!Throughout the whole journey, there will be arguments, there will be tears, there will be laughters, there will be craziness and fun, but all the memories are more than enough to last you for a lifetime. Afrer graduating from SETA for 3 years (entering 4th year), i never did once forget all the memories that i had during the time when i served in Leo club. Without Setaleo, i wouldn't have been who i am today. SETALEO is forever in my debt. Girls, continue to fight on.......i will always be there to support you girls even though i am so far away. And also, not to be forgotten, my two best helpers ever -Vonny and Kelly will forever be there to support and to bring you girls up again. SETA ROAR SETA ROAR SETA SETA SETA ROAR ROAR ROAR!!

While i was serving as a leo
People, let me rewind my memories back to the past again. I will tell you why i can't let go of SETALEO completely even though i am already an outgoing Leo for so many years. I always wanted to join Leo Club during Form 1. At that time, Leo club only recruit members from the Morning session. Afternoon session (Form 1 and 2) are not allowed to join Leo Club. I wanted to join Leo Club because i heard a lot from my Tuition teacher, Mrs Yong, who was the Leo Advisor for SETALEO. For your information, our school is called SMK SETA and during that time, Leo club of SMK SETA was like the best and famous club ever. Plus, i admire one of the seniors - Christine Hor. People asked me, what do you see in her? What makes you admire her so much? My answer is, i don't have to admire people based on their looks. She may not be pretty but she definitely has the characters. She may not be the Top student in school but she is responsible in her work. And thus, she is my role model and i am not afraid to tell the Whole World that she is the only senior i admire in the whole SMK SETA. 2 years passes very quickly, and before i even knew it, i am already eligible to join Leo Club. How happy i was when i finally being able to sign my name up =D

My first impression towards the club - "WOW...it is like the biggest club ever. And oh...so that's where all the chinese girls went to!" The club president, Lu-Xian was friendly and she involves everyone in the meeting and as well as helping out do to dedication. Slowly i realized that not many Leos hang on to the club. In each activities, it was obvious that the attendance of the members are getting lesser and lesser where finally, it involves only the B.O.D (Board of Directors) and a few new Leos. I was given a lot of different tasks to do. I was asked to join in activities. Then only i realized, Leo club is all about "With Love, We Serve". We go out to help people all over the places, visiting orphanages and old folks home, doing fund raising in order to make donation to the poors and etc. True enough Mummy started getting worried because i tend to go out too much that i neglected my studies. A trip to Penang (Leo Forum) has brought me the position of Treasurer. I don't even know the existence of awards if i never attended the annual Leo Forum. I never know i would need to sacrifice a lot of things in order to maintain this club. I hate to see my President, Judy feeling sad when we dropped from Top to Outstanding. I made a promise to myself- i WON'T let this situation happens again. NO, NOT during my undertaking. The position of President can be really stressful and hard. I shed lots of tears. I lost certain friends. People hates me. I received lots of nasty comments. I had endless arguments with the B.O.D. But there are good sides too. I had a bunch of supportive members and B.0.D. Though there are bound to be arguments, but towards the end, we still made up. I had two wonderful and extraordinary and loyal fans helpers - Vonny and Kelly, who always stood by me and never once leave me. When the whole World is against me, they are always there to tell me that they will stand by me. Whenever people accuse me or blame me for something, they are always there to tell me they believe me. Whenever i broke down or feeling lost, they are the ones who always pull me up and said they will support me 100%. Finally i made it!! I ve gotten the Alpha Top Club Award. Yes, all for our Setaleo. You couldn't imagine how happy we are. Our hard works are being paid off. Everything is worth it. I know things wouldn't go wrong when i handed the club over to you guys =)) You guys made me proud. Thank you darlings for taking care of the club and carrying the flag up high. Leo is my most precious memories for it contains love, tears, happiness, trust, loyalty, fun, leadership and etc.

End of my story

Sometimes, i wonder, what would i become if i never never step into the World of Leo? What would i become? Sometimes, i just want to go back to the old sweet time again. Sometimes, i just want to lock up my forbidden memories and yet sometimes, i thanked God for giving me the chance to rewind it again. For inside the forbidden memories, i found my courage and strength back. Thanks to the "You" who taught me the lesson to perserve. Thanks to the "You" who showed me that nothing is impossible. Thank you.....!!Sometimes, sometimes, sometimes, my mind will wanders off to nowhere but i believe........it will come back again to R.E.A.L.I.T.Y!!!

When Selina and Ella finally reunited

I have you to be with, Everything will be easy

Hi I am Selina!Hi I am Hebe!Hi I am Ella. We are S.H.E. 16/12/2010 was the day when Selina and Ella finally reunited after one year. Too bad Hebe is currently not available in J.B. But it is okay Hebe, we will still wait for you. JB S.H.E has its own rules and routine. Everytime we gather, it is always Redbox and Lavender we go. We called it our "Old Place" XD Selina is still as beautiful as ever...with her hairband and long hair, she has the Musical talent feel. Afterall, she is! I love my JB S.H.E!!!

