Unlocked the enclosed piece of my diary....(Secretly Loving You)

hey hey...well..don't know why?maybe because my days in GreenField Resort are so damn boring,so i am so so so in love in drafting or writing nowadays!but i won't write about NS stuffs anymore.cause i ve got something better to share with you guys.well...during my days in camp,i ve brought along with me this piece of diary.and goodness know where did i get such a big courage to show this piece to my friends and buddies there.i thought i will be laugh by them...but surprisingly,they enjoyed reading it and has given me good comments.thanks Sister Lam and Rainbow as well as my other camp friends. And thanks a lot too...Ting...for reading my stories each time.well well...as i have permitted the others to read it...so why not i post it up to share with you guys. actually i did written about this person in my wretch blog...but i didn't mean to tell anyone who is it...and i just used the word "HE".many has tried to guess this person but failed.ENCLOSED piece of my diary.and now i am UNLOCKING it.!!enjoy it...

Secretly Loving You....................

It started on the 29th of December 2006, Friday,2.30pm,in Mr Charm's physics tuition class in Omega. I don't really remmeber or know how i started my conversation with you. All i know is that i had never seen you before in my life until that day.

You sat in front of me...and next to a malay good friend/buddy of mine, Sufee!You are quiet at first. You talk softly to Sufee.I don't find you interesting or handsome. Just know that you have a pair of beautiful eyes. You turn out to be extremely smart. Answering every single questions that Mr Charm asked. I was impressed. I remembered my friend, Li Fang kept on praising you. But we don't know where you come from. It was until Mr Charm took the attendance, then i knew your name is "Shawn". You did talk to me. But mostly because of tuition work.

The 2 hours in class passes quickly. Don't know why, but i felt so unbearable when 4.30pm comes and i have to say Goodbye.That's because i realized you are taking the next chemistry class too. Due to the late registeration, i can't get to enter Mr Lim's class. So i have to say Goodbye somehow.

In school, according to Li Fang, you were still excellent in that Chemistry class. It makes me feel like wanting to know you more. Mostly because i don't want to be left out. So in the second week, that's when school has started, i don't know that my other friend, Wey Yng will come into the same class as us. So i was left sitting alone behind. Soon i got fed up,so i moved infront of them and sat just behind you and Sufee. I get to know you more and found out that you are actually from English College (EC). Oh my god!!!I can't believe it. As usual, Fang began to change her behaviour towards you after knowing you are from that school. You seem uncomfortable seeing our reaction. But was still friendly towards me.You are always laughing at my terrible drawing of graphs. Because of you...Sufee tends to make fun of me too.You are ready to share all news with me. We did have a good time that day.

Then miracle comes, for i manage to enter the next Chemistry class. HURRAY!!!I can stay together with my friends without being left alone and most importantly, i can get closer to you. I don't know what's wrong with me. But i hate anyone to be close to you. I even asked my friend about you.He is just getting annoyed. Maybe because there is a reason for me to do so. I admit that there were motives for me to get close to you. And that is to find out why EC guys hates SETA girls so much.And why must EC guys talks so badly of SETA girls. But...i never know that....one thing will lead to another. I get to know you more and realized that you are actually a friendly and talkative person. I realized that we gets along well...especially when it lefts the 3 of us (Sufee, You and Me). We did have a good time together. But i knew you already had a girlfriend.

I don't even know when did i start having special feelings towards you. I don't even know if it is a feeling of admire or friendlike or that i really like you? Maybe this feeling comes naturally without knowing it.It is until Valentine's season, i forced you to buy dedication from my club. You hesitate but i won in the end. You were troubling whether to let me know your secret or not. But you did in the end. And i am the only one who knows it.You asked me not to tell anyone....and of cause i won't.Do you know how happy i am to be able to earn your trust?Even Sufee also don't know anything.And because of this, we were able to exchange phone numbers. I was like damn happy.Then slowly, i realized i do like you. Not because of your look.Your personalities makes me like you. Shu Jun is really lucky to have you. I envied her without feeling jealous of her.

Our friendship has blossomed tremendously. We becomes good friend,buddies and brother.But Fang and Yng still dislike you. And of cause i can't tell them about my feeling towards you.I ignored them and befriended you all the same.You are very understanding.Remembered vividly during a day,somewhere around march 2007......i cried because of I.U Day's stuffs.Too much problems occurred that time. You did not question me any further but handed me a packet of tissue. You tried not to question and asked Sufee not to disturb me. I was touched at that moment. Thanks a lot Shawn!You are a great friend.Tell me...how can i bear myself to hate you?How can i bear myself to ignore you?

I am always hoping to see you. Every Friday has becomes my favourite day of the week. The usual lazy me has suddenly became so hardworking. And it is all because of YOU!Really hope to tell you my feeling.But i care too much of our unexpected brotherly-friendship already.I believe friendship's are rare to find.So i rather sacrifies my special feelings towards you.

SHAWN!!!!Can you promise me one thing?If one day, i mean if one day, you found out my feelings for you, can you promise me that you will not avoid me? Can you promise me that you will still be my FRIEND?I really don't want to lose our friendly. I hope you can understand. If my confession means the loss of our friendship,i would rather sacrifies all these.I know i can only maintained this "Secretly Loving You" feeling...and i believe i can get use to it. Soon.....this feeling will fade....just like it comes naturally and face naturally...!!But promise me......that you will never avoid me!!Please say that you will be my friend forever.....and ever..........

