Easter is here..

Happy Easter to all! Hope you all had a good one. Easter marks the day when Jesus resurrected. It is also a day to remind us that Jesus died and rose again. We got to be thankful all the time. 

PS: I've been sneezing non-stop since lunch just now and it is not a good sign :( I feel so terrible and horrible now. Lord, please heal me!!!

These girls are my good friends since 7. We had an awesome childhood and looking forward to more. 16 years may not be long but I am thankful for those years.

Looking at my entries record makes me realize that I haven't been updating constantly this year. How to hit my 150 if this continues? I can't be lazy anymore. Less updating also means I haven't really been meditating over things. That's not good!! I must discipline myself more.

Oh well, out of the S.P.I.C.E concept, I really dislike "E" (Emotional) the most as it never fails to overwhelm me. Even I, myself can't make up my mind if I should be happy or sad at times. I am always strong and steady over serious matters but when it comes to tiny issues, I always finds it hard to overcome it. Why is it so? I really don't know.

Good Friday

Good Friday is always a day when we are grateful that God made this decision to die for us on that cross. It is not about Him wanting to be noble and famous but WE are the reason why He is on that cross. Be thankful.. 

PS: According to Terence, we are suppose to wear black and feel sad on Good Fridays but sad to say that, I actually wore a rainbow colors dress and I felt like an Easter egg. 

Came back late on Thursday night and hence I slept my morning away. Woke up feeling really drowsy and moody. Maybe because my schedules' are all messed up which caused me to be really unhappy. Eeeeee! Met up with Eric and tried to encourage him to be positive about getting his friend saved.

Service was good. I can fully imagine how God has suffered for me through all beatings, mocking and nailing. Sometimes, when I accidentally cut myself or bump myself into something, I feel as if the pain is unbearable. In the same way, God intentionally suffered for me, bearing all those pains and shames. Who I am to complain over all these eenie minie tinie issues that I face in life?

All in all, I just wanna say, Thank You Jesus for making this decision to die for me 2000 years ago in order to save an unworthy soul like me :)

Wish things would remain the same...

*Mixed feelings* I am at the airport currently, waiting to board on the plane to fly back to JB. Whenever I am in SS15, I can't help but feeling a little overjoyed at the fact that this was the place I used to study in. This place brought back a lump sum of memories of how I met my life-long group of buddies, my first relationship, the good old times, good food and the crazy stuffs I used to do. Oh boy..I do miss this place a lot. 

Met up with my girls and I really can't help wishing and wishing that I could go back to those good old times again. Not to say that I refuse to move on.... but there are times when I can be a little tad kiddy and wish that I could remain in the same stage forever. That meet up with Li Xuan, Kon and Chloe made me realized that I have long forgotten WC and that I don't even recall the fact that I used to confess to him and those crazy memories that I have done. How forgetful I am....but yes, thanks for reminding me that I used to be crazily in love once. Even though all of us are heading towards different directions and paths, but we know our hearts remain the same. Thank you for bringing me so much joy girls :) It is such a blessing to have friends like you all.

There are more things which I want to share but time is limited. I have been seeking God a lot during this trip and every time before I headed for my course. God has put a lot of things into my heart lately and most of the time, I am confused over it.  I learnt so much within these few days and I know how I should treat my kids when I comes back. People! Hmm.. speaking about people, God really taught me a valuable lesson two days ago. You know I really dislike politics and yet I can't stop it from coming to me. Catherine told me things which shocked me and I have to admit, I felt so upset and disappointed, and I really wanted to confront that person and tell her what I think. Psalm 103:8 says, "The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in love". The minute I saw this verse, I know I just had to let it go and release forgiveness. I was touched by what I read and I am so thankful that God rescued me just when I was about to lose control. I am perfectly fine now just because I know there is someone up there who loves me genuinely...

Stay tune for more..

Random thoughts

We had our March babies birthday celebration yesterday and it was so fun. It was a blessing to see smiles on the faces of all children. 

 I want to adopt this three boys. So adorable and precious! I would have been so happy and overjoyed if I could get a pair of triplets. Anyway, I love them.. awhhhhh..

Blessed birthday to all my favorite babies. May you grow up into good kids. May God rain down blessings and blessings upon their lives.

I don't know how long will I be in this field. I am hoping that it will be long term as I really enjoy and love whatever I am doing now even if Mommy don't think that way. Come on, I know every mommies want the best for their child but God didn't lead me to that path. So....I am sorry. I don't need the whole World to understand or know what I am thinking or doing because my Father knows it all. I don't even need to defend myself or explain.

Sometimes, it is so hard to find a person who understands you even when you say nothing at all. That's why I would rather be silent and surrender everything to God..

Blessed 22nd Alain

A big belated shout out to my dearest buddy for life, Alain Leong!!! I am so glad that you are climbing higher for God. You are turning for the better and I am so superb proud of you. We have interesting stories and we are SO ALIKE in our characters that we could almost be twins. 