 We both loved soft toys. As we arrived there rather early, the room is not available yet. So we ended up playing soft toys in Harris. I am sure for those who walked past us, they will think we are crazy.

 I loved Octopus. It is OUR significant. We each have one little octopus. We bought it as the significant of our friendship at the age of 17.

 看不到 找不到 等不到 你的 HERO
 为何不 做自己 只手撑天的 SHERO
 你可以 我可以 为自己赴汤蹈火 的SHERO
 像女王 挥舞著 骄傲披风

 I loved to sing with Selina and Hebe because their voice is so good. We always have never-ending S.H.E's songs to sing. Girlies rawkzz!!! Let's go Karaoke again when Hebe comes back.

 After singing, there is always a tea-time session for the S.H.E or should i change our name to SHERO?? And there is only one place we will go -LAVENDER. Yayy, there is a time when i had phobia with Lavender because i fought with one of the waiter there. Why??Because he is so rude. I admit we are a bit noisy but Hello, we are celebrating people's birthday. But that's already the past. I can't hate Lavender because of one guy =))) Plus it is my favourite spot also...

 Look at the yummy yummy waffles. I swear i am so gonna put on a couple of kilos before i go back to Perth.

The usual cakes, the usual place, the usual girl, and everything is just so memorable and familiar. Though we did not meet each other for one year, but there is never a silent moment between us. We had lots and lots of stories to share. Whether in the sense of school, classes, boys and girls, it is always great to hear it from the friend who knows you best. I am glad distance did not pull us apart. We are still as close as ever.

S.H.E rawkzz....!!Can't wait for another "Yumcha" session when Hebe comes back.......I have you to be with, Everything will be easy...

The Life of a Baby- Sitter

I'm on the Top of the World looking down on creation

And the only explanation i can find

Is the love that i found

eversince you been around

Your love put me at the top of the World

Hello peeps, i am back again after hiding away from this blog for two days. I have been procrastinating a lot for this blog post because i really really missed the kids a lot. I want to serve them again T.T!!Two days before i flew back to Malaysia, Steph and i went to baby-sit Christopher, Daylan and Erin. Their house is beautiful and nice. The kids were awesome. They had milions of toys. What i want to say is being a baby sitter is not an easy task. You need to be creative most of the time in order to grab their attention. I wish i have never-ending suppy of ideas flowing to me. Always remember that kids learn fast. So as a baby-sitter, always set a good example and watch what we said =))

I have to admit, i can't really handle babies because i haven't had the chance to take care of babies yet. I guess i got to start training now. To take care of the two little monsters (My Cousin).

 

 Look at cute little Daylan. Wing they all always said i showed favouritism to Little Daylan. Hmm..maybe i really did but i do love ALL the kids. Daylan is always living in his own World and it is really hard to leave him alone =)) Plus he always bombed me with words that will make me go speechless. Look my him, playing with my most most most precious "Black and White" bangles. I believe every kids has different personalities and they behave in different ways. Even though Daylan is rather playful and naughty, but still i know he is a good boy. He will listens to you when you are talking to him. While playing catching with him, he won't hit you or grab you roughly just like how some other kids will. When he cried or throws tantrum, he won't throw stuffs, hit you or even scold you. What's more, he believed in Jesus Christ. That's a very good starting in order to rise up the next generation. He might not pay attention in class. He may cry and struggle in order to run around or to go somewhere......but towards the end, he is a still a good boy whom is being brought up in a very good environment and with the right teaching =)))

 Christopher!!!Wow, before i even serve in Kids Ministry, i have already heard of this famous little boy and his big name =D Why? Because he is so handsome and cute. Most teachers favourite pet. Everyone likes him. Daylan looks exactly like him. Wooo...they make a pair of PERFECT BROTHERS. Let's talk about Christopher. Being his teacher or baby-sitter is not an easy job. First, because he is a smart little boy and he is very knowledgeable. So i have to talk to him in an adult and yet not adult manner. He has EXCELLENT memory. He still remembers me as the "Monster" who wanna eat Daylan =)) Oh no..he calls me MEGATRON. Chris can be really crazy when it comes to "Play Time". He can be really rough but i swear, he is not violent. He was just too into his game. Chris is a very creative boy. He can made up his own games and brief me about. We used to play catching when i was voted as the monster who wants to eat Daylan (because he never finish his food) and he was the catcher. Then he made up the "Water and Fire" game. He is really smart...for he knows that water couldn't be destroy by fire. Besides being playful, Chris is a very caring brother. He knows what his brother and sister's like or dislike and he will tell us about it. For example, "Teacher Viola, Daylan doesn't like to eat porridge?" or "Teacher, Daylan cannot eat too much of snacks!". Chris is a very obedient child. He knows his "Dos" and "Don'ts"!! He will always ask permission before he do anything=)) He is a good boy........