THE END.....OF MY DIARY....................

haha...i don't think it is "Secretly Loving You" anymore.....for i ve unlocked it!!since there are not much people who knows about this blog...so i am relieved.for i know my loyal readers won't betray me...hahax..

ps: to Baobei aka kelly.......narhhh...this is what you would want to know.still remembered how you shout out his name last year?at omega??you make me felt so embarassed.didn't you know there were 2 person with the name SHAWN??and you ve called the wrong person.ishh.......it is SHAWN TAN that i admire...not SHAWN CHNG!aiyerr....a lot of SSI students thought i like SHAWN CHNG lor...eversince you shout that time.whack you arr....ANGRY-ING...!!!anyway...i will show you the real S.T if got chance.so that you won't call out the wrong person again.haha...

ps: to Star aka Yong Sin...for your information...i did update my blog.and twice too eversince i comes back.of cause you would like me to come back faster...so that you won't have to leave me so many comments right?haha....well well..thanks for your comment lar...you are really a nice friend.and thanks for your concern towards SETALEO.we are forever in your debt.will pay you back nicely.thanks for taking care of baobei and vonny during the time when i was away.haha...i know you guys enjoyed it.!!add oil......

i am back from NS....permanently.....this time

Here are some pictures which i would like to share...



HEBE TING IS SO DAMN SHY.....

SHE REUNION ON THE 8TH OF JUNE
SHE REUNION ON THE 8TH OF JUNE

OUR COMPANY FLAG(CHARLIE)

LAO DA AND ME....LAST DAY

AH HAN AND ME

ALL THE SPORTING GUYS FROM CHARLIE 6

THIS IS OF CAUSE SELINA BEAR'S JOB AGAIN!!


hey guys....yahoo..i am back!!!this time permanently.i don't have to go back to GREENFIELD RESORT anymore.what lucks!!!HOME SWEET HOME.i misses my bed.i misses mum's cooking.i misses my friends and buddies.i misses baobei aka kelly and vonny aka yvonne.and i misses lots of things and stuffs around me.home smells better than ever....!haha...too exaggerting i guess.no choice......i misses my home damn much.glad to be back once more.

anyway....our service time is only 2 months plus.not even reaches 3 months.although i am glad to be released from "JAIL" but still i misses that place.that place contained lots of my memories.or i should say...OUR memories.surprisingly i misses the food there.and of course.....i misses my friends.although we are from different states but we were like one big family.it is really great to be in CHARLIE company eventhough we are not the best.CHARLIE RAWKZZ...

well well...many things do happened in camp eversince i went back on the previous 13th May 2008.First of all.....i celebrated my birthday in that "JAIL"....!it was a most unforgettable memories for me.thanks to dorm Charlie 13 and Charlie 14!!!And thanks to all my friends and buddies who sang and wishes me.although the all the buddhists went home for holiday...but still i am glad that Sister Lam stayed back to accompany me.we visited "Kem Teluk Sari"....eww...what a lousy camp.our GREENFIELD RESORT is the best among the very best.yeah....long live GREEN FIELD.

next excitement is of cause COLT M16.oh my god.that gun was superb heavy.we were coached first for the first day about the function and the ways to hold the gun and everything.went to padang sasar the next day by company.the soldiers made demo.oh my god...you should have hear the sound..."damn loud" but i was so damn excited.we were given 30 bullets.10 bullets were for testing while 20 bullets will be counted points.i had my 10 bullets.all hit the board...but at the bottom.hmm...the next 20 bullets...hit the board also..but sadly..i don't know my points.cause the teacher didn't tell out everyone's points.so sad!!!but it is the experience that matter.time goes very fast when you start shooting.haven't even got time to count......then the bullet finished.still..it was damn exciting.and i am proud to say....CHARLIE company got number 2 in shooting.and of cause DELTA company got the first.

NEXT....we ve got a 3 days class(Program Penghayatan Sastera & Budaya).sounds boring right?but still it is enjoyable.we were divided according dorm(boys and girls),and unfortunately,we(Charlie 14) was combined with Charlie 6.why did i mentioned the word "unfortunately"?and that is because.......most of HIS friends are there.as usual...you can hear the name "Chuan Chuan and Chuan".....ishh.....but netherless...it didn't affect my mood to enjoy this programme.we are doing a poem regarding death(TANAH INI AKAN MENCINTAIKU)....although it sounds weird...but still we manage it alright.we got Number 3 for that.haha...so proud nia....although my job is just to sing or i should say hummed some tune.hahac.....

