I am a happy happy girl :) And I am planning to stay like this for as long as I can...

Kiss from a Rose

I always love the song "Kiss from a Rose" by Seal. The melody is just so soothing :) It is a soundtrack from Batman Forever. 

PS: I really love the rose. Thanks for the effort :) 

I am so sorry for being all emotional previously :(  I know it was over but I still think I should say something about it to remind me of how awful I was. Insecurity has really gotten all over me and I just can't control myself. I don't want to take your patience for granted and I am learning to be better. You have always been the one who gives in a lot and I am really touched by the fact that you didn't walk away from me or forsake me in my weaknesses. You know, I really can't afford to lose you. Even if it is uncertain, I am still willing to risk it all, just because I believe you are worthy to be with someone who is a million times better than me. Do not doubt my feelings or feel insecure over it. I may be playful. I may look as if I don't care. I may be an awful person at times. I may have uncountable flaws in me. I may I may I may.... there are so many reasons to show how awful I am. But please be patient with me alright? I will change for the better I promised :)

DINO

Saw this little Dino in Malacca a few days back and my first thought goes to Jojo :) 

We always wanted to make a "Dinosaur" island for refreshment. In Perth, we have Dinosaur nuggets. So we always wanted to make a mountain-like mash potatoes decorated with green broccoli. Then we will place the dinosaurs all over it. Oh.. and we also thought of spraying tomato sauce all over the edge of the mountain to make a river :) That was so cute. Perhaps one fine day, for fun sake, I can try to make it for my own connect group refreshment. That would be awesome. Geez..

Life

"Eating" is always one of the greatest enjoyment :) I really love to eat!

I have ZERO resistant in food. Food can always cheer me up despite my day being so gloomy and dark. Eating reminds me of "Eat Pray Love" when Elizabeth Gilbert spent one whole year traveling around Italy, India and Indonesia learning to enjoy life, enhance her spirituality by praying and balancing her love. It is kinda inspiring and it hit me in a sense that most people (girls especially) are always afraid of eating and gaining weight. The truth is..what's the big deal? If you can't fit in your jeans, just get a larger pair!! Yes, I think that's what I will do. Instead of rejecting food, I'll just eat and deal with the consequences later on :) 

Insecure
Insecure
Insecure

And

INSECUREEEEEEE

I just feel like killing myself than dealing with it.

I am done with ranting. BYE!!!

Blast to the past again..

I was scrolling and looking at my past pictures and I stumbled upon some pictures taken by Mr Julian Cheong Cannot-Make-It (PS: This is an inside joke). It was during the time when Simon had to stay over in Singapore due to his flight delayed thingy. Anyway, things are fun. Julian is a good photographer and he gladly helped us to take pictures.

There we are.. forever crazy. That's how Murdochians should be. I was still a student back then and things changed isn't it? Back then, I don't have to worry for most stuffs and now, I need to be independent in many ways. It is alright!!! I love changes and I am always excited to see what will happen ahead of me :)

I feel so blessed that I don't think I can contain it anymore. It is so much that I feel like I gotta give some  of my blessings away...

Recently, I have arrived at a point where everything is changing. It could be for the worst or for the better. I am determined enough to think that it is gonna be for the best. Be it my life, be it my family, be it my relationship, be it the church and be it anything else, it is all changing. I know nothing will remain forever. There are bound to be ups and downs in life. Yet, I still hope that when the tide is low, You will give me the strength to hang on.

To that "You", if you are reading this, I just want you to know that I am really blessed to have you in my life. You have done so much that I really don't think I deserves it. I thank you for being real and honest with me. I am touched by all the gestures and things that you have done. Do not doubt or feel otherwise, I am willing :) Yes, I am willing to partake this exciting and yet, risky journey with you :) I am blessed... really, I am!!

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Sometimes, things happen so fast that it is almost impossible for me to catch my breath. I like my life this way when I have to rush for one thing to another. I am not a sit-still person :) And yet, I do enjoy being slow at times too. 

I guess I am entering into a new phase which is both precious and risky. I love the way God answers my prayers. It is really unreal and at most times, I thought I am still dreaming. Everything that I dreamt of is coming true bits by bits. I can't help feeling frighten at times. I am afraid to wake up and realize all these are actually just a dream. It would be devastating knowing that the amount of feelings and hope that I've invested has come to nothing. I am not that kind of person who can express very well, as much as I wanted to. Deep down inside, I am just very grateful for that little gestures of concern and kindness being shown to me. It makes me feel that I am worth it :) Thank you for making me feel blessed. Father Lord, if You are listening, let me hold on and lean on to this forever, even if it is only just a dream..

My Girl :)

Love this girl sooooooo much as she sacrificed her assignment time for me. Been wanting to meet up with her but our timings are always not right. Finally... it is like finally, I don't have to wait till the next coming Chinese New Year.

We were best friends since 14. Time flies and now we are both 23 XD How do you feel about it? I am thankful for her. I used to be a cool loner who doesn't care about anything and anyone else around me, not even when you are concern about me. Not that I don't appreciate it but I just didn't want to express. She was the only person who caught my signs and realize the best way to express concern is to shut up and just be there for me :) I've seen my bestie transformed from a playful girl into a mature young lady. I am happy for that :) I shall see you soon alright? Hang in there...

A Beautiful Disaster

Never imagine something like this to happen and yet it did. To me, it is like dream comes true and I am really overwhelmed. 

I don't know what to say except for the fact that I am really glad all these are happening. Apart from "Thank You", I can only say "Thank You". I like the way you like me :) Really I do...

MINIONS!!!

I still don't understand how minions can get so famous in "Despicable Me", that it is almost the highlight of the show. But oh...how so adorable they are!!! I wanted the whole set of Happy Meals collection. Not because I am crazy over minions or so, but partly because it is McDonald we are talking about.

As you know, Malaysians are so crazy over this minions thingy that it was all sold out within hours. IMPRESSIVE!!! But... it is alright, Viola is lucky enough to have a nice friend who is willing to collect it for her. And so, say HI to my minions above. It won't be long before I can have them all back in my house :)

Chill out

Always enjoy a good chill out session. Don't know why, I just love the word "chill out". 

Spent the whole afternoon chilling at Food Decor with the girl!! It is funny how we used to be close, then distance a bit, and now we are close again. Father Lord, You are always giving me surprises or show me the least expected stuffs. I don't know if I should be angry with You or what. Just don't let it be a dream alright??

My one and only

Always love this guy who never fails to make me laugh or smile. Despite my day being so blue and dark, just getting near him is sufficient enough to chase the storms away :) 

Thank you for always being there for me dearest Ronald. Thank you for bringing so much joy and added spice into my life. Without you, my life would be really boring and quiet. You always call me a little fire cracker, but in my World, you are the biggest cracker of all. I just love you so much :)

You gave me my wings

I am eternally grateful to my parents' for giving me wings to fly. They don't only provide me with one but they actually taught me how to fly. 

It is yet another brand new year and things are getting tougher. I can't control situations and expect it to shimmer down in one second. Okay, I am lost. I don't know what to write. All in all, I just wanna say I still love my family and that I didn't mean to hurt them or so.

When I wish upon the stars..

It is always my dream to have a "real" glimpse of the breathtaking Eiffel Tower. Been scrolling, drooling and goggling  at all the pictures taken by my lucky friends who realized the dream ahead of me.

It is quite alright. I believe there will be the day when dreams come true. I won't be looking at pictures forever. I'll make people look at mine one day :P Paris... wait for me a little while alright? I am coming to see you..