Anyway, before i move on to the real topic, i just wanna show you some of the stuffs which are quite precious to me. People, i still believe in Fairy Tales. I meant i believe in making my OWN fairy tale come true.
My Fairy Tale
Blessings and wishes from the rest =)
I received this letter like 2 days ago and i had trouble recognizing this hand-writing. I know it looked familiar.....=)
Anyway, i knew it at once after seeing your address. Sowee BB!!I should have recognize it earlier. Thanks BB.......love you...
Simple isn't it???But it is full of words and drawings inside...hehe..i won't show it.For BB written her secrets inside...ngek ngek....!I won't betray you BB..
OH MY GOD...look at this!!TOHOSHINKI- my most beloved HERO JAE JOONG. Guess which is Jae Joong??Obviously he is the most outstanding guy TO ME. Awhh...i went to Morning Glory with Shermaine today and i couldn't find his solo poster and all. Plus, the pen i am looking has been taken by others =( Anyway, i'll get someone to find it for me in back in Malaysia. Saddening...
Sadly, this band is facing a trial of breaking up. What can i say??ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH. No matter whatever outcome is it, i'll always support Hero...Sarangheyo...oh no..i should say わたしあなたが大好きです。。。 People, I ve been reading and thinking a lot these few days about something. But i really don't know how can i draft out this post without making it so obvious. Alright, to make it simple, I hate "Lies" and "Misunderstandings". I repeat, I HATE "LIES"AND "MISUNDERSTANDINGS". Why must these 2 things appear in this World? You know what?You can't defend "Lies". It will be expose one day. I hate lies. Just be honest with me okay?It is better to be honest with me rather than i find out the truth myself. I can't describe the pain of it. I can't stand being lied or kept in the dark. No matter how bad the situation is, i rather you be honest with me better than you tried to hide something from me. Anyway, even if you were my bestfriend or what, i'll still lost trust in you after i know you lied to me. Misunderstanding is no better than lies. A simple misunderstanding can cause two friends to become strangers. So you can see how terrible and scary a misunderstanding can cause. You know what is the best way to prevent all these?Yes..BE HONEST AND ALWAYS TELL STRAIGHT FROM YOUR HEART =) Don't keep everything to yourself okay? We can't control people's mind. Just make ourselves clear and everything will be fine. This is what i learnt for i used to keep everything to myself. I thought by doing this, i can save people from worrying and to stop troubling others. But what i got in the end is people started hating me and all nonsenses. So people, make a wise decision please. Only you, yourself can change your own life =)
I realized, my kids has all grown up!!I know it is a good thing to them but a bad thing for their parent's. Why??Because they will be going through all stages in a teenager's life and parent's tend to get worried about them. I was inspired by Kelnice recently for i know she is in her teen age- sweet 16. Anyway, i used to be 16 myself so i know exactly how she felt. Being a teenager is not an easy task. You tend to get distracted by things around you. For example, love matters, activities, hard to cope with your studies and etc. Girl, whatever you do, you cannot neglect your studies okay? Don't be like me =) I know you are big enough to settle your own stuffs. I know you don't like your mummy to control you, but your mummy is worried about you. Wait till you are older, then you'll know why she act like this. No worries, i'll still bless you and your "Anata". Be happy always......=)
I have been listening to this song- If i let you go, by Westlife. It reminded me of a lot of stuffs. For example, the long ago memories that i ve locked. I used to love this song very very much because i find the lyrics meaningful. I ve stopped listening to it for quite a while. But i decided to listen to it again =) Here goes the chorus:-
"But if i let you go, i will never know,
What my life would be, holding you close to me.
Will i ever see, you smiling back at me,
How will i know, if i let you go......."
