HAPPY 1 year old To THE CHURCH @ JB CENTRAL. We are ONE :)

Good day to all. I actually planned to update this post last Sunday but don't know why i dragged till 2 days later which is today XD (After turning one big round, i just wanna say i am lazy). Woohooo.anyway, The Church @JB Central turns one year old last Sunday (29th May 2011). Hip hip hurray!!! Even though i just joined this church like  2 months ago, but this church has certainly created lots of memories for me. I get to experience a lot in this church. We are THE CHURCH AND WE ARE ONE.  God has been really really good to me during this period of time. I get to experienced God's grace a lot. God has been rewarding me a lot too XD Awesome friends + awesome services + Awesome pastors + Awesome events = The Church @ JB Central....

 I hadn't seen people uploading pictures of our church First year anniversary. So these are the 2 which i can find =) Remember how i used to say i joined choir just because i wanna be eligible to audition for Murdoch worship team? I didn't give up that passion within me. God brought me back here and there are times which i really felt like giving up on these dreams. Yet, thanks to a friend of mine whom i met here in JB. She told me not to give up and continue praying to God. He has HIS reasons for everything. When i think of it, it is TRUE. Serving God is NOT about what i like but what He wants me to do. After praying for so long, i finally get to serve in Worship Team as backup singer XD Our God is awesome isn't it? He answered my prayers, just when i was about to give up too. I really enjoyed my current situation now. Things are more easier and happy when you know whatever that you do, you are doing it for HIM and no one else. Love His people and His Kingdom and He'll be please. I believe the vision of "Invest in young children to rise up a new generation who loves God" is coming true soon.....

I remembered i always compare The Church with Zion Praise Harvest during the first few weeks when i am back from Perth. Not only TheChurch @ JB Central but all the other churches too. I always ask myself "Why can't i serve in the ministries that i like?", "Why can't i choose to do this?", "Why this and why that?" and the list goes on. You know how hard it is to have to adapt to a brand new life after setting all my heart at one place(Perth). Still, i have nothing to comment now since i really enjoyed my current life and how God work things out in my life.

Here are some of the things which i wanna give thanks to the Lord :-

1)Giving me a chance to meet more new friends. As i mentioned earlier, even though i ain't close with the people yet, but time can change everything. God said in John 15:17 - This is my command: Love one another. So no matter how un-close i am with the people, i'll try my best to understand them and to love them for we are all God's wonderful creation.

2)Alpha course ended successfully. It was sad but i can see a new family being formed. I believe it is not the end yet. Can't imagine the first day i joined Alpha and now it has ended...time flies....

3)Giving me a place(church) where i can finally acknowledged it "My Home" and blessed me with a brand new Family. Sometimes, i might wanna hide away. Sometimes i might even want to escape from everything. Sometimes, i just don't want to be alone. But towards the end, every Sunday is always the day i can look forward to because it is God i wanna meet XD I can't believe i used to be so emo until i wanna hide away from everybody.

4)Giving me a chance to serve Him. I always tell my friends that i don't wanna backslide and that i missed serving God in Perth. I felt lost. I felt guilty for not doing anything every week for i was so used to the busy church life i have in Perth. So whenever i wasn't serving, i felt guilty. I even have this thought on my mind. "Father, you have forsaken me. You have forgotten me that you don't even want me to serve you anymore :( ". But i was wrong. God didn't forget me. He did not minimize my workload either. Instead, He has given me a brand new task.....something which i enjoyed doing it.

5)For a new life in Singapore. When i told my friends i will transfer back to SMa, they exclaimed "Oh my word, are you serious?People came all the way from Singapore to Perth and now you are going back to Singapore instead!What is this?" You never know how pleased i am with my current study situation now. Lecturers were friendly and great. I laughed so hard until my jaws almost drop. If you never seek, you'll never find XD

6)For everything and everything at all.........my beloved ones, connect group, street E and etc...

The new leaders. Some of them were not here...but in total, we have SEVEN new leaders. Can you believe it? S.E.V.E.N!! God is great. And we have quite a number of people getting baptized on that day. Isn't it AMAZING?? I am honoured to be part of this huge family and able to serve God. I thank God for this great opportunity and instead of feeling all stress out and discourage(Though you can't help it at times), i am willing to take up this challenge God has given me. Never give up, cause He's always there....XD I believe more great things are coming up. We are ready to shake the city of JB XDDDDDD.....