 Let's talk about Little Daylan. Apart from the fact that he always bombed me with his words, i secretly find him really interesting. I realized he likes attention and he wants people to care for him. Whenever i give Chris a ride on the back (Piggy back), he will come rushing to me and said "It is my turn!It is my turn. I want a ride too". So cute!! Then he will look at you in a way which seems as if he is crying. You can't reject a child like that. What left the most impression to me is during the "Put on your diaper time". Before they goes to bed, Steph was talking to Chris about diaper's thingy. This little Daylan suddenly ran off and went to hide himself in his room. I was puzzled so i went with him. He covered himself with his blanket while saying "I don't like diaper. Please..can i don't put on the diaper?" So funny right? I ended up telling him story about Santa Claus and naughty kids. Then he said "I hate reading. I don't like to read!" I helped him to put on his diaper and he fell asleep immediately. We went to check on him later on and i realized he slept without his pant. I was really puzzled. I remember i did helped him to put on his diaper and his pant. The problem is, we couldn't find his pant at all. I tried to lift him up, but he sat up crying and say "I pee pee at my pant so i took it off!" Oh my god, he is so cute  =))) How i miss him...

Back to Christopher again!!! This boy is rather interesting too. Apart from being smart, caring and playful, i realized he likes attention too. Both Daylan and Christopher likes piggy back. This is the first time i see him arguing with Daylan over who should get a ride first. "Give me as many rides as you can!" i can still remembered his clear little voice calling out to me. He likes to take pictures too. He specially likes me "Black and White" bangles because according to him, that's my power and he wants to surpass me. Funny little boy. I loved to play games with him because he is really fun and cool. He is the role model for his brother and sister. Whenever Daylan and Erin doesn't want to eat their porridge, the best way is to get Chris to talk to them and everything is settled. Chris told me he doesn't like porridge too. But when i told him the story of "Porridge Town", he was really excited and he asked me lots of questions regarding the story. Children will always be children. They should be treated in a proper way.

Look at that, if you asked me why i love kids, the answer is simple, and that is i have a lot to learn from them. Jesus often wished that everyone will be as pure, humble and innocent as young child. A young child have great faith in God. By spending time with kids, you can naturally learn a lot. What amazed me is that, i am generally patient with Christian kids because i don't have to teach them things for more than twice. Whenever they did something wrong, i only have to tell them ONCE, and they'll remember it. Unlike my little cousins, i tried using the soft method, but in vain. He is as naughty as ever. I am surprise at how "Mr Spoon" works well for little toddlers. ....Oh well, i am sure i have a lot to learn when i go back next year =)))) Till here...I LOVE THE KIDS....and i love my job as a baby-sitter.

PS: How are you??? It has been a while and i assume you are doing good. My babe said, if you love someone, set him free. Should i or should i not? I guess i really need an answer. It is haunting me from time to time again no matter how i occupied myself with things to do. No matter what, no one can stop me...

My role as the "Angel of Love"

I love you till i die

Deep as sea, Wide as sky

The beauty of our love paints rainbow

Everywhere we go

Need you all my life

You're my hope, You're my pride

In your arms i find my heaven

In your eyes my sea and sky

May life be our love paradise

 Hello peeps, this blog post will be rather special for it won't be about ME! Yay..clap clap* Aren't you guys pleased? Finally, you don't have to read about my dull life for ONCE. But wait, this blog is about my role as the Angel of Love, so you will generally have to read about my stuff too =P Anyway, please say a big HELLO and WELCOME to my buddy, LIM LI XUAN (Picture above). I promised to write her this post for her birthday but i procrastinate it till now. Sorry Buddy...but i am sure you would want to read this post.

THE GIRL'S STORY
Hmm...i ve described her before so i am not going to describe her personality. She told me she is totally clueless when it comes to relationship matters. She told me before that she won't want to be in a relationship that soon and that she can't meet the one she like. She is like a little girl who is so naive. All the while we all know that there is a guy who took interest in her but she doesn't believe what we said. She is just so pure that she don't realize what we (Me and Chloe) have observed. When she finally told us that she has been confessed by that boy after their first date, our first expression is " WE HAVE TOLD YOU SO!" I believe she was confused and her feelings are complicated. She didn't know what to do. There are too many opinions and ideas. The best decision lies within herself. For me, I TOTALLY AGREE THAT THE TWO OF THEM SHOULD GET TOGETHER.  For some reasons, i feel that both of them are quite similar to one another and they would make a perfect couple. So, You guys have my 100% support.

Still, i can't help her to make this decision. She said this boy is totally not her type at all and she don't share the same feeling towards him. She rejected him during the first confession =( To be honest, i was quite disappointed but still i do think that this boy is very brave. And hence, i decided to help him immediately. Sorry buddy, i don't meant to betray you. All the while, i am siding him but i do respect what you ve told me. Most of the stuffs you told me, i kept it Private and Confidential. I am glad that you trust me with your stuffs. Remember we chatted until 6am because of him? I know you too, are trying hard to go closer to him but don't know how to. Communication is very important. I am sorry Kon if i betrayed you, but i think she has the right to know. I told her about your blog and other things which she doesn't know. But to be honest, i only tell her good things about you =))))

I am glad you finally decided to invite him into your World. And i am really proud of you Girl...for finally you decided to confess to him that all these while, you like him too =)) I doubt that i can be as brave as both you and Kon. Though i always give you advise on this topic, but when it comes to mine, i am a total failure at it. Still, i am glad thing works out between the both of you.

