country or city??

hmm...don't know why??i felt that i suddenly have a change of my mind and thinking.last time...erm..like back in a few years back,i used to hate going back to kulai.thats where i grew up until i move up here in johore.kulai is also a place where both my grandma and grandpa and nearly all my close relatives stays.it was a kinda boring place.for it was like a country side where not much entertainment they had there.
but eversince 15dec2007,i suddenly felt like i am missing that place like hell.i hesitated at first when i heard that we are going back.i brought ah shuan,ah mei and miraculously,ying ying along with us as we are celebrating my cousin's 1 year old birthday.congratulation.we went to factory first.after lunch,dad suggested that he took us back to kulai as mum has got work to do.
so we went.we were quite sad when we arrived at OLD HOUSE which we called in chinese LAO JIA..!!we were far too early as the party starts only at 7pm.nobody except my grandma was at home.the house has been so much quieter eversince grandpa died this year.T.T!!my uncle has not arrive.
anyway...as this was the first time ah shuan ,ah mei and ying ying step onto kulai,so i decided to take them out for a short walk.in kulai,people were assured to leave their gates open big and grew beautiful hibiscus along the fence.we plucked those flowers as we walked along.grandma told us a short route to get to the nearest playground.i decided to take them to it.grandma told us to becareful of the bridge.bridge??i was surprised at first for i never never heard of a bridge being built there.
we walked accross some muddy roads.oh my god?my clothes were new then.and i wasn't wearing sport shoe but slippers.who cares?i wanna play all the same.when we arrived at the so-called "bridge",we were shocked!!!!!!!!!for it was only a piece of wood.rather soft too.and i was certain i will fall over as i could hear the sound of crack.it was climbing down the hill or much clearer...sliding down.true enough we slide over and got ourselve really muddy.it was a nice experience though...!at last...we managed to cross the "bridge".to our great surprise,our destination is still a step away.we need to climb something like a hill.my gosh.the hill was so slippery.and so.......i gotta pull them up..!!someone slide down though..haha...!!we arrived at last.what a touching side.everything is so clean and pretty.there is a big pond there.everything is so green and beautiful.the air is so fresh.never did i breathe in such fresh and clean air in johore.in johore,everything is so dusty and polluted.aiks...forget it...

coming back to the playground....!i was delight to see it.for i loved playground.it consist of 6 swings and other stuffs that are so so so so nice to play with.we don't have to fight for swings like we do here.and i felt so great swinging on it.everything is so nice and new.nothing is spoil.brand new...............!we were swinging and running so freely while breathing in fresh air.the garden was so beautiful........and we could actually see couple of people fishing by the pond.i am not exaggerting,but it is really a wonderful place for me...and i felt like a QUEEN while swinging on that swing.we shouted all along as we swing high up in the air.ah shuan they all too....enjoying themselve.and i was proud when they told me that...they loved this place as much as i do.we walked around searching for....hmm..a type of plant.haha....you know...the one that will closed up their petals as soon as our finger touches it.i don't know what is it call.but we did find it.then we headed back.and once again we gotta pass through a great obstacles.just now we were climbing up the hill...now we gotta climb down.and this time.......all of us slide down.all of us has got one of our best clothes on.but we don't care.the matter is we enjoyed ourselve...so we don't care a slightest bit if our clothes are dirty.but it was a bit over.. for i get my clothe torn.goodness know what my mum will say if she saw my clothe.
hahahahhahaha.....
but we were shocked after we climbed down from that hill...for someone has pushes our "bridge" down...and we can't climb up.we really don't know what to do for we don't know the other route back to my grandma place.anyway.....i have an idea.i suggested to them that we will use the same route...but this time..we really gotta CLIMB up the wall.hehe...they were real shocked.for this is the first time they ever had this kind of experience.and this kind of action reminded me of YES camp.the only different is that this place is much better.anyway...i climbed up first.then helped the rest.i can see they really enjoyed themselve.i smiled silently to myself.

