Letting go....

Hi Hi World, finally,yes i meant finally, The Princess is backkkk!!Sorry peeps, i am feeling really, truly and extremely lazy and tired for the past 2 weeks. So i am really really lazy to update my blog. Hmm..Winter Course is starting next week and i have meetings to attend and so on. I can't even find time to meet up with Shan-Mei and her family, and Issy. I thought my winter holidays would be really boring and lonely but who knows, my timetable is actually quite packed. Nevermind, it is better to be busy than to sit there doing nothing. My results are out........and i PASSED all my subjects. Yayy.. i don't have to repeat any of those subjects anymore. Thank God!!I ve been reading a lot of Cecelia Ahern's books recently and i really like the way she wrote her books. And i have to agree, all her novels were like modern fairytales =)

Ps:I actually did find time to go out with Natalie. We had a great day and i seriously felt that i should spend money. So yea, i did =)) We all said this is the result for not having bubble tea for so long (Well, it is actually not more than 2 weeks since i last had bubble tea?) Yup, we shopped, we ate, we did crazy stuffs and etc. We were crazy enough to go Fremantle during night time despite of the cold weather. Arghh...i was shivering all the way....serve me right though...
Cheesecake!!For your information, i am fasting CHOCOLATES!! And when i say Chocolates, i meant ALL CHOCOLATES!!T.T T.T....i will have to go without my favourite and precious chocky for 4o days. Imagine i have to go without chocolate drinks, chocolate ice-cream, chocolate cakes and so on.Why??Because i want to be closer to GOD!!Although it is only 4o days, but i am going to punish myself by fasting chocolates for 120 days. Why?Because during our cookies baking day, i actually ate those cookies without even thinking that the cookies actually contains chocolate chips. So yea...i have to triple up the days of fasting. Since i can't eat any chocolates, so i tend to order a piece of cheesecake and it was not nice at all. Oh my god...those chocolate cakes were so tempting =((( I miss my babe Kai Lyn. I miss the cheesecake she baked for me =(( Come back soon pleaseeeeee......

Did i ever tell you guys that i love Fremantle?I don't know why. Maybe because i love the sea or it is due to the fact that the whole Fremantle looked Old and mysterious. I always wanted to play at the playground near the station. And that day, i finally got my chance. How i love it!!I wanted to go back to childhood. I love the swings. The higher you go, the faster you'll forget all your troubles. I am serious!!Guys, if i went missing one day, you'll know where to find me =))

Dare to dream, Dare to accept!!Do not be afraid to set your goals high. And we must always believe that WE CAN achieve it!!A real failure is those who gave up when they don't even bother to work hard. For my heart diaries session today, i am going to continue from where i stopped in the last 2 posts (So Near Yet So Far). I think i wrote about something which you very much wanted to own but can't. Hmm..yep, this can be caused by several reasons. This kind of feeling is definitely not good. So right now, yep, i meant from this moment, i will let go of it!!What meant to be yours will be yours =) Yes i am letting go!!I believe everything happens for a reason and God will have HIS own reasons for all these. It is not because i don't wanna try, but i really can't see the point of me trying so hard to get something which forever won't be mine. It is pointless right? You'll just make yourself miserable. Things may not be as beautiful as you imagined it would be. I sorted out all these while i was playing on the swing, trying to swing higher and higher. That's when i realized, i don't have to make myself so emo and miserable due to this "thing". I can actually do a lot of stuffs and make myself really happy. Yes, i will let go =)) Sorry BB, but i am firm with my decision now. Unless..........."Fate" arrive on time then that would be another story!!People, i am feeling so light-hearted now........And yes, i am coming back to the heart of worship. I just need to have faith in HIM and believe in what i can do. I don't want to care about how people will think of me again because I AM WHO I AM!!

Sorry World, this post is kinda emo right? Yup..because i am feeling so sleepy and tired now!!I'll update as soon as i can!!I have so much to share =)))) Yes...i might treat you guys like kids again =))))))) You guys will most probably have another "STORY TIME SESSION" again. Hehehe...see ya soon =)))

Story Time

Hello World..The Princess is back (I can hear the sigh and groans from my readers)Ohh...but don't worry, i am not gonna update a freaking long post this time. I am still working on the other post!!So, i shall update a really short one this time to show that my Little World is still alive. I shall treat you all as little kids now.........and kids loves stories!!So you all must "WOW" at my story okay??It won't be about demons, angels, love and etc. Told you, you guys are gonna be little kids just for ONCE. So be good KIDS.....IT'S STORY TIME!!!!!
It is Winter Time. Cute Bear Bear was feeling extremely cold. So he borrowed a jacket from his master -Demon Princess. Hmm...even though Cute Bear Bear doesn't like to bother his master, but still he can't stand the cold "Awhh...the weather is too cold!" Cute Bear Bear shivered. "Master!Master!Can i borrow one of your jacket?"Cute Bear Bear asked the Demon Princess. "Alright!Here you go. Make sure you take care of my jacket. Don't you dare to spoil it!" the Demon Princess said as she handed him the pink jacket. Cute Bear Bear doesn't like the pink jacket as he was afraid that his bestfriend, MuMu will laugh at him. "Err, can i have another one please?This jacket is not nice!" Cute Bear Bear pleaded. Didn't he know that he was talking to a demon? "What?You are saying my jacket is not nice enough?Either you wear it or you'll freeze!" the Demon replied. Cute Bear Bear thought for a moment and he finally said "Okay...i don't want to fall sick. Thanks Master for this nice jacket!" And so, Cute Bear Bear is wearing the pink jacket now and happily. He looks cute isn't it?

He met his friend MuMu as he went back. "Hello MuMu!" Cute Bear Bear greeted him happily. "Hello Cute Bear Bear!You look different today. Something wrong with you?" MuMu asked. "Hmm...is it because of this pink jacket?I borrowed this from Master. And this is the only jacket she can lend me" Cute Bear Bear sigh. "Oh really?That was cool!You look nice in the pink jacket" Mumu said. MuMu was shivering too. He wish he was daring enough to ask the Demon Princess for a jacket but unfortunately, he was too shy to do so. "Yes. I can't stand the cold anymore. That's why i have to wear this!It is PINK!" Cute Bear Bear said. "At least a pink jacket is better than nothing. You ought to be happy!"MuMu said.

As soon as MuMu said that, Cute Bear Bear realized that MuMu only wore a scarf around his neck and that he was shivering. He felt sorry for MuMu. "You are cold isn't it?Why don't you ask Master for a jacket too?"Cute Bear Bear asked. "Oh No...we must not trouble Master anymore. It is alright. I can stand the cold. Don't forget i am a reindeer. I came from the land of Christmas!" MuMu said. Cute Bear Bear knows MuMu was too shy to approach their Master. "Are you sure you can stand the cold?It is getting colder and colder now" Cute Bear Bear asked again. "Yep, i think i can!You better have an early night!I am going to bed soon!Good Night!" MuMu said in a shaky voice. Just when MuMu was about to leave, Cute Bear Bear said "Hey MuMu, wait a moment!Why don't we share the jacket?It is big enough to cover both of us. Come on in!!" "What? That's alright Cute Bear Bear. Thanks for the offer!" MuMu said. "Come on MuMu, we're bestfriends aren't we? We share this jacket together!" Cute Bear Bear try to persuade MuMu. " "Hmm....is it alright? I am afraid Master will scold us?"MuMu said. Cute Bear Bear laughed "Don't worry!Master won't scold us. Come on in or you'll fall sick" MuMu finally gave in "Alright!Thank you so much Cute Bear Bear. You are a great friend!" They both beamed at each other. For once, Cute Bear Bear felt grateful that he had the pink jacket with him. And when the Demon Princess came in, she saw both of them sharing the pink jacket. She smiled as she gave both of them a hug. "Well Done, Cute Bear Bear!" she whisper to him. Cute Bear Bear smiled, feeling really happy!I bet they are gonna sleep well that night.........