People, i've unlocked my "Forbidden Memories" today. In a flash, everything flew back to me. Trust me people, i ve gotten over it!Seriously, i don't feel sad or pain anymore. It is just a long long ago forbidden memories.....once upon a December. But i don't want to taste the same pain ever again..even though i pretty much think i will again. For, i still will make the same decision by not telling or confessing to the other party. I am just so afraid of the outcome. Someone said, "If you continue keeping quiet and not let the other party know, you'll never get him!". Wanna know what i think? True enough i will feel pain, but it is better to keep it to yourself isn't it? I don't want to ruin the friendship. Star told me once, "If he knows, friendship will always be there, but things will never be the same any more!" I agreed with him. And someone said, "What if he likes you too?" Honestly, i didn't think that far. I rather maintain our friendship rather than him avoiding you. BB, i know you will understand this! I have my own mission, Just like you =) I know you will say "What if he likes another girl? Just because you never confess, and you missed the chance?" I only can say, i want him to be happy. By all means, he can get any girls he want. 或许叶子的飘落不是风的追求，而是树的不挽留! If you like someone, you don't have to be with him, as long as he is happy, then it is enough for me. Again, if he is the right one, i will know it =) Just like you...this is how a Setarean should behave. Steady, natural and real...
Dearest dearest BB,
Thanks for the comment but you are like scolding me all the way =( I know what you trying to say so i WON'T go back. Trust me. I am going to enrol in the winter course anyway. So i definitely won't go back. Don't worry...you are going to keep me accompany throughout the whole 2 months. Exciting isn't it? You should feel happy for you have the privilege to keep me accompany :P Yes i know i am better than a lot of people. For i don't have financial problems but, i miss The Queen. The Queen miss me too. T.T T.T!! She is all alone and lonely back at home with no one to accompany her. You know what, when i asked Ah Shuan and Wawa they all how is everyone doing back at home, they actually said they seldom hang out eversince i flew to Perth. It is like, even Mummy-san also seldom hang out with them. Everyone is busy with their own stuffs. Mummy-san is troubling over having no one to replace her supervisor ( Who has just passed away recently). I know she wanted to come over to visit me but with this situation, she can't even leave her office. I just want her to be happy and not over-worked. What can i do BB? Will you help me like how you promised to after you read my diary? I have something to trouble you again. You are right too BB. I don't want to know how many "Tomorrow" i still have but i want to know how many dreams i have achieved. I read this line from somewhere “人不要等明天，因为没有人知道自己有没有明天”This thought is so negative. I meant i kinda agree with what its say but i am not going to mourn over it. Since we know life is short, then why don't we just live it to the fullest. Do what we can as long as we don't let our parent's down. Right BB? I am going to save and get my MRS CAMMIE as soon as possible. Don't wanna lose to you..bluek!Haha...you are going to teach me how to use Mrs Cammie. You better save up too. Get those ipod touch or whatever is it off your mind.I expect you to come and visit me in Perth next April. Remember our BET?? I know i am not going to lose...hehehe! I want my Utopia. BB, i know you felt lonely and emo at times. Don't let your two princes affect your mood okay? Just think over it carefully. At least you are better than me. If not, i exchange with you? Study really hard okay? Tell me if anything happens. Enjoy your stay in our beloved home- JB. You'll realize it is a wonderful place after all. At least it is where i have been staying for the past 20 years. I can't reply you a really long one because you haven't tell me about your problem. So this is all about me anyway...!BB, it is not that i don't want to reject, but i really can't bring myself to reject. This place is not like where i used to be. You can't do as you like here. The thing meant nothing to me at all. Maybe because i don't want to offend people....=) I don't know. I think i will be fine. Don't worry.....i know you will support. Even the whole world is against me, but i am not afraid, because i know, in a far far away land, there is a Princess who will always be there for me. And that is YOU!! You are also another one who can accept the real me =) ほんとうにありがとう。。。。!!I know it take ages to wait for your reply because my dearest BB-san took a long time to update her blog. But i will be waiting and waiting for your comment. Ps: I want Christian Dior and Chloe T.T!!Hahaha...Perfume rawkzz!! Love you too
Sorry World, for all these rubbishes. Anyway, i received a complaint from Ting and some other people saying that my post ever fails to be long. Sorry guys...i actually have too much to update but i really don't know what i am typing. I think i should use the Word Count next time. I will try to shorten it people, don't worry!!In future, just skip through the last part because that will be my reply to my dearest reader no 1, my BB-san!!Sorry World...i'll see you soon. Love you all....=)
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