快乐

为了提升自己，我看我这次还是要用华语来打部落 ：）

从上个礼拜开始
我的日子就很快乐
真的很快乐

虽然得面对很多事情
例如听到一些不该听的东西
撞车
粗心到忘东忘西
但日子还是要过的嘛

我的快乐来自于我这一班中学生
英文班的我不说
因为我才刚刚和他们建立起良好关系
很喜欢志彬，丽悯，Zhi Wei, Ivy, Jacksonn, Mei Yee 和 凯妏 的存在
我们是一群讨喜的人 ：）

我赞成丽倩所说的
你在每个地方肯定会有一个是你很期待很想见的人
她最想见的就是麦宇文
而我呢？ 应该就是那群宝贝中学生吧！（无论是补习或托管的）
尤其是有 Desmond ， 俊乐， 和雅琦 他们的存在
刚开始还真是尴尬
很庆幸现在的情况好多了
我也变的很期待三，四，和五的到来
因为有这么一群让我珍惜的人

跟 Desmond 那么久了但都不怎么了解他
他一向来都话不多
也不怎么爱笑
就一脸很酷很酷的表情
每次只会问他 “会做吗？”
或者是跟他解释时，他只会默默的点头
这就是我们之间的互动
完全不知道对方在想什么
而且还维持了一两个月佐佑
有时幸运时还可以看见他很勉强挤出来的一丝丝笑容
就是很乖很静成绩又好的优秀生嘛
但是近来我发他其实就像我以前所疯狂过的男孩
冷酷又安静的他其实一开金口就可以气死人的
平常跟我不多话
一开口就说我可以准备缩水了
看着他我不仅回忆起以前那快乐的时光
他的眼神勾起了我已往的趣事
我们一群女生都会有自己的择偶条件
有的喜欢可爱型
有的喜欢帅气性
而我呢，当然是看上伪装成天使的恶魔型
恶魔虽然很讨人厌
但你永远是他心中的唯一
只可惜幻想永远只停留在美好记忆中
现实可不一样咯
我会比较注意 Desmond也是因为他是我最看中的那一位
再加上他是张老师亲自转交到我手上的学生
本以为我不需要特别在意特别担心那小子的学业（因为他行的）
但现在可不行了
他的真面目就是 “我才不管那么多。及格就行了！“
我差一点昏过去
也就是这样我才惶然的发现
他根本就是个 “伪装成天使的恶魔”

俊乐呢？
本来就很安静
但观察力非常好
也很体贴
他会特别注意我的车又多了几条被刮的横线
也会注意我是怎么和学生说话
当我说 “你们最好别给我进党，小心我抓你们来打！”
他却说 “老师，你根根就不会打人。 你只会掐死人而已！”
为什么他会怎么说呢？
因为他注意每次我在唠叨Desmond时，我的手都会很自动的去掐他的颈项
这孩子很懂事
虽然生活在单亲家庭
但他还是很乐观
也很爱看书
他也会特别关心我平常在家是过着怎么样的生活
我们变得无话不谈

再来就是我那最好的朋友 “麦宇文”
刚开始跟我闹得你死我活
如今已经变成我最好的朋友了
虽然很冲动
个性倔强
脾气坏
每次破口大骂
但却很讲义气
也是让我最感动的那一位
每当我受委屈时
他是第一个替我打抱不平的人
他根本就是一个恶魔达人
天不怕地不怕
也是一位心地善良的家伙
看着他也会让我回想起以前的回忆
但只可惜故事的尾声我最终还是选者了“伪装成天使的恶魔”

每一个故事都必定有人要牺牲
而那个人往往都是那位最在乎你的人

这就是我的故事
我又有灵感了：）

我要努力掌握你！！！！

华语本来就不是我的强项

但，为了我的梦想，

我一定要努力的掌握它！！

你等着看吧！！

我每次都问自己上辈子到底做了什么好事
为什么别人可以毫不犹豫的对我好？
我明明就很凶
明明每次都骂他们
明明就受不了吵闹
原因不是因为我讨厌吵闹
而是厌倦张老师的投诉
我讨厌她可以若无其事什么都不懂而拿我们来开枪
我讨厌她一直很无奈我把学生当朋友
我讨厌听她投诉我的好伙伴以及朋友的不是
我讨厌她每次都逼得学生走头无路
讨厌的事情非常多
但，这不是我能够判断的事情