Hey kids, this is the end of the story. Do you feel like a kid now?What is the morale of this story?Yes...SHARING IS CARING!We must share everything we have with others. Never be selfish okay?If people approach you to ask you for help, don't hesitate!Just say "YES". Hmm..but that's if you are able to help. Nobody will blame you if it is beyond your ability. Do the best that you can =))Anyway, i was removing all my stuffs from my bag last night. I was about to hang my pink jacket back to my wardrobe when i saw this Cute Bear Bear sitting infront of me. The first thought that came into my mind was "How will he look like in this pink jacket?" I put it on him and so yea...basically, this is how the story pops out of my mind!!I shall stop crapping here as i promised that this is gonna be a short post!!World, i shall see you in the next post.......Good Bye!!!Be sure to choose joy over anything else =)))))))

If You Don't Seek, You'll Never Find (Together)

Hello World......The Demon Princess is back...And when i mention the word DEMON, it means i am really, truly and extremely E.M.O Don't ask me why, because i don't know how to explain =((( Exams are over...by right, i could have been the most happiest Princess but i don't know why, these few days, i just can't seem to make myself happy. Something is wrong with me i guess =(( I was late for my Marketing Exam. I begged BB Kelly to wake me up on that fateful day. I told her "No matter what happen, just call call call and make sure i wake up!" She agreed. I was dreaming about Bubble Tea the night before. It wasn't a really good dream for if i am not mistaken, i was arguing with one of the worker's in Utopia. I woke up from my dream and realized i was late. Exam starts at 9.30am and i woke up sharp at 9.30am. Serve me right for tucking in late the night before. BB called me 8 time. Sorry sorry BB.....and Thank you soooo much!!I will do the same for you next time if you need me =))))) Anyway, Selina Bear, here is my promise to you. This whole post will be full of our JB S.H.E's pictures. I realized, the more pictures i uploaded, which means, the MORE i have to write. Well, trust me, this post AGAIN will not be what i want in the end. But, at least, i will try my very very best to accomplish this task. I'll ACCEPT THE CHALLENGE....Together We Achieve More.....


" Hi, 我是Selina！我是 Hebe！我是 Ella ！我们是 -S.H.E" This is one of our most favourite phrase. We are CRAZY over S.H.E (a taiwanese band) We adore their songs. We adore their looks. We adore everything of their's. Yea...i don't know how we became JB S.H.E. Maybe because we lived quite near to each others, so we tend to take the same bus. Alright, let me give you a quick update about my girls. I knew SELINA BEAR first. I knew her when i was 6 years old, in Tadiki Pelita. We were young......so didn't really know what is the meaning of friendship. We are just playmates. Remember how silly we were to play "Ice-cream". Selina Bear loves that =)) It is like we both take turns to be the ice-cream seller. All of a sudden, she will asked me "Hey, which ice-cream flavor do you want?" And my answer will forever be "ORANGE". You know in olden days, there is a type of icy ice-cream of lemon flavor, orange flavor and etc??Yea...and hey..i was 6 years old at that time and that was the only ice-cream i ever tried before. I was amazed when it was my turn to be the ice-cream seller. She was like "My turn my turn...come on..ask me which flavor i want?" I was like "Oh..which ice cream flavor do you want?" Then she answered "I want strawberry with cones, and i want to add 5 strawberries in my ice-cream, and some choco. Oh ya..and add some biscuits to it!" Wowww.....childhood...how i miss my childhood period! And yea..we graduated from Tadika Pelita in year 1996. We never met each other for 6 years. 6 YEARS!!!YES..THE WHOLE 6 YEARS. But surprisingly, when it was time for me to step into that unknown, and mysterious Secondary school life, i can still recognize her right at the first sight. I meant the minute she stepped onto bus 2627, i knew she was Yip Bei Bei. It was during one of the sunny days in year 2003. She was shocked when i walked up to her and asked "Are you Yip Bei Bei?I am sure you forgotten me but i was in the same kindergarten as you." We both smiled...........and we are FRIENDS again!!!=) Friendship does exist!!I strongly believed in FATE.....!And i believe we will be friends forever....With that i ended our situation with S.H.E's song-不想长大





我不想我不想不想长大


长大后世界就没有童话


我不想我不想不想长大


我宁愿永远都笨又傻


我不想我不想不想长大


长大后我就会失去他


我深爱的他 深爱我的他


已经变得不像他





我不想我不想不想长大


长大后世界就没有童话


我不想我不想不想长大


我宁愿永远都笨又傻


我不想我不想不想长大


长大后我就会失去他


我深爱的他 深爱我的他


怎麽会爱上别嗰他

Everyone will believe in the existence of something.....just like i believe in the existence of fairy tales and all those demons and angels thingy. Likewise, i also believe in the existence of "FRIENDSHIP". Why?Look at us....Selina Bear stayed so near to me, but we never met each other for ONCE during the whole 6 years. Fate brought us together again......Thank you "FATE"........!Even though you can be a bit nasty at times, but still, i want you =))))) I'll define more on you later...to show you how nasty you are. Have you ever thought of not growing up just because you are afraid to lose what you have curently?Well...I DO!!I don't want to grow up... Look at the picture above!That was during our graduation day in year 2007!!I realized, we didn't take any pictures at all since 2003 till 20o6. We started keeping track of our memories when after we graduate. Can i say the 3 of us were never in the same class before for the whole 5 years? Yes....we were never in the same class before. People said our friendship will change...but i prove them wrong. We are still as good as anything and we have strong bond between us. Let's talk about Hebe Ting. She is an extremely smart girl who always say she is not smart. Can i say she is a genius?Yes..to me, i think she is way too smart!!Plus, she is a year younger than us. I knew her because we were in the same bus. She always invented some strange sound. For example, Rabakkkkkkk, frog sound, and etc. I find her a bit weird initially for she seldom talk. Maybe she thinks i am crazy too....!!Well, no matter what, despite the major differences in both our characters, we are still good friends =))))))))) Young as she was, but she is really mature in her thinking. I SALUTE HER!!And because she is mature, i always called her Grandmother. And yea..she is my Ah Ma. We had a really good time We used to bicker everyday....we created lame jokes, we did many stupid things together, we made fun of those E.C Boy's, we created lame songs for them, we backed up one another, we cried together, we attended tuition classes together, we hanged out at City Square, we laughed like lunatic, we worked together at Grace Yeoh & Associates........!!We did so many things together..........!Although i know she is quiet(basically because she doesn't know how to express herself), but i know you are sincere. I just wanna thank God for sending me a friend like her. Although we seldom contact, but i can assure you that we will be friends for life. S.H.E rawkzz!!!Those were the tears we shed.........the happy moments.......!Don't worry, there are more to come. I miss those songs that we created. For example, our Banana song for the BLACK SHOES.......



