♥ D.I.O.N.E♥

Hello World, are you guys having an awesome time? It is near to the end of the week already...i hope you are all making the best out of your time XD I know i am kinda emo like few days ago but things are getting better. I am alright with The Queen already. Not to say she has completely understand but things are certainly getting better. At least we did talked now. Thank you for all your prayers guys♥ I realized i still prefers to write long post in blogspot instead of Tumblr. Why? Tumblr is too complicated for me...perhaps i am too lazy to explore it =)

 Dione and myself. I met her during my orientation where she was the volunteer for international students. As a new comer, all i could do was to look out for people wearing red so that they will assist me. Due to the fact that i stayed quite far from Murdoch University as i wasn't allow to move into my hostel yet, i only attended one out of five days orientation. So obviously i wasn't close to them at all...and all i could remember was Alph's (which later became my Zone supervisor) face. Little did i know, most of the volunteers were actually from Passion, which is a Christian group, associates with Zion Praise Harvest. Murdoch is actually one of the smallest zone among all. I wasn't close to anyone at all and everyone seems to be blended in quite well. Dione doesn't seem friendly to me in the first place. She has this kinda fierce look. But nonetheless, i was brought to ZPH by these Murdoch people and was encouraged to attend cell group. It was then i realized ZPH is actually a very large church which consists of 3 zones or more - Murdoch, Curtin and UWA, including all the Young adults, young families, youth, and etc. Lucikily for me, Murdoch zone was on the verge of setting up their own church service so we don't have to travel all the way to Curtin on Sundays morning. The distance is around 20mins drive from Murdoch to Curtin University.

I witnessed the First Murdoch Service which was so memorable to me. It seems queer for our service will be on Saturdays instead of Sundays. I was given the honor to serve as ushers. That's when i interact more with Dione for we were in the same team. Time flies. Without realizing, my first semester is coming to an end. I learnt a lot through serving and got to know God more. Still, i wasn't at all close with this team. In fact, i feel weird and uncomfortable. I tend to be very very quiet except with Alph for he is a big lame joker. Nobody can be normal when he is around =P I thought i was gonna be like this for the next semester until God opens door for me. He put me in the core team and broaden my view by putting me in various ministries. Still, i really feel uncomfortable. Come on, i really don't know them well. I always isolate myself by not joining them in their fellowships and dinner gatherings. True enough i attended church services, but i am always the first to rush back whenever it ends. I was asked to spend time with the core members and to build a firm relationship with them. It scares me when i had to attend their intense training last winter. That's when i realized i had to really commit myself and time to God. For i am serving in His Kingdom.

Dione aka Dee came to my rescue when i was just alone. I mean i am alright with the others (core members) but still, you can't just blend in like that. It takes time. She came back from her winter holiday right after our 3rd to 4th core members meeting. She has been a really good friend to me. Always brought me to maccas and forever inviting me to go out for lunch and dinner. In the first place, i thought i would be very lonely throughout the whole winter for i was the only person who refuse to go back to JB. But it ended up, i have no spare time to myself. I was being kept occupied by them which is a good thing. I have not only learnt a lot of things, but i gained lots of friends too. Friends whom will never ever leave me and will always turns up whenever i am in trouble. I began to love this zone and the people more and more....!Thank God for everything..

I'll never forgets how God has transformed my life....by placing Dee in my life. She is always the first person who would come over to pray for me. Especially during alter calls and when tears started rolling down my cheeks...

Dee, I just want you to know that you are awesome. You are not alone. If you hadn't come over to talk to me or kept me occupied throughout the whole Winter, i would have resign myself from being a core member long ago. The Dee that i knew is a brave, helpful, lively, crazy, caring girl with a most loving heart. I can see Christ through you. You ve taught me lots of things. You bring me out from my comfort zone. Because of you, i became closer to Edwina and Sophia. We are like the best girlies ever♥ Thank you for trusting me with all your secrets and problems. You are always the one who will pray for me and give me the best advise ever. You will cry with me whenever i broke down....Thank you for those "many many" stuffs which you have done for me. To you, it might be little, but to me, it worth a million. You are part of His plan as someone who guided me back to God. I am glad i made the right decision. For i will stick with Him for the rest of my life...

