One of the best memory in my life....

Hello World, can you see spiders crawling all over my little world? Yup, my blog is full of spider webs now. Sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.....i am lazy to update and i DON'T know what to update. I haven't been feeling so well since last week. I totally lost my voice. I had sorethroat and i had fever. And NOW, i am coughing. What the.............=( Anyway, i just wanted my original voice back. It is awful for not being able to sing. It is even awful to feel uncomfortable when the rest were having fun. I miss Mummy even though she can be a bit annoying at times. She called me for more than 5 times in a row just to ask me some really really random questions. Okay, i know it is not her fault. I am just pissed off with the poor reception. I am always having to run here and there to find reception. I don't enjoy winter course at all. Why?First, because i dislike law. Second, because i have much more exciting stuffs to do. Third, i am not a super girl. Fourth, i don't want to attend classes when my head is spinning and i know my mind won't absorb a single thing at all. All these were rate according to hierachy. And yea, so i am currently having zero preparation right now. Goodness know how am i going to pass this exam. I know i should be studying.....i really know!!But what the hell am i doing here????
I really should take more pictures so that i can keep my blog looking slightly lively. I guess the only pictures i haven't been uploading to my facebook and blog are those that i have taken when i serve in National Service. See the yellow flag??It is the significant of our team-CHARLIE!!!The boys were certainly much more creative than girls. I couldn't help out much because i am not good at drawing and i am not good at "Kawad". So the only thing i can do is to be the cheerleading master and to think of all nice team cheers for Charlie. Go Charlie Go Charlie Go Go Go. But in the end, we ended up having too many team cheers. It was a great experience for till now, i can still hear my voice shouting out loud....

WHAT TEAM? CHARLIE
WHAT TEAM? CHARLIE
WHAT TEAM CHARLIE
WHO IS THE BEST???????????
CHARLIE IS THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I met great friends in NS. We were all from different areas. Some were from Malacca. Some were from Pahang and so on. Friends are the only ones whom we can rely on. We tend to take care of one another. We unite together. We did crazy stuffs together. We laughed. We cried. We were happy. And yet, unpleasant situations may occurs. We only have 5 chinese girls in our dorm. We used to be so close. And yet, due to misunderstandings, we fought and our friendship never resume again. It was sad..........but what can we do?? I am glad i had Ting and Sister Lam to accompany me throughout my whole service. Thanks a lot guys...........i miss you both very very much. I will define more on them later on in another special post.

Hmm....despite all these, we hit off well with other people. People known me as "Loud" and "Monster". I ate a lot. In NS, we ate 6 meals per day. But i ate 12 meals per day. One of the greatest memory for me is that, i had a big big big luggage that contains FOOD!!I don't even bother to pack my clothes and belonging. What i want is food!!!The others were always shock and amazed at how i ate. But i am glad i manage to influence Ting and Sister Lam. They scolded me for i caused a lot of people to gain weight. I had special weapon though .......=P

We had to attend classes too. And hence, the blue collar shirt is our uniform. In NS, what we have to practise is to be QUICK. Why?Because they made us change at least 4 times per day. We had to put on our sport's uniform every morning. After breakfast, we got to change into our class uniform. It lasted till afternoon. Then we were asked to put on our army uniform. At 6pm, we had to change into our sport's uniform again for sports. After dinner, we were allow to put on our own casual clothings. Annoying right?? I don't really understand why we have to change into so many types of clothings per day. Plus, i don't understand why they made us learn poetries and all. Obviously, the lessons were all in Malay. I only get to speak 2 types of languages in NS - Malay and Chinese. It was a good practise for me though......

I may not have the chance to see certain people again because i don't even know where they are, but the memories that we had will always be the best tool to motivate me in my life. There are many times in NS when i felt like dying and felt like giving up in most events. I always thought i couldn't make it till the end. The army uniform were so heavy and we had to carry a really heavy bag of 5kg. Then they made us walk for don't know how long. Obviously the route won't be that easy. We got to climb hills, jump through drains, and all. It wasn't easy but thank god i made it.