Oh my word, i didn't know this post would take so long. Talking about God always makes me happy. I know i am not a perfect person...but God is just so merciful and forgiving that He forgives all my sins the first time i asked for His forgiveness. I remembered Pastor Patrick used to tell us, if we always feel guilty even after confessing to God and asking for His forgiveness, that shows we don't really love God. If we love Him, we will always know that we are forgiven the minute we ask for forgiveness and sometimes even before that.  1 John 4:18 - Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love. Thank you Jesus....for all that you've done. Till here people, will continue on my random thoughts in my next post XD

Positve thinking

Hey guys,can't believe i am back that soon. Anyway, this is not some new update or whatsoever.Just something which i feel like typing it out since this is my little space. Alpha course has ended officially. We had a most wonderful celebration just now. I felt a little sad but nonetheless, i can see a family being formed. Come on, we are here to transform JB. Hopefully we could stand firm with one another. Shake the city guys..... !I believe it is not the end yet. More exciting stuffs are coming up. THIS SUNDAY especially. It would be our chuch One year anniversary. See that? We are ONE YEAR OLD! We are definitely growing and expanding XD Gooooo The Church @ JB Central.....You can make it through God's grace...

PS: To the "You"...Hmm..what to say? I believe it is like a habit for wanting to check out your blog and facebook. I know i promised not to stalk you which i don't think what i am doing right now is categorized as "Stalking". But it is a pleasure reading people's blog. I enjoyed reading your blog. To me, you have always been an outgoing and bubbly person. And yet, through your writing style, i realized that you are a very deep thinker. You tend to think a lot and often wonder if people would like you just the way you are. Honestly speaking, it is the bubbly you which attracts me though i don't think you'll ever ever notice that. You are not alone...get that? It is good to be alone sometimes, but most of the time, it is better to have someone to share your ups and downs. Our God is a God of relationship. He didn't created us to be alone :) I am sure people will like you just the way you are....... and they are more than willing enough to spend time to listen to whatever you have to say. I'll be praying for the "Past" you to come back soon.......Emo-ness is one of the biggest torture ever. I pray that you'll walk out from this struggle soon....

Hmm..i'll feel emo too whenever i see people feeling emo. This kind of feeling is hard to describe. Anyway, if anyone of you is reading this, don't mind me. I just felt as if i got to type this out as i am too lazy to write it in my diary XD Till here people........Good night!!

HIS wonderful creation

Hey dearie World, i am sick of saying "I am back". Gotta think of a most opening to start my blog post.Oh well, i haven't got time to upload pictures of my Secretive Birthday celebration *Huge sigh* Well, will upload it someday. Hmm..weather's super hot nowadays. Make me don't feel like doing anything. I planned to do this and that but in end, all failed :( WHAT?!! Oh yea...i bunked in at Esther's house on Monday and it was great XD I enjoyed myself a lot. Thanks Esther and send my best regards to your parent's and grandparent's. Thanks for the hospitality. Of course Sengkang is NOT ulu XDD

Oh dear...when i first started school, i thought i would be able to come back every wednesday, but now, i can only go back on Fridays. What kind of rule ICA set for International students? Boring to the max. Anyway, think on the bright side. At least i get to do some really serious studying instead of fooling around. I can make full use of that 3 hours. Teehee...

Wait...look at the picture above. My cousin is very cute ain't him? My main focus is not on his look even though he is really cute *winks* but look closely. I am sure everyone of you held a baby or a children's hand before right? How does it feel like? He is holding MY hand :) I was playing with him when he suddenly wail out loud. Thinking that he might want to hold his toy, i gave him his toy. But instead of holding the toy, he grabbed my hand. I loved that warm feeling of it. It makes me wonder, why do babies like to grab people's hand? They felt insecure?? I know that all babies were brought and held personally by the Lord into this World. Now that they are here, as the Child of God, it it our duty to look after these babies. Feed them, take care of them, raise them up, and love them just like how the Lord loves us. Remember, we were being held the same way by the Lord when we first came into this World :) I am crazy over kids. I don't care if you call me a paedophile or what, but i love everything God has created XD

Had a good chat with Ms Foh, and i am super glad that she didn't forgets me. Haha...stop making me jealous by telling me you get to hug Ryan Higa and Kevjumba. *DISLIKE* Anyway, what i wanna highlight is, i am glad you guys are willing to share your problems with me. At least i don't feel alone and left out :) Knowing that i am always afraid of being reject and lack of confident, you girls saved me. Just wanna say, i miss you all very very much. I am willing to be a "go-to" person to others. My only regret is i am not strong with the word of God yet. Will try my very very best to strengthen myself.