Now that i know you are facing struggles too. I want you to know that you are not alone. Be strong..for the Dee that i knew will always stand firm. You are the child of God...and through all good and bad times, His love for you will never ever change. You are not friendless for you still have us. Though i am nowhere closer to you, but that doesn't make any difference. I will still be your friend =) God love you so much and you are certainly a blessing to me. Like what you said that you are always ready to hear me pour out all my sorrows and happy stuffs. I am going to do the same too. I will always always be here whenever you needed someone to talk to. Lord, rain down all Your blessings upon Dione. Let her entrust all her burdens upon Your mighty shoulder........

PS: I just felt like writing and writing non-stop...but time didn't allow me to *Big sighhh*.........Arghhh..i definitely misses my girlies a lot!!I would rather be a blessing to others than to stay in my comfort zone..........

What now? I am off to sleep..........The Lord is awesome.....XD You know i'll always love you....

Down Down Down Down Down ....

Hey World...you know what? Sometimes i felt so sorry for my bloggie. It is either when i am too free or when i am feeling moody only i will remember my bloggie. Then i'll be spamming and spamming as if nobody knows how to read. Now i feel like singing "Down" by Jay Sean. Baby are you down down down down down....!I am so DOWN right now. Alrighty i think i am a bit crazy + moody + upset. *Dislike* this kind of feeling. Alph told me that *Hate* is a very strong word so i was trained not to use hate in every situations =) So, i really really dislike this kind of situation.

 My official poser, Ah mei and me. It has been so long since i last camwhore with her. I miss those times when we were little, and we used to camwhore everyday. Time flies and everything changed. I am glad we are still very click with one another =) Thanks for always cooperating with me.....you are forever my official poser!!!

Alrighty..i am a little out of topic. Why am i so moody? What else can makes me moody apart from family's,friends, studies and relationship? The Queen (Mummy-san) scolded me terribly yesterday. Apparently she thinks i have given too much time to the church. She didn't think what i am doing is serving God. Instead, she thinks i am just wasting my time and doing meaningless stuffs. *Big sigh* What can i do? She just wouldn't understand. Yet, i can't allow myself to explode because the Lord taught me to be patient and show my love to all "Haters of God". How on Earth can i find the right words to explain? She wouldn't understand why am i doing all these? I am doing it for the Lord. He has given me all these visions..and He is SO REAL...that nobody can be above Him.

Did i mention that i felt my amount of happiness has decreased? I know i still laughed and smile every day but it is getting lesser and lesser each day compared to the time while i was in Perth. I misses all your prayers........i miss the time when i could just broke down whenever i couldn't take it and i know for sure there will be somebody who would come over to give me a hug or a pat on my head as encouragement. But back here, i got to stand firm and be strong. It is hard....like really, it is hard to influence them...!I need you all....=(

I tried not to feel discourage over my current situation for i have FAITH in Him. He'll put things right. Sorry for making this post so emo. I just had to vent out everything before i goes crazy. I'll be fine. Though it is hard, but i am not giving up...NEVER will i give up. For i have a bigger vision from Him.....=) Lord, since this is Your will for me, Your will be done. I am doing it for You and no one else.

PS: I always get influence easily over some small little matters. Even if it is none of my concern, but i can just feel upset and moody over it. This is all wrong. In order to serve the Lord, i got to stand firmly. Our attitudes meant a lot to Him. I need You Lord, to help me to meditate myself in every aspects of my life. Refresh me from time to time......for i am Yours....

Till here people.....I am always fine. Don't worry. Viola will always be Viola!!God bless ya....

Late in the night......

Hey people, by right i should be sleeping....but i have no idea why am i here =) I guess i am into one of my "random thoughts mood" again. I am always like that whenever i am emo or moody. I was browsing through my diary and i saw this - "If two people who are of different world, do they stand a chance to be together?" This thought came into my mind after i watched "Cinderella Story". It was just like a fairy tale which all the girls are yearning for. You see, imagine if the two of you were like strangers, barely talk at all, and knew nothing about each other. This kind of feeling is just like when you walked past and missed each other on a busy road. Do you think fairy tales will still exist? Well, maybe it does. It all depends on who would sacrifice the first move. I can't figure out the other best solution to this question.