总是要流一些滚烫热泪


才能换来对于爱的体会你看


世界没有毁灭 心也没有碎


其他的就交给时间解决

S.H.E - 爱就对了

Did i ever tell you that tears can make you stronger? Hmm...this is what someone told me when i cried!!I was so inspired by his words that i know it is not wrong to cry. People, never give up when you are facing tonnes and tonnes of troubles. Whenever you feel like crying, just cry =))) Tears can really make you stronger. But hey, you must have an optimistic mindset when you cry ok?Don't cry as if this is the End of the World. Remember, no matter what happened, be sure to choose "Joy" over anything else. Life is short....live it to the fullest!! I missed the time when we are together. We did a lot of crazy stuffs. Whenever people hear noises around them, they will know it is the "SETAREANS". Yes..we are from SETA, and i am proud to be a SETA Girl. But i know my S.H.E's gang is not as crazy as my dearest Leo gang. So i am glad that i have many different sort of gangs that gave me different perspectives. You can learnt a lot from them actually. Bestfriends do quarrel also right?Yes...i had my first and last quarrel with Selina Bear in year 2004. I don't know what happened at that time, but she started ignoring me for no reasons. I remembered everyone started ignoring me too but time proved my innocent. People started realizing they were wrong, and they apologized to me. Selina Bear felt bad too.......for we are on a Cold War for more than one month. With zero contact and not even a "hi" or "smile". I don't want to lose this friend at all. Really!!I don't want to lose any of my friends but there is nothing i could do. I was crying the minute she said "Sorry" to me. I don't know how to describe the feeling of it. You have to experience it yourself. At the same time, Hebe Ting has some misunderstandings towards me...and hence, we didn't talk for a few days. Yes, just a few days!!We solved things between us. During that time, i found myself another group of friends. Even though i still don't understand the reason why all these takes place at the same time...but in another way, i kind a feeling grateful that all these happened. Why?Because it makes me realized that there are more people outside who really appreciate me as their friend. Thanks to Jennifer and Machi Zhi Xian and Tomoyo who always stood by me during that awful period. I know i couldn't thank each and everyone here...but i remember you all....



SHE-天灰


如果你不再出现我的世界
还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间让我们试验 什么叫永远
想念变成怀念心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切你最后属于谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭



Yes...what will happen if i never met these people at all in my life? People will say "Good!!There won't be anymore bickerings and unhappiness around!" But i don't think so. If i never met all these people, i don't think my life will be happy either. World, appreciate all the people who came into your life. Even though some of them may only appear for just a short while, but the memories are more than enough to last you for a life time. Right, although we are miles and miles apart, but the thought of them will always makes me stronger. After comparing all our past pictures to our latest pictures, i realized we ve all grown up. Not in the sense that there is major changes in our appearance but our thoughts changes. We faces many obstacles in our life but i never thought of giving up just because i know they are always there to give me the best comfort. “慢慢的才知道，不要把自己想得有多高，没有绝对性的胜利，也没有绝对性的失败”(Slowly, you will realized that, a person should not think too highly of themselves because there is no success or failure) Everyone is equal!!I am glad that JB S.H.E is always in their most natural form. People said, "Hey, why don't you dress up or put some make up on your face. Look at all your friends...they are so mature and beautiful. " I hate to say this, but sorry, you have spoken to the wrong person. I am someone who minds inner beauty terribly. As i said, i don't care if you are the prettiest or the most famous girl in this world, but as long as your characters are not good, then to me, you are most ugliest girl ever. I hate to say this, but i hate it when people compare me with another girl. I hate to be compared. Everyone is different innerly and outerly. I am just myself. Why can't you just compare both side?Why must you compare only the outlook? Grrrr.........i hate all these!Anyway, yea...i just wanna say "THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU" to Selina Bear and Hebe Ting. Both of them were there for me whenever i need them. Whenever they know i am down, they will take me to MCD, and together we attacked all the fries and burgers. Then we will crap crap crap non-stop. Thanks girls......!You know, you guys always make me strong. And with that, i would like to introuduce you to our most favourite song. OUR SONG

SHE-魔力

I have you to be with

Everything will be easy

晒的阳光

淋的雨滴都

值得回忆

I have you to be with

懂心不够近才怕距离

心电感应绝不断讯

会如影随形

曾灰心以为

我来错了世界

太多想法很另

类找不到人了解

当我说的感觉

牵动着你的脸

互动的泪

让我们变得特别

你是我的魔力

想要勇敢就想你

一眨眼睛

把不如意都变成流星

你是我的魔力

心情不好我就想你

删除忧郁

复制甜蜜

笑容不结冰

幸福是间电影院

没有单人的座位

要肩并肩

才能看好戏上演

Yes..whenever i am down, i will listen to this song. And it reminds me of everything.....and at the same time, it'll take away all my unhappiness. Thank you girls...!Both your powers are strong enough to change my mood =)))))

This is one of the best moment we had. It was during the time when Aya, the japanese girl is around. We had lots of fun with her. I used to think that life is so unfair. Why?Because some people were born smart, and some weren't that smart. Some were born pretty whilst some were not. See?How unfair life can be. But now, i get rid of that thought. So what if they were born smart or pretty or rich? Are they really happy? I am glad with my life....!!Yes, i prefer my own simple and meaningful life. “慢慢的才知道，生活是有很多不公平的，你一定要正视，相信实力和群终的眼睛”(Slowly you will realized that life is really unfair. You must learn to accept the ability and the truth in people's eyes) I don't really want to agree with this phrase because i don't want to side the reality. I hate reality because they are cruel. And yet, sometimes, it is hard to avoid reality. What can we do??Be strong!!I said we can cry but i also did added that "Tears make you stronger" Let us all create our own legend. World...are you with me??

SHE-S.H.E.R.O

先转身 先自由

先说再见 先解脱

世界在 他背后

原来这么 的辽阔

也坚强 也温柔

也有紧握 的拳头去敲奏

全新生活的节奏

那是谁说 女孩没有ROCK'N ROLL我对我说 当最后只剩下我谁是我英雄? Thanks for being with me during my sweetest 17th. As you know, i don't like birthdays, because i don't want to grow old. But my friends are always there for me. Picture can speak thousand words. So, i won't define more on it!!I can only say, i really enjoyed the time i had with you girls.

SHE一起开始的旅程

一起作半，一起游玩，一起分享，青春的宝藏

一起前进，一起转弯，一起想下一个梦想....

We all had dreams!!We had big dreams. Selina Bear's biggest dream is to buy a house and get her family to stay with her. Hebe Ting's biggest dream is to quickly finish off her Polytechnique and to get a job to live a simple life. Hehe..but i think she would rather settle down with her "Anata". I am happy for you girl. As long as it is your own choice and decision, you will always have our blessings. What about my dreams??Shhhhhhh.....i'll keep it private and confidential...... Vandalism!!!Hebe Ting sort of too free with nothing to do and she tend to draw all of us on her table. I am glad i took a picture of it. I am the pig. They always called me a pig. You wanna know why? All my friends will know that i have a strange habit of asking them questions. But all my questions are stupid and meaningless. All of a sudden, i will pointed out to one friend and say "Hey i ask you a question!" Then they will say "Yes?" I will continue "If you were a pig,.........i meant what will you do if you were a pig?" And they will go "JI JA BOOOOOOMMMMMMM" Hahaha...those were the days. Don't worry girls...i will bomb you guys with my most favourite question again when i am back. "IF YOU WERE A PIG..............." Sometimes, when i am crazy, i will just shout out loud " I am a pig!!" Then they will say "Yea..we knew that!!But why you wanna become a pig?" And i will say "Because a pig can eat eat eat all day long and sleep sleep sleep all day long. Plus they are so cute." Again they will go "JI JA BOOOOOOOOOMMM!" Anyway, i am always known as a devil. Especially when i am suddenly quiet and don't feel like talking. The rest will be so scare.....!Sorry girls...because i am the Demon Princess so i am always emo. But trust me, i don't hate all of you!!I am just being myself...=)) You guys are great!!