 Recalling back...do you know how much I dislike you when I first met you? You were so arrogant and unfriendly. I didn't know you thought exactly the same of me :P Then I realized we both actually dislike each other! All thanks to Matthew, we turn from enemy to best friends for life. I really appreciate it. Without you, there will be no one to joke, to lame and to pour out my heart to. Without you, there will be no one who would go for random long walks and random trips to the city with me.  We are crazy! Yes we are really crazy. Without you, there would be no one to nag me when I was gonna spend my money on expensive books (it is expensive because it is in aud dollars). I've been telling you all the time that I don't mind spending money on books, but because of your long-winded nag, you could really turn off my reading mode. I remember myself always chucking the book back on the shelf, walked out of the shop grumbling, hitting you and shouting at you for being so "potong steam". We would spend hours dreaming about dreams that we desire it to come true.  We hated each other because we are so alike that sometimes, I don't even have to tell you what I think and you knew it. There goes the same for you.

The whole World thought there is something going on between us. Some even tried to pair us up. Some even assumed that we would gradually gets together. But only both of us know the true meaning of real friend. We are open-minded enough to ask each other if we have ever imagine us being together. To be honest, I don't know. We know each other too well. I hate you at times for being able to read my thoughts and you hated me for exactly the same reason. I know God allows us to meet for a reason :) I appreciate a friend like you. Like seriously... :) Thanks for being a part of my life, witnessing my growing up with God, being there for me, and being my companion for most stuffs. All those hugs and consolations really encourage me during my gloomiest moments. Thanks for making me feel appreciated as well :)

I know God is doing something great in your life and I can see it. Till we cross paths, let's stick still with our promises, goals and dreams!!! I am excited for it... :) God bless ya, my buddy, my brother and my friend...

Love my favorite pair of siblings

I want to remember March 19th and 20th forever, so I shall write a post solely on my favorite pair of siblings and of course their cousins. 

To sum up, they were my students! Used to teach them but I decided it is time for me to move away into a new chapter of life :) 

 Blessed 16th and 15th to both Sherry and Desmond. Well, I knew Desmond first but surprisingly I clicked well with Sherry. They brought me joy and I love them.

I taught Alex for quite a while and still didn't know that all of them were related. It was only when I got tasked to take up secondary classes, only I knew Sherry, Desmond, Ivy, Jacksonn and Alex are related...pheww!! Teaching life gets a little bit more exciting when they are around. I really feel happy and joyful whenever I am with them. Even though they can be a little rascal and sort of big bullies at times, but I enjoyed being bullied by them. They can never harm me.

Sad that I gotta give up on them and couldn't witness them growing up in life. Again, I know, every good things will come to an end. I will have to move on into a new phase of life. God, You will lead me, won't you? Please tell me that You will be there for me. I love you Lord....

I pray for a prayer of blessings over these precious people. May they succeed in life and grow in a righteous way. Use me to guide and lead them into salvation Lord... I desires to see them in Heaven one day...

Unspeakable joy

So.. what should I blog about today? I know if I surrender everyday to God, He will definitely make it better and fruitful. 

Sometimes, I may feel physically tired of repeating my daily routines. But the minute I see all the smiley faces of my precious ones, I feel really happy and joyful. This is the reason why I love hanging out with kids. Just because they are so innocent and harmless. Words that they said can never harm me because I know they didn't say it intentionally. Perhaps I should learn to practice the same attitude towards every situations in my life. I need to rededicate myself back to my first love again since I want to go into a higher level. Who doesn't know God is good?

Went Street E with the church yesterday and it is sad to see many people rejecting the gospel even before we could share it. JB certainly need Jesus!! Oh well, there is always something to learn from each experiences. We shall not give up. Perhaps I just need to be a little tad bit bolder than before..... hmm...maybe..

My little Darling

My days has been awesome ever since Le Le came back. He was absent for one month and I missed him so much. First thing I did is to give him a hug. I missed his smiles too.. such a sweet boy.. 

 I always long to see him smiling and making chuckling sound. He likes to giggle. I was surprised when he suddenly stretches his hand out to me and indicate that I should eat the biscuit. So adorable and I really got carried away..

 I really love his smiling face. He loves to giggle and is very cheeky and mischievous at times. I always tell my assistant that I must look at Alphie often so that in future, my kids will look like him.

See?? This is the reason why I love kids? They are just so sweet and awesome. I love every kids. But this is one of those that I would pay more attention to because he is just so small and adorable :)

Happy when they are around...

Chinese New Year has been great and simple. I like it when it is meaningful. I do really appreciate and treasure the time spent with my beloved ones. 

 This baby is so cute. Can't take my eyes off him when I first saw him :) He is just sooooooooooooooo cute..

My crazy aunts! Life is really great with them. Always appreciate our family gathering....