Forget about everything which i have written on top. That was like one of my long time ago random thoughts. A weird way to start this blog post but a good way to reminisce the past!! I have no idea why i am so moody right now. It was suppose to be a good day for me....i wonder why?

                                      
 BB and me. I ve been seeing a lot of her recently. That's awesome....but i guess i'll feel lonely once she goes back to KL =( Life is always like this isn't it? Beautiful things won't remain the way they are. I know i am feeling slightly emotional, but i can't help feeling upset over the change which is taking place right now. I mean, i know this is God's challenge for me but still......i dislike the feeling that i can do nothing to save the situation. Everyone is different. I cannot change a person's mind and thoughts. To be honest, sometimes i felt as if i am not the right person to be involve in that situation. And yet God is telling me not to give up. Lord, i know you are listening.....and i know you won't put me into a situation which is beyond my limitation. I trust in You.

Little Daylan. Oh man...i really really missed him a lot. Again, i know the whole World will say i showed favoritism to him. Really no!!I loved all the kids in Zionkidz. It so happened that this little Daylan is forever dreamy and into-his-own-World. Can't bear to leave him alone like that =)) I missed him. Being able to serve God's younger generation is like one of the best thing that has ever happened to me. Thank You Father for such wonderful experience. "To invest in children to raise up the next generation who loves God"- I will bear this in mind.

After talking to Esther regarding the "Decision thingy", i felt more relief. This is what God planned for me...i should rejoice at it. He will never lead me to something which is not good for me. Yet, i should learn to rely on Him COMPLETELY.  What now? Pray more...He can hear us....

PS: I realized the best way to forget someone is to surrender all your time to HIM. He can keep us occupied. Serve Him completely and you'll realize, you can actually do a lot of things beside feeling emo and moody over someone. All i can say is i don't feel anything now..like really i don't. I am really moving on XD which is really a great thing. Thank you Lord. The kind of feeling that i had right now when i browse through your pictures was "Arghh...i missed out all the fun!!" or "How i wish i was there...." Other than that, i am really happy with my current life =)

Alrighty people, i will end this post now. Time to sleep. Be good......Good night World...

Happy Easter

Herrowwwwwwwwwwzz Dearie World, i thought i would like to drop by for a quick update =) Just wanna wish you all a very HAPPY EASTER DAY!Hope you guys had fun. I actually intend to update this blogpost on Good Friday but i suddenly felt so sad after watching the video of "We are the reason" T.T!!Thank you Jesus for dying for me on that cross. Nothing but the blood of Jesus. I will always treasure the life that i have right now. Hmmm let me see, this is my 2nd Easter Celebration. I never celebrate Easter before because i knew NOTHING about it. Yea..not until i came back to HIM last year. I am so so so so so so sorry about it Lord, but thank you for leading me back home XD

 F.R.I.E.N.D.S!!!I loved them all =)) Again, even though this church is small, but i can definitely witnessed the same kind of passion that i ve seen in Murdoch zone. The same kind of familiar feeling =) I was feeling quite upset to know that i would have to miss out all the fun (Easter carnival and Passion retreat) in Perth. To think we all planned so hard since last year, to do this and that. I know you guys will have great fun. Shine all your passion out Murdochians!!I really and truly misses each and every single one of you. Thanks for all the encouragement...

I had a great Easter too. Good job guys. Easter eggs was cool and the sermon was awesome XD I chose to rejoice at whatever HE has planned for me. Like i mentioned before in my tumblr, if i never come back, things wouldn't have work out this way. I wouldn't be able to see a change in my beloved ones isn't it? So, Thank You Jesus. I am glad that You gave us hope and faith.

