omg.......i really hate you...

hmm.....according to my title above....for sure...this is another piece of my so-called "VENTING ANGER" blog.
so...if anyone can't stand it or hate to see any violent/vulgar words.............then i warned you to get away as far as possible......!!for i am in a real foul mood right now.....!!i really must vent out this anger from the bottom of my heart......
actually i was in a very very good mood today....but WHY do you have to let me see that SUCK up face of yours?
i ve been tolerating you for so long.for your ridiculous + emotional mood and characters.as i mention in those previous blog..when you are happy...you expect people to be happy too no matter how sad or angry people are...!but when YOU,yourself is in bad mood..........then you expect people to be as moody as you.what the hell is this????bloody shit la!!you,yourself hate those guys then you hate la..!why do you have to ask people to hate them along with you?you always put me in a very bad spot.
FUCKER..........who do you think you are??i gave in to you just because we ve been friends for so long.when you flares up ridiculously and ignored me for nothing,.....i apologised not because i admit i was wrong.that is because i know you are not rational enough to think positively.
but lately....you ve been treating me like your dog.as though i am a real,live dog and you are the master.always ordering me to tag behind you.only you are the one that can be angry while others can't.and only you are the one that can be angry with others.you can offend others but other people can't offend you.what kind of idiotic law is this??and who are you to expect me to obey this kind of fucking law?i don't remember i have got any relationship with you.
and then you will always tell others that i am ignoring you la...always look angry...!MAHAI la......yes.it is true..!i always look angry.and i don't wanna talk to you.but so what??please find out clearly about the cause first then only you make those LAMEK conclusion.
you are always treating people like invisible...!!when your friends are gone only you will come..rushing...smiling...and being friendly with me..!I HATE YOU....I HATE YOU...!!why do i have to know you?you were not like that during primary school times...
i know you are under a great pressure.maybe study stress or what.....
but can you please be considerate a bit???
stop treating people like invisible.....!if it is so hard...then just say so....i can disappear in front of you!!stop making people feel bad....and then acted innocent somemore..!what the hell??mother fucker....
i really can't stand it anymore....to think i thought you are very considerate and caring...and thoughtful.bullshit........................you are not the same person anymore.....not now..and not ever....
don't try to spoilt my last few weeks in school........!!and i won't have you spoiling my greatest moments of all..
so just bear in mind that....i won't be the one to say SORRY or start the conversation first whenever you start that ridiculous mood of yours.........but allow me to mention one more time.....I HATE YOU..........!!!....

okla...i ve finished venting my anger...feeling much much better now.......SORRY....although i ve been writing about things that are definitely not nice to read or to hear.....but seriously...i don't mean it..!i don't mean anything at all...just wanna let out that miserable feeling of mine....since i can't tell it straight to that person.........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
trust me....that person above is still my friend and buddy...........and always will be....friends forver.......

friends..........if you guys ever read this piece.........just read it silently will you??
never speak about it to anyone eventhough you guys might guess who is it....thanks a lot...

may lord jesus bless you guys a great day.............AMEN.....

what's wrong with me??

aiks...nowadays..i really don't know what has happened to me?
i am not like myself lately...!!don't wish to talk....gets irritated easily...
i don't think it is because of exams...............for i don't usually have exam stress..

friends??hmm..maybe "THEY" are the cause...
hmm...nowadays i really gets so fed up with lots of people telling me "hey...how ar?exam leh...i DID'NT even touch the books.." or something like "oh my god..i am so stupid...arhhh how?i can't remember a stuff "
well..all i can say is that all these are RUBBISHES,EXCUSES AND FIDDLESTICKS!!
how can anyone be so clever without working hard or studying?
all rubbishes and excuses??i hate anyone telling me that...........why can't you just be honest and said "yes..i did study at home.i worked so hard!".........
hey...do you guys know that by making excuses like that will make people feel bad and small?after saying "din study lar" or "i am so stupid",then you produced excellent results!!fiddlestick!!!!!i am honest.if i say i DIDN'T study means i DID NOT.at least i am not as dishonest as you.and yet....some of them are so selfish.they actually know the ways of studying....and have got tips for it.yet....they refuses to share it.like afraid that people might surpass them.my gosh....can you guys have some common sense?
we are born to compete with ourselve....and not others...
i am not even dreaming to compete with you...come on la..i know my limit ok?

and my friends?lately i felt as if i am drifting far away from them.....from the gang i used to hang out with...............!!maybe because we are lack of topics or what.i don't feel like joining their conversation.sometimes i can't even connect to what they are talking about.so i pretty much leave them alone.sad to think of it.i don't really want things to be in this way......but i really can't help saying that...you guys make me like this.and i don't want to deny that i treat this kind of situation as "you guys are ignoring me!"
guys...i really don't want to think like that.
but it can't be help..!!the facts is that i can't connect what you guys are talking about.
and for other purposes...or i can say...my other gang of friends...hmm...worst.i felt as if like i am a ball being push around.or in clearer way.....when you feel like talking..then you talk to me...and when you are in no mood,then you ignored me..as if i am the cause to make you in such state.please la..i am really tired.i am a human too.i don't have to please you or go according your ways.i feel as if i am a DOG........having to follow your orders.....listening to your commands,have to please you..,tolerate your craziness + ridiculous ways...!!NO WAY...iam tired of it......

and please let me say it our of ANGER...... I HATE YOU GUYS..I HATE YOU GUYS...ARHHHHHHHHHHHHH..
i feel like stranggling you all......arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

okok...now i feel so much better after pouring everything out and venting my anger..
though it hurts.......but we are still friends...the BEST gang ever..WE RAWKZZ...!!!!forgive me for this piece of blog....but i just feel like typing it out..
whenever i feel sad...i will think of my old classmates.......!they will never never treat me like this...
i really,truly misses you guys.....friends from SSU...especially 6 ORKID..!sometimes i wonder..if all of us did not leave SSU,then perhaps we will have real fun...and i can GUARANTEE that this kind of situation will not occur.i really missed you all.............sob sob....you guys are forever in my heart....the best TOMODACHI ever!!and our best gang of 6 ORKID-sophia,shi hui,kai lyn,irene,christine,soobrinah,raechel,siew wen,paul,ji ken,andrew,pang,asrul,jaya,swee yee,victor,bernard,yue jing and of cause ME...
we are the best...we are the best.....................love you guys..muackzz..
yeah....i am HAPPY again............