many things can happen in just one day.......................!!to me,i always tries hard to think positively in whatever condition!!but recently,i feels tat life is getting worst!!people were asked to relax and be optimistic ..
but sometimes,in certain condition,you just can't do it.this is how tears are formed...................!
sometimes,,i wonder if...GOD really do keep on watch over us??why must misfortune falls on someone who is kind and innocent?it is really too bad.such tragic should never ever happen to someone like that.HEAVEN is so unfair...........!!i know i should look on the bright side that GOD wants her more......!but still i really cant accept the fact.Yu Min is always one of my greatest buddy.she is one of the most gentle and sweetest girl.always wore a smile on her face........and is nice to everyone.I know her since form 2...and got closed with her in form3,where we were both librarians.she is really a good friend.never involved in any misunderstandings and quarrellings.i know that she had a strong bond between her and her mum.she used to say that she can't bear to leave her mum even for one night,whenever we asked her to stay overnight for a late gatherings.it is getting near SPM...all of us have planned to go for a trip together.surprisingly,yu min has agreed too.but why?why must all these happened?i know i can't change the outcomes..........but it really hurts me to think that yu min will be alone without her mum beside her.she is still a child to her mum.she hasn't really grown....................!!i know she will be hit very hard.i really want to help her.but what can i do?
Dearest,Honourable Lord Jesus,
ive come to pray upon you sincerely with all my heart.please say that you will listen to my prayer.before i go on,i thank you whole-heartedly for sacrificing yourself for all the sins that we've done.
Honourable Lord,believe in GOD will grant us an eternal life.i am sure you have a good reason for everything decision and arrangement that you ve made.i am willing to trust you......................
Yu min's mum,aunty chua,is a nice lady.she is as cheerful as yu min.always wore a smile on her face.she is a nice lady to chat with.i met her during form 3 time.it was raining season..................and heavy rain falls just before we can go pass the school gate.and there was aunty chua,who was a helpful lady,said to me"oh my..aunty really can't bear to see you walking in the rain.come on up...i can at least send you to the bus-stop,"..
i was really touched.and so i gladly got onto the car.but still,heavy rain pours outside........!!all along the way,i realised that aunty chua is really a nice person to chat with.without realising,she has sent me back to my home eventhough she lived so far away.i was feeling grateful............!and so,she has always left me a great impression..and i always known her as a"kind and cheerful" lady.
i never thought that wednesday,26th september 2007,was the last time i can see her.tragic falls upon her.i can hardly believe thats such a nice lady will leave just like that.
Please...Lord....if you are listening,,,........please grant her an eternal life.i know you have a good reason for all these arrangement......!!please grant that she wil lead a real,happy life in heaven.what's more,please do say you will watch over her family...and may they stay strong for their future life.....from now and always.....
this was a prayer said by the name of Lord Jesus....AMEN....
Friday, September 28, 2007
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
the story of her life....
Once,there is a girl who has just entered her secondary life.She used to be in an Over-protected school,where everything is done for her.There goes the same at home.She does not have to bother herself about house chores,school projects not done,homeworks not done,or having no transport back home or whatever is it that most human will usually bother about.She lead a happy life and spent a happy 6 years during her primary school time where she met her friends,her crush and everything.Though she met problems like quarrelling with friends,fighting over silly matters............but all these problems are consider silly and minor if we compare it with other school's students who are not that fortunate.This girl has hard tempered too.That is the only worst point of her for she is not the one who can controls her temper.She will flare up unnecessary..and she is an easily jealous person.She can be mean...!she can be kind and good too...if she wants to.Nobody knows the real side of her.Not even her real good friends and family.She doesnt want anyone to know the real HER.Overall,she did gained a good and sweet childhood memories,during her primary school time......!she treasured friendships..too....!And it can't be deny that she is really having a good time in her primary school life.The spirit of harmonious can be found in students.And no matter whatever problems or conflict occurs,a word of "SORRY" can solved everything.
She is just a girl of age 13,the one who has a straightforward and naive thinking.She was naived to think that secondary school life will be just the same as her primary school!And thus she wasnt prepare for all the things that might occurs.She lefted all her primary school friends and came into a world which is totally strange and unknown to her.And then she realised that in this monstrous school,everything has to be done by herself.She has to have courages to defend for herself when troubles falls on her.For friends in secondary school is totally different from friends in primary school."SORRY " and "IT IS OK" is not the solution to those problems any longer.Friends in secondary school are definitely less friendly.She is not having comfortable school life like before.For once,she has to take school bus to school,that she has never try before in her life.Of course the feeling is not as comfortable as her high class van that used to be her only transport to school.Slowly,she has got used to her secondary life.Her characters has changed.She becomes stronger and even more independent.Then she began to notice the things around her.
