what's wrong with me??

aiks...nowadays..i really don't know what has happened to me?
i am not like myself lately...!!don't wish to talk....gets irritated easily...
i don't think it is because of exams...............for i don't usually have exam stress..

friends??hmm..maybe "THEY" are the cause...
hmm...nowadays i really gets so fed up with lots of people telling me "hey...how ar?exam leh...i DID'NT even touch the books.." or something like "oh my god..i am so stupid...arhhh how?i can't remember a stuff "
well..all i can say is that all these are RUBBISHES,EXCUSES AND FIDDLESTICKS!!
how can anyone be so clever without working hard or studying?
all rubbishes and excuses??i hate anyone telling me that...........why can't you just be honest and said "yes..i did study at home.i worked so hard!".........
hey...do you guys know that by making excuses like that will make people feel bad and small?after saying "din study lar" or "i am so stupid",then you produced excellent results!!fiddlestick!!!!!i am honest.if i say i DIDN'T study means i DID NOT.at least i am not as dishonest as you.and yet....some of them are so selfish.they actually know the ways of studying....and have got tips for it.yet....they refuses to share it.like afraid that people might surpass them.my gosh....can you guys have some common sense?
we are born to compete with ourselve....and not others...
i am not even dreaming to compete with you...come on la..i know my limit ok?

and my friends?lately i felt as if i am drifting far away from them.....from the gang i used to hang out with...............!!maybe because we are lack of topics or what.i don't feel like joining their conversation.sometimes i can't even connect to what they are talking about.so i pretty much leave them alone.sad to think of it.i don't really want things to be in this way......but i really can't help saying that...you guys make me like this.and i don't want to deny that i treat this kind of situation as "you guys are ignoring me!"
guys...i really don't want to think like that.
but it can't be help..!!the facts is that i can't connect what you guys are talking about.
and for other purposes...or i can say...my other gang of friends...hmm...worst.i felt as if like i am a ball being push around.or in clearer way.....when you feel like talking..then you talk to me...and when you are in no mood,then you ignored me..as if i am the cause to make you in such state.please la..i am really tired.i am a human too.i don't have to please you or go according your ways.i feel as if i am a DOG........having to follow your orders.....listening to your commands,have to please you..,tolerate your craziness + ridiculous ways...!!NO WAY...iam tired of it......

and please let me say it our of ANGER...... I HATE YOU GUYS..I HATE YOU GUYS...ARHHHHHHHHHHHHH..
i feel like stranggling you all......arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

okok...now i feel so much better after pouring everything out and venting my anger..
though it hurts.......but we are still friends...the BEST gang ever..WE RAWKZZ...!!!!forgive me for this piece of blog....but i just feel like typing it out..
whenever i feel sad...i will think of my old classmates.......!they will never never treat me like this...
i really,truly misses you guys.....friends from SSU...especially 6 ORKID..!sometimes i wonder..if all of us did not leave SSU,then perhaps we will have real fun...and i can GUARANTEE that this kind of situation will not occur.i really missed you all.............sob sob....you guys are forever in my heart....the best TOMODACHI ever!!and our best gang of 6 ORKID-sophia,shi hui,kai lyn,irene,christine,soobrinah,raechel,siew wen,paul,ji ken,andrew,pang,asrul,jaya,swee yee,victor,bernard,yue jing and of cause ME...
we are the best...we are the best.....................love you guys..muackzz..
yeah....i am HAPPY again............