the sky looks dark and i feel that its gonna rain soon.still we were damn hot.so i decided to take them to the nearest shop to buy an ice-cream.in this country sort of place,we don't need a transport at all.the only transport we had are both our legs.haha....we almost arrive at our destination when......it started to rain.my goodness....we rushed back to my grandma place only to find that my uncle has long arrived at my grandma place together with his wife,his 1 yr old son(birthday boy of the day) and both his mother and father in-law.we were happy...as the house was lively now.honestly all of us admire my uncle.for he was really a man who is worthy of it.he showed us a DVD that he made for his son.what a nice piece of work!!!!!!!
uncle decided to take us out to grab a bite.although it is raining,but all of us were hot.so i suggested that we go to "HAPPY LAND" which is the most famous restaurant that served AIS KACANG and ROJAK.all 5 of us enjoyed our meal damn much.and i told ah shuan that they were damn lucky for they managed to gain so much experience on their first trip.

recalling back,i once took my friend ,kai lyn to kulai too.to stay overnight Loong's place.that is also another sweet experience that i ever had.for Loong's house has got a big balcony.and through that balcony,we can climb up to the roof and lie up there.i remembered that the 3 of us(Loong,kai lyn and me) were lying on the roof looking at the bright sky(for kulai's sky were full of bright and shining stars) while chatting.we chatted till late at night but still were able to wake up early in the morning for breakfast.roti canai.....!!yummy yummy!kai lyn was like one of our family.she too....enjoyed herself very much.it was really a nice and sweet memories.kai lyn also spoken to me about this memory when we meet up last time.our mind do change as we grow older.

after eating,uncle brought us to TITAH(a kind of supermarket) to get some stuffs.we joked along the way.ah mei told me that she had never enjoy herself so much in one day.they were so so excited.haha...me too darlings.not you only.we went back to grandma place.uncle taught me how to grab a nice picture.he even lend me his precious camera.so i took many pictures of his precious son.i knew he will love that.not long after...mum and aunt has arrived.mum bought so many packets of balloons.and we have to blow.although nuisacance..but enjoyable.we blew nearly 100 balloons.it was raining.and my 3 aunt pray out loud to my grandpa to stop the rain.miraculously,the rain stops.haha..i knew grandpa will help us.afterall.....grandpa likes everything to be lively and noisy when he was alive.
all my cute and young cousins arrive.and my relatives too.i misses them.ying ying has found her friends at last.hahahahaha..normally we won't play with her...for she was far too young.so she was happy that she found her friends.ah shuan and ah mei simply loved my old house.we bathe and the party starts.old house is really lively and noisy that day.some of us were playing mah jong while some are eating and chatting while all the young ones were running around.hahaha..i love all these.ah shuan and ah mei were curious to know more about my family.so i told them everything while pointing out and introducing each of my relatives + aunties and uncles to her.i even told them stories and good stuffs about my wonderful old house and family.they were envy of it....!we chatted all night while watching the kids running about.
the last event was singing birthday song to my dearest cousin.the enormous cake cost RM98.but it is worth as it brought smile to everyone's face.i really love all these moments.never did i enjoy myself so much in a day.

we were all sorry to leave.but i had make up my mind.I WILL BE BACK.....together with ah shuan and ah mei....yes..back to my lovely country side...!this time we will stay overnight just to gaze at the lovely and bright sky which is full of shining stars.and whats more...my best best friend,Jennifer is staying in kulai.we can meet up together.maybe all of us will stay at Loong's house again,haha,climbing up the roof.or we can go to the playground again...climbing up hill and sliding down.

it will be great....really...it will!!missing it so much.conclusion...i must added that COUNTRY is indeed better than CITY.country rawkzz..

i miss you...............

baobei,me and vonny during our last day in sch

hehe...i just say mentioned on the previous blog that i ought to be hardworking and update my blog everyday.but...i was simply far too lazy.no choice....this is ME!!

based on the title above,of cause this will be a piece of blog about missing somebody.yeah...that's true....i can't believe that i had actually graduated for nearly one month.time really flies...and without realizing,i had wasted one whole month.really don't know what can i do?alright..back to the topic above,"i miss you....." hmm....i really misses my all friends.it is like...we lost touch of each other ever since we leave school.i hate this kind of feeling.eventhough some live very near,but still...it was like far away.anyway..this wasn't what i meant to write about.i want to write about me two goody-goody and most treasured juniors......Kelly Ong aka Baobei and Vonny Tan aka Yvonne Tan as i have promised to write in the previous blog.

