In situations like this...

Hi Father Lord,

In times like this, I really wish I could jump straight into Your loving arms and hold You real tight. I love my busy schedule. I really do. Yet, I really don't understand why Mommy is always so emotional. I know she is not feeling well but what can I do? When I laze around with nothing to do, she will nag and nag and nag. Right now, I don't spend as much time with church stuffs like I normally do, and yet, she is unhappy about it. What does she want? I really don't know. 

Lord, nothing beats the fact that I could feel Your presence. Today, I just merely pray and ask that You will lengthen the time for Darryl so that Lee Cheng could spend more time with him. You just intervene in his time without even waiting for me to ask you. Aren't You awesome? Even though many problem occurs, but nothing compare to this joy when my friend told me personally that she wants to get near to JESUS. Listen here!!! An unbeliever like her who confessed to me that she will never ever accept Christ the Lord. Now, she texted me saying that she wanted to know Jesus!! How awesome can it be?? Father Lord, You let me experience a whole YOU today and now I am praying that You will intervene in my schedule and in my mom's schedule so that it won't occur to her that I am not in all the time. Father, help me to do what You want me to and let me know that it is Your plan that everything falls like this. You promised me that as long as I am saved, my whole family will be save too. I'll hang on to it no matter what happen! 

I'll do you proud Father Lord :) Here I am, at Your feet. In my brokenness complete....

Love from your daughter,

Viola

Drawing Near

Sunday is always my favorite day. I need to confess something, as much as I do enjoy serving, but getting up early in the morning is never something I could handle. Especially when I did not sleep well the previous night, so I was kinda tired and moody when I arrive church this morning. 

Still, I remembered the sermon that Jeremy preached two weeks ago and I decided to throw away whatever emotions that I have and leave it outside the door. I will enter church with a happy and joyful feeling. 

PS: The picture above shows my beloved colleagues. Three months' not exactly long and yet not too short for us to get to know each other better. Good encounters will never last forever. There will be a day when we have to say Good Bye to each others. The day is coming soon...I wonder what kinda emotions I will have.

Today, It is all about drawing near to God! I want God to do something for me and not just for the others. I want to see a great breakthrough in my life. I want to encounter Him over and over again.

Here are the list of things that I want to see God's presence over it :-

1) The salvation of my family
2) For me to have more self-control over my time management
3) Give me a specific answer if I should or should not continue working in the place I am working right now
4) Give me a specific vision on the path and route I should take
5) Blessings over my beloved ones

God, sometimes I may failed you..... I can't help it. I am born with fallen natures and I can't overcome temptation as much as I want to flee from it. You are the one who are able to hear my out.... touch me with Your hands...

Blessed 23rd Dee :)

A big shout out to Dee, my dearest friend in Perth. Happy belated 23rd :) 

Sorry for this late birthday post. Just for your information, I know your birthday is on the 25th October. I never once forget that :) I am only free now to update this post :)

Dee, you are a great friend to me. I will never forget how you appear into my life during the lowest period of time when I was just alone and finds it kinda hard to blend in to the unknown zone (which has became the sweetest thing that has ever happened to me). I just want to remind you that you are a great person. You are daring. You are bold. You are confident. You are outgoing. You are friendly. You are just wonderful. You may think that you have your flaws but all these has already cover up all your flaws. Nobody is perfect and yet I think you are great. These are the values that I envied.

I miss the times that we spent together. It is always an encouragement to me when I am down. I'll never get bored of scrolling pictures of our past. I know that we are graduating soon. So I wish you all the best in your final semester and I know God will be there to make thing perfect. I miss you Dee and I hope that in every situations, you will always be the Dee that we loved so much. You'll never know that all these values of yours could be a life savior to millions of people out there. I was lost but God sent you to find me. Therefore, I thanked you dearly......

A promise is still a promise. I'll visit you all during graduation. And it is all set!!!! Greater plans from God will come in the way :)

Happy 23rd birthday..... God bless you :)

From Disable to Able

I always wonder what I can do for God since He has blessed me with more than I ever deserves. For a long time, I have been wondering what talents I have and what did God sees in me that He choose me to be the incredible. 

Life is always like this. Humans are always focusing on something which they cannot do and neglect the things which they could do. Just like one of the literature component for all secondary schools, I read this short story called "Flipping Fantastic" by Jane Langford.

It is a story about a pair of twins who will be leaving their primary school and going up to secondary school. All their life, this pair of twins always stuck around together. Of course, one of them was disabled and has to sit on a wheel chair. Both of them have their strengths and weaknesses. Their Mom, being very sensible told Tristan, the kid who is disabled, that she is not interested in what he cannot do but instead, she wanted to rejoice in everything that he could do.