七朵花-My Dear Friend

My dear friend

不管刮风下雨

你有什么事情

陪你一起等风雨过天晴

My dear friend

世界如此拥挤

我们能够相遇

是这个世纪最biang最炫的奇蹟 Monkey trio!!Who are we? Did i ever mention that i hate death? I hate the fact that there are people leaving this World each day. And i hate it most when my own kins or someone whom i knew left me. Eversince i had my own memory, the first death i encountered is the loss of my uncle. Well, based on the rank and identity all, he should be my uncle but he is younger than me. He had gotten this stupid leukemia disease and he left the world at the age of 8. I was 10 at that time. My grandfather left us in the early 2007 and my grandmother and my friend, James,left us last year. Everyday, every moment, every seconds, there are bound to be people leaving us. I just hope that there won't be any more people leaving me. Yes, especially the ones i knew. Please please please...take good care of yourself. Don't fall sick and be very very careful!!Life is so unpredictable. We can never predict what will happen tomorrow. But if someone has to leave, i rather that person would be me....so that i don't have to endure all painful sights and feelings. I know i am selfish. Why??I don't have to feel the pain but it doesn't mean the rest won't feel pain at all. Anyway...i pray that everyone will be safe and sound!!Mum told me that granny(Father's side) is getting weaker and weaker. I just hope that she will be fine.....!I will always live beneath the fact that, if a person has to leave the World, it means that "God wants him/her more!God wants to stop them from pain and i believe they will lead a better life in Heaven!" I want to stress on it one more time....World, Life is short!!!Try to make some changes in your life so that you won't live with regrets.

“只怕我生命太短，来不及陪你笑笑，画在我手上，属于我们的天堂，避开所有别人眼光，自由飞翔。。。。。。。。。。。。。”

Selina Bear's sister, Xiao Hong's birthday party celebration at MCD!And hence, S.H.E reunion once more. World, did i ever ever tell you that i love reading fantasy? Especially angels and magic power stuffs? And basically, i love reading children books. My official poser, Ah Mei, lent me a lot of books before i came to Perth and i really really enjoyed reading it. I specially loved the books of one author who named herself as the "Guardian God". We are all her Angels. Based on her name, you can actually guess what kind of books she will write. Yes, all her books are either angels, guardian god, moon city, sun city, and guardian angels. After reading all her books, "Angel of Memoirs"(记忆天使) left the greatest impression to me. I am not going to tell you the story. Go and read it yourself. Guardian God has written a new book...=(( I hope the book is still available when i go back to Malaysia this coming December.

Everyone has got something which is important to them and they MUST carry it with them everyday. To Xiang Xiang, one of the main character in the "Angel of Memoirs", the angel necklace is her life. What is important to me? Clover? Treble Clef? Yes, they are important!!They represented my lucks, love, dreams, and friendship. But my BLACK and WHITE bangles represent ME...!!Check out my bangles below....! I love black and white. And hence, my bangles are both in black and white. I had this with me 3 years back before i went to NS, and even before i went up to KL. It has been me for the whole 3 years and it never once leave me. These bangles has went through all ups and downs with me. I am used to the "cling cling" noise of my bangles. It represents ME!! Remember how Chen An, my taylor's daddy used to say "If it weren't because of these bangles, i wouldn't have know where you are!I can recognize your sound!" and "Without these bangles, you don't feel like VIOLA!" All my friends can recognize the sound of my bangles. If you can't, then you are not my friend. Haha..joking joking!!I felt so uncomfortable without it. There is a story behind this bangles but i am not going to say it =)) All i can say is these 2 bangles are important to me. No wonder i felt so unlucky and weird these 2 weeks, because i miss the sound of my bangles T.T T.T T.T!!

Guardian Angel 能不能，让我再见你一面。。。。 "Even though we've changed and we're still finding our own place in the World, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spread across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point that we are not friends"

“慢慢的才知道，现实和想法的差踞，必须要随机应变，跟上步代。。。”(Slowly we will realized that there is a great difference between reality and thoughts. We need to be alert and quick in order to follow up.......) A lot of people might think it is hard to do so....!Yes, having to move on fast when you haven't even enjoy the beauty of something is a hard task. You get what i meant? It is like we have achieve certain stages, but in order to catch up with reality, we have to move on. Isn't it tiring? But again for me..i meant FOR ME, i won't!!Life is like a journey.I will just stop whenever i am tired.......because i used to be like that too. I am just rushing and hurrying without knowing what happen. I don't even know what am i doing or what i have done. What did i gain in the end?NOTHING. I don't care if reality or someone in front is willing to wait for me or not...because i don't think the World is gonna stop to wait for me when i am tired of walking on. I learnt to treat myself better by just "stop" when you don't feel like walking on. We are just a bit slower than the others..but eventually, we will reach the same destination as them =)

心墙 - 郭静

一个人

眺望碧海和蓝天

在心里面 那抹灰就淡一些

海豚从眼前飞越

我看见了最阳光的笑脸

好时光都该被宝贝

因为有限

Someone said, "There is a limitation to happiness." Hmm...i don't know what to say because to me. there is no limitation to happiness. It is up to your decision whether you want your life to be happy or dark. Please be happy....=)

I loved Tarot cards. I should say i am interested in Tarot. Remember there was a time when Popular bookstores were having hot sales for Tarot Cards. I regretted for not buying it. It was so beautiful. Anyway, guess where we are in the above picture?? Johorians....you guys should know. This is TAROT CAFE. Yes...S.H.E reunion by the fate of tarot. Believe in fate?? Well i do. Fate can come in many ways. It can be good sometimes but not ALWAYS. Fate can be unexpected too. For example, i never thought i could meet Shan-Mei in Korea and to realize she is staying in Perth. I never thought i could meet Sean in Perth. I never thought i could meet Han Na during one of the Leo Activities. I never thought i could meet my new Godma during my my Korea Trip.For the chances for us to meet are totally impossible. Thank god for all these. FATE...i love you for once...just because you create surprises for me once in a while. But i do hate you too....you are really mean and nasty to me at times. Why do you create chances for me to meet certain people but took the "Fate" away from us? Sometimes i don't know if i should hate you or love you =((( But no matter what happen, i'll always appreciate every happenings around me. I believe everything happens for a reason =)) Look on a brighter side..and everything will be fine. I will be happy....for i have a contract with "Fate" and "Happiness"....

SHE-我和幸福有约定

不害怕 不担心

我和幸福有约定

就算是寂寞也不理

因为思念让爱零距离

为了你 我愿意

多用心照顾自己

也请你千万别忘记

我们曾和幸福有约定 The picture above was taken in year 2008 when we celebrated Selina Bear's birthday. I like to celebrate people's birthday but hate to celebrate mine. Funny right? But if possible, i want to keep track of all our memories!!I may not remember everything that happens in my life, but i can assure you that, if i know you, i will never ever forgets your name =) “慢慢的才知道,很多东西是可遇而不可求的,很多东西只能拥有一次”(Slowly we will realize that, a lot of things are meant to be seen but cannot be owned. A lot of things can only be owned ONCE) If life is really like what this phrase says, then i really have to remember everything that happens in my life. So i think i gotta get Mrs Cammie soon. I want her to be part of my life. Can you hear the voice of Mr Cammie?He is calling for you from afar...!!