the word "junior" definitely means that they are younger than me without judging on their looks and all.yup...true enough..both of them were a form lower than me.they were climbing up to form 5 next year while i have already graduated.loads of lucks for you...my dears..!anyway...why are they so special?haha...that is because they were soooooooooooo cute.true enough they were plump and rather big size.but so what??people might laugh and make fun of their appearance..but i do not.in fact what so big deal about having a slim and perfect figure when deep down inside you weren't a perfect person.anyway...i wasn't trying to spite other people.it is juzt that i can't stand it when people were making fun of their appearance.it simply get on my nerves.i am sure you guys out there knows how hurt it is to make fun and look down on other people.appearance were cause by nature...whether you are pretty or ugly.so...don't judge people by appearance.

yup..indeed they were cute.they have the best personalities that i can ever imagine.i say like this maybe because their personalities were same like me.i enjoyed being noisy don't even care what kind of event or condition it is.we can even shout out loud and laugh like mad in cinema whenever we like.and most importantly....we acted natural......!we don't like to fake round while trying to please others.NO WAY!!that is not our character.

of cause...they were LEOs.thank god for sending them to me.they were the best leos.now..i knew kelly aka baobei while i was in form 2.that is when she first entered SMK SETA.she was in the same bus as i am.again...i knew she will be in trouble.for people like to make fun of her....mocking her...laughing at her for her big size and appearance.i don't really remember if i did help her out or not?but i really hope that she can stand on her own feet and stand up for herself.in secondary life...unless you really have a sincere and loyal friend,if not....you gotta stand up to defend yourself in every aspect.i wasn't really close to kelly aka baobei eversince i transfer to morning session.i know i will join leo.i had always wanted to join in that club eversince i was in form 1.but they only accept morning girls.so.................i was a leo then.doing great there.so active that it affected my studies.i have to admit that because of LEO...that i couldn't score well for PMR.who cares?that is already the past.

kelly went to YES camp too.during year 2005.that is the first time she joined leo activities.of cause i knew it was like a new surrounding.for everything is new to her.netherless....it was a whole new experience for her.i,myself was like a helpless white mouse....when i first joined in leo forum in penang...together with seniors...and no one else.everything is like a dream.

i get to know baobei more during my undertaking as the president of fiscal year 2006/2007.

it was then..our journey starts....!

about vonny aka yvonne,i always known her as one of the prefects.although she is as plump as baobei...but she was pretty.she has a sweet look with two rosy cheeks.don't really know her well at first until she entered leo too.she too..went to YES camp.i remembered vividly that she once said to me "goodness..i don't even know you are from our school until i saw you personally in school."hahaha...what a joke.to think i have been in the same school with her for nearly two years.and she had never seen me before.

both vonny and baobei were firm friends.they stood up for each other....cried together.,consoling each other.sometimes it really touches me.i envied them of their everlasting friendship.anyway...both of them were of different characters too.baobei is strong and has hard temper.it will be hard to push her down unless you say words that really hurts her.but i knew she has weak side too.she is rather soft actually.you have to be soft with her...for she,like me,will never never take the hard side.if you are hard to us, we will definitely fight back.and i don't think i will lose.haha..

for vonny...she is a real,soft hearted person......!!she might say "NO NO NO!" to you at first.but after a while of persuading,she will gradually say " okay la..."...hahaha.but soft hearted is also one of the weakest side of her.i am not saying that this is a negative character.but sometimes,in certain circumstance,you gotta back up yourself.you can't always rely on others.so...be strong,vonny.no more shedding tears easily.i believe you can do it well.that is why i choose you...the president of fiscal year 2007/2008.and with the guiding of boabei...i am sure TOP will be yours.i have great confidence in you all....gambateh.

juniors as they were...but to me..they were great friends.friends for life i think.sometimes i really wish to go down to a form lower to join them.for they really stood by me whenever i am down or whenever i faces troubles.i am not saying my friends and buddies are bad.it is just that sometimes they were inconsiderate and they do not understand me.whenever i wanna find them and talk...they will just say "Aiya...you Leo is none of my concern.i am not a leo also"...!so i rather just kept quiet and keep everything to myself.it has become a habit of mine.and i must add to it...."NO ONE UNDERSTAND ME!" nobody will know the real me.

