Psalm 139: 16

Psalm 139 :16 says "Your eyes saw me when I was formless; all my days were written in Your book and planned before a single one of them began."

Many times a day I doubted God for things that is happening around me. Not that I don't have faith, but You just can't stop wavering. 

Search For A Star 2011 :) They looked lovely and cute while dancing on stage. I want to hear them calling me "Teacher Viola" again. Missing the lovely chatters and the never-ending power of these young kids. They must have grown up now. Hopefully I still recognize them when I goes back for a visit :)

Your eyes search the World
Over Kings and Queens
Looking for a child...Just like me...

Here I am
I am Your Child
Open arms,
I will serve You..

Here I am
I am Your Child
All my days
I will love you.....

My favorite kid :) The naughtiest and yet the one I adores the most. Apart from all those big and small pieces of memories, my fondest memory of Daylan is during the time when I have to put him to bed. I can't believe he chose to hide away when it was time for him to put on his diaper :) How cute!!!

I can take forever to write about Daylan because I just have so much to write about him. Thank You God for bringing little children onto this World. Children is our joy and our pride. 

You are the light of the World

You are the light of our hearts :) 

Psalm 138:3

On the day I called,

You answered me;

You increased strength

within me.

Once I saw this person who updated his blog several times per day. His reason is because he has deactivated his Facebook account and he simply wants to find a place to vent out. For me, it is more or less the same. I admire those who dare to update everything via Facebook or Twitter. I guess I still prefer a much more private nest to vent out my thoughts. 

I find pleasures in writing. It is just myself, my thoughts, God and no one else'. Isn't it a blessing? I think I shall do that all the time. Whenever I have something to say, I shall just come running to my blog :) 

Unashamed

I realize ever since I deleted everything from my iPod, "Unashamed" is no longer my companion who stays faithfully with me throughout my long journey from JB to Singapore and vice versa. Recently, I am missing this song a lot. It brought back lots of big and small pieces of memories. This song means a lot to me. It not only marks the beginning of my "Worship" journey with God but it also touches the hearts of many during my first worship leading :) 

It is pointless pretending to be all happy when I know I am not. Can't think of a reason why I am unhappy and I can't think of a reason why I should be happy either. Perhaps I worry too much? Or maybe it is just the emo season? I don't know. I miss the Murdoch zone. I miss singing (Always worshipping God) with them and I miss all those late night hang outs (Maccas, Utopia, San Churros and etc) . I miss playing "Wolfs" with them. It is just the game that I would play with only the zone :) I miss the fact that whenever I needed someone to pour out my feelings too, and there are bound to be someone there for me. I miss the cold and chilly weather. I find myself actually missing the student village as much as I miss my almost-home-to-be opposite the university campus. I miss those times when I would crept out into the dark with a friend and sneak into the Worship Center just to jam on the small piano. I miss the Worship Center because that's where we gather most of the time. I just want to take a stroll down the city again.....

Life goes on. Things changed. People changed. But memories remain forever...

Here I am at Your feet, In my brokenness complete. One day... I'll be singing this with the zone again :)

Jump then Fall

I am just so glad that today's presentation ended with good notes. Hopefully I don't have to come back to this module again (Which literally means I got to strive hard for my final paper). That dizziness, awful nose-block and the coldness in the campus building has successfully chase me out of my afternoon class. I just couldn't stay a minute longer. Hopefully, the lecturer won't notice that I went missing because I did signed in for my attendance :( 

Huey tagged me in this picture :) Love the effect of iPhone 4s. At least it is a lot better than what my camera can do. Took a long nap in the afternoon and my head is still spinning. NO GOOD!! Spoil my schedules and plans. Ended up watching the latest series of "We Got Married" by Lee Teuk and Kang Sora. Such a cute couple and most importantly, I get to see Dong Hae in it :) Totally made my day.

Recently, I got so addicted to the song "Jump then Fall" by Taylor Swift. Thanks to Nicole who introduce this song to me. I love the tune setting, not much of the lyrics though. "Don't be afraid to jump then fall...jump then fall into me".. I still prefer the music....

Psalm 130:5

I was sharing about the long enduring and disappointment of "Waiting" earlier on in Leader's meeting. I actually wanna add the phrase "Waiting for something is like waiting for the rain in the drought. Long and yet disappointing".

It doesn't matter what and who I am waiting but it is just long process that makes me lose hope. I want signals and signs to show that there will definitely be an answer of whatever that I am waiting right now. Lord, I am a slow and dumb person. Don't give me hope for one split second and it is gone the next.

I just don't like to wait. I am confused and sort of lost directions of wherever I am heading to right now. The Lord is worth waiting. Psalm 130 :5 - I wait for the Lord, my souls wait. I find hopes in the word of the Lord.

Yes... In Him, I hope and I trust...

The Two different world girls :)

As the caption goes, "Jumping from two different World <3 I wonder how we bump into each other? :) "

I don't care who and what brought us together. I also don't care who first barge into whose World respectively. I just know that I am definitely thankful that all these took place and I manage to bump into this girl :) 

I remember how crazy we are and what kinda crazy promises we have made. One of our silliest agreement made many years back is that Machi will definitely want her daughter to marry my son :) For some reasons, I always prefer a son more than a daughter. Maybe because I don't have to fuss and worry so much over my girl. Being a girl is not easy. I'll cry when the day she gets married and when she has to leave my nest :( So I would definitely prefer a son...oh no...I wanted TWO sons because I don't like the feeling of being an only child (PS: As if we can control this kind of thing) Likewise, Machi prefers to dress up her daughter and make sure she keeps long hair. Silly, aren't we? But hey, it is good to talk about this kind of thing once in a while :) 

We made lots of silly promises like agree to go traveling together, ditch our boyfriends if we finds out either one of our boyfriends don't like each others (Machi and myself). We believe friendship is hard to find. So I would rather not date that guy if I have to choose between my friends and him. Plucking apples in Australia is our latest agreement :) I know it sounds funny but I am blessed to have this kinda friend in my life..... 

每个人的世界里都会有个特别的人，而 “妳” 就是那个人。 感谢你成为我世界里的司机（当我迷失方向），医生（当爱情和每件让我重伤的事），乌鸦（阻止我太冲动和做危险的事情），白痴（陪我难过陪我笑），先知 （我心魔被解放的时候），和我最珍贵的嫁妆 （我最宝贝的收藏）。最重要的事，妳我不点头和嫌我们两吵的男人，都不准嫁。

The precious moments :)

Good byes are always hard to say. Especially when it is someone who is dear and precious to me. I dislike saying good-bye :( 

 I forgot how I got so close to Aunty Anna and Lil Jon Boy. I only have memories of me giving Jon boy a ride home whenever we are done with lunch :) Still, I love both Aunty Anna and this boy. They are such awesome and nice people. Thanks for all the encouragements and as well as crying with me whenever I am done. Thanks for the joy Jon boy :) Promises were made. We will see you both very soon :)

PS : Don't give us false hope. We want you to come back.

Despite the fact that I am a bit gloomy when I know it is gonna be Aunty Anna's and Jon Boy's last week, yet another reality brought upon me. It is the Foong's family last week as well :( Sob sob!! I will miss Nathan a lot. I enjoyed cuddling me. So cute!! Well, since they are staying in Singapore, there will be higher chances to go and visit them :) Thanks for the sweet encouragement as well.

Good byes were said

Promises were made

No tears but mixed feelings

And I know it is not the end yet.... 

Lord, You are listening. Heal me completely. Yes.. I am praying in Your name,The Jehovah Rophera (The Lord my Healer)