SHE-北欧神话

被遗忘的神话里有谁的曾经

我们的泪变成故事里的风景

故事里的北欧有海盗在盛行

那是我们熟悉亲切的族群被

遗忘的神话里有谁的曾经

我们的命运被改写成了作品

那誓言跟那时间比要怎么赢

你说永远等我的话 在飘零 Yummy right??JB S.H.E will gather only at one place. And that is Lavender. Why? Because our dearest Selina Bear loves Lavender plus she randomly just said one of the waiter is good looking...and we assumed that is her Prince. So eversince then, Lavender Prince becomes our hot topic. But did i ever tell you about the encounter between me and Lavender Prince? That was the past anyway...!Nothing special.....but i'll never forget that day!!I love Yam cake. Honestly, i love all cakes....but Yam cake is something which i MUST order whenever i go there. I still remember a time when the Queen (my mummy) had a fight with Daddy. She was in bad mood and didn't want to to talk to Daddy at all. So when Daddy came and took us out to dinner at Lavender, Mummy was angry and she started scolding me and blaming me for everything. To cut the story short, she basically just used me as an excuse to scold Daddy. Poor me!!I was like "Why are you scolding me?It is not even my fault!" Then i kept quiet and didn't want to talk to her. The Queen realized she was wrong..and i think she actually felt guilty. So she bought me a yam cake. I think that was her way of saying "Sorry" to me. I felt like crying at that moment...!Seriously, next time don't scold me for no reason =(

别说对不起

别让我伤了心才说

不是故意我却无法怪你

别说对不起

别让我的爱情变成

廉价物品我却只能爱

Look at that. These two pictures are our latest pictures!!How i miss my girls!!We still looked the same physically. Well, maybe they have grown taller but i certainly did not grow an inch. So pathetic!! Anyway, i finally arrive at my heart diaries session. Wanna know what time is it now? It showed 3.42am. I ve been spending my last 8 hours on this post. Selina Bear...you better read every single words of it!I thought i will never be able to finish this post but i WON'T GIVE UP!Since i have the urge to write, so why don't i just finish it? Dare to Dream, Dare to Accept!! My topic for today's Heart diaries session will be "So Near Yet So Far". You know the feeling is like, you see something which you very much wanted to own but you can't. This kind of feeling can seriously drives me crazy. Just when i have made up my mind to give up, something unexpected will happens. Why? Tell me why........!Whenever i tell BB i wanna give up, she will be like "No way man, you can't!!I fully support you" I am seriously tired. You might be able to lie to yourself, thinking that there is always hope. But, your heart knows that you are actually having zero hope. So why am i still holding on? Why do i wanna trouble myself for nothing. And yet, i really don't know what am i doing so far. What should i do? Or rather, what can i do? BB, I don't how long can it last but if one day, i meant IF one day, “当我流下放弃的泪水时，那就表示我是真的累了！！”Okay...i don't want to blabber too much on this for i can feel my head spinning. Sorry World, my mind went blank all of a sudden. Maybe i'll make up to you guys by continuing this topic in my next post. Keep you in suspense first =P

World, finally.......after struggling for 8 hours, i am DONE with this post!Yayy....i hope i won't come crawling to my blog after 2 days to update again!I received A LOT of comments saying that my posts were too long. Sorry guys, but i have to!!I try my best to make it short ok?Please don't give up on me!! My so-called friend, Star, suggested something about heaven and hell. Maybe i could include that in my next short story. Thanks Star, for once you decided to be a visible reader. So i shall praise you a bit here to prove that i am a good friend. Meanwhile, to keep you update, i am working on a new story. I suddenly have the inspiration and ideas to start working on a new short stories...but, this time, i can't assure you that i have the energy to translate it into English again. Yet, everything is possible!!I am feeling happy now because i ve fulfilled my promise. Hehe....Good night World...See you in the next post =)))))))))))))))))))

“爱情是一首美好的歌，但是它不容易谱写！”

Love is like a beautiful lyrics, but writing a song lyric is not an easy task"

The Princess's story

Hello World...The Demon Princess is back. Hmm...i felt more and more like a Demon these few days. But no worries, i am a good "Demon". Not all demons are bad. I know i know..i shouldn't be here. I should be a good girl and to do revision for my final paper. BUT...i just don't feel like studying =(((((( Sorry!! Maybe i am feeling emo...hmm..i don't know. Don't worry people, i am always feeling emo for no reason. It is just a feeling which is hard to control. That's why i am here for i have the urge to write my story again. Instead of studying, i have been reading a lot of short stories from the "EMO ANGEL". Look at that, the name is already so emo, so you can't blame me for being emo too. Yea..seriously, this is the first time ever i regret for knowing chinese. All the stories are more than enough to make me emo for the rest of the week =(((((((((


Recalling back, it had been almost three years since i last wrote an emo story. I remembered feeling soooooooooooo emo after i ve written that story. If i am not wrong, i even named the title "Why life is so cruel?" But that was three years back, i merely just wrote it because my buddy, Sufee complaint that my blog is full of spider web =P He is the only one who read that story before. Thanks Sufee, for you are the one who inspire me to continue writing. Some of you may have heard of this name before but i am going to say it once again. Sufee is my very very best buddy eversince i met him in year 2006 (Omega physics tuition class). He is the only Malay buddy i have. He is ambitious.....someone who is daring enough to dream. I remembered laughing at him continuously when he said he wanted to enrol himself into "Harvard University". But then, buddy, i trust that you can =)))))))) Things started to become better when Shawn joined our gang in year 2007. We became even closer and you should have seen how crazy we are in our physics and chemistry tuition class. Never underestimate the gang of LSS. We all have big dreams. How naughty we are to make fun of those poor teachers....!Well...those sweet memories......bringing me back to my sweetest past time. Anyway, Sufee, you better remember our promises!!I know you always act as a silent reader here but again, i knew you have always been a good buddy to me. Let blogging become part of our lives....we shall keep Shawn in the dark and not let him know what we've blogged so far =P Shhh...this is our secret!!


Well, since i have the urge to write stories, and i shall!!Sufee commented that the girl in my 3 years ago story was stupid. For she didn't trust that guy in the first place. But then, buddy, i am tired of all these stories. How about an Angel and Demon story? I ve been longing and longing to write a story about the Demon Princess and the Angel Prince =))))))))))) I've written that long time ago but don't really want to publish it here just in case you call that girl stupid again =P


PS: I hate to admit it but the fact is that Shermaine they all were right. I like the word "Demon" because there is a hidden meaning inside. Take away the D and N and it becomes EMO. I am always emo......mostly because of NO reason. I enjoyed being emo because that will be the time when i really wanted to write something. Guys, when i suddenly look emo or becomes really quiet, just let me be!!For that will be the time when i sank into my own marvellous thinking again, trying to figure out something. Eh...but sometimes, there is a reason for me to be emo too =)) And hence.....THE DEMON PRINCESS IS BACK...........!!


I believe Sufee is so gonna say this Demon Princess is very stupid again...haha..but this is how the story goes. Inspire me more pleaseeeeee.....=))) Sorry people, this story was suppose to be in Chinese in the first place but i decided to translate it into the English version. So, don't blame me if you can't feel the story for even i, myself can't feel the whole story myself =(

Once, there lived a Demon Princess. Although people assume that she is the child of devil and that "DEMONs" are usually bad and evil, but she is not a bad Demon. She never done anything bad in her life. Yes..she could have been an angel if she weren't being born with the blood of evil. Yes, nobody wants the blood of evil in them. She met this handsome Angel Prince in Heaven one day when she was on duty. This Angel Prince was so attractive that she fell in love with him almost at the first sight. Unfortunately, she is a demon. Angel and Demon can never get together. Sad as she was, but she vowed to protect this Angel Prince forever.


One day, a beautiful meteor flew across the earth, but the Angel Prince did not realize it when he was flying free in the sky. He was shocked when he realized the meteor is getting closer and closer to him. He was being blocked by someone when he felt a sudden pain in his right wing. The Demon Princess has been observing from afar not knowing what she can do for she knew, the Angel Prince hate the sight of her. She couldn't hold on any longer when she saw the meteor coming nearer. Unfortunately, she embraced him from the front and hence, the Demon Princess lost her left wing. She was terrified by the sight from his eyes as if the Angel Prince was asking her "WHY?"


The Demon smiled with sadness in her eyes. She regretted but knowing that it was too late to change anything. There is nothing she could do to change the destiny. The meteor flew past them causing the end tail of it to have a mixed colour of both red and black. The blood of the Angel Prince and the Demon Princess. The sight was so beautiful and rare. You could have been the most lucky ones if you are able to catch a glimpse of it. Both the Angel and Demon has both lost their right and left wing respectively. In anger, the Angel said bitterly, "Because of you, i can't fly again. What is the use of being an Angel if i have lost my ability to fly? The others would laugh at me!" The Demon said "No, i am sure you will be able to fly again. Even if the whole World laugh at you, but i won't. I will protect you even if it takes my life because i...." Before she could even finish her sentence, both of them fainted..........!!The Lord realized that both the Angel and Demon were together. In anger, he took the Angel away, leaving the Demon, injured.