as you know...being a president is a real nuisance.i nearly crash my brain because of it.full of troubles and troubles.and one thing lead to another too.when this trouble is gone,the next one will arrive.but they stood by me when everyone is against me.sometimes i really feel that all form 5 students are childish.jealousy is always about.when you achieve higher post,then rumours will goes round talking bad about you.really ridiculous and childish i called.what is it so great about having higher post????so now...you can guess what great pressure you have while holding on to the post.but thank god...both of them stood by me.i trust them.they did not back stab me like other people do.even my best best friend ever does that.but they did not.i am sorry that i wasn't always nice to you both.for sometimes i can't control my bad tempered..so i flared up easily.but still you guys tolerate me.thanks and sorry for everything.memories shall last ever........as long as we remember it.

we enjoyed our time together.went shopping,went YUM CHA,having meetings.have been sharing all ups and downs.it was really great.the last trip we shared was the trip to penang.we attended leo forum.and that is when we achieve TOP.such great fun....all these unforgettable memories will last forever..!25 August 2007 is not a day to be forget of cause.it was the day that i officially retired from my post.and the new BOD were installed.baobei and vonny cried.don't cry.i have yet to say "congratulation" to both of you!!!promise me that you will do our club proud.SETA LEO SPIRIT shall last until the end.

time flies.it was until the last day that we spent in school.i was touched.vonny starts to cry.baobei was having a sad look.i wanna cry too.but i held back.no..it wasn't right to cry like this.there will always be a time that we gotta say "good bye!".but sadly my time comes first.

thanks for the great outing that day.really appreciate it.

i will miss you guys lots.no matter where you are.....my greetings and blessings for you guys will always be there.don't worry.....true enough i have leave you guys.but the joyful feelings and happiness will always be there for you all.it will not leave you like i do.so cheer up and enjoy what there is for you.YES camp rawkzz this year.i am sure you guys will have an everlasting memories.cheer up and don't feel sad anymore.i pray that you guys will always be blessed with joys and happiness....

to baobei....do not be lazy next year.gaining award is an honour.but studies determine your life time.so study hard even if you don't like it.don't give yourself too much pressure.serve your president well...just like you guys serve me.thanks a lot.i wanna hear good news from you all.gambateh..

to vonny...do not give yourself too much pressure.study hard too.do not be too soft.gotta stood up for yourself.no one can lead you in the near future life.i wanna hear good news from you too.gambateh...

once again....SETA LEO spirit shall last forever..

SETA ROAR!

SETA ROAR!

SETA SETA SETA

ROAR ROAR ROAR!!!!

S.E.T.A...SETA LEOs A PERFECT CLUB!WE'RE PERFECT~YEAH YEAH!!WE'RE PREFECT!

with love,we serve....

singing When you're gone...by Avril Lavinge..

song of the day.

great outing

lalalalalalala...i had a great time at jusco today.first of all...Happy 13th birthday to my dearest dearest sister,kelsey aka ah shuan.time really flies.i still remembered that we celebrated her birthday last year at jusco.the same place too.hahax.

well....congratulation to all the form 5 students.we are all officially graduated today.the last paper is ended.congratulation.....

hehe...today....we celebrated ah shuan's birthday at jusco,Vivo.i loved that place.because i like volcanic chocolate and blueberry pizza they serve......yummy yummy.and so....i brought along ah mei,both my cousin Qian yi and Qian ying,as well as Wen leng.i asked vonny,fishy,cai ying and baobei(kelly) to come along too.but they came late.Hebe Ting and her sis also came late.actually...we agree to meet at 1pm to watch "The Golden Compass".but i was too excited...so i hurried my dearest kiddies.....and we reached there at 11 plus...damn early.nevermind...we shopped around to find my bracelet.too bad...only found one..i can't find the black one..T.T!!!

