The truth that you leave.....

Hello World....oh well, i seriously don't know how to start my post other than saying "HELLO". Machi has been complaining that most of my intros are the same. I am having my study break for this whole week. Trust me. I didn't do anything at all. But i thought i would come here to update at least a post if not i really really deserve to be spank by others. Give me some ideas on what to write then. As you know, i ve been spending my money on books. So obviously, instead of doing my assignments, i spend all my time reading and oh ya, spending money as well!Eating is one of the way to enjoy life. FOOD RAWKZZ!! Alright, he books that i've read. Thanks Catherine babe for the nice book - The man of my dream. Even though i don't like the ending, but still, thanks for the book. It was about a girl named Hannah who spend her life finding her Mr. Right. So i ve spend the whole day reading about Hannah and her boyfriends. Hmm, i ve all Cecelia Ahern's books already except for the newest book - The book of tomorrow. Arghh..i need to save more moeny for more books. Recently i discovered that Nicholas Sparks' books were awesome. Especially "The Last Song" and "A walk to remember". I don't like the fact that they put Miley Cyrus on the book cover for whenever i tried really hard to imagine the characters from the story, her face will automatically pops out. It sucks...........hmm...

Good food will bring smiles to your face!I went to visit Catherine babe on Sunday evening, right after practice. I hope you are feeling well and do take care of yourself. Don't move around if possible, even though the doctor said you should exercise more. And, call me up if you wanted to go SHOPPING!haha...and yea, we had steamboat for dinner. They were awesome right? They knew i don't like to eat meat, so they bought lots of fishballs. And i was so stuffed by the time we called the shot!!Thanks for sending us back Datuk Tan. You know what, i was feeling so hungry by the time i reach Student Village. No wonder i gained so much weight....!Please control my appetite people. I don't want mummy to call me a pig when i go back.

Accompanied my Catherine Babe to the hospital the next day. It was fun to see her driving and trying to park her car into a really really small and squeezy parking lot. We were laughing all the way as we finally manage to park the car in but couldn't get ourselves out from the car. Hilarious!!Well, i am glad the doctor said you are recovering. Don't say you look ugly here for i think you are always looking pretty =) Remember to call me when you feel like having Dim Sum or cakes. I wanted to eat as well =))) Hope to see you guys again!

I don't know why...but from the first time i listened to "The Truth That You Leave" by Pianoboy, i got addicted to it right away. It was a nice piece of music and i like the title too. So, it shall become the title of my heart diaries session again!Now, i seriously don't know what's wrong with my life. I am not implying on anybody. It is just like two friends who used to be very good but suddenly they drifted far apart because of no reason. That was really stupid. First, you lost a friend. Second, it is not worth. Arghh......i don't know what to say!Don't wanna spoil my mood over these kind of things ever. I hope i won't come across this kind of situaton again. People, my life is great now!For i ve learnt not to take people's bad remarks to heart. And that makes my life easier. Plus, i am doing something which i like. Life is not as easy as you think. Ah well, thinking and imagining is definitely an easy task. We are all able to THINK that we can achieve big things, but in the end, you still got to work it out yourself. For once, i feel that i can actually be strong from inner and not to mourn over my past. Thanks a lot to those who listened to my story patiently. I still love my life though and i am happy to be myself.

Before i end, i just wanna say I AM WHO I AM. No matter what happened, i am always being myself. Even if you feel that i have changed or what, i am still myself. The only thing that changed is that i don't have more personal time to myself. Other than that, nothing ever change. I am still here =))

Sorry World for the emo ending. Anyway, i miss you all =))))))

Extraordinary Life

Hello peeps, i am back again.....................!!Nothing special!!The only different is that i don't feel emo today =) Hello...the D.E.M.O.N Princess doesn't have to wait until she is emo only she will come crawling to her blog right?(Even though 90% of the articles in this blog were written when she is feeling super down) Alright, my babe Catherine has given me a sound scolding for always being emo. So this time i am NOT going to update anything emotional or sad =)) PS: Babe, see i am so good!I listen to your advice. Oh hey, People!Remember how i used to mourn in my previous posts that i am so so so gonna fail in that stupid Commercial Law Paper? Praise the Lord!I passed!Yayy...but i am not gonna be happy about it because i know it wasn't my own hard work. I don't deserve to pass at all. I promised to study hard from now onwards. Well, i am not saying i am gonna be a real nerd from now...but at least i'll get myself prepared before exams. I learnt my lesson =)) Thank you Lord for answering my prayer. At least my mummy won't have to fork out a lum sum of money in order for me to retake that miserable subject.
I got this Pooh Bear during Zion Food Fest. According to what i know, there is a guy who is extremely good and expertised at grabbing soft toys from machine. And so, i saw everyone from Murdoch (GIRLS OF COURSE) each carrying a soft toys of different sizes. Wing gave me this.........the pooh bear looks cute isn't it?Can you actually see what the bear is holding?Can't see?