我的感动来自于我的学生
我喜欢听他们谈天
我喜欢把他们当朋友
虽然有些年级真的很小
不过这不会成为我把他们当朋友的阻碍
我不明白为什么张老师不能够对他们使用爱的教义
我不明白为什么她一定要使用打骂来解决问题
我不明白为什么她明明疼她的女儿疼得要死，但却对于别人的孩子能够毫不犹豫的动粗
难道别人的孩子就不疼吗？
难道别人的孩子就不会觉得痛吗？
我很心疼
真的很心疼

看到他们送我的画
让我非常感动
我想帮助他们
可是我现在真的没能力。。。。

最近。。。

回想起自己的梦想

我才发现我并“没有” 错过它们

 最近的我很爱看一些能够让自己“振作”起来的书和小说
读了很多篇感人的文章让我毫不自由的爱上这残酷的世界
我很爱对人说教 （虽然不见得很好）
也很感激上帝的恩赐
很庆幸我的“罗嗦”每次都得到学生们的认同
“爱的教义”没有错
错的是在于你怀着怎样的心态和信仰来使用它

从来都不擅长在别人面前教课
但如今，这对我来说是个很棒的回忆
我一向来都很爱孩子
从前从前，我认为自己只偏爱较小的孩子
我不认为自己能够和中学生合得来
当张老师第一次要我带 “中学班” 时，我是多么的百般不愿意
第一天就得罪了一位男同学，只因为他说我不了解他
多少次我得面对他那冷漠的脸蛋
多少次我得控制自己的情绪
背负着压力的我是多么的想拒绝张老师的请求
每个学生都有他们自己的个性
有的很安静 （问一句答一句）
有的就吵得我受不了
有的也很古怪
我到底要怎样去面对他们呢？
我甚至问自己是否学历不足够

感谢上帝让这位男同学被停学三个礼拜
他母亲拜托老师收留他三个礼拜
而张老师却把这个任务交给我
起初我是多么的不愿意
但我现在非常感激上帝
就因为有这次的遭遇让我体会到这孩子并不坏
他只是需要有人陪他谈天
当然，我也学会了怎样去对待那些各种个样的性格的学生
他们都很好
我和中学生的感情就因为 “麦雨文这小子的遭遇” 而变得更好
我变得更爱教学
也很喜爱这些孩子 （无论大或小）
当然，工作方面也难免会产生一些些的不愉快
比方说和老板之间的关系和种种事情
但，我领悟到的就是和上帝保持良好的关系
这就对了

学生们对我的肯定和家长对我的信任让我很感动
一句 “黄老师，你还会继续教我吗？” 就足够于激发我继续努力了
教导孩子不需要很高的学历
也不需要特别训练
我的秘诀很简单
那就是用心去做个快了的自己
若真的要秘诀，那就是 “用心” 和 “做自己” 了 ：）

JB S.H.E

“想念” 是难免的事情

因为一路有“妳们” 真好

她们是我的好朋友，好姐妹，好情人和我的好伙伴。虽然距离让我们不得不分离， 但可恶的距离不会使我们的感情变淡。起初，我真的真的很讨厌距离。在我最需要朋友的时候，她们不在我身边。在我度过21岁生日时，我最大的心愿就是她们能够陪伴着我。可是，她们还是不在。原因是什么？还不是因为有距离这两个字。

不知何时，我和距离成为好朋友。我开始喜欢距离了。我很庆幸也很感激有距离的存在。就是因为有了距离，我们彼此拥有很多属于自己的回忆。也可以和对方分享很多。 当然，最重要的是，我知道她们会一直在我身旁。 就算距离让我们不能天天相见，但，我们还是无话不谈。这样就已经够了。。。。 真的， 已经够了 ：）

有妳们真好。只要知道彼此的心理还是有对方就已经很好了。。。

那个女生

有这么一个女生
她很爱钱但又不怎么爱惜钱
她明知道赚钱很辛苦但却很爱把钱花得一干二净
她的钱主要消费在吃和她想要的东西
非常爱吃零食和甜点
想要的东西都是人们所谓的［没有用的物品］
［没有用的物品］ 包含了娃娃，音乐物品，书，和衣服等等
热爱书但又不舍得买