then ah mei is complaning that she is hungry.so went down to vivo...and ordered a great deal.ah shuan paid the bill.....thanks ya...my dear.we ordered a great deal and ate a great deal.we joked,chat and fool around as we ate.enjoyable..by the time we finished,we were stuff full.but still we wanna eat popcorns.lalalala...then fishy came over to meet me.hahax..misses her damn lot.i miss vonny and kelly too.so i was eager to meet them.but still...they came late.hahax...it can't be helped.then Hebe Ting and her sis came......maybe because her sis don't know us well..so they walked mostly on their own.

we shopped round after eating.all 6 of us took neoprint together.but sadly...didn't have a chance to take with vonny,fishy and baobei.nevermind...still got chance.we bought tickets.yeah...still available.haha..very excited.then baobei arrived just before the movie start.misses her damn lot......was so happy to see her.haha..can't blame me..they really helped me a lot during my time in school.so of cause i will misses them.they stood by me,being my official partners,care for me..,accept the true me,and most importantly,they were as "CRAZY"as me.but that is another story.i will write a special piece about them next time.

yea...anyway...they hardly believe that i ve already graduate.hahax..i was as childish as ever.

they can't stand it.i love to annoy them.again...ah shuan paid for the bill.she bought a whole lots of popcorns and drinks for us.pity her.....hmmm...

in the cinema...we were damn noisy.laughing when everyone was busy watching the show.throwing popcorns at each other.talking loudly.hahax..i am sure most people will chase us out.still..we enjoyed ourselve during the whole show.

after the show.....we were determined to get ah shuan a birthday cake and to sing song for her.and we chooses a most wonderful place,Lavender.oh my god.damn regret now.

well..it started like this.we headed to Lavender after shooting pictures at the christmas decoration.then we asked ah shuan to choose the flavour for herself but she can't make up her mind.so we choose for her.a RM55 cake with the yam flavour.quite beautiful looking.we decided to celebrate at lavender itself since they provided a cafeteria.since we are a big group of 12 people,we get to sit at the largest table.as the cake is served with candles lighted up,we sang as loudly as we could.we sang a happy birthday song with 2 version.english and chinese.then we asked shuan to make a wish.haha.....it goes well at first.we joke around as we cut the cake.nobody have any idea how to cut that cake as the shape looks weird.so i cut it.everyone was laughing and complaining at my terrible ways of cutting that cake.hehehehe...but too bad..they gotta eat it up all the same.i put some cream on ah shuan's face.just as we were enjoying ourselve,.....i think the supervisor of Lavender came and say to us "Can you all keep quiet?"................oh my god....what the hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i felt myself beginning to boil.everyone felt like that.we were truly mad at him.can't he just say the word "Excuse me and Please"???if he talk to us politely,we won't be that mad at him.doesn't he had any idea that CUSTOMER IS ALWAYS RIGHT?it doesn't mean that we are children and we deserve treatment like this.so what if we are young?we don't deserve this kind of service.

in anger....vonny handed a marker pen and a piece of paper to me.they asked me to write a note of ocmplaint to the manager.with that i written "MANAGER,NEXT TIME...PLEASE ADD THE WORD "EXCUSE ME" BEFORE YOU APPROACH US.YOUR ATTITUDE IS DAMN POOR"..................how they cheered when i finished my sentence.we left the paper on the table.then vonny shouted"BILL PLEASE!".....

the supervisor came with a black face as he handed us the bill.as the money were incorrect,baobei said to that guy"please go away first.i call you here when i ve finish counting"....hahahahahahahahha...cool job.that supervisor looks even blacker.......!!actually the worker there knows that we were real angry and unhappy with their service.so a lady came personally without me calling.and i just say in a cold voice"PLEASE PACK THIS CAKE".she did it out of sincerity.so i respect her.............................!still...we were really unhappy with their service.i hope that this will be my last time visiting Lavender.....what the hell.........

then we hang around at food court waiting for Selina Bear.she was at red box.i wanna go..but no money.so gotta wait till next time...........then it was rather late.so at 5.30pm...we left jusco and went back home.had a great time....!!i misses baobei,vonny and siyu they all lots..!!

but sadly...something terrible happened just now....!aiks.....will write it in the next piece of blog.anyway...thank god for granting me with a nice and enjoyable day.

a new life???