With that, i wanna present this verse to you all. 2 Timothy 2:15 - Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth. I learnt this verse with the kids (With action)....XD So cuteeeeeee.............what now? Yes..do our best to present ourselves to God for He is with us. No one can judge us except HIM....

T.I.R.E.D

Herrowzzzz World, i am back again for a super short update. Haha..i was thinking that maybe i should just update my blog whenever i can. I wanna break my record for this year. Let's say 100 blogposts for one whole year? Sounds impossible right? But God says, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE. So yea, let's see if i manage to achieve a total of 100 blogposts for year 2011 XD

 Finally i manage to get all the birthday pictures from the photographer of the day aka My lovely and most wonderful BB Kelly Ong. Thanks to everyone who attended the party and making it memorable for me. A most sincere apologize from me to those whom i didn't manage to catch up much with you guys :( I'll try my best next time i promised!!I love you all XD

I love you, You love you, WE ARE HAPPY FAMILY. In the eyes of others, our family situation may be slightly complicated, but all i can say is, i am glad God arranged it this way. You're amazing Lord =)

I can definitely feel the stress now....school has just started and i can see all assignments calling out and waving to me. But this time, it is certainly different for i am studying for God's sake. Still, travelling in and out often is no fun at all. Aiks..let me complain for a while and i'll be fine. I am super tired man. Oh no...my energy level has been decreasing constantly. I am not someone who would gets tired easily but what happened to me now??? Talk about travelling in and out, i think i am far more luckier than a lot of people. Imagine my uncle (the one whom i am staying with in Singapore) used to travel in and out of Singapore EVERYDAY when he was a student. Imagined him coming home late at nights and have to be out of the house by 5.30am. Hmmm...what now? Appreciate what i have now and be sure that i make full use of the opportunity that is being given to me.

XD I know what i should do now.....live my life to the fullest! Good night World..

Hey Hey Ho Ho...

Hello World...Forget about my title. I have nothing to update and yet i wanna update something to ensure that my blog isn't dead. Well....hmmm...Just wanna thank everyone who made my birthday so memorable. Jenny Lee aka Mummy-san organized an early celebration for me so i really wanna thank those who attended the celebration. Thanks a lot my dearest ones. It was simple and yet meaningful. Just what i wanted =) And also special thanks to those who wished me through facebook or through textings. You guys certainly made my day especially after a super long and tiring day while travelling in and out from SG to JB. Thanks to Sam and the twins for the delicious cake too XDDD

So blessed i can't contain it, so much i got to give it away. Hmm..to show that i really appreciate the blessings that is being given to me, i will brighten up your day by sharing my super weird and ugly long hair picture. See? That's me when i was 13. As my photographer of the day which is also my dearest and lovable BB AKA CHERRY ONG KELLY haven't send me any of the party pictures yet, so i can't share it. What now? Don't laugh...i know it's funny. That's why i don't like having long hair. Can't imagine i used to love having long hair but because of the legendary "Chewing gum" incident, i decided to chop off my hair. I didn't change much aite?? Hehehe...

Till here..will be back for more updates soon =))

Other than me, it is still ME XD

Woohooo guys, i am back once more. Can you tell you from my expression (You can't see me anyway =P) that i am feeling happy? Oh well, not really that crazily happy for no reason, but at least i felt as if all my burdens has been lifted off me. Anyway, just like what Esther and Kelly said, maybe i just needed someone to talk and pour out my feelings to, then everything will be fine. I tend to hide everything to myself or vented it all out in this poor bloggie of mine, which doesn't really help to heal my wounds. Anyway, enough of that, i am back for a purpose, and that's to BLOG..obviously XD

 My dearest sisters. How i missed them. My neighbours of course but we used to hang out a lot...ahh..the good old times. Oh well, people, school has started officially. I am adjusting to the life in Singapore which is pretty cool for me.  A Whole New World for me, and i have pretty good feelings about it. I can feel the stress, come on!!BRING IT ON!! I am willing to take this challenge in order to fulfill my dreams.