以其把钱花在贵重的书本
她宁愿买些小物品
反正书只能看一遍
但物品可以拿来收藏
她很爱逛街也很会享受
她是个很容易适应环境的人
她可以待在一个宁静的地方看一整天的书
同时也可以疯狂逛街
她热爱音乐
喜欢听慢性的歌曲
所以只要哪个地方时常播放慢性歌曲，那就是她的第一场所
她是个很矛盾的女生
她可以很挑剔
有时候也可以很不挑剔
她没有特别喜欢某个品牌
但只要是合身或看上的，就算是 pasar malam 买的她都会很喜欢

那个女生有好多伟大的梦想
她想要一个一个去实现她的梦想
她永远都不会忘记实现第一个梦想的感动
她还想尝试多一次

那个女生很不喜欢被打扰
尤其是她正在认真的看书时
或者是专心的听人家说话

你们有你们的世界
她也有她的世界
虽然很讨厌寂寞
虽然很享受和朋友们嘻嘻哈哈
但，有时候她也喜欢独自一个人享受世界

我，就是那个女生

我就是这样， 注定和你们不一样。。。

I love my Selina :)

On the same day itself, after lunch with Aunty Rosalind, I received a text from Selina Bear saying that JB S.H.E should have a reunion. I was overjoyed because it has been a while since I last saw her. And it is almost 2 years since I last met up with Hebe Ting. 

Unfortunately, Hebe Ting decided to go to the LegoLand with her family so we ended up "yumcha-ing" alone. We wanted to unfriend her. (PS: It was just a joke) How could we unfriend each other when we are so close?

I love my girls and I really hope JB S.H.E can reunion soon since Hebe Ting is going off to London and it would be a long time again before I could see her :(

Sweet Water

Decided to "Pang seh" the people and went out for a date with Aunty Rosalind :) 

PS: Not because I don't like you people... but I just wanted to spend time with Aunty Rosalind. 

So where did the four of us go? Aunty Rosalind is addicted to Sweet Water and she insisted that we all go there. We felt bad about her having to pay for us. But when we tell her that, she will be mad. According to her, blessing others is better that blessing yourself :)

What can I say? Thank you very much. Through you, I learnt a lot :) And I love you heaps.. Please stay healthy and happy.

Korean feast!!

Thank you Mommy for treating us to a sumptuous Korean feast!! We weren't expecting the RC gang to join us but they did. 

PS: I can take criticism but NOT when it affects the people around me. Just direct it to me and I'll be fine.

We had a fine time. We enjoyed laughing and joking around. I am secretly happy that we all can come together as one. It is not about the fun and joyful moments but it is all about GOD and His grace.

Vienna

Promised Aunt AJ that both Wilson and myself will take the kids for a day trip to Singapore. We are gonna have buffet and then a whole day of swimming and splashing. 

Buffet was worth to the maximum level!! It is around RM70 after converting but still it is worth. We had lots of Japanese tempura, lobsters, crabs, salmon and sashimi. We spent approximately 2 and a half hour there and ate to our fills.

Due to the weather, we delayed our swimming plan. The kids were impatient and disappointed. What can we do? Thank goodness, all went well. The rain stopped and we were mad!!!

I feel like going swimming again!!!

One day trip to UK FARM

During the Raya Holidays, Mommy suggested that we all go for a one day trip. When I was a teenager, I am very particular about hanging out with my friends...but now as I grew older, I realized spending time with my loved ones is the only thing I ever wanted.  I WILL NOT give up any opportunities of spending time with my family, not even if you give me the best offer ever. 

The place wasn't as nice as we think. It was expensive and I am secretly sorry that Mommy has to fork out a lum sum of money to pay for all of us. So I tried to be as good as I can be to show my gratitude. It is not about the place or the animals or even the souvenirs...but it is all about the time spent with my family.

If only time could be slower..... how nice it will be..

Ben's farewell T.T!!!