the next excitement is none other than WIRAJAYA....and that is when we have to enter the forest.first we have jalan lasak.and that is when four company will have to compete.we gotta walk for at least 3km with the heavy bag on your shoulder.of course girls will compete with girls while boys compete with boys.there were altogether 8 groups(4 wira and 4 wirawati).mind you....the road are not easy to walk.suddenly you have to walk up the hill.and suddenly the path might be muddy and slippery.if not.....you will have to cross a big drain.i was one of the first firl to reach the destination.but Ting was counted first.so i was the 2nd girl.hahax...still not bad what.then the other 33 people arrived.my gosh....CHARLIE company won.yeah!!!there goes the same for WIRA.for they were running all along the way.so energetic huh!!!haha....but still the main thing is CHARLIE WON.go charlie go charlie go go go...win charlie win charlie win win win......!!next....after our morning tea.....we gotta find direction using compass.we have to walk for another 3km...isshh.so damn tiring man.the path is still the same.muddy and slippery.we arrived last this time because teachers kept on giving us wrong information to make us confused.we had our lunch there...eww..there were so many flies.damn disgusting.just as we were about to lie down and rest...it started raining.what lucks!!!again..we gotta start walking.this time...wearing our so-called raincoat.i thought the route they were taking looks familiar.of cause it is damn familiar...for it led us back to GREENFIELD RESORT.i never thought we could still bathe and rest.so i enjoyed myself thoroughly.we continued or activity when the rain stopped.this time..we entered the forest.built up our tent.to build a tent...you gotta find sticks or wood by yourselve.the sky is getting darker but still our tent is not even built up yet.miraculously.....Staff Halim helped us.thanks a lot.he is damn quick.....felt so stress standing beside him while watching.we had our dinner......!then surprisingly fell asleep.there weren't any night activities for us..much to my disappointment.we slept.

woke up the next day.i can't stand it anymore...i need the toilet.the toilet sucks though.ewww...i can't describe it...if not i will puke.all i can say is that..i went in only ONCE!!enough....it is more than enough for me.the next activity is "MENCARI".and that is it needed 10 campers to find FOOD. we were given direction and a compass.we need to find that direction to meet up with our agent.it wasn't an easy task.for we need to find the right agent together with our code number.our agent is of cause the coaches in disguise.we can't call them "JURULATIH"...for they will deduct our points.they will disguise as anything....orang asli,bread-seller,a mute guy and anything.unfortunately...we kept on finding the wrong agent and they wasted so much of our time.we found our agent at last.we have to sing is suara sengau.haha...and they took a video of us.so MALU.....my gosh!!we found our FOOD at last.and we rushed back.we are not the last of cause.then we cooked.and after our lunch...we headed back to our camp.hip hip hurray.although tired...but it was an exciting experience.to sleep in the forest.without bathing.without forks and spoons for you to eat.no water and electric supply.

days passes so quickly..we had our last community service visiting.and soon we were asked to prepare for the closing ceremony.which means ....we can go home soon.yeah!!!our closing ceremony is on the 6th of june...and that is a day before we go back.and together..the whole gang of us wore Baju Kurung for the last time.i was involved in choir.sang patriotic songs.aiks...although embarassing...but still i enjoyed every moment of it.i was being laughed by Chen....he said he only can see my mouth moving but no voice coming out.hahax...of cause....i purposely does that just to save my voice.we took pictures.and i was busy signing autographs and asking people to write my book.can't bear to leave my friends of cause....but surprisingly..nobody shed any tears that night.everything is like normal.i slept at 4am that morning and woke up at 6.30am.why?because i was so busy clearing up my stuffs and setting my bag/luggage.i had my midnight feast.then busy writing people's books.so busy.woke up.....bathed and i walked out of my room for the final last time.a lot of people cried of cause.we took leave of one another.....took pictures and everything comes to an end.i sincerely hope we all still can remember each other and stay in contact.

reached HOME.HOME SWEET HOME!!my life is back to normal.gotta learn car...gotta apply school.haha...can spent time with my family.Hahax.....come back on the 7th of june.went to kulai on the 8th.met up with my dearest sister's (HEBE TING AND SELINA BEAR).then went to REDBOX with mum and dad ONLY.such an enjoyable moment.i hope everything can lasted till the end. but HE called me halfway..

ps:forgot to mention that...HE enrolled himself in a basketball competition.in his school i think.and the competition is on that day itself(8th of june 2008).HE called to say that their team lost.but i asked him not to give up.gambateh..there is always hope.and HE told me he lost the match and his relationship too.i was like....BANGGG.............!!how could things happened all at once?in a day too!!then HE is like...trying not to spoil my mood.so HE say he will tell me later on then we hang up.but honestly...HE has already spoilt my mood.so i think it is better for him to carry on.and furthermore......i think HE needed someone to chat.so i message him...and HE immediately called back.we chatted for a while.and again...i advised HIM not to give up.for i think HE will regret about it.but HE gave me lots of reasons.so...our conversation carry on for about 10 minutes plus.then HE thanked me for listening to him.we hang up after that.i sincerely hope HE is alright.and i know HE is strong enough to do so.Loads of lucks for HIM....

ps:to baobei aka kelly and vonny aka yvonne and as well as all SETALEOs.congratulations!!you guys have achieved the very best and i am really really and truly proud of you.i know the outcomes is rather unusual and disappointing especially to vonny.but who cares?i know you have did your very very best!!and i know you deserved it.but we can never predict what will happen.so...i won't say anything about what i think.let it be bygone.for as i said...you guys will forever be the TOP + OUTSTANDING to me.what did i always say?nevermind about the outcomes.what matters most is the process.the most important thing is that you enjoyed the whole process and you served with sincere and passion heart.do not shed tears anymore!!although i am not by your side...but i will forever observe the happenings around you.so do take care ad enjoyed till the end.love you all...muacks..

ps:to my so-called good good good friend,star aka yong sin.haha...thanks for all your comments.and i ve updated my blog la.don't worry.i upload a few pictures for you to see too.i am sure you did well in your exams ya.with my blessings la.congratulations to your club.HE has achieved what he wants.i sincerely congrats him.as well as you too.so now..keep on striving.spm is the only thing you can worry about now!!and thanks for helping me to observe them and send me those info.thanks a lot..you are really a nice friend excluding the facts that you are always bickering with me.so.....continue to reach for the highest star!!!!!but....keep on visiting my blog also la...