Spot the little bracelet with its powerful words - REACH THE WORLD. It was given to me by our big boss after a strong and powerful talk. Honestly, it really really motivates me a lot!In my life, i always felt that my life weren't perfect and i often envied others of their good life, thinking why my life wasn't as similar as theirs. You see, i didn't even realize how lucky i was until i grew up. I never even realize how fragile i was until i was being reminded by someone. I started losing confidence, losing hopes, thinking i am NOBODY!Nobody likes me and i am always being rejected by others. You see!I don't have any confidence at all. Not until LEO saved me. I started having confidence and hopes. But right after i leave school, i went back to my old-self again. Always having to pretend that i am happy. But behind my fake smiles, there is another story. I am just nobody. Even now, i still can't help wondering if i am still someone without any hopes at all. Someone who doesn't deserve any chances at all. Someone who is worthless and weak. Someone who is not worthy enough to be accept by others. PS: I am not being emo. Just sorting out!!I am still a human anyway!I was born to be emotional =) Anyway, i am learning how to pull myself together and to be strong. Someone told me "It is not wrong to rely on someone. Afterall, you are still a girl!" But i don't want to. I don't want to promote the habit of relying too much on others. THIS IS ME.........well, practice makes perfect!I am still trying though...

Okay World, I think i should stop now. Oh...for your information, hehe...i bought a few more books today. Hurray, i have finished "My Bestfriend's Girl". It was nice though but i didn't cry like how people said i would. Thanks Catherine Babe for giving me the book of "The man of my dreams". For sure i will tell you the story after i am done with it.

See ya World!!!More stories coming up. ................Good night!!!

F.R.E.E.D.O.M

Hello World, sorry for neglecting this little World of mine for so long. My dearest readers might have given up on me already =( Anyway, i am back again =) This blog contains too much memories for me so i won't give up this blog (Ps: Even though the urge of deleting this blog is rising within me now) Hmm...Uni has started and it wasn't nice at all. I did my commercial Law test like 10 days ago?? Trust me, i would be really lucky if i could even pass the exam. I entered the exam hall with zero preparation!!I tried my best though =(( Haix...next time i should really build up a good connection with those subjects which i detest. I think it is only during the time when i am feeling emo or i had free time, only i will come running to my blog. I felt so sorry for my blog though. My voice isn't better. It has been 3 weeks eversince i lost my voice and it wasn't getting any better. I want my original voice back........Tell me what to do to get back my voice!!
See?I told you i have been spending my money on books. And these are my latest addition to my bookies family. Yayy...finally i finished my PS I LOVE YOU. I am being really random here. I just wanna find a quiet place to hide and to finish up all my books. It takes forever to finish one book. Cecelia Ahern's books are awesome!!!Her books always put me into deep thoughts after i finished reading one.

And because i wanted to read, so i jump straight into my heart diaries session =)) The title of my heart diaries today will be "FREEDOM". Lately, i don't know what kind of life i am leading now. Although there are many activities to keep me busy, but i felt so lifeless. I seem to have lost the direction that lead me to what i am pursuing. I don't seem to know what i want anymore. Someone said, "It is a major problem if you let your past to stop you from moving on!" I am not saying i don't want to move on but i missed my past badly. Don't mind me people. I don't know what i am typing. I am just sinking into one of my emo time again. I really shouldn't allow my emotions to conquer my thoughts. Maybe because i lost my voice, so i am feeling awful and not at all happy. Anyway, i kinda hate myself for making mummy worried about me. I hate myself for spending so much but i just FEEL like it. Sorry for being nasty.....but i need to explode sometimes. I don't even know the reason why i am feeling so down. Well, maybe that is just me. I just wanna be myself..................

Okay...i don't think i can even continue writing. I'll try to update when i am feeling a bit cheerful. See ya World..........=))))))))) I will be back.....