I think i sounded super duper emo in my previous posts. No worries at all, this shall be a slightly more happier post. Everything's fine now people. Don't worry. There is someone up there who can put everything right for me. He is none other than my dearest and cutest Father Jesus. I mean, i can't do anything right? I am not the one who decide what outcomes will be better and i am not the one to judge also. So, "let it be let it be let it be ohhh let it be...whisper words of wisdom, let it be..." I am addicted to this song. What now? As usual, pray hard and let God do the rest. Remember He still loves me despite the fact that i ain't perfect.

You know what? Maccas is such a bad influence..i got so addicted to it that everytime people asked me "What do you want for breakfast?" I would say "Maccas". Then they would again asked me "What you feel like having for lunch?" And AGAIN i would say "Maccas". And it goes on...XD I love Ronald Mcdonald. Better not get addicted with it, for it is unhealthy...but oh, can't help it.

So, do you feel like having Maccas now? Call me if you feel like having Maccas anytime, i will forever say "YES" to it. By the way, Kelly took that shot of me above using my BlackBerry. I was thinking, why not i write something about myself?

PS: Don't run away. I am so not going to write a whole biography about myself but just some random thoughts and my point of view =)

Who is VIOLA?  What would you answer? People would normally say "Duh..that short girl", "That short hair girl" or " That very noisy girl" and etc. Yet, somebody who knew me well would have answer "Oh, that very talkative girl", "The girl who always hide everything to herself and very emo","Girl who always got bullied by people", or "Girl who don't know how to say NO", and etc. See the difference? Well, there is no right or wrong between the two parties. Both were right. It is just certain parts that you witnessed in me =) My views for it? Woohoo...here you go. Well, honestly,  I DON'T UNDERSTAND MYSELF AT ALL. If you say i am a happy-go-lucky person or a bubbly person? Yes, i always laugh heartily even at something which is not funny. Yet, i gets emo very often. If you say i won't say NO to people, Oh, i always say NO to my parents (That's not good..Don't learn it). If you say i hide everything to myself, Yes, i think i am that kind of person but that doesn't mean i don't trust you. I just won't go round, telling or sharing things unless you ask me about it. If you say i am talkative, yes, i am, but i can seriously be super quiet and you wouldn't like that. If you say i am very emotional, well, maybe yes and maybe no..because when i think over it carefully, i'll be like "What?I seriously cannot be like that. I have to put things right!My Heavenly Father will give me strength". If you say i get bullied easily, well, there are people who are afraid of me for they think i am too fierce.  It is a bit contradicting...but i seriously don't understand myself at all. But yea, the girl whom you guys knew has always been the same. What makes me different is that spiritual characters in me. Thank you Jesus. Apart from that, everything is still the same. Everytime, people will say to me "Viola you have changed. You are no longer as fun as before!" But trust me people, i never did once change myself. I could be crazy if you want me to. I could be emo if you want me to or even noisy. I am who i am....

Something to share again, which applies to my daily life. God always taught me to be patient and not to flare up easily right? To me, it is the hardest thing ever. I mean to transform myself from a hot-tempered person to a good-tempered one is not an easy task, especially when you are dealing with your closest kins. Take my current situation for example. I don't like doing house chores...like seriously 100000000000x dislike doing it. So when my mummy-san asked me to do house chores, i will be like "I don't wanna do it" but will gradually stand up, grumbling and unwillingly pick up the broom and stuffs. Imagine you are doing it with full of anger and fire all over, and yet, after doing it for a while, you'll find pleasure in it and you'll smile while doing it. That happened to me JUST NOW. Main point is, why am i like that? Why do i have to show my mum a grumpy and unwilling face, then only i'll get up and do it? It is that same old human nature within me i guess. I guess i just don't like being nag and nag all day long, especially when i have to do something which i DISLIKE. So, what i am trying to say is that, sometimes, it is not because of me rejecting my parent's requests and stuffs like that, but i just don't like to feel myself being pushed or forced to do something which i don't like. I know i will have to say "Yes" in the end..so why not let me do it willingly? I know i will do it but just don't like being pushed. So there goes the same for my disciples, i mean...yea, unless you are still young, but if you are old enough to think, i'll let you realize what is important for you. And you'll come to me willingly =) Even, we, as normal humans, we dislike being forced, so we better not inherit the same pushy nature....if not, people will run away the minute they sees me XD That would be really sad.