to all my friends and buddies and everyone....I AM BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!misses you guys like hell!!stay tune.......

going back SOON...

wuwuwuwuwuwu.....i don't wanna go back to Kem Pth Padang Hijau Kluang.you know why??because i miss my bed.i miss mummy and daddy.i miss baobei and vonny.i miss SHE(my best sisters).i miss my friends.i miss my buddies.i miss my gua gua.i miss the food here. i miss EVERYTHING that i had in my life.how i wish everything will come to an end soon.but sadly...i can't change anything.i will have to go back tommorow before 5pm.T.T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!really sad.there are so much things to be done.i really don't feel like going back.

aiks.....today...woke up early with 2 panda eyes..cause i slept at 3am plus last night.serve me right!!anyway...followed mummy and daddy to factory.i surfed the net there,played with Barry(my cousin).then mummy decided to bring me to CS.to apply for college.we went to Inti's and Taylor's office.so troublesome.i ve went there before but mum insisted that we go in all the same.actually i know...mum and dad wants me to enter Inti.don't know why they like it so much.i am confused myself.too many choices already.Taylor?Inti?MMU?....oh my god...i really can't make up my mind.

ps: i ve already made up my mind that i wanna go Taylor.so...please don't try to change my view.even if i enter Inti one day,it is all my parent's decision and i am not willing to do that.

anyway.....after those colleges stuffs,i had lunch with mummy and daddy at "Kim Gary"...yummy yummy!after eating...i hurried of to catch a cab to Tebrau City.for i have promised to meet Selina Bear there.i had a date with her.hahaha...!oh ya...forgot to mention that...i saw Vonny aka Yvonne at Pandan bus-stop on my way to Tebrau City.but she didn't see me.hahahaha.....reached Jusco.i saw Joling...and was surprised when she say she is going back home for i thought she is joining us.hmm...i went down to Harris.bought my bible.then started looking around...flipping over some books.that's when Selina Bear called me and asked what clothe am i wearing and what colour is it.sounded fishy........but i didn't notice anything about it.just when i was to engrosed in my book,i thought i saw someone stooping down beside me with a wicked smile.haha..it was Selina Bear after all.we joked and laughed all the way.then we went to our most favourite spot------REDBOX

ps: hehehe..Selina Bear...thanks for this outing ya.it was great.we went to Redbox.sang with all our might.taking photos.it was really great.i will miss you when i go back tommorow.T.T...wuwuwuwwu...

the usual songs that we sang,SHE's songs."MO LI","AI WO DE ZHI GE",and lots more.it was quite sad.too bad Hebe Ting was not with us. but nevermind....S.H.E will reunite once more when i am release from jail next month.wait for me.....

after taking pictures...we went down to meet my mum and dad.mum invited Selina Bear and her mum for dinner at FlineStone or whatever is it.i can't remember the spelling.my gosh....you guys should have see how much amount of food that i have consumed.TERRIBLE.....but netherless....i have to eat more...for i will be going back to jail tommorow.went to Harris after dinner.shopped around..then decided to buy a card for Sister Lam's belated birthday(7th January).i smsed with Sister Lam.

then halfway...HE smsed me.i was rather shocked for HE started school today.and i thought HE might be busy.surprisingly,he smsed and asked me how is my feeling as i have to go back tommorow.i was like...oh my god!!....to think he dare to ask me this kind of question...for he is not going back to that "JAIL" anymore.when i told him i missed my friends,my family,my baobei and everything,he asked me not to feel sad for everyone will face problems like this.we chatted for some time.then he say if got chance,he will come down to JB...not forgetting to remind me to treat him.aiks...let him be.he is always a BIG BULLY and a naughty guy(Huai4 Dan4).before ending our conversation..he said in his last message that he will come back to "JAIL" to visit us and asked me to tolerate for a few more weeks...for our service will end very soon.yeah.....hope time will pass quickly.

ps :Baobei...you know who is the "HE" right?so i no need to express it so clearly here.haha...anyway...yeah!!you are right!!i still have a LITTLE feeling for JK.but not so much now.time really will heal everything.i hope i can forget him completely by the time i am out from JAIL.wish me lucks.....by the way..i didn't say i like HIM.i just say everything is possible.and good impression doesn't prove everything larr....!!just show that...he is someone that i can trust but not COMPLETELY.i will tell you about it when i am back...or rather..we can have midnight talk again during weekends...when i get back my beloved handphone.haha..........maybe there will be more stories for you to hear.but still you have Star aka Yong Sin for companion during the time when i am gone.be sure to built up the friendship wall between you guys.longed to see it soon...

ps: to Star aka Yong Sin..my so-called friend.who say so?to think we are friends....but that day you say we are just NORMAL friend.so sad to hear it!anyway......because you are one of the loyal readers of my blog,so i decided to add in your name also.anyway...good luck for your exams.and thanks for your wish about me returning to jail soon.well...nevermind..you have my baobei for companion.both of you can start bickering among each other during the time when i am gone.it can built your friendship tremendously.longed to see that.ADD OIL....lolz.

well well.....everything will come to an end....and with a real heavy heart...i am sorry to say that...i will have to leave this blog again for some time.T.T!sob sob....really sad.i am sure i will miss it damn lot when i am gone.aiks.....what can i do?tell me what can i say.....?haha..i am MAD already.so don't mind me.

all the best to you guys.i pray that you guys will always be as high-spirited as ever.and i also hope that EVERYONE will be in the pink of health.may happiness surround you all and last till the day when i am back ONCE MORE....till here....by the name of LORD JESUS....AMEN..