Her eyes wandered off....and it met a pair of eyes....the one which she will never ever forgets.She met his eyes.It was such a beautiful one........................!!She got to know this guy.......!And she knows that her life has started to change.Did she run away from it?Nope.She fight this war herself.She has met lots of people and faces conflict.Still..life is going on.She is not falling down just because of this.It can't be deny that she is happy to have met him...but she admitted the pain that she has gone through.
HE??He is a guy of cause..!!He is a popular guy and extremely smart.He has good look.An angel outside if you do not know the inner part of him.He too...is similar like her....where nobody knows the real and true side of them.She does not know him well...for he seldom talk about his stuffs.He wanted her help to chase a friend of "hers".That is how they got to know each other.She can feel his sincerity towards her friend.This is why she agrees to help him.But she doesn't know that being kind in this aspect doesn't bring her good.Infact,she tortured herself by falling for him.It pierced her heart when she sees the pain in his eyes after being rejected by her friend.But all she can do is just to console him and advice him to move on.She doesn't know if it this method works or not.All i know is that she has never tell him how she feels towards him.She has kept this forbidden feeling for long.Nobody knows it.She has hope to tell him.But her heart doesn't allow her to.
A year passes quickly.A new year begins again..!She is entering her 2nd year of her secondary life.She met him again.This time,he is like a total stranger to her.She doesn't know him at all...!!She is even sadder when she finds him changing into another person.The usual him is no longer there...........!!He has turn into a play boy.!!Chasing nearly every single girls that he could get hold of.He is turning into a beast too.......!It breaks her heart.But what can she do?......He totally ignore her....forgetting that she has been the one that is willing to help him...and the one who trusted in him although many people are against him.She was leading her own life while he was leading his own life....................!They both go separate ways.....just like they had never met each other before.She tries to forget all about him.........but how can this be done so easily?He has changed completely.He broke the heart of many girls.But he always gave her a sorry look.....
It was until a day when the boy finally confessed to her.It was a day which she has been secretly hoping for long.She hesitated for a while.And then she finally accepted him.It could have be a happy ending.But this doesn't last for long.For she can see his characters even clearer.Everything goes well at first.He cares for er.After a few weeks,she found out that He is still a play boy after all...........!But she,being stupid,didn't want to admit it at all.She trusted him too much.And tends to cover all his mistakes.She believes whole-heartedly that she still meant something to him.She finally broke down when she received a message from him asking her to hide their relationship....saying that he doesn't want so many GIRLS to know it.Now,she knew that she doens't mean a damn in his heart.And yet,she was still as stupid as ever.........hugging her hp while waiting for his messages each day and night.His messages are getting lesser and lesser each day.Sometimes it was once in a week...and sometimes even worst,once a few months,and then none at all.She finally accepted the facts that it was time for her to move on.It isn't worth lingering over someone who doesn't care a damn for you.She has almost recover from her wounds when she received a shocking and hurting news from her friends that HE told them that it was HER who has been pestering him for long.And that he doesn't care a damn about her at all...!What a news..!!!It broke her heart for long........!!
But all the same,this has taught her a lesson.She won't trust boys that easily now.She is getting stronger and yet she does feel stupid whenever she thought of how she has been fooled by him before....!SHe is leading a happy life now as a new person............
The story has come to an end.....and i am not ashamed to admit that I am the stupid "SHE" mentioned above.
This experience has taught me a lesson.And you will be glad to know that i ve gotten over this long ago.And i am leading a satisfactory life now....full of happiness and friends....!It is just the kind of life that i want..
She is just a girl of age 13,the one who has a straightforward and naive thinking.She was naived to think that secondary school life will be just the same as her primary school!And thus she wasnt prepare for all the things that might occurs.She lefted all her primary school friends and came into a world which is totally strange and unknown to her.And then she realised that in this monstrous school,everything has to be done by herself.She has to have courages to defend for herself when troubles falls on her.For friends in secondary school is totally different from friends in primary school."SORRY " and "IT IS OK" is not the solution to those problems any longer.Friends in secondary school are definitely less friendly.She is not having comfortable school life like before.For once,she has to take school bus to school,that she has never try before in her life.Of course the feeling is not as comfortable as her high class van that used to be her only transport to school.Slowly,she has got used to her secondary life.Her characters has changed.She becomes stronger and even more independent.Then she began to notice the things around her.