1st of May 2010 is certainly a historical day for the two of you and as well as for me =D

THE BOY'S STORY
 Say Hello to KON WENG LEONG (Picture above), the male lead for this blog post. This boy...hmm...i pitied him because i know he meant to keep it as a secret but who knows, he bumped into ME, the Gossip Queen (PS: My definition for Gossip Queen is not about squabbling or backstabbing about other people from behind, but it is just a title for people who are always up-to-date towards the latest happenings). All these while, i knew that he had feelings for Li Xuan. How do i know? Because he tends to put a "Like" in almost every posts Li Xuan updated, including pictures and other stuffs. And also due to "Pet Society", i started noticing that something is not right =P No worries Kon, you know we will always help you.

Kon has been in the same class as me for 2 semester (TBF 07/08). And from what i observed, he is a shy and quiet boy. Never really talk to him for the previous 2 semesters. I only knew him well during Semester 3 because of the "K and LX case". So i am very surprise when he actually date Li Xuan out for a movie......JUST HER ALONE. This guy is very daring. One moment we saw him running towards the lift, saying that he has something to do. And the next moment, he was back in class. Everything was so fishy. I remembered we just bid Li Xuan "Good bye" not long before. So this guy ran all the way to her hostel to wait for her to come back and to ask her out for movie. So daring right? But what amazed me the most is he actually confessed to her right after their first date. This is out of my prediction but i do know you like her =) You acted way too fast boy. It will scare her off...but i'll give you 3 CHEERS for this. I think you are very brave, that's why i chose to stand on your side. Though she rejected you for the first time, but you did not give up. GOOD!!!!

You have been through a lot. You tried your best to go closer to her. You felt rejected. You felt hopeless. You didn't know what you can do. That's when you will come to me for help for you know i will tell you everything. I do admit that there are stuffs which i didn't tell you, but i revealed MOST of them to you. You turned into another person after you stepped out into the "Working World". I knew someting is not right. You seldom find me on MSN to ask about her stuffs. You seem to be perfectly fine. I was super angry during the time when you told me you want to give up. Immediately i know what i observed is right. You had feelings for another girl. The role as the "Angel of Love" is not an easy task. I was angry. I was sore. I feel sad. I feel like punching the boy. I feel like crying along with that girl even though she doesn't know any single thing. You know what, right before this boy break this news to me, Li Xuan was telling me that she will try her best to understand Kon because she knows she really really liked him. She asked me not to tell anyone about it. And when Kon told me he wanna give up, i felt as if the Whole World has turned dark. I scolded him. I feel like whacking him. I feel like slapping him to wake him up. He told me he was tired of waiting. He told me he don't have the confident to wait any longer. He told me this girl don't like him at all. He told me he was insecure.

I did try my best to psycho him but our conversation for that day seems so blur and difficult. It seems as if both of us were on different channels. I know i can't keep the secret any longer. I HAVE TO TELL HIM. He needs to know how she felt. He needs to know everything. It won't be fair if i keep both their secrets all to myself, though both of them should know it. I remembered Li Xuan showing me a post which she wrote in her Wretch blog. That was her true and real feeling. I knew it!!! And i revealed that to Kon. Sorry Li Xuan, i know i should'nt do that but there is no other way out =(( I promised i didn't show him the original post. I only copied the important parts for him. He cried after reading it.....I can imagine his grateful expression when he typed "Thank you very much". That's when he promised me that he will never ever mention the word "Giving Up" or " Change of Heart" AGAIN!!

 They did not get together right away but it goes round and round for quite a while. There are lots and lots of misunderstandings. They don't know each other well and barely talk to each other. There are things which i knew from both side but the two of them do not know. It is hard to be the middle people and to try to convey all the messages to Him and Her. I am glad you guys are meant to be......!It is proven that the participation of both parties is the Main Key to make a relationship works. Both of them been through a lot...!I have seen how much they grown during this period. They have become mature. At first, i couldn't help feeling a bit worried for them for i know both of them are of the same kind. Quiet and not the initiative type of person........!Now, i can set my heart as ease for i know their relationship is stable =)))))))))))))))) HURRAY!!

If you ask me, how does it feel to be the "Angel of Love"? I would say, the feeling is awesome. Although it can be a bit tiring and emotionally unstable, but at the end of the day, i do not regret over the things i have done. I am glad that God gave me a chance to know my friends well. If you ask me, will you do the same thing again? My answer would be - YES....IF i ever come across the same case, i would still do the same thing. Take up the role as the "Angel of Love".  Becareful Kon and Li Xuan, i will be the Guardian Angel for your relationship...so don't be annoyed if i tend to check on you guys from time to time =P

Continue to stay loving and strong for each other ok??

Once again, 1st of May 2010 is a very special date. I pray that you guys will have infinite1st of May from now and ever...