Alrightey, my dad is getting impatient, for i am using his laptop *Big grins*....i better hand it back to him before he starts nagging at me and i'll be grumpy again...till here....love you all XDDD

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"Lord, i am sure i need You right now....like really RIGHT NOW. Help me to stay strong and focus. Turn all my attention to You. Things just don't work out. I will follow You each day. Help me to save them....like really hold them close to You"

Oh dear, i am certainly missing out a lot of things. Like One day Hillsong conference in Perth and as well as the official Hillsong Conference in Sydney T.T!!I want to go.....*sob sob* I am missing out Boombox Tour as well. Sorry Raphy...i thought i could attend your First concert with Niga Higa, KevJumba and Jayesslee. I wanna GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..........I wanna get their signatures...XD

PS: I don't wanna miss you anymore for i don't need that boy in my life. But i won't regret or mourn over every single decisions i ve made =)

Why do things come at the same time? It is annoying and i tend to be all moody which i really cannot take it. Lord, Rain down on me.............and let Your presence falls on me...

♥ D.I.O.N.E♥

Hello World, are you guys having an awesome time? It is near to the end of the week already...i hope you are all making the best out of your time XD I know i am kinda emo like few days ago but things are getting better. I am alright with The Queen already. Not to say she has completely understand but things are certainly getting better. At least we did talked now. Thank you for all your prayers guys♥ I realized i still prefers to write long post in blogspot instead of Tumblr. Why? Tumblr is too complicated for me...perhaps i am too lazy to explore it =)

 Dione and myself. I met her during my orientation where she was the volunteer for international students. As a new comer, all i could do was to look out for people wearing red so that they will assist me. Due to the fact that i stayed quite far from Murdoch University as i wasn't allow to move into my hostel yet, i only attended one out of five days orientation. So obviously i wasn't close to them at all...and all i could remember was Alph's (which later became my Zone supervisor) face. Little did i know, most of the volunteers were actually from Passion, which is a Christian group, associates with Zion Praise Harvest. Murdoch is actually one of the smallest zone among all. I wasn't close to anyone at all and everyone seems to be blended in quite well. Dione doesn't seem friendly to me in the first place. She has this kinda fierce look. But nonetheless, i was brought to ZPH by these Murdoch people and was encouraged to attend cell group. It was then i realized ZPH is actually a very large church which consists of 3 zones or more - Murdoch, Curtin and UWA, including all the Young adults, young families, youth, and etc. Lucikily for me, Murdoch zone was on the verge of setting up their own church service so we don't have to travel all the way to Curtin on Sundays morning. The distance is around 20mins drive from Murdoch to Curtin University.

I witnessed the First Murdoch Service which was so memorable to me. It seems queer for our service will be on Saturdays instead of Sundays. I was given the honor to serve as ushers. That's when i interact more with Dione for we were in the same team. Time flies. Without realizing, my first semester is coming to an end. I learnt a lot through serving and got to know God more. Still, i wasn't at all close with this team. In fact, i feel weird and uncomfortable. I tend to be very very quiet except with Alph for he is a big lame joker. Nobody can be normal when he is around =P I thought i was gonna be like this for the next semester until God opens door for me. He put me in the core team and broaden my view by putting me in various ministries. Still, i really feel uncomfortable. Come on, i really don't know them well. I always isolate myself by not joining them in their fellowships and dinner gatherings. True enough i attended church services, but i am always the first to rush back whenever it ends. I was asked to spend time with the core members and to build a firm relationship with them. It scares me when i had to attend their intense training last winter. That's when i realized i had to really commit myself and time to God. For i am serving in His Kingdom.

Dione aka Dee came to my rescue when i was just alone. I mean i am alright with the others (core members) but still, you can't just blend in like that. It takes time. She came back from her winter holiday right after our 3rd to 4th core members meeting. She has been a really good friend to me. Always brought me to maccas and forever inviting me to go out for lunch and dinner. In the first place, i thought i would be very lonely throughout the whole winter for i was the only person who refuse to go back to JB. But it ended up, i have no spare time to myself. I was being kept occupied by them which is a good thing. I have not only learnt a lot of things, but i gained lots of friends too. Friends whom will never ever leave me and will always turns up whenever i am in trouble. I began to love this zone and the people more and more....!Thank God for everything..

I'll never forgets how God has transformed my life....by placing Dee in my life. She is always the first person who would come over to pray for me. Especially during alter calls and when tears started rolling down my cheeks...