6 days holidays......

yahoo.....i am back.back to my so-called beloved TAHAH AIR- 34,JALAN MOLEK 1/6!!!yeah....how i missed my HOME SWEET HOME!!okay okay...i go back to the beginning.as my title stated "6days holidays"......so once again..i am back to my lovely home.i don't know the reason why.but all i know is that every single wira and wirawait from Kem Pth Padang Hijau is given a 6 days holidays.yippee...wulalala.....

on the 8th of May....mum and dad come and fetched me away from camp at around 10.45am.so officially...i stepped out of "JAIL"....hip hip hurray...but sadly...a lot of people is leaving.i meant they won't be coming back on the 13th anymore due to the intake of Form 6 and matriculation.so sad...T.T!!!CHARLIE's members especially.most people from Charlie team is leaving.poor charlie.......
mum and dad didn't bring me home at once..but bring me to factory------->CHIN HONG TRADING & PACKAGING i missed it too....although it isn't a nice place.forget it.....it will be my working place one day after i graduate from whatever degree or diploma.after reaching factory,Aunt AJ took me, Barry(dearest baby cousin) and Kakak Yani out for lunch(Secret Recipe).so lucky and fortunate.i can get to eat my favourite chocolate indulgence and white chocolate macadamia.........oh my god.......felt so lucky.after eating..we went back to factory.and i slept immediately...

ps: forgot to mention that...i didn't sleep a wink for the previous night due to the companion of my beloved handphone.haha...i was like crazy over my handphone.

back home.....due to the companion of my long lost + beloved + ishideru + sukidayo computer...i slept at 3am ++......really becoming more and more like a panda.and even worst...i still have the companion of my handphone.so the next morning...as usual..woke up with a bad mood(but not as bad as i was in camp),and followed mum to factory.i can surf the net in factory.and wrote letter to Sister Lam(for i ve promised to do so).went for facial.....wow..so relaxing...can slept for hours.
after that,went home.......we had a sumptuous dinner at "Xian4 Dai4 qi3 Shi4 Lu4" gosh...how i missed that place.as usual..i ordered a big plate of lasagne.yummy yummy...and my favourite milk tea with pearl.too full........

ps:i thought i ve gained weight during my service at camp.but surprisingly....not a single soul says that i was far or whatever.and even more surprise....they said i ve lost weight.but true enough..i ve lost 2kg since the last time i weighed on it.what lucks....

the next day...and that was yesterday(10th of May 2008)......woke up at 9am plus for the part-time maid has arrived.i watched her doing all those chores while i was busy making DIY card.i ve agreed to meet up Vui at Cs and later catch up with Baobei aka Kelly and Vonny aka Yvonne at Pelangi.they are coming to stay at my place for the night.i was late as usual.i promised to meet Vui at 1pm...haha..but i was late.i arrived at 2pm.so....we rushed up to buy movie tickets.i don't even know what kind of show ticket is he buying but all i know is that he won't let me pay any single cent of it.so i was determined to treat him popcorns.but.....sadly...he ends up paying every single cent of it.poor buddy!!!after the show....i called up Baobei...and she told me that Lion couldn't meet us up for tea.so she is bringing Vonny to meet up with me at CS.i was thrilled.yahoo........can meet them at last.so i simply brought Vui to Vivo(the nearest place that i could think of).he ordered the meal...and ends up paying the bill again.whack him!!we chatted while waiting for vonny and baobei.i could sense their presence.hehehehehe....how thrilled i was to see them again.we joked and chatted all the way.then around 6pm plus...i suggested that we should go home.for.......mummy has reminded me earlier before that we are going for dinner(mother's day celebration) at "Tai Son" at around 7.30pm.as usual...the members consist of 3 families again.but this time it is special...cause it consists of the presence of Baobei and Vonny.

luckily we reached home on time before mum can start nagging me.went for dinner...had lots of fun although the food sucks.went home after dinner...we joked all the way.i was being teased for pressing my handphone every now and seconds.hehe...sorry ya...baobei and vonny and ah shuan and the gang...!!my phone is very important to me at that moment.because of both reason...1)the person i am sms-ing with(for i really thought he won't find me again) 2)handphone is my best companion during my time at NS camp

ps: hey Baobei....NSVIP....what kind of stuff is that.?very creative of you to invent this (NOT SO VERY IMPORTANT PERSON).no manners!!!whack you arrr.....isshh!haix....he is a good pal to me.so don't think too much ya!!you should understand it as i told you the whole story already.if you still can't understand, i don't mind repeating it to you for the second time.haha......as for THAT person.....let it be.i didn't say i will like him forever...and i didn't say that i WILL NOT like this NSVIP.as i say...everything is possible.so LET IT BE...

back to my mother's day celebration, i was surprised to see 2 cakes on the table.one if for mother's day of cause.and the next one...whoever is it for?