Her eyes wandered off....and it met a pair of eyes....the one which she will never ever forgets.She met his eyes.It was such a beautiful one........................!!She got to know this guy.......!And she knows that her life has started to change.Did she run away from it?Nope.She fight this war herself.She has met lots of people and faces conflict.Still..life is going on.She is not falling down just because of this.It can't be deny that she is happy to have met him...but she admitted the pain that she has gone through.
HE??He is a guy of cause..!!He is a popular guy and extremely smart.He has good look.An angel outside if you do not know the inner part of him.He too...is similar like her....where nobody knows the real and true side of them.She does not know him well...for he seldom talk about his stuffs.He wanted her help to chase a friend of "hers".That is how they got to know each other.She can feel his sincerity towards her friend.This is why she agrees to help him.But she doesn't know that being kind in this aspect doesn't bring her good.Infact,she tortured herself by falling for him.It pierced her heart when she sees the pain in his eyes after being rejected by her friend.But all she can do is just to console him and advice him to move on.She doesn't know if it this method works or not.All i know is that she has never tell him how she feels towards him.She has kept this forbidden feeling for long.Nobody knows it.She has hope to tell him.But her heart doesn't allow her to.
A year passes quickly.A new year begins again..!She is entering her 2nd year of her secondary life.She met him again.This time,he is like a total stranger to her.She doesn't know him at all...!!She is even sadder when she finds him changing into another person.The usual him is no longer there...........!!He has turn into a play boy.!!Chasing nearly every single girls that he could get hold of.He is turning into a beast too.......!It breaks her heart.But what can she do?......He totally ignore her....forgetting that she has been the one that is willing to help him...and the one who trusted in him although many people are against him.She was leading her own life while he was leading his own life....................!They both go separate ways.....just like they had never met each other before.She tries to forget all about him.........but how can this be done so easily?He has changed completely.He broke the heart of many girls.But he always gave her a sorry look.....
It was until a day when the boy finally confessed to her.It was a day which she has been secretly hoping for long.She hesitated for a while.And then she finally accepted him.It could have be a happy ending.But this doesn't last for long.For she can see his characters even clearer.Everything goes well at first.He cares for er.After a few weeks,she found out that He is still a play boy after all...........!But she,being stupid,didn't want to admit it at all.She trusted him too much.And tends to cover all his mistakes.She believes whole-heartedly that she still meant something to him.She finally broke down when she received a message from him asking her to hide their relationship....saying that he doesn't want so many GIRLS to know it.Now,she knew that she doens't mean a damn in his heart.And yet,she was still as stupid as ever.........hugging her hp while waiting for his messages each day and night.His messages are getting lesser and lesser each day.Sometimes it was once in a week...and sometimes even worst,once a few months,and then none at all.She finally accepted the facts that it was time for her to move on.It isn't worth lingering over someone who doesn't care a damn for you.She has almost recover from her wounds when she received a shocking and hurting news from her friends that HE told them that it was HER who has been pestering him for long.And that he doesn't care a damn about her at all...!What a news..!!!It broke her heart for long........!!
But all the same,this has taught her a lesson.She won't trust boys that easily now.She is getting stronger and yet she does feel stupid whenever she thought of how she has been fooled by him before....!SHe is leading a happy life now as a new person............
The story has come to an end.....and i am not ashamed to admit that I am the stupid "SHE" mentioned above.
This experience has taught me a lesson.And you will be glad to know that i ve gotten over this long ago.And i am leading a satisfactory life now....full of happiness and friends....!It is just the kind of life that i want..
Saturday, September 8, 2007
i m back again..