 Disciple-ing(own created word :b) was fun!!!It amazed me to see that my good friends could actually stay focus throughout the whole lesson. It shows that when it comes to studying, they can be serious too =) But i have to admit that, we were fooling around throughout the whole lesson. Those lame jokes and random silliness really lit up the whole atmosphere. It cracked my brain to figure out how to make the whole thing interesting. But, thank you girls, for putting up with me. Super dramatic right? I promised you, the next lesson will be EVEN MORE FUN. Maccas is definitely one of my most favorite hang-out place. It reminds me of my late nights hang-out place in Perth with the darlings =))

 I always burst out laughing whenever i see my friends fighting over who is the most hardworking person and who reads the bible constantly or even finishing the homework that i gave. They are like kids competing with one another. It is hard to decide whenever being asked. For you girls are equally good. Just continue to remain the way you are and i'll be more than enough happy. Praise the Lord!!

You know what? Sometimes, it is really hard to make a decision. I don't know what can i do to please both sides. Both sides were good and yet different in certain aspects. Towards the end, we are still serving the same God. I know i am getting used to what i have been doing and the people here. Although we weren't that close yet, but it takes time. And yet, if i go to the other side, there will be higher chances for me serve in the ministries which God has planted that passion within me. Arghh..i really don't know. I know i can only pick one out of two. Lord, help me!!

PS: Sometimes, the happiest person is always the saddest person on Earth. I want the "JOY" which i once had....

Good night World...

God's promise

Yahoooooooooooooooo...........back once more for a short update. Told you, i would be lucky if i am able to squeeze out a little time to type out this blog post. Oo...which means i got to do my daily devotion later. People, this is not a good example. So, DON'T EVER learn from me =) Always put God first. Anyway, i did update. Not in blogspot but  in my tumblr site. I am trying my best to update in both sites. In order to "stalk" the Murdochians, it is best for me to get a tumblr. Haha..for easier follow-ups.

" The rainbows in the sky to show God's promise is a truth. The rainbows in the sky to show the World...it's the only way..for Your everyday =)" I miss the kids! To ensure that i'll never even forgets the things which i have learnt during the time when i served the kids, i'll always sing while dancing to those Kids worship and praise songs. HILLSONG rawkzz!!

To elaborate more on this song-Rainbow, oh by the way, you guys know the story of Noah right? And yea, in order to ensure that HE won't flood the place anymore, God created Rainbow as a significant that His promises to us will always be kept =) How comforting is that!!!I am glad i obeyed God...really and truly.....and i know and i believe HE will make a difference not only to my family but my life too =) Thank You Lord....

I know it is a bit late....but still i wanna share God's joy. My cousin got saved last Sunday. Yayy...ONE MORE SALVATION!!PRAISE THE LORD!!! I know........i can entrust all my problems to Him ...and i'll always have a shoulder to rely on.

How i miss you Issy! My one and only Japanese buddy. Of course there are more buddies...but Issy has been my very own bestfriend eversince i first met her in class. We hanged out a lot. We always contradicting ourselves by saying we loved Japan and yet, forever craving for Korean cuisine and always goes mad for korean stuffs XD I just wanna thank God for giving me such a nice friend. I know you are very upset about me not being able to attend Japanese classes with you anymore. Sachi Sensei told me you looked upset =( But that's fine...if you believe in miracles, i am sure we will meet again.

A simple message of encouragement can really light up my day despite how tired i was =) I miss you guys a lot. Even though i couldn't serve alongside with you guys, but towards the end, we are still serving the SAME God. I just want you all to know that it was the passion that i witnessed in the zone that keeps me going. Thanks for planting that passion and fire within me. I am going to use that passion to serve HIM fully now. I loved my current life. I just like the way things fall according to its own places. At least i know, i am so not gonna let myself backslide.........No..please say i WON'T.....

Good night World....