Till here..............=)))))

The place where i finally acknowledged it "My Home"....

Hello folks, i am trying my very very best to keep my promise. A BLOG POST A DAY till i am done with all the posts which i promised to update. So here you are peeps, i am here to tell you about my life in Perth. As you know, leaving home wasn't an easy task for me because i have a close relationship with my family, relatives and friends. What's more, i love my home very much. And yet, it is always my biggest dream to leave home and to explore the World outside. I admit i am greedy. I am not happy with what i have. I want MORE. As i mentioned before, i am the only child and YET i am not. It is complicated. But to me, what's past is already the past. I am happy with my family and i am proud and blessed to be born in this family =D You see, i had strong bonding with my family and so it is naturally hard for me to make this decision to leave home. Alas, i did leave my home- the place where i grew up. The place where i am surrounded by all sort of memories. The place where i am familiar with. The place where all my beloved ones are still living in.

 I did regret over my decision when Mummy and Daddy left. That's when my new journey starts. I was left all alone in this unknown place (Perth) without any friends. I was scare. I was lonely. I felt hopeless. No one is there to talk to me. I missed the whole orientation when i know that is the best place to get to know more friends. I chose to spend time with my parent's instead of attending orientation. I missed my JB friends terribly. I called Mummy almost everyday. I skyped a lot with Baobei Kelly. I felt touched when i know my Malaysia's friends were still concern about me. I know, i have to move on. I can blame no one except myself for this is MY DECISION. No one force me to make this decision. During the time when i felt so lost, these people (Picture above) found me. I don't know what is "PASSION" when i first met them. Now, i know =))They led me back to God after swaying away from Him for 2 years. They listened to all my problems. They gave me a new chapter of life when i thought my life is gonna be so dull and i thought i would never had friends at all. They help me to find back my confidence which i used to have but lost it. These are the things which my parents would never ever understand. All the while they thought i am someone without problems and hardly any troubles at all. So, EMOTIONAL is not even in my dictionary. But they didn't know, behind that smile and laughters of mine, there is a hidden story. I ve locked it all up. But these people managed to unlock it. Thank you guys. I would never never fall in love with Perth if it wasn't because of you all.

 Finding my way back to God is a wonderful thing. And hence, i find myself enjoying serving in various ministries. In the beginning, i agree to serve in Ushering is due to the fact that i don't know how to say "No" and merely because i am really grateful to these people who accept me for who i am. After all, i am witnessing the "FIRST" Murdoch Service. I love ushering now even though it wasn't my first choice. When Alph signed me up for Drama, my first expression -WHY ME?? Of all people, you chose to sign me up. I don't see myself having talent for acting. And yet, i don't see myself having the talent to join dancing. Choir is always my first choice. Yet, i believe everything happens for a reason. I decided to give it a try and i find myself actually liking it. Why? Because we are real. We act in our own characters. I am not saying that other ministries are not real. Arghh..it is hard to explain. Anyway, to cut the story short, we are the Foolz for Christ. And we'll always be =)) I don't know where will i end up to be........but i know God has His own plans for me =D

 MY GIRLS!!!I wasn't feeling really happy when i know Winter Holiday was coming (June end 2010) because i know most of my friends are going back to their own country and i will be left all alone. I don't know a lot of people yet. And during that time, many things happened. I had no one to talk to and i can talk to no one. I don't know the Passion people very well yet. Told you, i don't really understand Christianity yet. So when Kelvin invited me to join the core group, i agreed without even asking what a core member should do. I know. I know i am stupid. But a stupid girl can make a good decision too. I was kept busy throughout the whole winter hols that i barely even have time to laze around. We have lots of meetings and outings. It was fun. That's when i met these GIRLS. Our personalities are totally different from one another. And it seems as if, it is hard to get along with each other. Oops, but i have just proven that we can. Thank you girls for always being by my side whenever i was feeling down or unhappy. I missed our Elly night and i missed having girls talk with you all. Hope to see you girls soon =))

Jesus you're my superhero, You're my star, My bestfriend! Watching the kids running here and there can brighten up my darkest day. Even if they don't remember my name, but seeing them jumping around can naturally makes me feel like dancing and singing along with them. That's why, i chose to join Kids Ministry. And i am glad Kids Ministry is expanding slowly. We have bigger team now. Kids are the best method to train your patient. I admit i am someone without patient and hence, i am here to learn. I am still trying though...!I noticed one thing, there is a vast difference between a Christian kid and a Non-Christian kid. A non-Christian kid are generally violence and hard to control. Or maybe my circle is too small that it is time for me to explore the World for a bit? I always have the urge to lose patient towards my cousin for he is really too hard to control and he always have ways to make you flare up. I know it is not good and hence, i am learning. Kids are our FUTURE and we have to serve them with care. It is important to raise up the next generation =)))

Overall, what i wanna say is, i am glad i made that decision to come to Perth. I am sure God is the one who directs me here. I am glad that i am serving alongside with this family. Though we are small, but i can see that every single person has put in their maximum effort to help to expand this family. I am still learning though.....there is always room for improvement. I am glad that you all are part of my life. You guys showed me the way back to God and transformed my life. Though i really want to include each and every single one of you but it would be rather time consuming. So, to sum this all up, i just wanna say, I LOVE YOU GUYS. Thanks for being part of it =)) This is truly a place where i can call it "My Home".