After a period of time, the Angel has fully recovered. He is still as handsome and charming as ever....even though he lost the smile on his face. He no longer smile or talk. The other Angels thought he was terrified because of the loss of his right wing. Others said that he was being cursed. Only the hypocrite Lord knows what happened. But instead of clarifying things, he said it was all the Demon's fault.

All the Angels were being sent down to Earth for some special occasion. Instead of paying attention to the prayer, the Angel Prince was hoping and hoping that he could meet the Demon Princess again, wishing and wishing that she was fine. He finally saw her standing at a distance with only her right black wing, with her face full of sorrow. In a rage, he walked towards her. Just when he was about to pull her to him, the Lord realized what happen. The Demon pushed the Angel away from her.......!The Angel was both shocked and suprised that he shouted "Why did you do such thing? Didn't you say that you will protect me even if it takes your life? Or are you just lying? Why?"......

The Demon said with all her might "Yes...i said you will be able to fly again. I said i will protect you even if it takes my life". With that, she took off her right black wing and insert it onto the Angel's injured right wing. She then fell into the arms of the Angel, with a smile on her face saying "I will protect you because i....." The Angel then realized that the Demon Princess was being killed by a golden arrow. He smiled to himself "So, you did not lie. I will fly with this black wing for the rest of my life!!"

One day, a little child called his Mummy. "Mummy Mummy. I saw a handsome Angel today...but his right wing is black in colour". The mother said "Hushh..don't simply say. Angel's wings will forever be white colour. Only Demons can have black wings. The child started to cry..."But he is really an Angel..."
What is the morale of this story? Don't judge a book by its cover!!Not all Demons are bad. Haha...i loved fantasy and fairy tales guys...!But surprisingly, i will choose Demon Princess over Angel Princess. I don't know why......but i always preferred being called a Demon rather than an Angel. I am Forever a Demon Princess =)))))) There won't be a heart diaries session in this post because i planned to write it in my next post. Sorry World....

Dearest BB,
Sorry...it took me 5 days to reply your message. Didn't you always ask me to wait?Hahaha..anyway, yea..i know you are going under hardcore but please take good care of yourself. Don't make yourself sick ok?Oh my god, are you threatening me?If i give up means you will give up too?No way man...in that case, then i WON'T GIVE UP. Trust me...i WON'T!!Yes...we have telepathy between us. I knew it when you are feeling down. You are always there for me when i was feeling down too. I don't want you to know...but then, you are always there for me. Thanks BB....!!There are so many things which i wanna do with you when i am back. Make sure you are there for me..............!!!I will be back soon!!In 6 months time. Keep your timetable empty for the DEMON PRINCESS!!Weii..of course i know "Love Paradise" is your favourite song okay. Because i love it too. Yes..it touches me very much. That's why i love it. You know....it is good to hear this song when you are attending a wedding ceremony. I felt so happy and touched for my Aunt when i heard this song being played during her wedding. I LOVE YOU TILL I DIE DEEP AS SEA WIDE AS SKY.............................!!Chances are everywhere BB....Grab your chance okay??Don't worry..if one day, i meant one day, when you realize chances are not there for you, let me know. I can create chances for you...........!I have the ability to do so..........TRUST ME!!lolz....Ya...i know i know!Even if you lost in the bet, i will still treat you bubble tea. Why?Because you are my BB.......!Love you so much.................

Sorry World.....i ve promised Selina Bear that i will use our JB S.H.E's pictures to write a meaningful article but then, the Angel and Demon thingy has gotten all over me. Sorry sorry sorry....i will write a real meaningful ariticle in my next post. Wait for me ya Selina Bear =((((((((
Meanwhile, Good Bye World...have a great time!!But don't forget to drop by here........even though i know there are a lot of silent readers....shhhhhhhhhhhh.........


再好的东西都有失去的一天。 再深的记忆也有淡忘的一天。再爱的人，也有远走的一天。再美的梦，也有苏醒的一天。 黑夜无论怎样悠长，白昼总会到来 。

-Shakespeare-

I Like The Way You Like Me =)

Aloha World, The Princess is back!!Why? Because my Princess BB Kelly has finally replied my message. Hmmpphh...How can you be lazier than me? Haha..anyway, i have given her my title "What do you want from me?" because i seriously can't draft out that post. Soweeeeeeeee World =( But i like the new title very much. Thanks for the inspiration sweetie....you know i always love you because you inspire me a lot in writing. I should talk to you more regarding this title AGAIN =) Okay...based on BB's updates and status all, i believe she is is well and happy. Great!!Don't worry BB, i can get on with my life here. I ve been studying for the whole day in the library. Much to my amazement, for i think i would have doze off in no time. Thank god i don't feel sleepy at all. I think i do really need to have a partner beside me in order to motivate me to study. ありがとう　Michele-san, 今週の日曜日もがんばってください！！But in another way, i have to thank BB too, for her demand and forcing me to sleep early last night. That's why i don't really felt so tired today. Oh my god, i think i am like koala bear.....i slept so much and yet i am always tired =(

Well, BB must have been feeling happy to see so many of her olden days pictures being uploaded in this post!!Nothing special!I am not going to write about them anyway...=) I just wanna use their pictures as my inspiration to continue writing!!I am tired of using sceneries anyway. I have the urge to write my blog in chinese!!I shall anyway...because some meaningful quotes are just too hard for me to translate!!People used all kind of things to express themselves, but for me, i think writing and photography does the thing =) I can hear Mrs Cammie screaming and waving to me out there in a faraway land =)
Look at the picture above. They are Vonny, BB Kelly and Me!Both of them are my most most most favourite and treasured juniors. I missed you guys. Thanks for serving as a Leo so passionately and actively. Without you guys, i would have long being defeated by rumours and backstabbings. Thanks for being there for me whenever i need you guys. I did the right by handling the club to you both. Looking into their eyes for the first time, you can see "Playful-ness" and "innocent". But if you looked again for the second time, you can see "Determination" and "Sincerity". Back during my school days, i used to believe in lies. But eventually, i got so immuned with lies that i learnt to trust no one but myself. So i really don't know why i chose to believe them. I don't doubt them eversince the first day i met them. Yes, including all those crazy moments and happy times that we had. I TRUST THEM. Maybe it is their sincerity that touches me. Young and innocent they were, but they know how to stand up and backed up their president whenever things goes wrong. They never once doubt me whenever they heard something bad about me though they could easily just leave me alone =) People have been laughing and making fun of them for their size!!People used to call us bitch and all nasty names. But who cares? We are not the ones who would go round applying something or draw our faces just to grab your attention! Don't ever ever try to hurt them with words for i won't allow that to happen. To me, they are the most beautiful princesses for they have the purest hearts =) They are the ones who gave me hope and faith whenever i am down......!With that, i would like to end this situation with "Love Paradise"...

I love you till i die
Deep as sea, Wide as sky
The beauty of our loves paint rainbow
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
YOU'RE MY HOPE
YOU'R MY PRIDE
In your arms i find my heaven
In your eyes my seas and sky
May life be our love paradise.......