it seems like ages since i last updated my so-called covered full with spider webs blog.recently i have been reading a particular person's blog.and i find it really useful to record everything like my days,my experience and everything.it was such good idea.
hahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahaha...my spm finally ended on the 26th november 2007.yahhhoooooooooooooooo...damn happy...but still i can't help worrying about my results.what if i can't enter singapore??T.T.........honestly..i am not confident in it...but i leave it all to fate then...afterall..i have got such long holidays waiting ahead for me...

now...about that particular person......actually she was my friend.one of my primary school mate.
we weren't really close.but all i know is that..she comes from a rich family.very very rich indeed.due to this..she always got what she wanted.she is pretty.plus with the fact that she is good at dressing up herself,doing make-up.and altogether she makes herself looks realy gorgeous and pretty.amazingly pretty.honestly...i envy her life.still...i prefer my life best.

well..looking at her pictures makes me feel....WOWW...!amazing.plus the facts that she is studying abroad.in my dream country too.that's why i envied her.....................aiks.....it is not that my family can't afford to sent me abroad.i knew it quite well that my family are well-afford to sent me even to the best country.it is just the fact that my mum don't want me to go too far.she just doesn't speak out her mind.i knew it.aiks.....afterall..i am the only girl she has.but someday i wish that i,including my family can migrate off to other country.i will bring them along with me.this country,Malaysia is
really not a place for me.i don't like it here.lol....maybe because i study in english school since young.....that's why all my thinkings and thoughts were all set by english cultures.it is not that english country sounds high-class to me..although it is the fact,but i really like it there....

imagine myself..staying at Melbourne..my gosh....IRENE,CHRISTINE..i really envy you guys.
hahax..i am going crazy just like what Christine said.Anyway...i am glad that Irene will be back from Melbourne soon.i gonna drag her out.....yes...both her and Christine.Michelle is coming back soon.actually she is already back in Malaysia...i guess.sob sob....
Kai Lyn will be flying off to Perth next February.it seems like everyone is leaving soon.but again...this is life...........

as for me........mum wanted me to stay here for another 2 years......then decide again whether to fly off to oversea or what.seriously i really hope i can fly off to oversea.migrate there too if i can.but mum has got business going on here.and my dearest Ah ma ting aka Hebe Ting has predicted that i gonna take over their business one day.no la...please lar...ask my mum to start off another business at oversea...hahahahaha...this is only my own wishful thinking.

hehe....now i began to care more about my looks..maybe because exam is already over.don't know why...but i feel like wanting to break the rules...just to annoy my teachers.afterall...i ve been sticking to those stupid school rules for so long.only this year(2007)...i kept on breaking rules...wear multiple earrings,wearing bracelets that aren't allowed to,keeping spiky hair,bringing forbidden stuffs...lalala...and so on.but it wasn't my fault lar..those prefects didn't catch me also...so of cause i will continued bringing it.i have the thoughts of dyeing my hair into green or white colour....then walk a few round infront of my teachers...let them get a shock...hahaha....i know..i know..it was bad of me.but this is me...nobody can change me..

haix...now i am under a training session at my mum's factory.she wanted me to learn paper work and help her out at her office.A.J(my aunt)is training me.but her ways of teaching are too fast.often i feel it was hard for me to catch up.still i can managed.too bad..my aunt was on leave today.and she expect me to do all her jobs..what da......!busy and hectic day for me.and i was so afraid that my mum will yell at me or anyting......for she is always serious in her work.and serious person will always lead to having a foul temper.

by the way...finally,at last.....i can change my hp.....yeah..love ya lots..dearest mum..goodbye Samsung..i can finally throw you away....after being complained so many times by Hebe Ting.
i wanna watch lots of movies.then go shopping with my friends.....i misses my girls,Hebe Ting and Selina Bear lots.they are having exams tommorow.wish them lucks.and good luck to my other friends too...

all the same.....what i wanna do is just to enjoy myself for this long holidays.....travelling abroad,go shopping,buy lots of things esp clothes,shoes,bags,make-up set and...bla bla bla.
but my money running out...aiks.. but most probably i will be going for a holiday with family,and dearest neighbours for christmas.christmas is coming soon.yeah....can't wait for it to come.
i really thank god for blessing me with such great lifes.thanks for answering my prayers.

anyway..gotta go now....i won't have mum yelling at me for typing this at her office..tata...misses my friends lots....