PS: Though i enjoy my life in Perth, but it doesn't meant that i ve forgotten you, my friends in Malaysia. I still love you though....=P

My next blog post - my role as the "Angel of Love".....

The "Memory Lane"

Hello peeps, Sawadika. The Princess is back from Thailand. I felt so blessed spending time with my beloved ones. Life is always good back home. I really love my home and the people here =D Indeed, Machi told me, home is truly where i belong. Whenever things happen, it is always my Family and loved ones who are always there to give me support. And not to be forgotten, my heavenly Father from above.

My most favourite chocolate ever - AFTER EIGHT. How i get to know about this chocolate. When i celebrated my 12 years old birthday, Krystal bought me this chocolate. And eversince then, this has became my most most most favourite chocolate ever. But i don't get to eat it often for it is kinda expensive T.T!! Mummy bought it for me instead =D Love ya Mummy....Honestly i ve been spending money like water since i came back. I haven't even get to hang out with my friends for we went to Thailand. At least i managed to meet most of my relatives and dearest neighbours.

 My sister - the beloved Violin. I always love Violin and Piano. But sadly, i have given up on both of them. I meant my giving up is not in the sense that i don't want to touch both of them ever again. It is just that i don't want to waste money learning and sitting for exams. Instead, i intend to do self-learning. I still love them though and i wanna master it myself. I know my Mummy won't give my beloved Violin and Piano away without my permission.

This Violin is too small for me. I may need to upgrade it to a full-size Violin and to sell this off. So, Good Bye my dearest Sister. You have been part of me since the age of 9.  I have sweet and bitter memories with you. Nevertheless, i still love you =) Please be patient and to wait for my new sister to come. I'll make sure i bring it to wherever i go . I won't leave it to rot at home again, i promised. Life sucks without my sister T.T!

Finally, my beloved family and friends (Neighbours). Did i ever ever tell you that my family always go travelling with my neighbours? Well, it is hard to explain here but apparently we have strong bonding between us. Yes, the 3 families of Molek 1/6. I miss those days when we always cook together and we will have dinner outside our house compound. Pictures can do the explaination. I will update a post about it later on and you'll get what i mean =) This time, we went to Thailand. Look at my beloved kids. They have grown up and i feel so old.

I believe i have lots and lots of things to update in my "Lane of Memory". I called home my "Memory Lane" because it is full of sweet and bitter memories. It feels good to look at those long long ago pictures again. And it feels good to read those messages and testimonies my friends wrote for me. It touches my heart to rewind my long long ago memories when i was still a school student with lots of dearest friends. It makes me laugh to see myself turning into a tomboy at the age of 15 to 17 when the boys started questioning me about being a transexual. Mind you, i was from an ALL-GIRLS school. And to make it clear, i was never a lesbian =P I will tell you the reason why next time.

Oh dear, next time next time next time. I have promised to update this and that but it takes like forever. So, in order to keep my schedule in order. Let me arrange it first. My next blog posts will be in this order :-

1) A place where i finally acknowledged it "My Home"
2) My role as the "Angel of Love" (how i successfully match-make my friends =D) I promised Xuan i will write her this post
3)The life of a baby sitter (Baby-sitting  beloved Christopher, Daylan and Erin)
4) etc etc etc etc.....

Alrighty....Ciaozz people! If possible, i will update a post a day.......=DDDDD

I LOVE HOME!!!

真希望雨能下不停！！

Hello World, I am back to my HOME SWEET HOME! JB is always the best. I don't want to go back to Perth anymore. I love JB! Really, this is where I truly belong. Whenever I faces any problem, my family are always the first person who will back me up =) Of course Jesus is higher above anyone else.

People, I really want to continue from the previous post but this internet doesn't allow me to. No worries, I will update it when I come back. Gotta go for a relaxing trip with my loved ones. Yayy..can enjoy the trip with dearest mummy, friends and beloved aunties. And not to be forgotten, my KIDS. They grown up a lot!!

Anyway, I had lots of fun since I reached home on the 1st December. I love to baby-sit my cousin =)) Thank you Jesus for giving me patience and tolerance. If I were to baby-sit him 10 months back, I would have shouted until I lost my voice.

Alright..I think I'll stop here. It ain't fun at all to type using this phone of mine.

PS: Rainy days always makes me emo. It has been raining for more than 2 days now. Though, I hate to step into puddles but I enjoyed the feeling as the rain hits me. I know I am silly. I know I am not strong. I know the result will be nothing but still I am not giving up. Lord, please give me the strength to hang on to it. I don't want to work things only on one side. I really don't want! Why does it hurt me so?

