My BB Kelly design this picture for me. Thanks BB!!Can you see the revolution of me??Anyway, i lost most of my pictures. Apart of the hairstyle, i just wanna say I AM STILL MYSELF!!Ahh well, maybe i turn from strong to weak. It was rare for me!As i browse through my olden days pictures, i realize i was so happy and strong last time throughout the day when i was a Leo. But that era has ended for me. It was meant to be good but things doesn't turn out well. I tend to believe people easily at a time but got betrayed. So i ended up trusting no one and began to stuff everything to myself. I find myself so stuffed that i exploded one fine day. I should have felt lighter but likewise, i felt so weak!!Sometimes i wish, i could grab hold of a time machine and to go back to the time when i was so happy and strong, and was surrounded by heaps of people who cares for me. Alright people, back to my topic "UNSTOPPABLE LIFE". I was so inspired by this surmon a few weeks ago, and it hit me badly. It is hard to satisfy a human. We are always complaining about something or feel that we should achieve something better. Even a millionaire would not be satisfy with his or her life. True enough, some of us may been through hardship or once had been through a happy time and now they were not happy, but what i wanna say is that "THE END OF AN ERA IS NOT THE COMPLETION OF YOUR DESTINY". There are many eras in one's life. Take me for example, i love primary school where all of us were so united and we bonded out well. Even when i wanna confess to someone, the whole class were there to support me =) We fought, we cried, we scolded each other, we love each other, we united together. WHEN the time comes for me to leave this wonderland, i was so sad and i didn't really look forward to enter an unknown school where no one is familiar to me there. But i knew, i was the one who made the decision to leave the place that i loved so much. I even thought of transferring back to my old school. As time goes by, i realized things has changed. So what if i transfer back to my old school? Things wouldn't be the same anymore. I ve got to move on!!Just like i thought i wouldn't be able to smile again throughout my whole high school life but GOD proved me wrong. He gave me awesome friends. He makes me stronger, he handed me the whole Leo Club, he gave me hopes, he solved all my problems!! 
I have been spending a lot recently. ON BOOKS!!Yayy...i have been controlling my reading mode as i know books here are expensive. But i am so so so addicted to Cecelia Ahern's novels that i can't resist myself from buying books. Hey Mummy, don't scold me!At least i am not spending it on something useless. Oh ya, this is the first time i never spend a single cent on JUNK FOOD!!Yayy....i will spend more money on books next time =))Yep, back to "Unstoppable Life", all of us should set a mindset by believing that God will give us the best for our future. After the surmon, i was like "Argghhh...why didn't i even think of all these?" I felt stupid for mourning over my current life. And i felt stupid for even complaining about my life. So what if my life is complicated and all, We must believe that everything happens for a reason. My past and problems has been conquering my thoughts all along the while and i felt really weak and unworthy. Unworthy enough to fall before the lord and unworthy enough to be trust by others. Who is at fault?ME, MYSELF AND I. WHY? Because i was the one who allows all these to happen. If only i was strong enough to fight the devils in me, then things would have been so much better. Oops, because i am the devil, so i should say, i have to fight the angels =P ...If only i know there are many different eras in our life and that we can't always linger on to the past..........but it is not too late to realize all these!It is a MAJOR PROBLEM if you let the past affect your current life. So people, move on!!
I ve been promoting Mumu and Cute Bear Bear a lot and i think my other soft toys back at home will be so jealous =) No worries, i love each and every single soft toys of mine. Look at the book they were holding- Cecelia Ahern's book (THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES) I simply love this book. Have you ever met someone whom you felt that you knew him or her and YET you don't and that you have never met him or her throughout your entire life? Or you suddenly felt that you are gaining lots of unknown knowledge and that you find yourself doing things which you have never done before in your life? Hmm...this book is a miracle. I love her books!!!Anyway, i just wanna borrow her book title as the title for my heart diaries session. "THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES" Hmm...all these while, i have been stressing about being strong and letting go. And yea, i think i handle it pretty well. At least i don't feel the pain anymore. I am glad i surrender everything to him. I have given up on pursuing the thing which i wanted badly and it forever won't be mine =) I am not sure about "Fate" now. I just want everything to remain the same like before and yet, it is rather tough. Maybe it is a sign, telling me to move on!!This era has already ended for me, i have got to move on to the next. I just don't want to be so weak anymore. I want everything to be in their right place again. Despite of all these, i still have all those memories surrounding me. And though you are far apart, i still wanna say "Thanks for the memories". It will be the most precious treasure to me in my life =)))) Thank you..Okiez World...i shall stop here. Not going to blabber so much anymore. Will update often now before i lost all my inspiration =)) Don't give up on me ok??You know i always love you all...........GOOD NIGHT WORLD!!!
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