...HIHI...i am back again to my world of dark parade...
a great friend of mine,Sufee says that my blog is full of spider webs..................!!so that is the reason why i am back again....!for a spring cleaning lo....muahaha......
well well..life is damn miserable....!because trial exams are still going on.......!i hate all those 7 letter words subjects. for eg....S.E.J.A.R.A.H and B.I.O.L.O.G.Y..............ewwww...i totally hate memorising...!i wonder can i study just Chemistry?then maybe my results will look good..................!
yesterday is really a bad day for everyone!!we started our sejarah 1 at 7.45am.i hate sejarah.so no matter what,i just won't read it.so i am well-prepared to do a bad paper.exactly sharp at 8.00am,i can see my friends all heads dropping on their table.haha........i wonder how in the earth they can study so lightly and efficiently.
aiks....i dozed off too.but of cause it is not that comfortable to sleep with your head on the table.....i can't wait for 8.45 am to arrive when my teacher collected all those freaking papers..................
then i knew i gonna die in my sejarah2...!and of cause i wan right....!i couldn't answer from the 1st question.and it was the PROUDEST moment for me.so i just scribble whatever i could think of.when i looked at the time,it was only 11.00am.oh my god...i got an hour and the half left to sleep.i really can't do anything about it.so i can just sleep....!everyone was not in a good mood after the exam.some were near to tears...and some were just feeling sad and moody.of cause i am one of them.but it doesn't last long..................!cause i ve invented a way of venting my anger.EATING FRENCH FRIES AND ICE-CREAM.......
then something complicated stuffs happened that makes me even more moody.wanna know what has actually happened?narhh...i lazy to type.i refused to talk to my friends in tuition.they are wondering what's wrong with me.i told them it is all because of my sejarah paper.but actually it was not.i am upset about them.but they will never know.....!!narhh...serve them right for it......!!
then i was happily..sitting in that old man class....trying to concentrate.!but my GOOD GOOD friends,sufee and shawn were both laughing at me for being selected to go NS..!!..whoaa...such great friends i ve got.so touched...muahaahaha...!thanks for bullying me ya...u guys......!!i will have it out with you guys some other day.after i am trained...to be even more stronger...
but i know they were joking...!so i just acted along with them...................!!
overall............i felt extremely happy....when Mr Lim came in....muahaha....!!it was time for chemistry....whoaaa....damn nice....!!
aiks...meanwhile...it wun last long...for exam is still on...and i hope i can last out till the last day of exam..before i can finally jump up and down....
till here........................
a great friend of mine,Sufee says that my blog is full of spider webs..................!!so that is the reason why i am back again....!for a spring cleaning lo....muahaha......
well well..life is damn miserable....!because trial exams are still going on.......!i hate all those 7 letter words subjects. for eg....S.E.J.A.R.A.H and B.I.O.L.O.G.Y..............ewwww...i totally hate memorising...!i wonder can i study just Chemistry?then maybe my results will look good..................!
yesterday is really a bad day for everyone!!we started our sejarah 1 at 7.45am.i hate sejarah.so no matter what,i just won't read it.so i am well-prepared to do a bad paper.exactly sharp at 8.00am,i can see my friends all heads dropping on their table.haha........i wonder how in the earth they can study so lightly and efficiently.
aiks....i dozed off too.but of cause it is not that comfortable to sleep with your head on the table.....i can't wait for 8.45 am to arrive when my teacher collected all those freaking papers..................
then i knew i gonna die in my sejarah2...!and of cause i wan right....!i couldn't answer from the 1st question.and it was the PROUDEST moment for me.so i just scribble whatever i could think of.when i looked at the time,it was only 11.00am.oh my god...i got an hour and the half left to sleep.i really can't do anything about it.so i can just sleep....!everyone was not in a good mood after the exam.some were near to tears...and some were just feeling sad and moody.of cause i am one of them.but it doesn't last long..................!cause i ve invented a way of venting my anger.EATING FRENCH FRIES AND ICE-CREAM.......
then something complicated stuffs happened that makes me even more moody.wanna know what has actually happened?narhh...i lazy to type.i refused to talk to my friends in tuition.they are wondering what's wrong with me.i told them it is all because of my sejarah paper.but actually it was not.i am upset about them.but they will never know.....!!narhh...serve them right for it......!!
then i was happily..sitting in that old man class....trying to concentrate.!but my GOOD GOOD friends,sufee and shawn were both laughing at me for being selected to go NS..!!..whoaa...such great friends i ve got.so touched...muahaahaha...!thanks for bullying me ya...u guys......!!i will have it out with you guys some other day.after i am trained...to be even more stronger...
but i know they were joking...!so i just acted along with them...................!!
overall............i felt extremely happy....when Mr Lim came in....muahaha....!!it was time for chemistry....whoaaa....damn nice....!!
aiks...meanwhile...it wun last long...for exam is still on...and i hope i can last out till the last day of exam..before i can finally jump up and down....
till here........................
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