You guys used to say i am your hope and pride..but in reality, you guys are the one who gave me that!!=))))))))))

A little story time for you guys and then i'll move on to my next quote or something. The above picture was taken during my last day in Secondary school(Year 2007)!!And hence, both of them tend to cry and chase after bus 2627. I felt sad too =((((( but it was time for me to leave school. 慢慢才知道，快乐常常来自回忆，而痛苦常常来自于回忆于现实的差距。Slowly we will realize that happiness comes from memories, but pain often appear due to the fact that there is a great distance between memories and realities =) Yes!!!I am happy because i have the most sweetest memories ever. But then sometimes, it caused me to be in pain too because i know i can't go back to my old sweet time again. I cannot describe the real feeling of it.....but then, how i wish i have a time machine that allows me to go back to my past!!I want to change my destiny......(PS: I know it is just a wishful thinking of mine. But can't i dream once a while?) Behind a person's back, there are bound to be a story of their own. I will never know if their stories are as complicated as mine or they had a sad and dark story behind them. Regardless of what is it, i'll always pray that God will send the right person into their lives to open up their heart =) Everyone is bound to have a regret of their own. Something that you wanted very much to do but in the end, you never do it! Sounds familiar huh?? But yea...i do have my own regrets!!Ahh well, it is the past!!Life goes on........with that i end this situation with Jay Chou's song -Back to the past

想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去

Yes...back to the past?Who wouldn't want to go back to the past?To rewind the long ago forbidden memories again?

Obviously, the picture above was taken during chinese new year time where you can see us holding a basket full of mandarins. Anyway, i don't know who edited this picture. The christmas hats looked so wrong. Well, as a Leo, we often visit the Old Folk Homes. Just by looking at them, i realized that we should really know and understand the word "Filial". I wonder what is the feeling of their kids when they send their parent's to the old folk homes. Don't they feel sad at all? I know i can't judge much because the children might be facing some problems too. But then, the minute you were being brought to this World, you are already in your mother's debt =(((( Don't know what's wrong with the world nowadays!!But i hope my little kids won't treat their parent's like this okay??You know who you are =P We are like the sunshine to our parent's. We brightened up their lives. Can you imagine the radiance on their face the minute when we started crying?? You're my Sunshine, My only Sunshine...You make me happy, when skies are grey....

Alright, i ve been drifting too far away!!Did i mention about having regrets in one's life??Yea, i guess i did. I do have regrets in my life. Listen..it is not "Regret" but "Regrets". See...i have the darkest life ever =P I shall exclude the study part because i didn't do really bad in my studies...even though i pretty much can score well for it. Ahh..well....it is the past!!The biggest regret of my life is that i tend to let media conquer my own feelings and mind =) I was young once and of course i tend to believe whatever was shown on the TV. Falling in love at such a young age is not a good thing at all...!!Of course i didn't get into a relationship at the age of 12 but i already know what is the meaning of "love". Pooh...maybe i was smarter when i was young but stupid as i grow older. Why did i say this was my biggest regret?Because i have been crushing someone for so long but never thought of telling him. Mind you, i don't enjoy the pain of it...but This is ME!!I don't wish to define more on that for you won't know it anyway....!With that i end this situation with Angela's song -手心的太阳

你手心的太阳
只轻放在我背上
委屈就能笑着落泪
被释放
在手心的太阳
黑暗里特别明亮
让远路好像
是一种分享
而不是漫长…

How i wish i can be the sun that brightens up people lives!!Although i don't really like the heat of the Sun but still i do miss the warm feeling of it at certain time. Someone said "Maybe you have already done so..but you are not realizing it!" I don't know. I don't want to receive thanks or gratitude from others. I just want to do my part =)

People, i love this picture the best of all!!And this is one of our BEST activity for the year. A visit to the Berkat Orphanage Home. Speaking of it, it has been a while since i last saw the kids. I miss them terribly. Yes i do =(((( I wonder how they are doing now? I must visit them when i am back. BB..you have to join me!!Let's bring happiness to them again. Looking at them makes me realized how fortunate i was. Here i am living life like a Princess and there are kids outside who have to live alone without their parent's. This orphanage was run by a married chinese couple. I admire them for their kindness and passion to bring up the kids. I wanna do something like this too in future. I don't mind being single and living alone for i know i can give my love to many poor kids outside. Guys, you don't have to do anything. Just by seeing you, the kids are more than enough happy. Give them a hug or a pat and they'll stick to you all day long =) I miss the kids.......truly and honestly!As i say "Children are fearfully and wonderfully created by God!" So, we should treat them with love and care. Be patient with them!!This is one of the thing i learnt eversince i joined Zion Praise Harvest. I can be really nasty to my cousins too.....i meant not in the sense of beating them and bashing them up. But i used to lost patience with Barry too but now i realized all kids are the same. Just talk to them nicely and they'll understand it =))) Your mind can really be peaceful and calm when you hear kids singing. This is why i longed and longed to go and serve the kids. "Your eyes search the world for the kings and queens. Looking for a child...Just like me" 每个小孩都是上帝牵手来到这世上的。。。。with that i end this situation with a children song which i used to listen when i was small. I still love it now..but sadly i don't know who sang this song.

大象长长的鼻子正昂扬

全世界都举起了希望

孔雀旋转着碧丽辉煌

没有人应该永远沮丧

河马张开口吞掉了水草

烦恼都装进它的大肚量

老鹰带领着我们飞翔

更高更远更需要梦想

告诉你一个神秘的地方

一个孩子们的快乐天堂

跟人间一样的忙碌扰嚷

有哭有笑当然也会有悲伤

我们拥有同样的阳光


I am so gonna teach my kids how to sing this song in future. I hope everyone can appreciate this lyrics. You will realize how wonderful kids are =))))))))

Look at my juniors. They were all grown up and leading their own lives. I felt happy for them no matter what route they chose. I want to be as carefree as you both...!!Looking at them will naturally makes me happy for they always filled me up with endless lame jokes. I used to be a stupid and naive girl who believes everything people said. They are the ones who taught me not to believe in people so easily. I was stupid enough to take a person's words so seriously. Here comes another big regret of mine. I was stupid enough to believe his lies....thinking that he won't go for looks. But now i realized all guys are the same. The first thing they look for in a girl is their looks. Okay..maybe not all guys are like that but most of the guys i met are like that =( It is either extremely pretty or extremely ugly that grabs attention. I want to be in the "extremely ugly" group. Right BB?I think i told you the reasons already so there is no need for me to repeat my story again. Despite of that, i still wanna be myself. I don't care about being pretty or ugly now as long as i live beneath my dreams and dignity. Yes...as a SHERO!!Ehh...why did i drift so far away again?Anyway, i have two stories for this situation. One, i was stupid enough to believe him when i was in secondary school. Knowing the fact that he is extremely good looking and that he can have any girls he wants to but still i chose to believe him. As predicted, nothing went right. I don't consider myself as the unlucky one for i DESERVE BETTER. Girls out there, always have faith in yourself. Always believe that you are worth a billion times more and that you deserves a better one. Next, hmm...maybe i am the bad one for i don't love him in the first place but it was all out of sympathy. I know, you guys are so gonna say "Why girls always give this kind of bullshit reason?" But, THIS IS THE TRUTH!!I am always true to my own feelings. Well, he is not the bad one because i assume i am for i was the one who made this terrible mistake. Anyway, he deserves better. I sincerely hope that he can find someone better than me. The gap between us is too wide and i know he is forever not THE ONE!I knew it earlier than before.Our personalities are totally different and i really don't like the way he controls me!I am a human....not your slave...!Anyway, that was the past!!I'll still hope he can find his place in this World someday =)) With that i end this situation with SHE's song- 爱我的资格

你比我更清楚

你对我多好

多温柔多认真

不构成爱我的资格

除非你只看着我

想着我只有我

爱本来就该独一无二

为你伤心多一点少一点

流下的眼泪都一样不值得

世界上那么多人

只有我一个人

能拯救自己的快乐

不要再为你哭了

What's meant to be yours will be yours!Just like Shermaine's favourite quote. Hmm...i meant she always used this quote to disturb me "What if he is your Prince Charming but you are not his Cinderella?" 慢慢的才知道,原来两个人在一起或真或假,相处的时间还是占据着重要成份. Slowly we will realized, whether a couple is serious or not in their relationship, the time when they start to know each other better plays the most important role.