Okay..emo session is over! It is time to enjoy till I come back. I believe, as long as I have faith, things will be fine. After all, the Lord will take charge of my everything and he knows what is the best for me =))

PS: I miss YOU =(((...Missing a person can be kinda hurt too. At least last time I still can find out more but now I promised him that I won't "stalk" anymore. I really don't know what else I can do. I bet there is really NOTHING I could do. Nothing at all...

I thought I won't feel like this anymore ever since I successfully walked out from one side love 3 years ago. But it seems as if the history is repeating itself again. The feeling is exactly the same like 3 years ago. Thank you Lord for giving me the opportunity to rewind and to unlock this forbidden memories again.

Homecoming!!!

Hello World, in less than 24 hours time, i will be back to my Home Sweet Home. How i miss everything back there and yet i don't wanna leave Perth =( Complicated huh?

Anyway, there are many things which i wanna share but i guess it would take me a while. So please allow me to retype this blog post again when i reach home =))) To cut the story short, i love the life in Perth and i ve learnt a lot from the F.A.M.I.L.Y that i came to know. God is indeed awesome to me =))

Will see you soon ya My girls in JB =)) Can't wait to fly off....

PS: Sorry if i scare you off but i guess this is the only way to express myself. I did struggle to make this decision. I do want to give up but in the end, i chose not to let myself regret over it. I am so so so sorry. Do not feel pressurized or anything....just be yourself =))

I love Miracle......=D

Hello People, I am back. Having a slight sorethroat and fever now due to consuming too much NANDOS. I seriously not gonna touch any of the peri peri chips anymore (well, at least not for the timebeing). Well, i promised Machi Zhi Xian that i will approve her creativeness. Well done Machi for inventing such a creative name for me -Viola Berry Huang (although i don't like the sound of it). Special thanks to you Machi! But in future, please please please don't change my name =P
Murdoch service has finally came to an end for Year 2010. I can't believe that i am actually lucky enough to be part of the team and to witness the first Murdoch Live. Without God, we can never achieve all these. Through trials and blessings, God is the only one we can turn ourselves to. Alright, i do admit that sometimes i still feel out of place in this team due to my super lacked of confident. But i do consider them as my F.A.M.I.L.Y. You'll never know how grateful i am to be saved and all. Thank you guys for being there for me during my emo nemo time and during the time when i was so devastated over my decision to get baptized. You guys are great and i do enjoy serving alongside with you. I believe that all of us can grow faithfully with HIM each day. Continue to keep up the hard work as we aimed for a better 2011. HWAITING....

PS: Our theme for the finale is "Attack of the Nerds" or was i wrong? Anyway, we did have fun =)) Goody goody job =))

I met up with Datuk and Datin Tan that day together with Shermaine and Theodore. As we are too free, i thought of "WRITING" on their walls via BlackBerry. Towards the end, we ended up spamming each others wall. Obviously i lost because they are four against one. Sorry people who has to suffer because of our spammings. It was fun XD. Should try it again next time!! Thanks for spamming guys...

After serving for weeks, i finally manage to lay back to enjoy the sermon today. It was great. Even though i was listening to the same sermon, but you'll have different views towards it. God is indeed awesome. Things didn't started off well today but i experienced a full miracle from God today. Thank you Jesus =) And thank you guys for brushing up my confident =D I am not going write down what happened today. But i'll share it if you ask me to. Truely, God will always watch over us despite of the big mess we made. Here we are, always complaining of the things that happens in our life. We are not satisfied. We are not happy. We felt as if God is abandoning us the minute bad things occur. Instead of blaming God and asking "Why me?", we should always remember that all that happens to us is working for our good.

Miracles do happen!! ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH!! It could be your turn one day =)

Time to buck up and to fight for the last 2 papers. Wish me lucks...=D

Why do i care?......Because i DO!!

Hi World, as much i want to stay away from the computer, but i can't. I have to finish up all the internet quota before i fly back home. Hopefully i can settle all my stuffs before i leave Perth =) Things has changed a lot within these few days. I don't know, i really don't know. No need to bother about me people, for i am typing nonsense again.



Sometimes, i really want to be myself but why do i always care about what people think of me? Since when i care about what people think? I know words are easier to say than done. I can say that i am only living for myself and for God. So i don't have to care about anything at all. But...sometimes, it is really hard to avoid all these. It is like, you still care about how people think of yourself and you mind what people said about you. Why can't i just do it without having to think from so many different aspects? It is not like i can't take critism. I can. Just that sometimes, these sensitiveness can really brings down my confidence and makes me discouraged. I know i always have complicated thoughts. I am always afraid that people will dislike me or can't accept me for who i am. I always fail to do what i want because of the thoughts i had. People always say, "Sometimes you don't have to trouble yourself with all these thoughts. Just do it!!" Oh ya, by the way people, i am not emo. Just some random thoughts. Why can't i put things in a simple way? People, please save me! Teach me a way to make my thoughts simple again. Teach me a way to chase that devil out of my mind, so that i won't worry for all unnecessary stuffs. I know, the only key to unlock all these is the key of "Simple". What i can do is just to make my thoughts simple and try not to be so sensitive. Sometimes, i always believe in my own predictions that i almost forgot that what i predict might not be equivalent to what other people think. Recently, i have a lot of uncertainties towards some decision which i have to make. It could have been so much simpler as i only got to say "Yes" and "No". But because i am afraid of the outcome, and that i am afraid that people around me will get affected and stuffs like that, and thus, i find it hard to make my decision. See? This is what i mean. Sometimes i really hate myself for all these. Why is it so hard to be who i am?