I wanna thank that person for he is the one who motivates me when i felt like dying. He is one of my most special friend in NS. For your information, boys and girls dorm were separated. It is not easy for us to even talk to each other. The only moments we can communicate is through lessons. And you know, we got to hand over our phones to the teachers. We can only get back our phone during weekends. So that is the only time when we can encouraged each other through texings. He is my friend. Yes, my friend!!We had similar dreams. We wanted to complete this service and to achieve our best in all events. We had lots of promises to each other. But, he surprised me one day by saying he will leave the camp to further on his studies. I thought he was lying but it turned out to be true. He felt guilty for leaving me alone to accomplish our dream. He cried terribly the night before he leaves the camp. I thought i would cry but instead i did not. I remembered myself smiling as i wave goodbye to him. I thought i won't be able to accomplish this task for no one is there to motivate me. And yet, i can still felt his presence in camp. Maybe because his friends are always there to update me. And he always encouraged me through textings for he knows the exact time and day when i can get back my phone. One of his message caught my attention, he asked me to use his strength to accomplish this task and i did. I must say, it is effective. Whenever i felt like giving up, i will remember the encouragement that he gave me and things became easier. Thank you so much, my friend. I am glad you are doing fine now in KL. We haven't lost contact though =)))

Okay World, there won't be any heart diaries session for today because i have a longer version to update in the next post. I just want to keep my blog alive =))) Once again, THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES!!!Good night world.....

Unstoppable Life

Hello World...SORRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY...i've been neglecting this blog for quite a while. Hey, i have reasons okay. It is not because i am lazy or what but i was sick for the past few days and i have classes and meetings to attend. I enjoyed my life!! I hate being sick especially sorethroat and headache all. My voice was sore due to too much of shouting. Sometimes i think FIFA World Cup were not meant to be watch by Christian. Haha..why??Because we were shouting and calling names. For example, "Hey, you biased referee!"or "Hey, it is not working. Go away you mop and broom" and etc. Oh ya..before i forget, CONGRATULATION to all fans of Spain. It was a great and exciting match. Despite the fact that all my supporting teams lost, but i am happy for you all!!World Cup rawkz =)) I mentioned in the previous post that i am glad to be part of the Kids Ministry. And yea i really am =) Woww..they were all so young and tender and hyper that you could just forget all your trouble just by watching them running around. Let me tell you a great way to release stress......RUN WITH THE KIDS!!It can be really tiring but it works...=))
My BB Kelly design this picture for me. Thanks BB!!Can you see the revolution of me??Anyway, i lost most of my pictures. Apart of the hairstyle, i just wanna say I AM STILL MYSELF!!Ahh well, maybe i turn from strong to weak. It was rare for me!As i browse through my olden days pictures, i realize i was so happy and strong last time throughout the day when i was a Leo. But that era has ended for me. It was meant to be good but things doesn't turn out well. I tend to believe people easily at a time but got betrayed. So i ended up trusting no one and began to stuff everything to myself. I find myself so stuffed that i exploded one fine day. I should have felt lighter but likewise, i felt so weak!!Sometimes i wish, i could grab hold of a time machine and to go back to the time when i was so happy and strong, and was surrounded by heaps of people who cares for me. Alright people, back to my topic "UNSTOPPABLE LIFE". I was so inspired by this surmon a few weeks ago, and it hit me badly. It is hard to satisfy a human. We are always complaining about something or feel that we should achieve something better. Even a millionaire would not be satisfy with his or her life. True enough, some of us may been through hardship or once had been through a happy time and now they were not happy, but what i wanna say is that "THE END OF AN ERA IS NOT THE COMPLETION OF YOUR DESTINY". There are many eras in one's life. Take me for example, i love primary school where all of us were so united and we bonded out well. Even when i wanna confess to someone, the whole class were there to support me =) We fought, we cried, we scolded each other, we love each other, we united together. WHEN the time comes for me to leave this wonderland, i was so sad and i didn't really look forward to enter an unknown school where no one is familiar to me there. But i knew, i was the one who made the decision to leave the place that i loved so much. I even thought of transferring back to my old school. As time goes by, i realized things has changed. So what if i transfer back to my old school? Things wouldn't be the same anymore. I ve got to move on!!Just like i thought i wouldn't be able to smile again throughout my whole high school life but GOD proved me wrong. He gave me awesome friends. He makes me stronger, he handed me the whole Leo Club, he gave me hopes, he solved all my problems!!

