Harsh truth

When the ocean rise and thunders roar, I will soar with you above the storm. 

Father you are king over the floods, I will be still and know you're GOD!!

Ps: I am thankful to have this great sister who makes me happy :) Regretted that I didn't build my relationship with her earlier but it's never too late to start now.

Finally, I handed in my resignation letter and all things are cleared. I know I wasn't the one at fault and I know all that I heard are not true. Psalm 145:8 reminds me exactly the same thing that has been said in Psalm 103:8 - The Lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love. I just need to be a little tad more careful when dealing with people in future. Now that everything has been clarified and exposed, I felt more thankful and relief.

I am ready for the next phase. Even though my passion is with kids but my desire is for something else. God, lead me!

My April babies :)

A big birthday shout out to all my April babies :) 

Always love it when kids celebrate birthdays. Why? There will be a lot of cakes, goodies, nice food and fun. The most important thing is that you can see laughters and excitements on their faces. Blessed sight!

I had a good time even though I am kinda afraid of cream cakes now. I had too much that it makes my tummy uncomfortable. Don't like!!!

When the twins are with me...

Drove all the way to Bukit Indah to join the Gideonites for street evangelism. Even though we couldn't catch a glimpse of Chee Wei, but all went well. We are so excited and God has been really really good to me. Once upon a time, I always go street E because I was asked to go. I haven't really spend much time in praying and asking God to lead me to the right person. 

There is something which I have to agree. It is always better to set our hearts right before we do God's will :) 

I felt something take charge while I witnessed to people that day. Can't believe my Chinese could be so fluent. I know my vocabulary is very limited and I always had this fear whenever I start witnessing to total strangers. Yet, all things are good and amazing. People are open to it...and we had a good time.

My focus is to bring my connect group up high to another level. I am praying that God will lead me through it. Let your presence take over...

Blessed birthday Bernado

TAN CHONG GUAN BERNADO!!! You are the greatest testimony that has happened to me. I know you are still too young to understand but I am writing it here to remind me of it in future.

I just want you to know that all that has happened and took place has nothing to do with you. You are too young to be involve in this. When I first met you, you don't even know how to express yourself. All you could do was scream and shout, jumping up and down. You are terrific of food and you just screamed at the sight of it. I lose my temper not because I am angry with you or what. I just felt very sad and angry at the fact that the devil is controlling your life. I want to cast out that devil in you.

Throughout the time when we are together, you improved tremendously. Even though you still scream during shower, eating, and when things don't go your way, but we know you are trying very hard to be  like a normal kid. You have great parents. I understand why they would feel so upset and angry over little matters. Why? Because they love you.

I am desperate to get you healed and I know you will. Do you know how touched I was when I saw you eating real solid food? Do you know how heartbroken I was when I heard that your parents are gonna transfer you elsewhere? I am not the one who changes all these. HE IS!! I hope you will remember to thank Jesus all the time before you started eating. His presence is with you. Blessed birthday my little boy and I love you..

Happy girls

Life is great with them around

We shouldn't hang out too much as the World will shake each time we gather... :) Thankful for them as well...and believing for a great future for them

Little Sunnies

When life gets a little tad disappointing and discouraged, His love never fails. I am thankful that He will  know my mood of that day and provide me with the best medication.

 I am thankful for these little sunnies which never cease to brighten up my day. My head was superb pain that day. I almost broke down.

Now I am glad I have eleven little sunnies. I know I am not always patient. Sorry my little friends... sometimes Teacher V really has a lot to think about and hence my mood gets affected really fast. I am trying my best.. really..

我手心的太阳。。。黑暗里特别明亮。。。

Historical moment

You know it is so absolutely amazing when my mom approached me personally and said I should consider going into full time ministry? I can't describe how I felt at that moment but I went blank. I always thought my Mommy would be the first person to persecute me and object to any ideas of me going to church and being involve in it. Now I can finally sense the power of Your love. 

I love hanging out with my girls. Young as they were but the minute we gather, the World will shake. Great thanks to Mommy for buying us dinner. I am sorry for the things I made it and you know I still love you even though I couldn't be there for you all the time. I promised to be a better girl and you can be assure that I definitely won't forsake you. Sometimes it is not that I don't care. There are words which I never say but it doesn't mean I am not aware of it. I may be crazy and extrovert but I am shy at times. There are things which I find it hard to express too. There are times when I needed your understanding as well....