we were asked to sang for all the mothers presence on the spot.then.....mum asked me to stand in the middle.so the cake was for me.T.T!!!so touching.they are celebrating my birthday earlier...for i am going back to camp soon.so they sang for me.sad to think that i can't celebrate it with my family this year.but then...still i was lucky to be back home again.recalling back last year,i celebrated my birthday with a bunch of friends at Summer.full of sweetest memories.this year was a bit special.....for it was meaningful.just the kind of feeling that i longed for.simple and sweet.....!!Baobei and Vonny is being naughty.they wiped some creams on my face.ewww...disgusting.Yi2 Zhang4 joined them too.a real waste of cream.

went in after the singing session.....Baobei and Vonny watched tv.i don't wanna watch because it is "Horror movie" that they watched.so i fall asleep.......but was being waken by them.we bathed and we chatted till 3am plus.it was a nice chat.i wonder when will we have this kind of gathering again.but no worry.....there are heaps and heaps of chances.

today....11th of May 2008,we went back to Kulai to have lunch with grandma.we had a sumptuous lunch.so delicious and yummy.everyone said i have becomes darker.aiks...so sad!!i don't wanna turn dark..but no choice.

overall....i did had fun during these few days.especially when i was lying on my most comfortable and adorable bed.haha...........
gotta go......for i am dating Selina Bear tommorow.we are going to have fun.

meanwhile....to dearest Baobei and Vonny as well as my so-called friend,Star aka Yong Sin,and everyone who is sitting for their exams, all the best ya....
wish you guys the very very best of lucks.may god grant you guys with the best confidence and the skills of answering the exam papers.take care ya.....love you guys lotssa.....muackzz..

have fun in answering...and may god bless ya.......ciaozz...

National Service.

wulala....i am back once more...but going off real soon..can't believe that i can actually come back home.honestly..i entered Kem Padang Hijau,Kluang on the 19th but was back on the 21st due to Ester Day and Good Friday.haha....but i did not tell anyone that i was back.mystery......a lot of people were shocked to me hanging around at Tebrau City,Jusco as they thought i was suppose to be at camp.what fun.....

now...due to ching ming,i am back again.yeah...yippee.....great to come home again.seriously...i missed my bed damn lot when i was away at camp.i missed my computer.i missed my handphone.i missed everything in my home.especially mum and dad,my dearest gua gua,my neighbours,my buddies,my friends,baobei aka kelly,vonny aka yvonne,and PRINCE of cause.sob sob.....2 weeks didn't see PRINCE.missed him like hell.although 2 weeks is not really a long period,but to me..it was like a 2 months.aiks..too exaggerting already i guess...

well well..i stop my craps and go back to my main topic...NATIONAL SERVICE.hmm.....don't know why..i was damn lucky to be enrolled in this programme.it was like a taboo to me at first.but....honestly...excluding the food,the bathroom,and the weather,this camp was okay.i am getting used to the life here.thanks to YES CAMP.yeah...YES CAMP rawkz.because of the scary experience i had in year 2006,i have got myself prepared for this NS thingy.i believe i can do it.yeah.....SETA LEO RAWKZZ.

National Service was not that bad.it consist of WIRA and WIRAWATI.at first i felt weird at being called WIRAWATI for we are not that great.but slowly...whatever la..wirawati wirawati lo.hehe.i get to meet lots of new friends.not ALL of them of cause.but part of them.especially those from my dorm.we get along well.gossiping are part of our main activity.and a great way to pass time too.no choice.can't blame us.for some of them really need to be GOSSIP.so we really enjoyed it.gossiping starts when we were left to our own.especially during night time or whenever it is our free time.

forgot to say that....all Wira and Wirawati is being divided into 4 different companies.the companies are Alpha,Bravo,Charlie and Delta.i was in CHARLIE.eww...the lousiest company.i meant girls are not that bad.but fault lies in boys.they are not cooperative at all.playing a fool.here we are trying hard to save our team but there they are...playing a fool.it really gets on my nerves.it is real right to called them JANTAN.Delta is the best company i think.for their members really support each other.cool job....keep it up.

other than that,we are packed with unnecessary activities.we were afraid of speeches and CLASSES.honestly..classes are not bad...IF ONLY..the teacher can be more exciting and the students can be more sporting.too bad....our class,CB-8 is a most boring class.i can fall asleep real soon inside there.and what's more...my group members are those most incooperative members.aiks...but now..they are not bad...good..keep on improving.ARE YOU READY DYNAMITE? YES! ON MY COUNT 1,2,3 WE ARE DYNAMITE WE ARE DYNAMITE...SAY WE ARE DYNAMITE GO!GO! hahaha...i am a bit crazy...but you can't blame me.i missed LEO damn much.so every team cheer or group cheer of mine is a copy-write from LEO.

eat?my gosh...although the camp served 6 meals per day but i believe my appetite has become smaller.cause the food really sucks there.i meant not TOO bad but still i can't bring myself to stuff more of their food.so mostly...after lunch or dinner,i will stuffed myself with biscuits or snacks.i thought i would have gained weight.for last saturday..when i stepped onto the weighing machine at the medical ward...it shown 48.6kg.my gosh.much too heavier...and yet..i don't feel myself gaining weight.now...back home..when i stepped onto my weighing machine...it shows 47kg.good good...what a nightmare...scaring me only...