To my dearest dearest Kelly BB, i don't know what i can say to make you feel better. For i don't want to be that kind of person who is good at saying and consoling and yet, i don't set a good example myself. It is like, i am teaching you methods on "How not to be emo" and yet, i am always feeling emo myself. I want us to be happy and cheerful like before. To be the crazy us who don't mind shouting out loud in front of so many people, running around in the shopping mall, sitting by the streetside, doing crazy stuffs, crying and laughing together and etc. We grew up so much eversince we stepped into the World of Leo. I believe everything happens for a reason. There must be a reason for us to meet and there must be a reason for us to lead the life of who we are today. I know that you are facing lots of problems and you can't overcome your stress. Always know what you are doing okay? It really breaks my heart to see my BB in this state =( You know what, you make me realize that all these while, i am always worrying for nothing. The things that always bring me down is NOTHING. You need help BB. Always remember that you are beautiful both inside and out. Do not care about what people think. Just because people don't appreciate us, it doesn't mean that we are not worthy to be love again. At least you did try to fight for it. It is not within our strength to control what people think. I hope you'll stand up again. Whenever you are tired, just stop and look behind, and you'll find me walking behind you. Love can be both hurtful and beautiful at the same time. BB, love is not really that bad. It is just that we haven't meet the right guy. That's all i can say. Don't lose faith in love. Right now, from this very minute, i don't want to let my thoughts to conquer my emotions again. I want freedom and happiness back. And what's more...i want my confident back!! BB, YOU HAVE TO DO THE SAME!! YOU ARE WONDERFUL AND WORTHY. ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE. Thanks for being there for me whenever i needed you. And now, i'll do the same for you. Stand up once again. Hwaiting...

You troubles and complicated thoughts, please stay away from me! Jesus taught me not to hate or dislike anything or anyone. So troubles, i am not hating you. In fact, sometimes i am glad that you exist and thus, it makes me grow! Thanks for stopping by my life....=)) but i am not gonna let anyone of you to bring me down again. Especially YOU,COMPLICATED THOUGHTS. My life would be so much easier if i know how to influence you with simple thoughts. Life is meant to be simple..........just link everything with God and the word of "simple", things would be so much better.........

Unpredictable...

Hi folks, i am not emo. Hmm, maybe i am but not RIGHT at the moment. Am i confusing you guys? Well, then let it be. I am determined to be the usual crazy me again. The girl who wouldn't care of what people thinks of her. The girl who will always pursue her dreams. Wait, that's not me. I don't always pursue what i want. At least not ALL of them. Then i'll mourn over it. It is like "Crying over spilt milk". I can't stand it anymore. I don't want to be emo all the time. I don't want to be so low confident. At least let me be like before, during the time when i was so into "The World of Leo".

Taken at Jus Burger. I was happy to see toys. People told me i really should stop buying toys. It is like a waste of money. But but but.....toys are fun =)) I don't mind bringing Cute Bear Bear or Mumu the deer everywhere i go. My most current favourite toy is the Samurai Sword which i took it out from the Yellow Van when Alph drove me out to collect our ZPH signboards around our campus. It was fun bringing that sword to Utopia and scare some of the workers and customers there =)) I am crazy i know. People said i should grow up but i am already a grown up girl. Everyone can play with toys. It doesn't matter how old or how young you are...as long as you loved them =))

Sometimes, we really can't predict what will happen in the next second. Life is full of uncertainties. Sometimes, we may complain about it or even feel that life is unfair. You know, always entrust all your problems to God and always believe that he has his plans for you. Have faith that HE has his reasons for all trials and blessings in your life. Sometimes, it is best not to question or doubt Him when you are facing uncertainties. Sometimes, it is better not to know anything at all. The less you know, the better of you are. Believe in Him. ....He'll handle the rest =)) When i say surrender everything to God, i really mean EVERYTHING. Sometimes i doubt Him when it comes to "love". I asked him why do i have to be so lack of confident and a nobody(someone who is not worthy or good enough). Just when i thought i can never find my confident and courage back again, He saved me. Thank God for sending people to tell me that i am not hopeless. And i realize we are all special because everyone is of different personality. To Him, we are all equal. So do not be afraid to be who you are. Shine out your personality and be proud of who you are. Always believe that we are valuable because we are fearfully and wonderfully made. God will provide us with an answer to the question that we have been seeking and asking =)

I do believe in Him. When we think that things will turn out badly, it turned out to be likewise.

Okay, i think i am writing nonsenses again. Forgive me if this post doesn't make sense. My sleeping mode is on. Good night World...I wonder when will i start doing my revision =P