I was going to update about Kylie's birthday but I realized I forgot to take a picture of her and her Hello Kitty party. So I shall goes straight to Ben's farewell until I manage to "steal" a picture from Aunty's facebook page :) 

Ben is always a cool guy. I thought he looks fierce and he seems unfriendly during the first time I met him. So honestly, I didn't want to have anything to do with him in the first place. But after our first conversation, I realized he is an awesome guy. He is both friendly and helpful, kind and understanding! There are lots of times when I needed help and no one is there to help. No matter how busy he is, he will always leave whatever that he is doing and said "Alright, let's go!". I knew many people of his age, but no one is as mature as him. I enjoyed talking to him because he is forever figuring out on how to help others. I secretly wish I had a brother like him. I am sad that he has to leave and goes up to KL but I know he will have a better life there because the Lord himself is directing his life.

It is not the look that wins but a good heart wins the race!!!

All the best to you Ben. I know you will be fine...

ONE PIECE

I am not an otaku. I am not a superb anime maniac. I am only addicted to ONE anime. And that is ONE PIECE. 

I was overjoyed when I learnt that "One Piece Cafe" is opening soon in Taman Sutera. If I call myself an One Piece fan, I should definitely pay a visit to the cafe. I did! Honestly, I was kinda disappointed with it because it is not what I expected it would be. Still, the lady told me that everything is not done and settle yet, so we shall be expecting more surprises when we goes there the next time.

Go One Piece!!

Compass-ION

So many things happened in the month of August, and shame on me to only update it during the month of September.

One of my greatest encounter with God throughout the whole last semester was my team work with the Compass-ION. We were told that Campaign Management is a do or die module. It is either you do it or you fail it. Approximately 12 weeks before "Project Reach 2012", Miss Shalu called me. "Viola, I am sorry but I've come to bring a bad news to you. I have decided to close down your group because one student has move to the night class. And if left only the four of you. You know it is not possible to work a campaign with only 4 pairs of hands in a group. Therefore, I have decided to separate you all and move you all to the other teams in our class. " I was suppose to be allocated to "World Vision". I don't mind because at least I knew somebody whom I used to work before. But who knows, Miss Shalu decided to send me to Compass-ION who will be dealing with the "Bone Marrow Donor Programme". To be honest, I felt so helpless. I am not familiar with ANY ONE of them. They have already begun with their work and have already met up with their client. I felt like a free loader in the group.

As the week goes on, I am closer to the group and I realized, together we can all make a difference. Now, I knew more about the bone marrow and how a cheek swap can make a difference to all leukemia patients. Come on, to find a suitable donor from unrelated person is only 1 in 20000. Why not we take action about it? It is only a cheek swap and it won't even cause you your life!!!

I thanked God that our campaign has successfully won the hearts of many out there. We got the third place and all glory goes to God! Why? Because we PRAYED before our presentation as a team. Hallelujah!!!

Results' OUT!!

I don't come here often because I think I already have a lot of ways to keep track of my life. I have a diary to record, a book with all letters to God, and now, my blog.

I was so worried for the past few weeks because I thought I did really badly for my exams. Come on, of all my assignments, all I got was P plus or lesser than that. There's one assignments which I handed in one hour late and I failed for that. I don't really have confidence for my coming test because I need to score at least 16 out of 20 to get a pass.

And so, my holidays seem to be moody and full of worrying. I started to doubt God. I don't know if he will teach me a valuable to remind me what will happen to a person who doesn't make full use of his or her time to study when he or she should. I also started to wonder what if I really flunk in either of those modules? Which means I won't be able to join Dee and the rest for the coming March graduation. Which means, I will have to re-module again and spend at least $2000 per module. I have been telling God, "Come on Lord, give me at least a pass!" HE said I would get whatever that I request. HE said IF ONLY I don't doubt and everything will be done for me. HE said I could even move a mountain? BUT WHY AM I STILL FEELING HELPLESS?

I knew my results would be out within these few days and hence, I was depressed! I just told God, "I don't care whatever the outcomes would be like. If I were meant to fail, then be it!" At most, I would just try to earn that RM4k to re-module again. Maybe just take up a few more tuition lessons or so. Yet, my God is able to make all things possible. I took a peep at my results and I DID BETTER THAN I EXPECTED. HURRAYYYYYYY :)

Two more modules to go. Yes..TWO MORE MODULES and I am done with all studying!! If all is well, I will be joining my beloved Murdochians for graduation in Perth!! Lord, it is done!!I know it is.... You showed me how great you are and here I am defeated at Your feet :)