Me currently

Head spinning
Vomiting
Nose block
Fever

Why does all these always have to come back at this similar point of time?
All the messages that I always re-read all the time and smile like an idiot to myself are still very precious to me until he said it is very "fed up" to him. Every good morning, kisses and all are motivations and something that I always look forward to every day but now I know it is annoying to him.

Like a corpse now
Everything else is alive except my heart
It is empty