PINK

I think Pink will be my favorite color for now till the end of the year. Why? Because I am the leader for Team Pink!! Woohooo.. Birds can fly, so can we. 

 It was cool to see them setting those pink airplanes flying. Poor children! They were so stressed having to be under my command. I never once give them any peace and rest because I want them to be discipline. At the end of the day, I just want them to enjoy themselves. Winning or losing doesn't matter.

Kids are excited with all the presents and prizes, but we, teachers are even more excited than them. We decided to have our own gifts exchange. I am happy with my present :)

All in all, we ended our Sports Day successfully. If you care to know, those parents who looked down on us and persecuted us are now praising us all the time for the effort we put in. No joke!Try training the kids everyday for one month and you'll surrender. I am glad we had enough strength to last us throughout the whole training process. GREAT JOB TEACHERS!!

Be a better person

I have to admit, sometimes, I am really not a good friend, not a good daughter and not a good employer. I can't balance between family, friends and work, which is why people around me always feel that they are being neglected or left out by me. It is not that I didn't try but I am just a failure in balancing out everything. 

To be honest, I am really trying my best to be a better person. It is not like anyone else can't live without me. I dislike being neglected and I dislike the feeling of being left out as well. So when I put myself in somebody's shoes, I can sort of understand why he or she feels that way. I am a poor planner...so please please please forgive me if you feel that I am being cold or what. I never change and it wasn't my intention to act that way.

I will try my best to be a better person. Again, I thought of how I once felt left out and uncared by my leader. I just felt so lost that I allowed myself to drift away from anything and everything else. Now I understand how he feels when I acted that way. I am sorry..

Family :)

I love how God always placed the right people into my life. Even if it didn't last long, but I know there is a reason why He does that. Good byes are hard to say. 

I am happy with the way things work out. I enjoyed spending time with these ladies and kids. It is not about the fun and laughters (though this is one of the reason) but it is all about the touching moment when you know somebody is there for you when you are on the verge of breaking down. I know my God comforts the broken-hearted. And I know no matter how many times I cry or shed tears, He will always be the first to wipe my tears away. Thank you Father Lord..

Heartwarming

I don't know about you but I always feel warmth and touched when my kids are close to me. Even if it is just a simple hug, but I am always thankful that God placed me in a position where they can rely on me :) You wouldn't understand that if you are not thinking from my perspective. 

Look at that! Triplets fighting over my little pink whistle. How exciting and cute can that be? To me, it is really exciting. I just can't help smiling at the sight. It is heartwarming :) Sometimes I envy these kids for being so carefree. Kids have their own problems too but surely, it is always better than the real World of today.

If I were to leave today, will I be happy? Will I be satisfy? Will it be enough? Have I done enough to invest in the next generation? I don't know. I really don't know. I will miss them a lot. Like seriously, a lot! I never thought it could be so short. No matter how long or short the duration is, I just hope that I did at least make a difference into the lives of some people. I want to be like "Mary Poppins" who won't stay at a particular place forever. I want to be at wherever and whenever I am needed. If you need me but you don't want me, I will stay, BUT if you want me but you don't need me, I will have to go.

As I said, adults' will always have their own problems and difficulties too, which is why I refuse to grow up at times. Words are easier said than done. At the end of the day, I still got to come back to reality. So what should I do? Let me face the musics!

Le Favorite :)

Tale as old as time

Song as old as rhyme

Beauty and the Beast

I love Disney! From Snow White to Cinderella, from Sleeping Beauty to Little Mermaid, from Aladdin to Beauty and the beast and the list goes on. I just love the songs and the ending of all fairytales. It can never be a sad ending. I know reality and fairytale are two different thing but hey.. sometimes it is okay to day dream for a bit. No harm doing that. Jesus is creative too *winks*

If you ask me to choose my favorite fairytale, I have to say I really can't. To say which is the most touching one, I would have to say it is "Beauty and the beast". It sort of relates to reality. I know beast doesn't exist in real life. You won't know what I mean...

Anyway, I don't know what I am writing about but that shall just be it!

Love the moments

Every meetings never fail to cheer me up. No matter how bad the day seems to be, but I know I'll smile whenever I know it is Friday. 

Why? Because I get to hang out with the coolest people on Earth. Don't be jealous! Hey.. THAT'S MY CHURCH!! Approximately two years ago, I would have stayed back in Aussie and nicely enjoying my life there. My meeting with these people is almost impossible. My God make all things work together for my good. As much as I misses the beloved zone back in Aussie, but my love for these people has grown stronger each day. It is not about trying to make people happy and enjoying all those good times, but it is all about understanding and how to walk with each other through the storms.