I have been spending a lot recently. ON BOOKS!!Yayy...i have been controlling my reading mode as i know books here are expensive. But i am so so so addicted to Cecelia Ahern's novels that i can't resist myself from buying books. Hey Mummy, don't scold me!At least i am not spending it on something useless. Oh ya, this is the first time i never spend a single cent on JUNK FOOD!!Yayy....i will spend more money on books next time =))

Yep, back to "Unstoppable Life", all of us should set a mindset by believing that God will give us the best for our future. After the surmon, i was like "Argghhh...why didn't i even think of all these?" I felt stupid for mourning over my current life. And i felt stupid for even complaining about my life. So what if my life is complicated and all, We must believe that everything happens for a reason. My past and problems has been conquering my thoughts all along the while and i felt really weak and unworthy. Unworthy enough to fall before the lord and unworthy enough to be trust by others. Who is at fault?ME, MYSELF AND I. WHY? Because i was the one who allows all these to happen. If only i was strong enough to fight the devils in me, then things would have been so much better. Oops, because i am the devil, so i should say, i have to fight the angels =P ...If only i know there are many different eras in our life and that we can't always linger on to the past..........but it is not too late to realize all these!It is a MAJOR PROBLEM if you let the past affect your current life. So people, move on!!

I ve been promoting Mumu and Cute Bear Bear a lot and i think my other soft toys back at home will be so jealous =) No worries, i love each and every single soft toys of mine. Look at the book they were holding- Cecelia Ahern's book (THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES) I simply love this book. Have you ever met someone whom you felt that you knew him or her and YET you don't and that you have never met him or her throughout your entire life? Or you suddenly felt that you are gaining lots of unknown knowledge and that you find yourself doing things which you have never done before in your life? Hmm...this book is a miracle. I love her books!!!Anyway, i just wanna borrow her book title as the title for my heart diaries session. "THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES" Hmm...all these while, i have been stressing about being strong and letting go. And yea, i think i handle it pretty well. At least i don't feel the pain anymore. I am glad i surrender everything to him. I have given up on pursuing the thing which i wanted badly and it forever won't be mine =) I am not sure about "Fate" now. I just want everything to remain the same like before and yet, it is rather tough. Maybe it is a sign, telling me to move on!!This era has already ended for me, i have got to move on to the next. I just don't want to be so weak anymore. I want everything to be in their right place again. Despite of all these, i still have all those memories surrounding me. And though you are far apart, i still wanna say "Thanks for the memories". It will be the most precious treasure to me in my life =)))) Thank you..

Okiez World...i shall stop here. Not going to blabber so much anymore. Will update often now before i lost all my inspiration =)) Don't give up on me ok??You know i always love you all...........GOOD NIGHT WORLD!!!

Unstoppable EVERYTHING.....

Hey World, I am back. Hushh...don't WHINE!Don' SIGH!!Don't GROAN!!The Princess is not going to kill you guys by telling story again. In fact i very much wanted to write something about my life. Hmm..my heart diaries!!Anyway, that is not the main point!!There is a purpose for me coming back to this little World early. Why??Because it is the Queen's birthday tomorrow. Hurray........i am here to wish her a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!Although i couldn' be there to celebrate with her or even to help her to finish up the whole cake, but i know my dearest and wonderful neighbours will replace me to accompany her. And yes, and Aunt AJ too =)))
Based on my ability now,i couldn't get her something nice. And i think she is worthy to have all branded stuffs (even though i knew my mummy is not a fan of branded stuffs). Still, i promised i will get her one of those expensive bags or perfume or anything she wants. Well, i was shopping around Garden City that day and i came across this black trophy. Yes....she is the WORLD'S GREATEST MUM to me. I am really sorry if i always didn't talk nicely to her because it is really hard to explain to her everything on the phone and often i hate myself for always not being at home when she skyped me =(( It is not because i don't want to skype with her but whenever i reach home, she was asleep. I felt really guilty sometimes. If it weren't because of her working so hard for me, i wouldn't even have chance to step onto the plane and to fly here to study. I am sorry!!