B.U.S.Y

Hey World, i am so so so sorry for abandoning this little blog. I didn't do it on purpose i promised *fingers crossed* I thought i would just come here to show that i am still alive. Oh my word...this week has been pretty interesting and exciting. PRAISE THE LORD!!! Wanna know what happened? You'll soon know =) Our God is awesome =)

Now, although i miss my girlies and large family in Perth(A LOT), but truly, i don't regret with my decision to come back here. There is always a reason why He arranged all these for me. This verse really inspired me a lot. It was written on the signing book which contains the love from the whole zone- 1 Peter 5:7 - Cast all your anxiety on Him for He cares for you. It really encouraged me a lot. Thank You guys for planting this fire and passion in me. I will never ever give up =)

My time is rather occupied now. I got to travel in and out Singapore all the time just to do my enrolment and get my Student pass done. Super troublesome to the max =( But what to do? Oh well....

I am not missing you. Oh well..not as hardcore as before already. Well i guess time can really change a person's mind. I'll just pray that you will be able to achieve whatever that you want in your life.........even though sometimes, i wish i can be slightly more initiative. Still, i hope i can be your friend because you really inspired me a lot in certain aspects.

Oh man..i am super super sleepy. Didn't get enough of sleep recently. I need to really change my body clock system because i know it'll get worse when school starts. Arghhh........

Okay, i think i am starting to lost track on what i am suppose to write now. I think i better stop here. Good night World!!See ya guys in the next post. The Lord is my priority =)

He still loves me =)

Hey there World...Sorry for the delayed but i am still in the middle of typing out my chinese blog post =( Had a lot to do recently =) I promised it won't be long. Woohoo..Hmm...i think i can kinda felt a change in my life now after feeling upset over this whole coming back thingy. It takes time i know =) but nonetheless, i am going to lead a very good life...as it is all for the sake of HIM. Lord, You are almighty. You made me felt uncertain of my future now......when people asked me, "Are you still going back to Perth?" and i would immediately answered "YES!!Definitely!" But now, i am really uncertain about it. Still, i hope God can open doors for me XD There are lots and lots of people here who haven't heard of Christ. They need to be saved =(

Well..something to share. I was browsing through some memorable pictures and i came across this. This picture was taken during Freshies Welcome Semester 1 (6th March) which is also my last performance in Zion Praise Harvest. I never had the chance to join choir before as i was placed in the drama team. I always wanted to join choir because i love singing, and partly is due to the fact that, in order to be eligible to audition for vocalz (Worship team), we have to go through choir. I am not saying that i join choir JUST because i wanna join worship team (even though that was the main reason XD) ...but i really enjoyed the spirit of singing and worship-ing God together with a big group of people. The atmosphere will be like.."WOW...AMAZING!!". It struck me. Look at us....there are so many of us in the choir team. Each and every single one of us has different voices....and some of them have exceptionally good voices =)

Someone asked me... "There are so many of you in the choir team. We can't really hear your voice. So what is the point?"  Yes you are right. It is hard to identify each person's voices because all of us are singing together at the same pace. In another perspective, who is our main listener? Who are we dedicating the song to? Is it for the big crowds? Or are we singing for the sake of glorifying God? YES...we are singing for God. Even though so many of us are singing together at the same time, but God can definitely identify our voices individually. He can hear us. So, whether we have good voices or not-so-good voices, it doesn't matter, as long as we are sincere about serving Him =) For no matter how imperfect we are, He still loves us =D Just like how the chorus of our chosen song goes "I am not perfect, Yes i do wrong....." Isn't it comforting to know that God still loves us despite of us not being perfect? We should rejoice for it is our greatest priviledge to have God in our lives =D

With that, i wanna end this post with the chorus of "He still loves me". Yes, forgot to mention that, this was the chosen song we sang during Freshies Welcome. It was awesome to the max XD And i have to admit that, CHOIR RAWKZZ XD Will definitely stick to choir no matter where i am =)

Seems like i always fall short
of being worthy
Though i ain't good enough
But he still loves me
I ain't no superstar
The spotlight ain't shining on me
Though i ain't good enough
But he still loves me

I am not perfect
Yes i do wrong
I'm trying my best but
It ain't good enough...
Shunned by the World
If i don't succeed
Though i ain't good enough
BUT HE STILL LOVES ME......

Just some very very random opinion of mine =) At least i updated =P