overall...the camp was not bad..except that we have got to change clothes every now and seconds.from baju BT to Baju Class than to Baju Celoreng and back to Baju BT again until night time when we can put on our own clean clothes from HOME.no other work.the clothes are so smelly and dirty and sweaty.yet they expect us to put on those stinky clothes every now and seconds.ewwww....!i prefer baju class more...because it is the smartest among all...and it is not as dirty and sweaty as those other 2.

i felt happy in this camp eventhough i still felt that i wasn FORCED to enter.this is because..i have friends.i planned to introduce every single one of them to you guys.but sadly...i haven't got hold of their pictures.so be patient and wait till i come back next time.hehe.....

ps : to Hebe Ting and Selina Bear....sorry to tell you guys that there are no NS PRINCE in my camp lor.so don't think too much.not a single one is handsome.even find one that CAN SEE also hard.so i won't find a NS PRINCE there.all of them are JANTAN.lalala......my PRINCE is more handsome.lulala........lala family rawkzz..

ps : to baobei....thanks for keeping your promise.i ve read every single pieces of your blog.thanks for updating during the time when i was away.keep on updating.i promised to drop you a comment in every piece.i heard about the problems you guys are facing.nevermind.award is nothing.don't think too much about the awards.to me...you guys will always be the TOP plus OUTSTANDING.

SETA LEO RAWKZ.......S.E.T.A SETA LEO'S A PERFECT CLUB...WE'RE PERFECT!YEAH!YEAH! WE'RE PERFECT.

LISTEN UP YO...CAUSE WE ARE SETALEO....2007 YES!WE ARE THE CHAMPION.

WHAT TEAM? SETA
WHAT TEAM? SETA
WHAT TEAM? SETA
WHO IS THE BEST?
SETA IS THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHO ARE WE? SETA LEO
WHO ARE WE? SETA LEO
WHO ARE WE? SETA LEO

GO SETA GO SETA GO!GO!GO!
WIN SETA WIN SETA WIN!WIN!WIN!

SETA ROAR!SETA ROAR! SETA SETA SETA ROAR ROAR ROAR!!!!

to all the SETA LEOs...raise up your voice and together with the usual leo spirit...ROAR ROAR ROAR...

with love,we serve....
once a leo,forever a leo...
together we achieve more...
leading to serve,serving to lead....

hope that i ve got good and exciting news to share with you guys during the next time i am back.meanwhile..once again..do take care everyone.have a most happiest moments.i pray that you guys will always be in the pink of health.....and may god bless every single one of you with joys and happiness till the end.by the name of LORD JESUS...AMEN...

light-hearted..................

narhh..lazy to update.just let you guys know that i enjoyed myself damn much....on the 15th because it is my dearest cousin,barry ong's 2 years old birthday.yeah...happy birthday to you.and happy birthday to Aunty Yeow too.haha........Barry's birthday party was great.me,ah shuan,ah mei,Aunt Nicole and her boyfriend,Yu Tang had a most romantic time.having our dinner in the darkness,in an isolated house.no choice.....it was drizzling.and we can't bear the others to sit in that isolated house.so being great,we sacrifiesd ourselves.but it was real romantic.haha...we can't see our food.

next...after Barry's party.we headed straight to Redbox.we gonna sang till 3am.whooosh...what lucks.we had a great time.and for the first time....i sang so heartily.....!my voice is a bit sore.but i admit......my singing is getting better than ever.haha.....paiseh paiseh....!cause my dream is to be a singer ....ONCE UPON A TIME.but now..nope....i kicked that thought out of my mind.

well.....came back around 3am plus.slept at 4am.cause i gotta get up early...the next day for i had promised fang,vonny and baobei that i will join them for their activity at Senai Airport.i don't really know what kind of event is that.but i promised them all the same.
get up at 7am...but slept late.i had a quick shower.get ready.surprisingly....Peng Yee and Andy Lau came back from Alor Setar.and came round my house to fetch their car.hehe...what lucks.thank god.....i don't have to walk up to the bus-stop.i can get a free ride.yippee...
hohohohohohohohoho.....

meet up baobei...and her sister,karen.took a bus to Pelangi Plaza.had time to Yum-cha.then...Lion Beryl came together with fang..and all five of us packed into the car.we chit-chat all along the way.had lots of fun.

reached Senai Airport.meet up all those childrens again.honestly...i was so touched.for i really felt sorry for those orphans.they were good kids actually.and....i love them.so cute.so sweet.some of them were rather smart.they were eager and excited to watch aeroplans landing.....and taking off.we had a hard time chasing them.haha...but overall....i had fun.and for the first time..i realised...i do love being a leo.and for the first time....i realised that...i am sorry to leave Leo.and for the first time....i had a thought that "i wanna be a leo forever.................."and serve till the end.
although joinng leo makes me lose a great deal of stuffs...but still if we could spill a little happiness into those orphan's life....so why not we serve all we could?

ps :to baobei and vonny......what did i always tell you guys?serve with passion and kind-heart.serve sincerely.i noticed there are certain things which you guys still can't carried out properly.i deduct a few points from what i see inside you guys.......when you are carrying out this duty.but overall....i know you guys has done a great job.i am proud to see that.keep up that good work.i don't care a damn of what outsiders say about you guys...but what i believed is what i see with my own bare eyes.you guys are great.TRUST ME!!.once again...gaining award is an honour.but that does not prove that you are perfect.serve sincerely is what i mind dreadfully.good or bad...i want to be the first person to know your result.......!always remember what i say.don't judge one look by appearance.with love,we serve............