I bet God has the same thought and expectation for all of us. Without Him, we literally are nothing. We cannot even do the simplest task without God's strength. What now? Focus on what we can do and be "able". God sees a lot in You if you are wondering why you are always being place in a difficult situation!! Fight your way out...

My life..

我又回来了

本想用英语来表达

但，有些事情还是用华语来形容会更好

 这群中学生的活力足够于令我抓狂
想到以前的我们那么的不懂事，我还廷同情我的老师
他们虽然调皮
虽然很叛逆
但他们还不算坏
他们只会来一点小小的反抗来证明自己已经长大了
他们有很多我不知道的一面
有时很难理解
真的。。。很难

关于感情
我虽然爱和他们开玩笑，
但我并没有认真思考过
万一有一天我真的动了情
那该怎么办呢？？
感情虽然好
但总是要有个距离会比较安全

我和丽倩很爱开玩笑
她总是说老麦是她的型
我也跟着闹说Desmond是我的型
因为他很酷

但我万万没想到
丽倩真的对老麦动了真情
只因为老麦的小小改变就可以让她失眠好几天
虽然很荒唐
但是我还是很支持这段感情
因为现在我觉得 "Nothing Is Impossible"
如果会觉得后悔的话
那我宁愿你去尝试一下
再决定要不要放弃
你们也许认为我不该赞成这样的一段感情
但是我尝试站在她的角度想想
如果今天对小八岁的男孩动情的是我
我也希望可以得到别人的理解
也希望在这世上会有那么一个人能够站出来支持我吧？？
我不知道
因为我没经历过这样的事
也许 “败犬女王”  的定义就是这样？？

某天
张老师问我
“我在想，你和老麦走的那么近，他会不会对的动情呢？”
我直接就否认
因为这是不可能的事
不过这只是我自己 的想法
我并不知道未来会怎样
坦白说
我也没有认真的想过。。。。。。
也许这就是女孩子丰富的想象力吧。。。。

Video taking part 1

For the sake of MCC315, our group came up with this idea of making a video. Hopefully it will be great!!!

I knew it earlier that one day is definitely not enough to take this video. It is super tiring but I hope all is well!! Mid term is coming soon and I am definitely not ready for it!

Wish me lucks :)

English it shall be...

Well, it has been too long since I last written my posts in English. For some reasons, ever since I became a teacher, I just feel like mastering my Chinese so that I won't be the odd one out. I guess I do need to improve on my conversations in Chinese and as well as to read more chinese books. 

I love musics! I love writing! I love talking! I love being joyful! I love and I love.....!!
I have my dreams!

No I am not merely dreaming but I am trying to achieve my goals in life. I WON'T GIVE UP!
Talking about "Trials bring joys", I do agree with it now since I experienced it in real life situations.
Nobody loves to be in a difficult and hurtful situation, but when it does happen, I would like to urge all of you to be optimistic about it. I was talking to a good friend earlier on, and we realized we have grown up along the way. I would like to apologize to him because a lot of times, I don't even have time to even to stop for a chat with him. I know I am a bad friend and I felt bad about it. Yet, he is ever so nice to me. I am sorry friend and I promised to be a better friend from now onwards.

This is actually a confession from the bottom of my heart. I've seen too much and doing my own self-alteration. I realized that most of the time, I am not being a good friend or even a good person despite the fact that I claim myself to be a disciple of Christ. I am trying hard to be.... until I realized I am worn out. I shouldn't be using my own strength when I know my flesh is weaker than God's strength. Come on, my God has unlimited sources. Am I not being a fool when God is there for me and I am not relying on Him? I guess I am really a fool.

I am overwhelmed sometimes with my current situations. Things are fine now and I know it will be even better if only I am willing to stop procrastinating and start doing my work now. Sometimes I wish I have a strong courage like Joshua who can command the Sun to stand still for him. I wish I could have such radical faith to do the same thing. Yet, I know it is not going to work out if I don't practice to have this kind of faith. I am given a lot of opportunities to practice my faith - in terms of Connect Group, LIW classes, serving in ministries and etc. There are a lot of commitments. Sometimes, my flesh  doesn't allow me to be enthusiastic about it, and yet, my spirit is always winning the battle. I am just so glad that every time when I am at the edge of giving up, God always lead me back to Him :) You are fantastic my Lord.

You will always be the same
Your love will never change
You are the everlasting..... <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
I love you Jesus for always being there for me

最近。。。

最近我很少上部落
也发生了很多事情
想要好好的感谢上帝
但来到这里又写不出来

所以只好留到下一篇才写了。。