Dee, I just want you to know that you are awesome. You are not alone. If you hadn't come over to talk to me or kept me occupied throughout the whole Winter, i would have resign myself from being a core member long ago. The Dee that i knew is a brave, helpful, lively, crazy, caring girl with a most loving heart. I can see Christ through you. You ve taught me lots of things. You bring me out from my comfort zone. Because of you, i became closer to Edwina and Sophia. We are like the best girlies ever♥ Thank you for trusting me with all your secrets and problems. You are always the one who will pray for me and give me the best advise ever. You will cry with me whenever i broke down....Thank you for those "many many" stuffs which you have done for me. To you, it might be little, but to me, it worth a million. You are part of His plan as someone who guided me back to God. I am glad i made the right decision. For i will stick with Him for the rest of my life...

Now that i know you are facing struggles too. I want you to know that you are not alone. Be strong..for the Dee that i knew will always stand firm. You are the child of God...and through all good and bad times, His love for you will never ever change. You are not friendless for you still have us. Though i am nowhere closer to you, but that doesn't make any difference. I will still be your friend =) God love you so much and you are certainly a blessing to me. Like what you said that you are always ready to hear me pour out all my sorrows and happy stuffs. I am going to do the same too. I will always always be here whenever you needed someone to talk to. Lord, rain down all Your blessings upon Dione. Let her entrust all her burdens upon Your mighty shoulder........

PS: I just felt like writing and writing non-stop...but time didn't allow me to *Big sighhh*.........Arghhh..i definitely misses my girlies a lot!!I would rather be a blessing to others than to stay in my comfort zone..........

What now? I am off to sleep..........The Lord is awesome.....XD You know i'll always love you....

Down Down Down Down Down ....

Hey World...you know what? Sometimes i felt so sorry for my bloggie. It is either when i am too free or when i am feeling moody only i will remember my bloggie. Then i'll be spamming and spamming as if nobody knows how to read. Now i feel like singing "Down" by Jay Sean. Baby are you down down down down down....!I am so DOWN right now. Alrighty i think i am a bit crazy + moody + upset. *Dislike* this kind of feeling. Alph told me that *Hate* is a very strong word so i was trained not to use hate in every situations =) So, i really really dislike this kind of situation.

 My official poser, Ah mei and me. It has been so long since i last camwhore with her. I miss those times when we were little, and we used to camwhore everyday. Time flies and everything changed. I am glad we are still very click with one another =) Thanks for always cooperating with me.....you are forever my official poser!!!

Alrighty..i am a little out of topic. Why am i so moody? What else can makes me moody apart from family's,friends, studies and relationship? The Queen (Mummy-san) scolded me terribly yesterday. Apparently she thinks i have given too much time to the church. She didn't think what i am doing is serving God. Instead, she thinks i am just wasting my time and doing meaningless stuffs. *Big sigh* What can i do? She just wouldn't understand. Yet, i can't allow myself to explode because the Lord taught me to be patient and show my love to all "Haters of God". How on Earth can i find the right words to explain? She wouldn't understand why am i doing all these? I am doing it for the Lord. He has given me all these visions..and He is SO REAL...that nobody can be above Him.

Did i mention that i felt my amount of happiness has decreased? I know i still laughed and smile every day but it is getting lesser and lesser each day compared to the time while i was in Perth. I misses all your prayers........i miss the time when i could just broke down whenever i couldn't take it and i know for sure there will be somebody who would come over to give me a hug or a pat on my head as encouragement. But back here, i got to stand firm and be strong. It is hard....like really, it is hard to influence them...!I need you all....=(

I tried not to feel discourage over my current situation for i have FAITH in Him. He'll put things right. Sorry for making this post so emo. I just had to vent out everything before i goes crazy. I'll be fine. Though it is hard, but i am not giving up...NEVER will i give up. For i have a bigger vision from Him.....=) Lord, since this is Your will for me, Your will be done. I am doing it for You and no one else.

PS: I always get influence easily over some small little matters. Even if it is none of my concern, but i can just feel upset and moody over it. This is all wrong. In order to serve the Lord, i got to stand firmly. Our attitudes meant a lot to Him. I need You Lord, to help me to meditate myself in every aspects of my life. Refresh me from time to time......for i am Yours....

Till here people.....I am always fine. Don't worry. Viola will always be Viola!!God bless ya....