went to cs.had a great chat with fang and baobei.karen is a bit too quiet.so she just sat there and listen to all over conversation.i really misses those time.when can i ever get hold of time machine.time flies.i am getting near to future.

future?what the hell is that?i don't know.i really don't know.i am not giving up just like that.but i really cannot imagine what is my future...and how does it looks like?

i'll be going away for some period.i won't tell where am i going...and won't say anything about it.all i hint is that...i won't be at HOME...for all these periods.

ps:for anyone who knows where am i going,just don't BREATH a word about it.let it be a mystery till i am back.thanks for cooperation.

if you guys miss me,just drop by my blog.read every single pieces of mine and you'll know how i felt.so long...do take care everyone.i will miss you guys lot.i hope to hear good news from you guys when i am back.must keep me update....good news or bad news...i hope to hear it straight from you.till here...love you guys...muackzz.........

greatest day for Peng Yee...

we are "sister's"..let us have some of your happiness

sweet couple

Ah mei and me

Ah Mei and Me..



haha....Peng Yee and Andy Lau has just held their wedding dinner on 1st March 2008(great day for them). But....Peng Yee's real wedding day was on 9th March 2oo8.i don't really know how to put my words together.but it was just a day she officially married off her house.who cares...i do understand.and that is enough...haha.Peng Yee stayed at my house last friday.so that she can save time not to travel through and fro singapore.

And so...on 8th of March 2008(day for election)....mum took me,Peng Yee,Aunt AJ,Ah Shuan and Ah Mei out for breakfast.after breakfast....i packed my bag. we are going to stay overnight at Peng Yee's place for tommorow's event cause we ve promised to become her "Sister's).Mummy they all will have to go back to Kulai for election(voting). So all 3 of us..decided to went CS for shopping while waiting for Aunt Baby,Aunt Anne and Peng Yee. we reached CS around 12pm sharp. shopped very quickly indeed. we got rather bored. CS is still as boring as ever. soon...we were mourning around...hoping and hoping that time will pass quickly. My dearest aunts reaches CS around 5pm. wow....what a long wait.we went over to singapore. take a cab...and headed to Jurong West(Peng yee's home) to put our belongings while meeting up Aunt Nicole.

Later on...all 9 of us..including Gu Po and Gu Ye...took the bus and headed to Jurong Point.we had KFC for dinner.yummy yummy...but damn full.after dinner..it was shopping time.wow..you guys should have seen us shopping.we are craving and picking out some nice and cheap clothes and dresses. what lucks.....all were sold at very cheap price.i managed to get hold of 3 dresses.Ah Shuan and Ah Mei bought some too.it was really a nice day...!we shopped until the whole building closed.haha....poor Gu Po and Gu Ye to have awaited us for such a long time.we went back to Peng Yee's home. bathed....and then...MODEL SHOW starts.all of us tried on our clothes.took tonnes of pics. get our nail painted......and we slept around 2am plus.haha.......all of us slept in the living room.really like army's training.

the next day..we were awaken by the make-up lady.haix......so reluctantly..we gotta get up.bathed and dressed up.aiks...before7.30am,all our relatives has arrived.my gosh...do you guys need to come in so early.the event haven't even start.then it was time for make-up.everything was done hurriedly.sharp at 8.30am.....we could hear the hooting of the bride's car.luckily we stayed at the 4th floor.so they needed some times to climb up.we quickly locked the door.all the "brother's" and Andy Lau came shouting all the way up.but no way.....we won't open the door for you.fooled around with them for half and hour.and we finally let Andy Lau entered the room after a tremendous shout of 'I LOVE YOU'.haha.....after the ceremony....we headed back to Johore,Masai.....where Andy Lau's live.and where my mum and Aunt AJ were waiting for us..



as the time is still early..we headed to Muzium Layang-layang.took lots of pictures..fooling and joking around.then..it was really time for us to go back to Masai. haha...it was really a great day.but we were like damn tired.the ceremony ended like that.but i could see that Peng Yee and Andy Lau were real happy.we left Masai sharp at 3pm.then all my relatives including Aunt AJ,Aunt Nicole they all....came to my house.yeah..once again..my house is as lively as ever.we chatted for a while.then went out for tea.ate a lot.then they went back home.some went back to singapore while most of them went back to Kulai.

Aunt Baby came to my house after sending them to CS.Peng Yee and Andy Lau came to my house too. mum took them for dinner.they left my place at 10.30pm.it was really a nice day....i wish them great happiness.

Aunt Anne and Me

me, Aunt Baby and Aunt Anne

haha....SPM results is coming out on 12th March 2008.very nervous and relief.Relief because time passes so quickly as i hoped.but nervous because i ve got no confident at all. 2As??i kept on using this excuses to console myself.but who wanna get only 2As for SPM?i will cry my heart out.really scare...........pray hard pray hard.....



haix.....after so much Prince Prince Prince....now i really liked that Lollipop Prince liao la..haha..watch too much of "Brown Suar Macchiato".........Prince is really cute.awwhhh...........now i feel like flying off to Taiwan.How can i don't treasure Taiwan when i went there 2 years ago?



ps : Baobei ar.....you know me best ya.i don't like that prince la.you are right....i only admire him.how can i fall for someone that i don't even know his name?aiks......but you were wrong too. cause i really don't understand my heart now.it is not telling me anything.i can't even feel if i still like "HIM" or not.i hope i can forget.wish me lucks.....