And finally, my heart diaries session. Honestly, this AGAIN is not what i meant to write in my post. Initially i plan to write something meaningful but then...haih..my plan failed again!*I Like The Way You Like Me* Thanks BB..for this wonderful inspiration. Yes...i will tell you what i look for in a guy.Or rather, my life-long partner =))) Happy leh?The Princess has finally decided to reveal what she is looking for in a man after being requested by most people. First of all, you must have FEELING. Even though a lot of people tell me "feeling" can change one day but still i think feeling is one of the most important aspect for me. For me, i am looking for those whom i can get along well like friends. We must never hide anything from each other. TRUST and HONESTY is something which i mind terribly. Don't you ever dare to lie to me!!It is your luck if i don't find out, hmm, but if i do, it will be like a taboo to me. I'll never forgive you unless you have valid reasons. Yea...then i want those who will look only at me. Hahaha..just like those in Fairy Tales. Okay, i know i am dreaming. I don't care about their past because i am heading towards FUTURE. I know everyone have their own past!So i am not going to question any further as long as they are willing to change. But don't you dare to change for 3 months then go back to your old-self again. I seriously cannot stand this kind of people!!You can pretty much stay away from me if you think you are that kind of person.Other than that, i think everything is pretty much normal - good personality, kind, good, loyal and etc. Finally, he must be able to accept WHO I AM!!It is pointless if i have to act or fake in front of someone i love. I would rather be my ownself man!!Accept me just like how BB and the rest accepted me. Yea...so this is basically what i can think of. BB...your title is too strenous for me already. And yet i like it...."I LIKE THE WAY YOU LIKE ME=) * With that i end this diary with Lollipop's song -苦茶

不用等你开口先说我爱你(我爱你)

在那之前想对你说我愿意(我愿意)

你不必问你也不必等

这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你(我爱你)

在那之后你点头说我愿意(我愿意)

想照顾你想守护着你

这一刻只想把你抱紧

I know it is hard to maintain a life-long relationship but again, if you met the right one, then that is different story. Someone said "What is the use of being in a relationship if you can't see any future with that person?" But sometimes, it is really unpredictable. You may have a happy start, but things might change isn't it?And hence, the phrase, 不要因为结束而哭泣，微笑吧，因为你曾经拥有过. Yes..don't mourn for the past because you had it once. Walk towards future...

Dearest BB,

Finally you replied my message. Thanks BB for your concern. Because of you, i am being forced to sleep early. Because of you, i wanna go dieting with you. My aim?You really wanna know?I want to go below 45 kg. SERIOUSLY i want to go back to 45kg. Anyway, no worries, you are already my motivator. I know things are hard for me now. But really, don't worry about me. I know how to take care of myself??Don't you trust me!!I will eat....!!Talking about panda eyes, yes..i really looked like a panda now. Talking to you is like a routine to me already because you RPOMISED you will look after me when the rest went back. Weiii...don't simply say...!!I am not powerful enough to control people. Yala...having to babysit people is really a tough job. I just hope he can wake up soon. You'll support me right??MY MISSION!!...BB, don't deceive yourself. You really can't control feelings you know. If you really like him, then for goodness sake, don't give up!This is what you tell me isn't it? NEVER GIVE UP!!I won't allow you to...even though i know he might not be the best one. But..FEELINGs are important!!Hehe..so don't try to chase your VIRUS away for i know your heart doesn't want you to. Hehehe...i win in the bet BB...MY UTOPIA!! I am fine too seriously..don't worry about me. I know what i am doing...=)))))) You know you love me too...=))) Yours truly...

World...not bad isn't it??I think i should use more pictures in future in order to inspire me more in writing. I don't know if this is the meaningful post that i yearn to write, because to me, it is like full of rubbishes again. So World...try to inspire me more with something new!!=))))))))))))) See ya in the next post!!....Love you World..

一个人总要走陌生的路，看陌生的风景，听陌生的歌，然后在某个不经意的瞬间，你会发现，原本是费尽心机想要忘记的事情真的就那么忘记了。 One is always on a strange road, watching strange scenery and listening to strange music. Then one day, you will find that the things you try hard to forget are already gone. 　　

Overdued post + The Princess is feeling weak.....

Hello World..The Princess is back again!!Nothing to do anyway, so i can only come to this Little World of mine. Hopefully, it helps in killing just a "Little Bit" of my time. Well...The Princess is feeling sick now. Now only i realized how weak i am. Just lacked of sleeps and water consume can caused me to be sick. I ve been feeling so cold for the whole day even though the weather is not really that cold and i can feel my head spinning. Exam is tomorrow and i really don't have the mood to study!!Sorry Mummy-san, i won't allow myself to fail =) I just wanna sleep sleep sleep all day long!!Shermaine is back to her lovely home-Malaysia!! Everything is so quiet now.....!!I miss you so much, Shermaine!!I don't feel like eating dinner now since there is no one who can cook for me =P I will undergo a hardcore dieting plan with you BB!! Trust me...=P

Anyway, i was browsing through my pictures and i saw this. Yes...i think this took place like one month ago in Fremantle. We decided to try the Famous San Churro. I heard that the chocolates there are very nice. So we tried it. The price are reasonable too.

This is Shermaine. My s0-called daughter. Actually it is just for fun. She is like my mum anyway...always having to take care of me. Bluek....but she is a good crapping buddy. We can crap a lot =)

This is really yummy. I forgot what is the name of this cake. But if i am not wrong, it has something like "Extra Fats" in its name. To think we can actually eat it without considering the consequences of it. =(

See the Bear Bear. It was a funding project to help poor children. It cost Aud 2. People, just put Aud 2 in the box to help the kids. It won't hurt you to do that. Trust me, you will feel very happy after that. First, you can get this cute bear. Second, you can help the kids. It is like killing two birds with one stone. Save the kids now!!They are fearfully and wonderfully created by God!!They are known as the "Child of God"....=) And i am determined to drop Aud 2 into the box each time i saw this..... And because of this, i forced my son and daughter to buy it too. You guys will be blessed don't worry =) For you are doing a good act...yes..to help the lovely kids out there!!Not every kids turn out to be devils when they grow up =P They will remain as angels......

Now, My Heart Diaries session is here...!!I don't know why, but recently i tend to feel emo suddenly. It is like my mood doesn't give me any signals and reasons to be emo and i just felt moody. There goes the same for everything. I was the one who started all those topics but right after that, i will feel so down. I don't know what's wrong with me. Then i have to call my BB each time when i was feeling emo. Poor You BB!!But you have to answer my call = P There is no right or wrong in this situation. Both parties will have to face the outcomes anyway. BB advised me "Take the first step. Just step out...!" But can i say " I don't want!!" ? Then BB will say "Don't be stupid. I won't allow you to give up. " And i will say " I really felt like giving up." And the story goes on.........!I don't want to define more on that. Let it be a mystery...=) But it comes from the bottom of my heart- My Heart Diaries. (PS: No worries World, there will be a short heart diaries session in every of my post now!Just be patient with me )

Aright, since it takes like forever to wait for BB's reply, so there won't be any reply to her message in this post today. Hmmpp...BB, OBVIOUSLY you have not been updating your blog these few days. Don't be so lazy okay??No boys like lazy girls!!=P Your Mr. Miracle will run away if you are too lazy!!

Okay, i know this post is full of nonsenses and rubbishes. But hey..you guys complaint that my post is always so long. So this is consider the shortest post ever already. Don't complain again ya!!I just wanna keep my blog alive anyway. So i shall see you guys in the next post!!Wish me lucks........i don't want to fall sick =) Good bye World...You know i always love you guys....