Mummy ask me to help her to check out for some cheap and low cost hotels. I thought it was troublesome so i tend to procrastinate it. She called me 2 days ago to ask the progress of it and i didn't really talk nicely to her. So she was planning really hard to find time to come and visit me. She told me "Should i come at the end of July?" And i told her my uni will start around that time and that i have to help out for the volunteering thingy. Then she said "Huh?Then who will accompany me if i go there?" I was like don't know what to do or say. Then she said "Both me and Dad has decided to go there around 23rd July. Will you be available?" I, then told her i have to attend Winter Course. Then she said "Hmm..in that case, then i think we better don't go there. Cause both me and daddy thought you will be alone and feeling lonely there. But since you are taking up course, so we wait for you to come back at the end of the year!" Hmm...i felt so bad. I meant i should be the one who take troubles to fly back to meet them and not them checking my avaibility =(( I felt so sad. It made me felt as if i haven't been spending time with both my parent's for quite a while. Mummy even said she could save up so that we could go for a holiday when i am back. Look at her.....she is wonderful isn't it? I promise to study really hard now Mummy. Trust me...my result will be even more better than my current result =))) Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!You will always be my Superhero, my star and my bestfriend.....

I thought my life would be really miserable and lonely after Shermaine went back to Malaysia. But now i realized that i am slowly finding my place in this Uni afterall. I love going to church and attending cell even though if i have to go alone. Nothing is more important than worshipping and praising GOD and to learn his words. Remember i used to grumble that i ve lost my ability to say "NO" to others? It is like i am feeling extremely tired and moody, and yet i can't seem to reject other people's offer. But now, i am glad that i actually said "YES". Hmm....i'll give you one real life example. Natalie asked me to help her to do video shooting like a month ago. I know she wanted me to act. And i don't really want to because i know it is kinda troublesome and awkward. Still, you'll never know when you needed people's help. So i am glad i actually did went to help her. And thus, it strengthen our friendship and i found my other circle of friends. I got to know Mike during our video shooting where he acted as my DADDY. Haha..and hence, he is my new "Daddy aka Lou Dou(in cantonese)". We were both great fans of soccer and basketball >.<

I knew Fanny, a hongkong girl eversince the first day of orientation but we seldom hang out. I am glad she still remembered me as a friend. I hanged out a lot with this gang recently. Too bad Fanny is only an exchange student so she has already went back to Hong Kong a few days ago. But no worries, Fanny, i had a great time with you and i am hoping to see you in future.

Acting cool and posing are girl's priority. Last dinner with Fanny before she flew back to Hong Kong. People, i have been eating like a glutton nowadays. I don't know why. I don't care how fat or how many kilograms i have put on as long as i don't have to buy new clothes. Hehe, get what i meant?As long as my clothes still fits me, i shall eat!!I don't understand why must we resist ourselves from all these yummy food. Remember, we only lived ONCE to taste all these food. The sun greeted me warmly the minute i stepped out from my flat. I really loved the way when i have to use my hand as shade to prevent the sunlight from hurting my eyes. Now that my fringe is longer, i don't have to do that anymore. Anyway, that wasn't important. My heart diaries session again. I don't know what i can say this time because i am SPEECHLESS. If only i am able to finish this post before i even went out to watch the match, then i won't have to sit here facing this unfinished post. Well, sorry World. I think i have to make it up to you guys again by continuing my UNSTOPPABLE LIFE in another post. Since i am already emo, i shall just state the reason then. Why?? Because of SOCCER. All along the while, i support England. Yes ONLY ENGLAND!!! As a MU Fan, of course i support England. Oh ya, and David Beckham too. But they broke my heart this year by losing 4-1 to Germany. I know England hadn't been performing well, but no matter how badly they played, i'll still support them. I don't support the strong team. I have a lot of good and bad memories with this team. And hence, it is precious to me =) I am totally speechless and disappointed when they got trashed by Germany.Nevermind about it!!I will still support this team in the near future. ALWAYS....and also i must add on, BRAZIL and ARGENTINA broke my heart too. I thought i could at least see some miracle but who knows....haixx...

Despite all the tears and mourning, life goes on isn't it??Hmm..and hence i am still happy with my life. It really works. The simplest key to unlock happiness is the key of "LET GO". Although you need to sacrifice a lot to even grab hold of this key, but then, you will feel really happy after that. I am still in the progress of letting go. I can't say that i have already let go 100% but i am trying to. Yes, i am trying to. I CAN DO IT =))))

Okiez..i really should stop now!!!For i really don't know what to write. See ya in the next post. At least i know i can serve the kids tomorrow. Seeing them running around can makes me forget everything. Kids rawkzz....Good night world..........

PS: I love Mummy =))