I love them..

Philippians 4:4

Thankful to have a great sister in Christ who encouraged me with this out of a sudden. I know it was God-sent :)

Havoc Friday...

It is Friday again!! Again, there are things I heard which really discouraged me. But Hey... Jesus' followers are meant to be persecuted and challenged!!

In the midst of storm, I am glad that God send me somebody whom I can trust. Sometimes, I mean sometimes, I am really ashamed of my own race. I don't understand why we cannot be understanding. My assistant aka partner is a Philippine but she can relates to me well. Through thicks and thins, we stand firm together and that's the spirit. I felt much more encouraged by her.

Apart from that, Connect group always lifted me up but just a short while. I still got to face the music. I am trusting God for that.

Glory in highest

This is something which I promised to testify for the Lord and I did. 

Father Lord, You must be so proud of me now. I can feel the tears and the joy. 

When dealing with this child, I am having mixed feelings. A mixture of patience, tolerance, frustrations, heart-aching, desperate, and love. I don't believe this child is special and I just can't stand the devil who lives in him to take charge of his life. He should be like any other kids, able to eat, communicates and plays around. Why in the World does he has to be so afraid of food? After knowing he is a Christian, I doubled up my prayers for him, hoping and praying for miracles to fall upon this child. I love him and yet I can't help feeling frustrated when I see that fear in him.

Just when I thought I shouldn't be so work up, I began to lay back a bit. Not to say I want to give up on him but I just don't know what else I can do, without hurting him. Just when I was about to think that miracle won't happen, my Father Lord just make things work out. I was overjoyed when I see this boy wanting to eat NEW SOLID FOOD. The usual two containers that his Mommy prepared for him were still full. I am so proud of Him and even prouder of my Father above. Without Him, nothing is possible at all!!

Give us a heart of compassion, for a World without vision. We will make a difference, bringing hopes to our land :)

Blast to the past

I had such an awesome day today and it is worth being tired. Even if I knew I would be superb tired tomorrow, but it is worth hanging out with my girls :) 

I was gonna post about what happened today but Raphy tagged me in a superb memorable picture. That's my CHURCH!! Look at how crazy we are :) We had fun filming videos for our zone. It really trigger back a lot of memories. I am happy that God blessed me with so many great and awesome people in my life. I know there are more to come... I just knew it..

Happy Friday

Sports day is coming soon and to be honest, I have no idea how to get all my kids to march in straight line. I need help!!Having no voice makes thing worst. I wanna sing but it is just so hard to sing without hearing a croaked voice. That's saddening..

Yet, there are things which overlap and altogether, it became good. My babies are all crying out for milk and there you go. You can see them all laying down and happily enjoying their milk. Lucky babies and lucky nannies too :) CG was good as well. We had such a powerful night watch prayer last night and I really hope that things will change for the better. Lord.. You see through all! Help us to strive for a larger goal..

Psalm 103:8 (Re-typed version)

It's April and so many things happened within these few days. Bad day at work, fallen sick, lost my voice and etcetera. 

PS: Once upon a time, I would have been so mad when people try to stop or comment on what I blogged about. This is my blog and I have the ownership to my freedom of speech. But today, I am thankful to that anonymous commenter who reminded me of the risk of not privatize my thoughts. Perhaps I should privatize this blog someday. Anyway, I think the comment was good :) Again, it brought me to another level of "Forgiveness". To forgive means forget. I wouldn't want to keep that piece of blog to remind me of my bad encounter. THANKS TO WHOEVER IT IS :) 

I know things would turn well as long as I did the right thing. I know God is with me because He totally turned the whole situation around. Now, everything has been cleared and my accusers know the truth to everything. Praise God :) 

 Yet, my little Alphie is too cute so I just had to keep this picture :) Really love this sweetie. I still misses my curly-haired darling but this new Alphie is adorable too. Gonna miss him a lot a lot and a lot when he is not around for one month :(

Focusing on God is always the best solution for He wants the best for me. My nursery babies and I had a great time today, decorating our mini zoo. I wish we could just remain in our class forever but four hours seem very little and too short for me now. I am a happy girl :) Psalm 103:8 really makes a different in me...

I am very very excited for what is about to come. I have no idea what is it but I know it is definitely something crazy and good.